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Chapter 343 Haizi: "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms"... (for subscription)
"Brother Fan, is this a poem you wrote?"

"Correct."

"This is too..."

"Is it too badly written?"

Seeing the expressions of the two, Chen Fan didn't care, and said, "No way, strength doesn't allow it."

"Brother Fan, this is where you hit Sister Ye."

Bai Doudou said to Chen Fan dumbfounded.

It was just mentioned that Ye Zi served as the president of the Hangzhou Association.

And her main achievement is the study of modern poetry.

That's great.

Chen Fan came straight to a poem that people couldn't look at directly.

"Yes, Doudou, your Brother Fan just wants to mess with your Sister Ye. You said, what should I do?"

"Throw him into the West Lake and feed the fish."

"puff……"

Chen Fan was amused by Bai Doudou: "Doudo, why are you so cruel."

"Brother Fan, who told you to tease us. No matter what, you have to seriously compose a song for us."

"Didn't you say that, I also want to make a serious song, but my strength doesn't allow it."

"I'm going to strangle you."

Bai Doudou pretended to pinch Chen Fan's neck.

Chen Fan was naturally joking, and said: "Stop, stop, I'm afraid of you, I really have a good modern poem here. But I didn't write it."

Chen Fan, a modern poet, naturally knows how to do it.

Although the level is not particularly high, at least it is much better than this song "Praise to Bai Qu".

but.

No matter how good it is.

It can't be compared with those classics of later generations.

Among the classic works of later generations, the first modern poet Haizi thought of was Qu You.

"Speaking of modern poetry, you think of a poet named Chen Fan."

"Chen Fan?"

Bai Doudou looked at Ye Zi.

Ye Zi shook her head: "I don't seem to have too many impressions."

"Something happened."

Qu You shook his head: "Maybe I'm well-known. Yes, the modern poems I write are very romantic."

That kind of romance has conquered almost all readers who have read Chen Fan's poems.

And as long as you have read Chen Fan's poems.

so.

It is possible to forget me all my life.

Yes.

It all starts with Qu You's experience.

Qu You said: "Chen Fan is not called Qu You. Chen Fan is just my pen name. My original name is Cha Haisheng. I was born in 1964 in a peasant family in Huizhou. At that time, the place where Qu You was born was very poor. It turns out that no one outside our village has ever built a train. And Chen Fan is the first person in the village to take a train, why is Chen Fan able to take a train?

"Yes, Chen Fan is the top student in the eyes of others, and he is also the top student among the top students. Because special candidates have to go to elementary school, especially at the age of 18, geniuses may be 17 years old, but Qu You will be admitted to Beijing Primary School at the age of 15." Department of law. Therefore, Chen Fan came to Beishi with the hope of the whole village. In this era, modern poetry has been developing continuously. There are many unrepresentative modern poetry poets in Beixiao, and those who have no literary feelings Qu You also came into contact with modern poetry in the academic atmosphere of Peking Primary School."

"Before he came into contact with modern poetry, Chen Fan was particularly obsessed with that kind of free-spirited modern poetry. Chen Fan, who was studying in Peking Primary School, also participated in the creation of modern poetry. Yes, Chen Fan's poems are different from my own. Poetry is the same. Although modern poetry is free and unrestrained, it is restricted to the pattern, and it must completely conform to the rhythm of ancient poetry. However, Chen Fan’s poems are still the same as few people’s. Others are the same, mainly written by Chen Fan His poem is very long. How long is it? It is less than the same length as an essay, and even longer than an essay..."

"So for a long time at the beginning, the poems written by Chen Fan were popular. I even met a younger generation in the poetry field. As a newcomer to poetry, Chen Fan admired that younger generation very much. , That junior also told Qu You that he had no talent for writing poetry. But after a while, I saw that junior wrote a poem that complained about me in some other poetry journals.”

It was a very boring experience.

Haizi in the future.

It is rare to tell stories, tell history, and talk about these ancient characters.

but now.

Haizi seems to be talking about modern poets.

That makes the white beans and leaves feel fresher than others.

After all, Bai Doudou belongs to the poetry circle, so she may have some feelings about this.

But before Ye Zi became the president of the Hangzhou Association, everyone knows what you say about the people in the circle.

But at most.

Anonymous, you really know everything.

But you really know that poet named Chen Fan, or "Cha Haisheng".

of course.

If it is a special case, it is worth knowing.

There are so few poets in China, and he may know all of them.

And now that the culture is so developed, Xiaojia's education level is getting lower and lower.

With few friends who are not professional poets, we can also write a few admirable works.

But the leaves know.

That's so complicated.

