About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 147
"I, I probably understand what you mean."

"Ah."

"However," Kiyosawa Otoha put down his hand, "I don't know if Sakakibara-san has realized that this is a completely unworkable thing."

"Really? It's just to convey the meaning."

"Yes, it's just to convey the meaning, but if I can help you convey the meaning of your rejection, do you think the other party will have a certain misunderstanding of my identity? Do you think I am your girlfriend?"

"It's possible, but wouldn't it be good to explain this situation?"

"It's true, but for me, I can't help you. Because I don't want my boyfriend to misunderstand."

Kiyosawa Otonha waved a hand and continued:
"It is true that Fujino is not here now, so it is impossible for him to know about it, and your request, Sakakibara-san, is just to look at each other. But for me, as a friend, it is okay to agree to the request. But once the identity is misunderstood, Then please forgive me for not being able to agree to this request, I don’t want to be approached angrily by him out of nowhere.”

Sakakibara thought for two seconds, and probably understood Kiyosawa's thoughts, "I understand."

Kiyosawa Otoha continued: "If I agreed and was misunderstood, then what I did, in Fujino's eyes, would be no different from the Fujino I hate now. Could it be that he hurt me, and I could be Did it hurt him in the same way?

"Yes, it's certainly a relief to do so, and it's really comfortable to let him misunderstand. But this will only lead to a breakdown in the relationship between the two parties. There is no need to make a fuss about this matter. I blocked him just to calm him down. Let him think about what he did wrong. As long as he understands and apologizes, I am willing to accept it.

"I wonder if Sakakibara-san can understand what I mean?"

The other party hurt yourself, but you don't hurt back in the same way
What a generosity.

What Kiyosawa said, Sakakihara Raku had to admire Fujino for having such a good childhood sweetheart.

For Fujino's emotional disrespect, Kiyozawa can completely disrespect it back.

But she did not choose to do so, but refused, and chose to maintain the dignity of her boyfriend
Thinking of this, Sakakihara felt a little envious of Fujino.

After all, that "playful" guy of his actually has such a good girlfriend who maintains his boyfriend's identity outside.

Sakakihara Raku inevitably wanted to laugh at himself a little bit.

He formally apologized.

"I understand, I'm sorry, Kiyosawa-san, just pretend I didn't say what you said just now."

"It's nothing," Kiyosawa Otoha nodded, and said with some doubts, "Sakakibara-san, have you experienced something recently? I don't know why, but I feel that you give me a different feeling than before. "

"Really? Many people say that I have changed."

"It has changed, indeed it has changed. Although we have very little contact, at the last sorority meeting, Sakakibara-san, your performance was very impressive. Whether it is helping or dealing with matters big or small, everyone treats you very well. The evaluations are all unanimous and great. Although I know that I can’t draw conclusions randomly, but I know that the request just now, Sakakibara-san, if you think about it for a while, you will not take the initiative to propose it.”

After a short pause, Kiyozawa Otoha said again: "Sakakibara-san, your heart is disturbed, are you troubled by something?"

What troubles you?
Upset?
Disturbed, distraught. The meaning of the word lingers in the chest.

With that said, it seemed like something was really stuck in his heart.

This sentiment has been haunting me lately.

Every time Jiu Liuli appeared, he would not want to face her.

I don't want to see her apology in person.

He couldn't figure out what it was, but when Jiu Liuli appeared, this emotion was extraordinarily strong.

Are you hiding from Jiuliuli?
Sakakihara looked up, and the blue sky seemed extremely narrow in the cracks of the alley.

He slightly relieved the depression in his heart, shook his head and sighed: "It's nothing. It's just that there are many things I can't figure out."

"In that case, Sakakibara-san will take this opportunity to talk about it, maybe I can give you good advice?" Kiyosawa Otonha said with a smile.

"Hmm" Sakakibara brewed for a while, and then asked, "If a person has caused unforgivable harm to you, but sincerely apologizes afterwards, I really want to get your forgiveness. It is very sincere, and you can feel it too. Seeing her sincerity in wanting your forgiveness, would you choose to forgive such an apology?"

Kiyosawa did not rush to answer, but said after careful consideration: "Everyone's choice is different. Generally speaking, I don't think we should forgive first."

"why?"

