In Tokyo, I just want salted fish

Chapter 434 All Reasons Gradually Become Clear
Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows are thick neon lights with halos, which shine in various colors on the commercial street downstairs. The halos emitted by those neon lights seem to have a layer of warm smoke, coupled with the continuous passing below. Vehicles and passers-by make people feel that this block is extremely prosperous.

"Hey."

Kaoru Uesugi stood by the French window and connected the phone.

On the other end of the phone was Konoko Nakamura, a psychiatrist whom Kai Uesugi took Hanabi to see a while ago.

"Mr. Uesugi, how is your wife's condition recently?" She asked calmly and calmly.

"It's okay, I'm not sure." Kaoru Uesugi replied hesitantly, looking at the scene outside the window of his home.

"Can you tell me about what happened recently? Since your wife doesn't want to come to see me, I can roughly infer her current situation based on these. I already have a clue about your wife's situation, and now I need you information to verify my idea.”

"Recently, she mentioned a promise to me."

"Agreement?"

"It's an agreement to separate for ten days. According to her, it's because we've been together for too long, and I want to use the ten days of separation to add some freshness."

"Well, can you tell me the details of this matter?"

Kaoru Uesugi felt that she seemed to understand something, and after thinking for a while, he replied: "In the beginning, she said this to me suddenly. At the beginning, she said that it was a year apart. She hesitated, and then said one month. , and finally said ten days, when she was about to leave, just keep talking for ten days."

"It seems that your wife really cares about you." Dr. Nakamura on the other end of the phone seemed to be smiling.

"Is there anything wrong with that?" Kai Uesugi held the phone and pushed open the sliding glass door of the balcony.

The noise from outside immediately flooded in, the sound of the wind, the sound of cars passing by.

He stood on the balcony, looking at the street scene below while breathing.

"Mr. Uesugi, you need to know that to achieve a goal, people start with the words 'hope to do it', and because of 'hope', they will do it.

"Under normal circumstances, this kind of urgency is collectively referred to as 'desire'. With desire, people have the motivation to move forward."

"In this case, Mr. Uesugi, what do you think is the most fundamental reason why your wife suddenly raised such a condition?"

The most fundamental reason.
Without rushing to answer, Kai Uesugi murmured the meaning of this sentence silently in his heart.

Huahuo suddenly proposed to be separated for ten days, and expressed reluctance towards herself. Even before leaving, she even looked back at herself.

She doesn't seem to want to do it.

Kai Uesugi replied to Dr. Nakamura on the phone: "Is it another character of hers that is guiding her to do this?"

"True, but not quite right."

Not quite right?

Kaoru Uesugi had no idea.

"Let's analyze it, Mr. Uesugi."

"Your wife has a second personality. What are the characteristics of this personality?"

Kaoru Uesugi looked at the night view of the city below the balcony, the cold wind chilled his brain, he thought for a while, and slowly read a few words to the other end of the phone:

"Possession, confidence, control."

"And what about your wife's character?"

"Weak, considerate, patient...?"

Speaking of this, Uesugi Kai suddenly understood.

The second Hanabi's personality is completely opposite to that of Hanamaru Hanabi.

"Do you feel that it is completely contrary to your wife's original personality?"

"Yes."

"Well, on the premise of understanding this, let's analyze why two opposite personalities suddenly appeared."

Kai Uesugi looked at the continuous flow of traffic below from a high altitude, and listened carefully to the voice on the other end of the phone.

"I have treated many patients with mental illness before. There is a 64-year-old taxi driver who has been selected as the best high-quality driver by the company for 30 consecutive years. In 30 years, he has had zero bad reviews and zero accidents. He has been in contact with all walks of life. A strange guest.

"Some people are not that friendly, mostly young men with tattoos on their jackets, they pick a thorn in their bones, and call out the driver because the fare is too expensive, even though they know the distance is not charged by the driver. control.

"They didn't know why, they were just venting to him.

"Received such unreasonable accusations, the driver just endured, bowing and apologizing repeatedly.

"After 30 years of tolerance, the driver seems to have no response to the passenger's blame. The customer abused him, he apologized, the customer beat him, and he apologized again and again, just not to make mistakes, and for the company's year-end outstanding driver selection.

"When he worked until he was 63 years old, that is, the year he kept the record for 30 years, the company's senior executives absconded with money, which caused the taxi company's turnover to fail, and the company's capital chain was broken. Therefore, the driver was thrown away as a matter of course. got work.

