About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 447

"what about now?"

Sakakibara, who was straddled by her, stared at her beautiful face and her calm eyes as clear as the blue sky.

July?

wrong.

July shouldn't be here.

If July is here, it means that it has always been July that came with me by plane.

When I came to the UK, I said that I would go to Maple Leaf Avenue to see, care about myself, and accompany me to visit London attractions. It was also July.
The fundamental problem is not her appearance, but all the performances of Tianhai Jiuliuli during this day!

If Qiyue can imitate even these things so that she can't see the flaws, then it's unavoidable——

"too exaggerated?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to see through Sakakibara's mind through Sakakihara Le's eyes.She stretched out her hands, put her hands on the sides of his head, leaned down and looked at him, still maintaining that calm expression, "Brother, did you forget so quickly? Or do you have a bad memory, I remember me?" I’ve said it before, if I seriously pretend to be my sister, even my father won’t be able to see the difference between us.”

"." Sakakihara didn't take the initiative to speak, but just looked back into her eyes.

This sentence was said in July, a long time ago.

"That being said, how can I be sure that it's not Liuli who is pretending to be July?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again, "Mr. Le is a little smarter, he knows that he started to use my words to question me, indeed, if something cannot be judged, it is also a way to ask the person who raised the question. Yes, maybe I am Liuli, and I am deliberately testing Le Jun whether you recognize me or not."

Sakakihara was a little confused.

She spoke in the tone of Liuli, but the content was what only Liuli could say to herself.

It was the same as the interaction between her and herself at the hotel entrance just now.

"I still can't believe you're July."

"Don't believe it? Le Jun, what is the evidence? Facts always need some evidence~"

"Actions, words, tone of voice, micro-expressions."

"Le Jun, these are actually things that can be disguised." Tianhai Jiuliuli replied, deliberately lowering her voice, and dodging her gaze, "Why doesn't Le Jun accept the reality?"

Sakakihara closed his eyes, and he admitted that he couldn't tell whether it was Liuli or Qiyue in front of him.

If it was at the entrance of the hotel just now, he would have immediately identified it as Liuli. That kind of shyness and a little angry personality, but not really angry, can't be faked.If Qiyue can really fake it, Sakakihara can only admit that this is the brilliance of their twins.

However, it is not without falsification methods.

Sakakihara turned over vigorously, and pushed Tianhai Jiuliuli back onto the big hotel bed.

She rested her head on the pillow, opened her hands outwards, turned upwards, and her two pairs of white thighs, which were only covered with a pair of shorts, were tightly tucked in.

Her expression at this time was the same faceless as usual in July.

The tone is also cold and clear.

"Are you angry? Are you going to use violence against me?"

"I think you're thinking too much."

Sakakibara stared straight into her eyes, put his hand on her waist, and then lifted the thin pajamas on her to look, he saw——

On that white belly, it was white and clean.

really.

It's July.

Sakakihara turned his eyes back at once, leaned over, and faced her face, the strength of suppressing her hands couldn't help but increase a lot, he frowned and asked:

"When? Where's Scar?"

"Tear it off after taking a shower, it's uncomfortable to wear."

"."

"Why, I'm not welcome? I don't know who wanted to take the initiative to take care of me just now, and kept saying good things to me."

"Obviously, very unwelcome."

Tianhai Qiming didn't pay attention to his answer, even though he was pressed under him, he still had that expressionless face, "Speaking with a straight face, and still working so hard, aren't you tired?"

Sakakihara Raku just thought it was funny, "Compared to these, some people said to Liuli that they would treat me like nothing in their life, but they still chased them all the way to England to cheat people."

Tianhai Qimingyue: "Do you think I want to come? If my sister has been begging me, and even handed over the matter of you accompanying her in England, you think I would like to see you again, and listening to you say so much is useless if?"

Good. Good. Good.

Hearing this, Sakakihara Raku was 100% sure that she was July.

Sakakihara Raku felt unbelievable that Liuli, who could say those words at the entrance of the hotel, said those things that made him feel a little bit unbearable, would actually be pretending to be Qiyue.