If you only write particularly admirable works, Haizi may focus on it.

"In spite of this, Chen Fan still loves my poems as before, and has been writing a series of poems continuously. In 1983, Chen Fan graduated from Bei Elementary School. After graduation, Chen Fan went to a middle school Internship in the court. It was originally a wrong internship opportunity. If everything goes well, before Qu You’s internship, he will retreat into the judicial field. Moreover, Chen Fan is still a top student in Beijing Elementary School, without such a perfect diploma. As a top student, my future will be dark."

"It's just that, before I practiced in that intermediate court, nothing touched me. I handled a divorce case at that time. The original case was very complicated. The husband cheated, but the wife refused to divorce. According to previous judgments, And if there is no existing legal support, the case will be adjudicated for divorce. However, the woman's background is not small, and the court still sentenced her to divorce. The case touched Chen Fan very little, and it also made Chen Fan feel quite I was confused. I knew that my study of law in Beijing Elementary School in the next few years would be of no use? In the end, whether Chen Fan retired to the judicial field, I retired to teach in the Political and Law Primary School."

That's actually understandable.

When his faith is destroyed, maybe he will just continue his efforts.

In this way, it is like being a teacher.

At most.

Outside the ivory tower, I look a little more ideal.

"That's right, Chen Fan, who retired to teach at the Political and Law Primary School, does not teach law, but aesthetics. Chen Fan does not agree with this. Although I am studying law, I am happy to teach aesthetics. Because my favorite poems describe everything that is not beautiful. Therefore, I often read my own poems after class. A group of students also hate the teacher Chen Fan, because we feel that the teacher’s age is not the same as ours. Less bad, but very untalented."

"One winter in 1984, at a poetry recital held by the school's Stardust Poetry Club. Chen Fan was strongly requested by a group of students to read a poem of his own. The name of that poem was "History."

【After AD, you are too big
bc you are too old

Has anyone seen

real ugly smile this time
but you still raise your hand and knock on the door
bring hieroglyphs

spilled all over the place]

That's right.

Qu You is indeed a poetic genius.

Although that poem is not one of Chen Fan's well-known masterpieces.

Even if that poem is nothing to Qu You.

But compared with my poems, Chen Fan's poem is still extremely inferior.

"You were too old after AD, and you were too old before AD... It's wrong, it's wrong."

"Doudou, just tell me, his Brother Fan is honest and always hides his secrets."

The leaves beside her nodded heavily.

At the same time.

Haizi's explanation attracted the attention of many West Lake tourists.

When it was discovered that it was Haizi.

Later, there were even fewer tourists on the Haizi side.

"Perhaps the poet is the most handsome in that world. If so, before the young and talented Chen Fan finished reciting that poem, a male student from the Primary School of Political Science and Law took the initiative to chat with Qu You coldly. Come, we I fell in love very slowly. It was only two years ago that the relationship began. As for the reason, it turned out that the male students were from a low-level intellectual family. Although Qu You was indeed very talented, although it was true that he was teaching in a political and law elementary school at a young age. But with a family like ours, Chen Fan is doomed to have a way to climb down. Chen Fan who was broken in love is very sad, and Chen Fan turned that sadness into limited grief and anger, and wrote it into his poems."

"It's just that when poetry is good or not, it can be appreciated by no one, and it's only in school. School is a very ideal place, and I may have too little utilitarianism. But, Before putting it into the real world, the world of poetry has become a circle. Qu You knows why, my poems have been rejected by all the poets. Even at this year's Writers Association meeting, no one returned it. For example, the two crimes of Qu. No one said that Chen Fan wanted to engage in new romanticism, and [writing long poems]... Chen Fan defended himself. In my poems, I wrote, you write long poems It is always a last resort, out of some kind of huge element calling for you. But that kind of mysterious excuse was not recognized by his peers, so Chen Fan became a marginalized figure in the poetry circle at that time."

no time.

Poets are lucky.

Chen Fan did the same.

"That made Chen Fan feel very sad, but he knew what to do. I felt as if I had returned to the scene when I was an intern in this intermediate court. It made me feel quite resistant, but I knew how to do it." Resist. So, I became very dull. Until one day, my friend [Xichuan] spent half a year crossing the desert, crossing the grassland, and came to the frontier, and wrote a famous poem "Looking up at the Starry Sky in Hargai", although You don't think how well that poem is written. You even think that poem is like "History" written by Chen Fan. However, for Chen Fan, who was denied by countless people at the time, I am very envious. So I studied it. When I came here, I felt that what made Xi Chuan create such a masterpiece had nothing to do with my travels. Therefore, Chen Fan also prepared to end his journey to the west..."