"Injuries are always injuries, and some injuries are wounds that cannot be healed. Since it is an established fact that the other party has hurt you, there is no reason to forgive the other party."

"Isn't a sincere apology worthy of forgiveness?"

"As far as the moment is concerned, it is not worthy of forgiveness, but it also depends on the situation. People are different, and the degree of harm is also different. For some people, killing their father and enemy can also be forgiven, and for some people, it is just It's different because the other party just touched me and then I started to fight." Kiyozawa suddenly raised his head and asked him, "Let me ask first, is it you who Sakakibara-san just arrived and said?"

Sakakihara Raku didn't mean to hide it, and said softly, "It's me."

Kiyosawa Otoha smiled: "I just said that people are different, since you have asked me this question, Sakakibara, it means that your heart is not firm enough now, what is the reason for not being firm enough? "

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"Isn't it simply that you can't let go? Isn't it the other party's behavior, in your opinion, isn't it so hateful?"

Can't let go?
is it?can't let go
Sakakibara looked up at the end of the street, and Tianhai Jiuliu, who was hiding behind, retracted her protruding head again.

Kiyosawa Otoha continued: "If something is not worth forgiving at all, then as long as you completely ignore the other party's apology, you have every reason to hate the other party. But now Sakakibara-san, you are so hesitant, so hesitant, but And there is no intention of hating the other party at all, which shows that the other party has done absolutely nothing that is absolutely impossible to forgive."

Sakakihara: "I understand what you mean. Maybe I can't let go, but I still don't want to forgive her."

"I can understand your feelings, but I didn't want you to forgive her. What I want to say is that the best way to deal with this kind of thing is definitely not to avoid it, but to face it head-on."

"Facing it head-on?"

"Yes, don't Sakakibara-san feel that in this situation, both parties are in pain? The other party wants to get your forgiveness, but you can't forgive her because of the other party's mistakes, and you are tied up because of her sincerity. When it's open and honest, it's just a tangled mess that leaves both of you deeply hurt by the relationship."

Kiyosawa Otoha said so that Sakakibara took a deep breath.

Then I let the air flow in my heart.

He thought carefully for a moment, and the matter was exactly as Kiyozawa said.

Both sides are not very happy now.

"Then how to break this relationship?"

Kiyosawa Otoha put one hand on his hip, and said with a smile: "Depression is temporary, my suggestion is - at the right time for you, confess your relationship with the other party, tell the reason why you will not forgive the other party, and then, based on the other party's reaction, Make what you think is the right decision.

"I don't know the situation you are currently facing, Sakakibara-san, and I can't give you any decisive advice. I just give a reminder based on my personal experience, and I ask Sakakibara-san to remember this."

Sakakibara thought hard.

Not forgiving Jiu Liuli doesn't mean that he can't really let go.

As long as I am now nothing more than worrying about her cheating and getting rid of me.

In the final analysis, everything is the word "let go".

Alas, I thought I let it go.

As a result, Jiuliuli found her that day and kept sending herself messages of apology.

I still can't help but care about it.

It's been more than a month.

more than a month.
For more than a month, Tianhai Jiuliuli carefully expressed her apology to herself, for fear that she would be hated again.

Occasionally bumping into Liuli at home, she would apologize in front of her, bow her head
It is true that Sakakihara couldn't forgive her, but it doesn't mean that he can see her like this in front of him.
Maybe it's time to make things clear.

Tell Liuli to stop caring about the previous things. For more than a month, I have thought too much.

Instead of asking her to apologize every day, it is better to expose this matter.

We will each go our own way in the future. This is the real letting go.

Blindly enjoying the countless apologies Liuli made to himself because of Liuli's mistakes, but not so open-minded.

The real letting go is never letting the person who made a mistake compensate himself again and again.

It's about explaining things clearly, so that they will not affect each other in future life.

The former is called greed, and the latter is called letting go.

I have to admit that as the person who organized the fraternity, the president of the student union of the women's college next door.

Kiyosawa Otoha did have his own opinions.

Sakakihara felt that he was freed from the mystery and knew what he should do. He nodded slightly to the person in front of him to express his gratitude:

"Thank you."

"There's nothing to be thankful for, just a bystander. Is there anything else you need to ask, Sakakibara-san?"

"No, I already know how to deal with it."

"Well, well, as for the girl following you behind, I think you should also explain the situation to her."