"I feel uncomfortable being cheated by others? I feel that those words that can become the pillar of your heart suddenly collapse and your heart is blocked? Brother, don't you understand this kind of emotion?"

"Ah."

Sakakihara found it even more ridiculous, and didn't avoid her gaze at all, and the strength to suppress her hands increased a lot, "I don't know who finds my heart-to-heart words annoying. Since you don't agree, why let me Come to sympathize with you again?"

"Am I denying your idea of ​​heart-to-heart comparison? I have always asked you to contact more people less and use less of your overflowing sympathy."

"I didn't? Did I have casual contact with other people?"

"Isn't Zhixue?"

"Yuki and you are in the same situation! July!" Sakakihara Raku raised her voice slightly.

"What's the same? You want to accept more women. As your girlfriend, I should supervise you and ask you to correct it?"

Sakakibara returned to calm again, let go of her pressed hands, and closed her eyes in front of her, ".Sure enough, you still haven't realized what I said you are similar to Yuki. What you are denying is something about me as a human being.”

"Let you restrain yourself, is there something wrong?"

"That's right. In my previous answer, I also admitted my mistake."

"Then why don't you correct it? Why do you want to recruit Zhixue to your side?"

"I don't want to repeat it again, July. The thing is very simple, Zhixue still needs me, and no one is willing to give her a correct guide. Just like no one really cares about you, and I still want to respond to you, The essence is the same."

"You know that Zhixue won't meet someone who can guide her correctly?"

Sakakihara felt it was funny, left her, sat on the edge of the bed and turned her back to her, "Then why are you obsessed with me in the first place in July? It is not impossible to have someone who will treat you well in the future. Why are you still After I refuse countless times, you want to pester me? Forcing, threatening, begging. Why don't you just be Liuli's younger sister? Why do you still come to me and want me to be responsible for your feelings?"

The quarrels and debates are endless, and no one can convince the other with a word from each other.

Even Sakakihara himself realized that he was settling an old score with Qiyue, repeatedly uncovering past mistakes, blaming the other party, and trying to completely refute the other party in terms of "correctness".

At the end of the argument, Raku Sakakihara's head became dizzy, and he stretched out his hand to support his head.

Try to suppress the depression in your heart as much as possible.Full of exhaustion.

"Enough. Enough of July. I don't want to argue with you anymore."

"Admit defeat?"

Sakakihara looked at her face again, whether it was her or herself, there was no expression on her face.

"...July, my life is exhausting enough."

"What, you mean you don't want to be responsible?"

"Where do you see that I don't want to be responsible? It's that we can't get along now, I can't be responsible, our life philosophy can no longer be compatible, and you can't agree with my current practice. I'm tired of dealing with your rejection again and again. Tired. It's normal, isn't it?"

"."

This time Tianhai Qimingyue didn't speak, she noticed that Sakakibara's back suddenly seemed to be ten years old, full of fatigue.

"Tell me what you came to see me for."

"I said it because my sister begged me to go and hear you myself."

".Then you listened now, so what?"

"It's nothing."

".Yeah, it's nothing." Sakakibara got up, went to the sofa, picked up the clothes and put them on, and draped the coat over his shoulders. "In the end, you were just forced to meet me by Liuli. What would you want to see?" My reason?"

Sakakihara pulled the jacket over her chest, and glanced back at Tianhai Qimingyue who was sitting on the bed.

"Just like what I said just now. If you want to say that I was wrong, how could I not be wrong? Of course I know that I made a mistake. The thing that really makes me angry is always that you choose to deny me as a person, July, you Do you understand yourself? When you believe wholeheartedly that there is someone who understands you, supports you, and encourages you to move forward. In the end, it is this person who denies you. What kind of mood will you feel? The mood of the words."

Tianhai Qimingyue saw that he had zipped up his coat, and took away his phone and wallet, and asked, "Why did you say those things to me that day?"

