big perfect anchor

Chapter 836 We Are Not Strong Enough

It's not walking, it's not playing in the snow, it's more like extreme sports.

This rural mountain village is sparsely populated, and some of the footprints that can be seen are from the mountains to catch pheasants. If there is no someone in front of the road, if you step down from time to time at this time, you may step on [-] centimeters of snow. That feeling, It’s quite sour, if you’re not careful, you’ll lose your balance and come into close contact with the snow on the ground.

Ye Qing was sweating all over tired, looking at the mountain and running to death. Before looking at the short mountain several hundred meters away, he walked for more than 30 minutes. Following the gap in the neck, the heat from the sweat inside the clothes began to match the cold outside. When the air came into contact, Ye Qing could see heat coming out of her head without Ye Qing opening her mouth to speak.

Gritting her teeth, the daily yoga exercises and running are not enough to support Ye Qing to be able to thrive in such an environment. She just doesn't want to open her mouth. The stubbornness deep in her heart matches the current situation, facing the future and looking to the end. In her life, her cold state is even colder, she looks more sad than heartbroken, her body is icy, she tossed and turned for a long time last night, I don’t know how long she fell asleep, dreams followed one after another, when she woke up in the morning, It felt like my body was icy cold, and my skin was icy cold to the touch.

For a moment, she felt that her emotions would not fluctuate too much in the future. This is how it is in life. In the future, if you have time to go out with your travel friends, maybe you can only feel your own existence by looking at the world.

Thinking in her heart, she herself didn't believe that she would coincide with Chen Hao. Walking on the snowy ground, the sweat on her body had soaked through the clothes inside, and she felt her own temperature again. The power transmitted made her feel at ease, she didn't have to worry that she would not be able to walk, what if he was there?
in case……

Thinking of this if, Ye Qing's eyes dimmed again, there are no ifs in life, the first if is Chen Hao, if something can happen to him, no matter if it's a big star or a best friend, she doesn't mind sticking to it at the end. love.

It's not love, so there is no if, maybe, giving yourself to him is the if that should exist, if you don't want to have regrets in this life, let yourself have him completely once, even if only once.

"Okay, here we are."

The destination is tens of meters away from the foot of the low mountain. There is a mountain depression, which blocks the wind and snow outside. Turning around, there is a cave that does not seem to be formed naturally, but is more like a man-made cave. .

It was only when I got closer that I realized that it was really made artificially. There were shelters on it to protect it from rolling down, and there were wooden stakes for fixed support in the cave.

"This is our base when we were young. There are too many things for children to play with nowadays. There are fewer and fewer people who come here to play for a day. Even if they come, they will not choose to come here in winter."

In the mountain depression, in front of the cave, some branches had already been piled up. From a distance, Chen Gang could be seen transporting branches here, while Kang Yanren was nowhere to be seen.

In the cave, Chen Hao set up a fire very easily, the sound of creaking and burning, and the ice and snow stained on the branches made the flame always feel lacking in strength.

"Come on, sit for a while, this is our homemade warm stone." A big bluestone, Chen Hao spread a piece of fur in his backpack on the bluestone, Ye Qing also ignored the cold, sat down directly when he was exhausted, and put When the neckerchief and hat are untied, people always like to 'reduce the burden' on the body. They don't like to wear a lot of clothes, and they will feel restrained and out of breath.

The fire was filled very vigorously by Chen Hao, and then he took out an old iron bucket from the cave, no, it was an iron stove made of iron bucket, opened the backpacks that Chen Gang and Kang Yan had thrown in the cave, one of them There is also a lot of charcoal in it.

Unable to feel the cold air beneath him, Ye Qing stood up and touched the bluestone. It was smooth but also had a sense of warmth. Without knowing it, he got in front of the fire and suddenly realized that the bluestone did not know how it was made. , A deep edge was cut out below, and the fire was next to the bluestone, and a certain amount of heat rolled into the deep edge. Although it would not heat up the bluestone, it was still possible to let it dry and conduct a little heat.

There are meat, fish, pots, field utensils, and a mountain-wild-chicken that Kang Yan touched. , I have never felt that there is anything wrong with eating it. Whether it is delicious or not is a matter of opinion. What I enjoy is the feeling of this game.

After Chen Gang and Kang Yan brought enough branches as firewood, they returned first. Ye Qing walked for more than 30 minutes, and it was more than ten minutes for the two of them.

"I won't cook the fish, but stew a mountain-wild-chicken, put some potatoes and mushrooms, put on a big beef skewer, let's roast it for fun?"

Faced with such an environment, Ye Qing became interested, and after taking a break, she also went about her business. When Chen Hao took out the small flagon and took a sip, she also snatched it over, took a sip of the spicy little shochu, I felt like I was being burned, and the little coolness that was still left before was completely dispelled by this little shochu.