After Kiyosawa Otoha said this to Sakakihara Raku, he put his hands together and nodded to him, and left here voluntarily.

After Tianhai Jiuliuli found out that the unknown person had come out, she hurriedly hid.

Kiyosawa Otonha pretended not to see it, and continued walking forward.

Kiyosawa Otoha left, but the words left behind made Sakakihara Raku inevitably think.

Face it head on?

Yes, it should be faced head-on.

The calm that had been built over the past month was broken the day Tianhai Jiuliuli first arrived.

This shows that I have not given up at all.

Playing petty temper and childishness is also a kind of avoidance of apologizing to Jiu Liuli.

It was true that I liked her, it was true that I was cheated and hurt by her, and her apology was also true.

The emotions built up by this kind of contradictory feelings make Sakakihara Raku always difficult to calm down.

can.

Because of this, I have to take the initiative to do something.

Evasion cannot change any problems.

Sakakihara Raku stepped forward, came to the corner of the street, and found Tianhai Jiuliuli who was hiding behind.

Tianhai Jiuliuli was obviously taken aback by Sakakihara Raku who came over, and subconsciously wanted to find something to hide.

In the end, she hid behind a decorative tree in front of the store. Finally, she found that the approaching Sakakihara Raku stopped in front of her for a long time, and then realized that she had been discovered, and took the initiative to poke her head out.

"elder brother."

Sakakihara didn't want to make the atmosphere too tense, and said with a smile, "Jiu Liuli has been following me since the beginning, right?"

"En." Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded, her slender hands were tired on the shoulder bag strap hanging on her shoulder.

"The reason, why are you following me?"

"The reason. I don't know either."

"do not know?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli quickly explained: "No, it should be said that I don't know. I want to apologize to my brother, I want to be forgiven by my brother, and I don't want my brother to live so hard. Although I know that I am not qualified to say these things, I I still want to tell my brother."

"Well, I understand that you really want to apologize to me."

Tianhai Jiuliuli was stunned, because she suddenly realized that Sakakihara didn't seem to hate herself as much as before: "Brother, how does the biscuit I gave you taste like?"

"I did not eat."

"That's right. Qi Mingyue has always said that the biscuits made by her sister are not very delicious."

With that said, Tianhai Jiuliuli bent over, and took out an exquisitely packaged lunch box from the schoolbag hanging on his shoulder.

She held the lunch box in both hands, took two steps forward, handed it out to Sakakihara Raku, and said with a low face: "This, I want to try to make lunch for my brother, because when I give my brother biscuits, My brother didn't mean to see me. So I hesitated for a long time today, but I still couldn't send it out."

Sakakihara reached out and took the bento she made.

Open it and take a look inside.

The food is exquisite, the kind of exquisiteness unique to girls.

Neat dishes with the right mix of vegetables, broccoli for garnish, and handmade sushi wrapped in parchment paper.

If it were an ordinary boy, he would definitely be very happy to be given a gift by a beautiful girl like Jiu Liuli.

Sakakihara Raku looked at the bento box in her hand silently for a while, closed the lid, put it in her hand, and did not return it to her.

I chose to accept it.

"Jiu Liuli thinks, what is the relationship between us now?"

"I can't answer it either. It's very complicated."

"Is that so?" Sakakihara looked at her and smiled relievedly, "I don't want to embarrass you either, Jiu Liuli."

"Can brother go home? I don't ask brother for your forgiveness, I just want to—"

Sakakihara shook his head: "I have no intention to forgive you, nor do I intend to move back to live. I admit that I liked you, and your apology is indeed sincere. The previous experience is not a lie."

"Nine glazed glass."

"Brother, what do you want to say?"

"We, here, officially break up."

"Brother." Tianhai Jiuliuli didn't know why, but after hearing this sentence, her heart skipped a beat.

Sakakihara smiled and said: "The official breakup means the end of our relationship. As long as it is over, we don't have to worry about the previous things anymore, and you don't need to ask for my forgiveness for the previous things. Of course, I will also make corresponding concessions, and will not care about what you have done before."

Sakakihara said this very calmly.

It made Jiuliu feel calmer than when he saw him a month later.

Tianhai Jiuliuli squeezed the shoulder bag on her waist: "That is to say, brother wants to get rid of the previous relationship completely, doesn't he?"