"He is too old, and no other company is willing to take him in. He is too focused on work and has no wife or children for decades.

"The excellent driver for 30 years was laid off, what kind of character did Mr. Uesugi think he became in the end?"

Facing Dr. Nakamura's question, Uesugi Kai replied after a moment of silence:
"You should give up on yourself, after all, there is nothing left."

"It's not that he has nothing. He relied on the savings he saved for 30 years to buy a house in Shibuya, Tokyo, and he didn't have to worry about money for the rest of his life.

"However, something went wrong in his heart. Because of the absence of the selection of excellent drivers, he began to become irritable, drink heavily, and like to cruelty to animals. In the end, he couldn't bear the children who often played around his house. , which kidnapped a neighbor's five-year-old child and was imprisoned.

"This is completely different from his forbearance in the first half of his life. We usually call this huge change in personality a rebound effect.

"I wanted to quit drinking and smoking, but because I suppressed it for a few days, I became more indulgent after that, trying to escape pain, trauma and trouble, but because I suppressed too much, these symptoms returned in a more negative way."

rebound effect
Kai Uesugi roughly understood what the doctor meant on the phone. He put his left hand on the metal balcony railing, feeling the coolness coming from above.

"Doctor Nakamura means that my wife has this kind of rebound effect?"

"The example is to convince you that the driver is a real patient I have treated. It's hard to tell about your wife's condition, but if you recall carefully, what her second personality shows.

"Is this second personality the expression of your wife's subconscious desire?"

"It's just that one character can restrain itself, and the second character thinks that something must be held in the palm of your hand."

Sentence by sentence was conveyed from the other end of the phone to the ears.

Kai Uesugi looked at the flashing neon lights under the city, and couldn't help thinking.

A long time ago, he thought that the existence of Hei Huahuo was another evil done by himself in the parallel world.

But thinking about it now, Hei Huahuo is more like the embodiment of the long-suppressed desire in Huahuo's heart.

Like yourself too much, want to own yourself too much, want to respond to her too much yourself.

Dr. Nakamura said on the phone again:

"According to this line of thinking, your wife proposed the idea of ​​separating for ten days, I believe you can understand it?"

Hanabi often said something like "Kai-kun must remember Hanabi."

In order to let herself remember her, she deliberately dressed herself, made breakfast, made lunch, helped herself take a bath at night, and dragged herself to do shameful things the day before she left.

She deliberately stopped in the middle of the last thing.

Kaoru Uesugi remembered that night he could only run to the toilet to solve the rest.

All she wanted was to make herself miss her both mentally and physically.

Black Fireworks is the ultimate embodiment of Fireworks in terms of desire.

Everything stems from that weak girl herself.

Kai Uesugi felt that he understood, but he still had only a vague idea of ​​some things.

"I understand."

"Well, but Mr. Uesugi, you should also pay attention. Your wife is only changing her personality at the moment. If the situation gets worse, there may even be a second personality. At that time, the mental intertwining of personality will not be so simple. gone."

"What's the danger?" Kaoru Uesugi asked quickly.

"Mr. Uesugi, you need to know that split personality is a kind of mental disease. This disease is not a simple disease where the personality can be used alternately and the body can live in peace. It is very likely that you will go crazy or lose your intelligence. , or lose your mind, and become unable to control yourself, so don't irritate your wife too much."

"Is there anything else you want to ask Uesugi-san?"

"No more." Uesugi Kaoru suddenly lost his mind.

"Please don't worry too much. Your wife is still in good health. If possible, please find out what she wants most. Desires need to be vented."

beep.

After a blind tone like a rest, Kai Uesugi put away the phone.

There was a cold wind blowing on his face, and he felt a little tired again.

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The thoughts in my mind were stripped from the picture of the night scene.

Uesugi Kai came back to his senses, and his state of mind at this time was completely gone from yesterday's absent-mindedness.

He only had a vague idea last night, but now he really understands it.

He is standing at the door of mimi coffee shop now, Hanamaru Hanabi is beside him.

From downstairs to upstairs, Hanamaru Hanabi himself appeared instead.

"Mr. Kai, won't you go in?"

Kaoru Uesugi kept thinking of what Dr. Nakamura said to him yesterday, looking sideways at her familiar face, he already had a way to verify that idea.