Sakakihara Raku was inexplicably silent for three seconds, walked at the door of the hotel bedroom, did not look at her, and smiled, "What else? It's just because you denied me, I hate you."

Sakakihara left alone.

Walking alone on the street in a foreign country, seeing unfamiliar people, walking on an unfamiliar road, looking at unfamiliar bricks and tiles under your feet.

Sometimes he looked up at the black sky, and sometimes he turned his head to look at the citizens and tourists walking in front of Starbucks
He kicked the Coke cans that were everywhere under his feet, and felt that the Japanese on Youtube said that all the streets in Britain were clean and beautiful, and it was all a lie.

Everywhere in this world is the same, there are good and bad everywhere.

Just like Qiyue who quarreled with her just now, there are good and bad.

I'm all hiding under the "good" skin, useless disadvantages, right?

Even the words I heard today were made by Qiyue pretending to be Liuli to deceive herself.
Walking and walking, Sakakihara came to the bank of the Thames River, next to the upper left is the iconic British building - the Clock Tower, also known as the Elizabeth Tower.

He squatted on the bank, did not look at the bell tower of the civilized world, but quietly stared at the water surface of the Thames with no features.

After staying quietly for a long time, I suddenly wanted to chat with someone. So I contacted Ah Ling.

He made an international call, but was hung up before answering.

Probably, she is still busy.

He found Zhixue's phone again, but he never got through.

According to the time calculation, probably. She just went out not long ago, playing basketball in the park next to the apartment.

There are actually quite a few people playing during the day. Two days before leaving, Sakakihara had already seen that she was learning to play with strangers.

Sakakihara wanted to find Liuli, and remembered that Liuli's cell phone was in Qiyue's hands.

I turned around and tried to find July's account, but found that July had already deleted her contact information
"Everyone, isn't this great?"

After a moment of silence, Sakakibara burst out laughing on the riverside.

Ah Ling took the initiative to hang up the phone, indicating that she was busy with her career.

Zhixue didn't answer the phone, which means that she also has someone who can play with her.

Liuli didn't come to England with her, which meant that she could be independent long ago, and didn't care about the agreement with her at all, so she gave the opportunity until July.

July?

Not to mention!
Just now I had a lively quarrel with myself, and I have been busy with her company and living her own life a while ago, so good that I have long been independent!

What do you need to worry about?

Mom, I'm traveling around the world with my uncle.

Hmm. Very good, everything is very good.

Sakakihara smiled, lowered her head, and saw her own reflection fluctuating in the river with the help of the weak street lamp beside her.

He stared at his face that was gradually restrained until it became completely calm. He seemed to see another shadow.

One. A face that I should have forgotten long ago.

A face that no one remembers from a previous life.

Sakakihara was completely silent.

What is this life to me?

I was used to being alone in my previous life. No matter what I did, I sang to myself, encouraged myself, and told myself to work hard.

If you work hard, you will definitely win the game. However, the fact is that no one cares how much you have worked hard. Everyone and the audience only look at the results.

Negative emotions are constantly conveyed to me on the Internet and in reality, and all these voices can be tolerated, and I can also blame all my mistakes on myself not working hard enough.

It is right to bear these negative emotions because of lack of strength.

It is also necessary to bear the insults, because it did not meet everyone's expectations of "absolutely being the first", and won the No.1 competition.

These negative emotions can be tolerated.

But if you get used to this kind of emotion, you will inevitably look forward to it, dream about it, and imagine that there will suddenly appear in front of you a person who is different from everyone else, who is willing to give yourself infinite light, infinite care and warmth in times of suffering. To look forward to the little light seen in the gloomy life.

It's a pity that there was no such character in the previous life, and there was only a boring ending of being shot to death by the river.

I can be sure that my parents who haven't asked about my life for a long time will not hold any funeral for my son who was born unexpectedly.

Well, it's pretty miserable.

This life is good. In this life, I have a real family and a sister who can hug my leg and call me brother.