"Well, yes, forget before, you forget what I did before, and I will try to forget what you did to me. Parents are married, as a family, this is already an inseparable fact, I just hope that we The relationship is easy to get together and break up, and everyone doesn't need to mention this past event in the future."

"Can you really forget?"

"No one mentions it, it's natural."

"Just ordinary friends from now on?"

"Yes."

"The relationship has also become a relationship of ordinary friends?"

"Yes."

Tianhai Jiuliuli: "Okay, brother, I agree."

"Just promise, you let it go, and I will let it go, and everyone can live their lives peacefully in the future."

Sakakihara Raku was about to say goodbye and leave, but Tianhai Jiuliuli raised her face in front of her again:
"However... since it is a relationship of ordinary friends, then, this also means that I have the right to be greeted by ordinary friends, right?"

Sakakihara didn't understand what she meant: "Yes."

"Then, I also have the right to pursue my brother, right?"

".?"

"I know, my brother wants to forget this matter, and wants us to separate our lives and feelings from each other, and we will be ordinary friends when we meet again in the future. But I can't do it, brother really can't do it.
"In the past month, I have thought a lot, and I know that I have done too much to my brother. My brother is so good to me, but I only want to deceive and hide him. Relationship should be a purer thing, like My brother treated me the same way at first.
"When I agreed to my brother, I also hesitated. My brother took me to the temple fair, took me to scoop goldfish, and I saw my brother's smile and happiness because of me, so I said no. What is the feeling when it comes out, but it really feels good
"Actually, when I look back, I think about it again. I found that I promised my brother not all because of July's feelings, but also because my brother cared about me and his love for me was included in it. Happy, I will be happy because my brother has the shyness of a boy in front of me.
"I think, I feel so uncomfortable now, one is because I have done something wrong, and the other is because I feel that I have very, very feelings for my brother and me.
"Really sorry
"I also understand what my brother wants to look down on this relationship, but I really can't forget how I feel sorry for my brother. Every time I think of my brother cooking so many delicious food for me at night, I get up at six o'clock every morning The way we make breakfast, and the way my brother tries to get me back to normal when I’m unhappy because of my mother, these are all my brother’s concern for me! The more I think about these things, the more I know I'm so sorry bro.
"Sorry, really really sorry"

"I understand that I did something wrong, so, brother, you can treat me whatever you want, or ignore my feelings. What I want to say is, even if you refuse many times, brother, feel guilty, like, or I have the happiness I got when we got along not long ago, these are real emotions, and I also understand that I am reluctant to part with this time together, I will try my best to restore the previous relationship, and I want to ask for your forgiveness!"

Tianhai Jiuliuli finished this paragraph in one breath, already out of breath from exhaustion.

Tianhai Qimingyue was at another corner behind Tianhai Jiuliuli, with her back against the wall, and heard her sister's long monologue.

After Sakakibara finished what Tianhai Jiuliuli had said, although her face was not calm, it could not be said to be happy and touched, it was just an inexplicable and indescribable expression:

"Yes, even if I won't respond to you at all."

"Yes! Even if my brother doesn't respond to me, I will try my best to pursue it."

"I really won't agree."

"Then I will still try to work hard! I really want to regain your trust, brother, even if it will make me work hard for the rest of my life."

Sakakihara smiled. She wanted to let go, but Jiu Liuli wanted to pursue it.

The two reached an agreement to let go of their previous relationship together.

But this does not mean that Jiu Liuli can let go of her previous emotions, because she is the perpetrator and the party with guilt. With her personality, it is even more difficult to accept the kind of mistakes she made.

I can understand it, but it doesn't mean I agree with it.

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Sakakihara didn't say anything, but turned around without saying a word, and walked out of the alley.

Tianhai Qimingyue leaned against the corner of the wall behind her sister, not knowing what she was thinking.

And farther away, Oki Nishijima and Yoshiyuki Fujino had become a mess.

After listening to the whole conversation, they couldn't stop their hearts.

"Wait, wait, don't worry, let me sort out my thoughts. First of all, Minister Jiuliuli and Sakakihara Raku have been in a relationship."

"Hey, didn't you hear Minister Jiuliuli calling Brother Sakakibara? Since we are brothers, why are we dating together?"