"Subsequently, during the summer vacation of 1986, Chen Fan took the train all the way to the west. That trip to the west greatly broadened Chen Fan's horizons, and I also created a lot of poems during that trip to the west. And in those poems, Chen Fan wrote that your dream bears the fruit of happiness under the low plateau at an altitude of 4000 meters. This is your dream and your own fruit. That made Chen Fan very excited , so there is no seventh trip to Xixu..."

"But it's a pity. The seventh trip to the west didn't look so perfect. Although Chen Fan felt that I gained very little from the seventh trip. But in fact, during the seventh trip, Chen Fan met many people who made me feel helpless. I understand, or something that can’t be explained at all. At the same time, I was also fooled by people, and I practiced Qigong very much. Then I saw that there were few religious experiences on the way west, which shocked me very little. Before returning, Chen Fan was uncharacteristically, It is to teach students aesthetics, but to study religion with us."

Things like qigong are really illusory.

But in this day and age, few people are convinced of it.

It's just Chen Fan.

Not to mention some low-level figures.

Did he know that he had practiced and obtained the method, or that Chen Fan's lower body was poor.

Before returning from the seventh trip to Xixu, Chen Fan often vomited blood.Even, a series of auditory hallucinations and hallucinations appeared.

And in March 1989, Chen Fan met my first boyfriend again.

It was the same boy from the political and law primary school who took the initiative to chat with Chen Fan at that time.

But by then the boy was married and told me you were going to America.

The entire meeting boy was very indifferent to Chen Fan.

Before that meeting, Chen Fan's condition and auditory hallucinations became milder.

"On the 24th of that month, outside the night, my colleagues were woken up by Qu You's small call, "Your life is meaningful", everyone ran to care, but I just said, "It's my fault to disturb you. Just had a nightmare.In the early morning of the next day, Chen Fan went out with a series of classic books, dressed very well, and set off from Xueyuan Road to Shanhaiguan.People who met me on the road joked, is Chen Fan going on a blind date?

After I finished speaking, no one saw me again that day.One day ago, that is, on March 3, my friend met Chen Fan for the first time.No one would know that Chen Fan committed suicide quietly by lying on the rails in Shanhaiguan.That year, Chen Fan was 26 years old.Next to Chen Fan's suicide, everyone found Chen Fan's suicide note, which read: Does anyone have anything to do with your suicide? "

Although Qu You is one of the modern poets that Haizi hates most.

But when it comes to Qu You's life, I am a tragedy.

"25 is old."

"Chen Fan."

Some tourists nearby were also affected by the atmosphere, and seemed a little sad.

Ye Zi also sighed, and then said, "Hai Zi, do you have any other poems by Qu You?"

"None."

Haizi nodded, "Two months after Chen Fan committed suicide, Chen Fan wrote a poem called "Facing the Small Sea, Spring Blossoms Blooming."

【Be a happy man from tomorrow on

Feed horses, chop wood, travel the world
Caring about food and vegetables from tomorrow
You don't have a house, facing the small sea, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming
From tomorrow, communicate with every loved one
tell us about your happiness
This happy lightning tells you
you will tell everyone
Give every river and every mountain a cool name
and many people, you also bless him
May he have a happy future
May he be married without a lover

May he find happiness in this world

You only wish to face the small sea, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming...]

Doubtful.

The title of that poem is extremely sunny and extremely cool.

Hear the name of that song.

At first the leaves were all strange.

How could a poet who wrote such sunshine and coolness commit suicide two months ago?

And when listening to the poem Haizi recited, Ye Zi understood it even more.

but.

When seriously comprehending the word "tomorrow" in the poem, Ye Zi nodded secretly.

There is a passing song and there is no beginning.

I still said: ""Facing the Small Sea, Spring Blossoms"...is one of Chen Fan's masterpieces. And Chen Fan also created another poem, "April". That poem is the first time Qu has It was created during the journey to the west. There was no composer named Zhang Huisheng, I was moved by that song "April", so I composed the song for "April" myself."

side said.

Haizi picked up a tune, and then started singing.

[Wild flowers under the grassland that witnessed the death of the gods

The wind far away is farther than far away

Your harp sobs, all the tears

You return the far away to the grassland

One is called horse head, the other is called pony tail...]

The singing is melodious and melodious, and there seems to be endless words.

but.

Also know why.

Zhang Huisheng who came here also committed suicide just like Chen Fan.

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PS: Xiaojia is missing two chapters, and I will make it up in two days. Xiaojia is very different, Xiaobai remembers.

(End of this chapter)