This kind of kindness and warmth that I have never experienced before made me swear when my father ran away that I had never met such a person full of infinite light and warmth in my previous life, so I would be such a person to make my sister, Let mother no longer experience the indifference she felt in her previous life.

I have to focus on helping everyone and helping my family.

I have to start as an ordinary person, work hard and work hard.Let the younger sister know that she still has her brother in front of her, and let the mother know that there is still a son in the family who is working hard to live with everyone.

This kind of mood and thought has continued until today.

And because of these thoughts, the people around him, including Qiyue, Liuli, Ling, and Zhixue, have all been hurt by him.

Strictly speaking, everyone is not wrong, what is wrong is that everyone wants a relationship that can be 100% responsible under the light.

Yes everyone is right.

It was me who was wrong, I couldn't spend 400% of my energy to take care of them perfectly and handle them in a harmonious and harmonious way.

It's your fault.

Sakakihara Raku suddenly stood up in front of the Thames River. He took two breaths of the coolness of the night breeze, and silently stared at the turbulent and icy cold river.

"That's it, do you want it to end?"

A call came suddenly, and Sakakihara Raku knew who was standing behind her without thinking about it.

"Follow me what to do?"

"Just to see what you want to do. So far, it's a good guess."

Sakakibara closed her eyes and responded in a low voice, "Thought I was going to jump into the river. You thought I was too fragile, but it wasn't because of that. I just wanted to leave and didn't want to see you again."

"Tough mouth."

"Heh, anyone is qualified to say that about me, but you, who squatted in front of Tokyo Bay back then, were not."

"Oh, I never thought about it that way."

Sakakibara turned her head and looked straight back at Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes, "Hard mouth."

"Ugh"

A sigh suddenly sounded behind Tianhai Qimingyue, and another flaxen-colored long-haired girl who was wearing the white dress during the day came out with a sigh, her eyes swept over the two of them, and said very unhappy, " It’s true that one is tougher than the other. Wouldn’t it be good for you to soften your attitude towards Le Jun in July?”

Tianhai Qimingyue looked back at her sister, "Why? There is nothing wrong with what I said."

"... Then you don't agree with what Le Jun said, July. Why are you so stubborn."

Tianhai Jiuliuli hung the strands of hair blown away by the riverside wind behind her ears, looked at Sakakibara Le in front, and tried to explain: "Mr. Le is too, so why are you so stubborn? You still care so much about July."

Sakakibara was happy to see the two appearing together. Although he had doubts, he didn't want to ask at all right now.

"Just hate her."

"I know, I know, Le Jun hates her the most."

Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly squeezed Tianhai Qimingyue's arm, motioning for her to step forward and speak by herself.

Although Tianhai Qimingyue seemed very dissatisfied, after her sister glared at her, she still walked forward with extreme reluctance.

"I—actually—very—"

"Oh, Qiyue actually wanted to ask Le Jun a question. She didn't want to admit it in her heart, and what Mr. Coke did was particularly in line with this psychology."

"." Tianhai Qimingyue's face was much more embarrassing.

Seeing that there was no movement from Sakakihara Raku, Tianhai Jiuliuli had no choice but to speak up, cleared her throat, and raised her voice:
"Le Jun, in fact, as soon as July heard me tell you about your recent situation, she was eager to come to England with me! It's not that I strongly asked her to come with me, but she lied to you again!"

Tianhai Qimingyue held her forehead awkwardly, "My sister is talking nonsense, it's not the case at all. Besides, is it because my sister insists on dragging me here? When I heard that I was going to come to England with this guy, I was really angry At that time, I didn’t want to talk to my sister.”

".What? Isn't that what it is."

"That's not it, okay. Sister, you go down, I'll go by myself."

"...I don't believe it. You guys are going to fight again."

"I try not to talk about him."

"You said it in July, promise."

".ensure."

The two murmured for a long time, Sakakihara just waited without any emotional fluctuations, until Tianhai Qimingyue was pushed in front of her with extreme reluctance by her sister, and the two of them watched face to face under the bell tower.

(End of this chapter)