"Then, Minister Jiuliuli seemed to have done something wrong to Sakakibara and wanted to apologize to him."

"I've said it all, the identities between them have not been confirmed, how can you confirm the relationship between them? But I'm sorry, Sakakibara, it can be confirmed." Fujino Yoshiyuki said, suddenly excited, "Yes Oh, why was she in the alley in Kiyozawa just now! Minister Qi Mingyue even dragged her to the other side to talk!"

Oki Nishijima frowned and thought, and then explained: "Didn't you say that Kiyozawa's cousin's shop is on that street over there, and it just so happens that Kiyozawa-san came to visit her cousin?"

Fujino Yoshiyuki calmed down: "Recently, she was staying with her cousin. I went to see her yesterday and saw them all. But, what is the relationship between Kiyozawa and Minister Jiuliuli and Minister Qimingyue?! I I don't understand."

Fujino Yoshiyuki was very calm at first, but finally he couldn't calm down at all, and shook Nishijima Oki's arm vigorously.

"Hey, wait, don't worry!"

"Then analyze it quickly, my head is about to explode!"

"Ahem. First of all, the beginning of everything is Sakakibara."

"Well, yes, and then?"

"Minister Jiuliuli followed Sakakibara, and Minister Qimingyue followed Minister Jiuliuli. Now, Minister Jiuliuli and Minister Qimingyue are twins, and they have a good relationship, and Minister Jiuliuli has an inexplicable relationship with Sakakibara."

Fujino Yoshiyuki's eyes widened: "Could it be that Minister Qi Mingyue also likes Sakakibara?! The guy Sakakihara that Minister Jiu Liuli wants to pursue is simply explosive news, okay?"

Nishijima Oki pushed his eyes: "No, you didn't find out that Minister Qi Mingyue was following Minister Jiu Liuli? I guess, it should be that Minister Qi Mingyue knew about the relationship between Minister Jiu Liuli and Sakakibara, and also knew that Minister Jiu Liuli was going to Stalking Sakakibara. So, the younger sister followed the older sister."

In order to further verify the speculation, Nishijima Oki poked his head out and looked across the street.

He saw a picture, "Sure enough."

Fujino Yoshiyuki slammed on the wall: "It's true."

When he looked, he saw Tianhai Qimingyue hugging Tianhai Jiuliuli in the alley of the street.

He was still a little confused.

At this time, Oki Nishidao said again: "There is only one truth! That is the fancy love triangle that Minister Qi Mingyue loved her sister so much, and then came here specially!"

"What? It's a love triangle."

"Hmph, I don't know if you have heard a rumor in school about Minister Qi Mingyue."

"What is it?"

"Then Minister Qi Mingyue doesn't like to be in contact with boys. She only likes rumors about her sister. In other words, Minister Qi Mingyue and Minister Jiu Liuli are actually."

Fujino's eyes widened again: "It's so explosive."

"Of course, this is just a rumor, but if we infer it from the current scene~ it is not impossible."

"What about Xiaoye! I, Xiaoye, have something to do with Minister Qi Mingyue. I think Minister Qi Mingyue held Xiao Ye and said a lot just now!"

"This." Xidao Damu was also stunned, and he thought for a while, "Yes. What role does your girlfriend play in it? I didn't hear that she knew the two ministers. Minister Qi Mingyue told her again what?"

"And Xiaoye blocked me recently, and I don't even know the reason."

"Indeed, this thing seems to be getting more and more strange."

Now, both of them fell into a deep silence.

The two squatted down.

"Have you figured it out?"

"No."

"what is it now?"

"Would you like to try to meet your childhood sweetheart?"

"Ah? No, she won't see me when she's angry. I have to buy her a good gift, and I have to figure out what I did wrong."

Oki Nishijima glanced at the camera in his hand: "By the way, I want to tell the group of people on the forum about the relationship between Minister Jiuliuri and Sakakibara."

Fujino Yoshiyuki looked at him: "But... if you don't tell, there will be no reward."

"Then tell?"

"It feels like it's not righteous, and it's their private matter to rise to this level.

"Then don't tell me?"

"If you don't tell, you won't have money."

In the endless tangled and complicated relationship network, the two lowered their heads and fell into silence again.

"Let's not tell, this is Sakakibara's private matter." Fujino said.

"Okay, it's your decision anyway."

(End of this chapter)