So, he asked her:

"I have a vacation tomorrow. Shall we go out on a date?"

"OK"

Hanamaru Hanabi lowered her head with a blushing face, as shy as a little girl on a first date.

"What about the other you? Won't she come out?" Kai Uesugi could see that this was her happy expression.

"She doesn't seem to like dating very much." Hanamaru Hanabi raised her eyes to him.

"She doesn't like dating me?"

"Well, it probably means that dating is not interesting. It's better to pull Kai-kun." Hanamaru Hanabi's face became shy again.

How could Black Flower not like dating.

Kaoru Uesugi thought in his heart, faintly guessing.

Or it was because Hanabi wanted to go, so Black Hanabi had the idea of ​​not liking dating.

The two of them can talk, because they are the same person, so they will complement each other.

Black Huahuo will not fight for what Huahuo wants.

If Huahuo can't get it, Black Huahuo will come out to help her get it.

Just like the gangster yesterday, because Huahuo was completely incapable of dealing with him, so Black Huahuo came out to clean him up.

They are still essentially the same person.

It's just that they can complement each other what they can't do.

The danger that Dr. Nakamura said is that the second personality belonging to Black Hanabi may show the emotions of "Hanabi" itself, and then it will evolve into a dual personality.

Uesugi Kai thought about this, and his heart became inexplicably excited.

Because it means that this wife has always been dominated by her own thoughts.

It has always been the Hua Huo sauce that he is familiar with.

It's just that she's sick and sometimes wants more of herself.

This is the meaning of Black Flower Fire.

Kaoru Uesugi intends to verify this statement before entering the coffee shop.

"Flower sauce."

"Um"

"Before...the other one you often came out and cooked me breakfast? I think the taste of the food has not changed at all, it is very similar to the food you cook. Does your cooking taste the same?"

Hanamaru Hanabi looked at him without saying a word.

"Why didn't Hanabi answer?"

Hanamaru Hanabi suddenly stood on tiptoe, put both hands on Uesugi Kai's shoulder and whispered to him: "Secretly tell Kai-kun. In fact, the other one I don't know how to cook, and Hanabi is doing it for Kai-kun."

Uesugi Kai was taken aback for a moment, and was overjoyed.

"Does Hanabi like cooking?"

"Yeah, because Kai-kun will eat happily. Hanabi will have a sense of accomplishment."

it is as expected!
Hanabi likes to help Kai-kun cook, so Black Hanabi no longer has the attribute of being able to cook.

Because she can't occupy her own thoughts!
Black Flower Fire is just her character that comes out when she wants something but can't get it.

Because I wanted to attract Kai-kun's attention, I appeared and changed my style and way of dressing.

Because I know that Mr. Kai likes Shishi and wants to help him, but I am too embarrassed to propose it, so Hei Huahuo proposes it on her behalf!

They are all the same person!

Kaoru Uesugi felt joy in his heart, he couldn't help laughing, and asked the cute girl who dropped her hands on her shoulders and lowered her heels again:
"What are you doing so cautiously with Hanabi?"

"Because...whispering." Hanamaru Hanabi's puzzled face, "Why is Kai-kun so happy?"

"Whispering? Aren't you connected with each other?"

"She's sleeping, so she can't hear it." Hanamaru Hanabi looked at him and said in a weak voice.

Sure enough, sure enough.

After thinking about all this, Kai Uesugi suddenly felt a lot more relaxed physically and mentally, and laughed a couple of times easily.

"Your Majesty is so strange."

"What's strange?"

"Laughing all the time."

"I'm laughing because I've figured out something. Let me ask again, does Hana Huo want to work with Kai-kun?"

Hanamaru Hanabi's voice was much softer: "I didn't really think about it. Hanabi was afraid that I would trouble Kai-kun. After all, Hanabi is quite clumsy. But if I can really work with Kai-kun, Hanabi will be very happy."

Because I want to work with myself, because I have this "hope" starting point.

That's why Hei Huahuo suddenly asked him to go to work together.

No problem, everything fits this logic.

Kaoru Uesugi looked at the busy maids inside through the glass door of the coffee shop. The green plants inside diffused green light in the sunlight, and he only felt that his mood at this time was as bright as the sunshine in the coffee shop.

She just wants to work with herself.

For myself, as long as I make my wife happy.

(End of this chapter)