While handling all the ingredients familiarly, Chen Hao read in bits and pieces, saying some words that he didn’t know whether others would like to hear or not. It will be endless.

"When I was young, Gangzi and I would sometimes break away from the friends around us and bring our second son over. We could get some game, some wine from home, eat and drink enough, the stone was warm, and we could lie down and take a nap. It really wouldn’t be exchanged for a god.”

"Later, there were game halls and Internet cafes, and fewer and fewer people came here, and I didn't want to come here anymore. My eldest sister just went to work to earn some money, and she secretly gave me some every month. I have always been tolerant enough. I am not rich in my pocket but I am not short of money. Gangzi left, Aunt Dongmei also took Erzi away, and many young people in the village left. I also spend all day in Internet cafes. Thinking about what will happen in the future, eating instant noodles, sitting cross-legged on a sofa chair, watching movies and playing games, I don’t think it’s too much fun, and I don’t think it’s too bad. I never know what to do the next day, the third day, or even in the short term. I've thought about it, and occasionally a thought will pop up - let's play enough before talking about it."

"You know? Before that happened, I would have the same dream every day when I was playing in an Internet cafe or sleeping after returning home. At that time, I explained to myself that I watched too many movies, and I always thought that one day I could be a Being an actor is so enjoyable. You can experience different lives in different films. From time to time, you can experience ancient times, and you can also go to the war years. At that time, I thought being an actor was the best profession in the world. Maybe since then From now on, I have a dream."

"After the accident, the family lost everything. No one said anything about me, and some people praised me, saying that there is a man in the family who will not be bullied in ten miles and eight villages. At that time, if I go to the Internet cafe to play, someone will give me a hand. After smoking, people will call me brother. Even the owner of the Internet cafe will call me at lunch and dinner from time to time. I don’t want to go home for many days, and I don’t want to see the sad faces of my parents. I don’t want to accept that my eldest sister went on a blind date for me with a man that everyone said is not good enough for her, and I don’t want to face the sad eyes of my second sister.”

"I went to Yanjing. It's called chasing dreams. In fact, I just want to escape and sleep peacefully. I don't think I did something wrong. If I didn't cut down those people If you beat them away, you will still bully our family in the future, but the price of cutting them down is that the compensation will make our family poor and white. I didn’t understand it for a long time. One day I felt that I was enlightened, and I realized what was going on, no one was wrong, it was only because I was not strong enough that I felt helpless in the things I encountered.”

Chen Hao started from boiling water to pack wild chickens, to plucking the hairs, cutting them open, cleaning them up, and putting them in the pot for stewing.

From cutting up the beef, putting it on a big skewer, and handing it to Ye Qing for her to roast on the rack, this process lasted for half an hour, and he was always talking, and he could say whatever he wanted, Ye Qing remained silent the whole time. Listening quietly, after he took over the barbecue job, Ye Qing sat on the bluestone with his chin resting on his knees, staring at him intently from the side, listening to his thoughts without focusing on his cold eyes, Gradually there is some clarity.

Have I no extravagant hopes for the future?

Am I afraid to face the present situation?
Am I trying to escape the future?
Yes, what is the reason, he has already said, is that we are not strong enough.He became an Internet celebrity anchor, became a big star, and became stronger and stronger. This strength is reflected in the outside.And me?I just need to make my heart stronger, the future is not firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea, or pure marriage without freedom, and the whole person will be unhappy. Maybe, I should really live for myself. Ye Zi doesn’t owe her family any more. I don't owe any more.

"I want to travel to every corner of the world."

Ye Qing finally spoke.

"Then you need to have a healthy body and a certain ability to protect yourself. The rest is to learn how to become a senior tourist. Apart from that, all other problems are not a problem for you."

There is another sentence that Chen Hao thinks he should say, but as a man, facing a girl who likes him and is even willing to let him kiss Fangze, if he says that sentence, I am afraid that he will feel that he is - bird - Beast-no-like.

After eating and drinking, sitting side by side on the bluestone together, Chen Hao told the story of his travel, Ye Qing listened, and asked some questions she didn't understand from time to time, and the sky also darkened. After Chen Gang and Kang Yan came to pick them up.

Chen Hao still spoke: "How do you know that your future, the person who will surely become a part of your future life, will not give up everything and choose to wander the world with you?"

Ye Qing was stunned, and after a long time, he showed a very bright smile, with a bit of playfulness in the smile: "Do you know that if you become a saint, you will miss the chance tonight, and it's my first time , thinking that it’s not a loss if I give it to you, now, tsk, well, 88, saint.”

Touching the kissed cheek, Chen Hao patted his cheek lightly with the palm of his hand: "I tell you to pretend."

(End of this chapter)