I am a writer in Tokyo

Lin Shanggui sniffed away the snot blown down by the cold wind, then shuddered hard, and then said something bad about winter in his heart.

Looking at the trendy gate not far away, he noticed that the boy did not keep up with him. Looking back, he saw him standing alone in front of the intersection, staring at a place.

After shouting a few times, he didn't make a sound, so he probably didn't hear him. Lin Shanggui muttered, and sure enough, people's ears were not much better in the snow, and then walked towards the boy.

Standing next to him and looking towards the intersection he was looking at, there was no one or even a thing there.

At this time, he suddenly remembered what the child had told him before, and couldn't help but ask: "Is this the intersection where you piled the snowman?"

The boy nodded. There was no trace of the "snowman" there, as if it had never appeared before.

"How about we build a snowman?"

Lin Shanggui thought for a while, if this could make him feel better, he probably wouldn't commit suicide later.

Neon people have a very strange habit in their bones. When they face something, the first thing they think of is not to solve the problem, but to apologize for what they have done before.

What they thought about next was not how to solve this problem, but how to express their apology, so they came up with ways to apologize with death, such as committing seppuku or committing suicide.

The boy shook his head. He didn't want to build another snowman. It was of no use. Even if he built another snowman, the feeling of indebtedness deep in his heart would definitely overwhelm him mercilessly. , leaving him unable to breathe at all.

After standing at the intersection for a long time, the two people turned and walked towards Xinchao.

Their appointment time is approaching.

When they arrived at the reception room, Kitajima Koma had already sat in the reception room early, and then nodded politely towards the boy.

Then I saw Mr. Satake standing up suddenly. He was about to say something about his suicide, but then he remembered that Kitajima was also around, so he had to open his mouth and take a few steps back.

"Death is not the root cause, and death is not the only way to solve the problem. In other words, if this loneliness makes you feel unbearable pain in this world, then congratulations, you are still alive."

"We do not advocate that death can take away all our sorrows, because none of us know whether the sadness will still follow us after we die, but we do know one thing, that is, for us, living in There are other emotions in the world that we can feel besides sadness."

Oshima Kazuya tilted his head, a little surprised as to why Kitajima Koma would say a lot of words that were completely inconsistent with his character in such a long speech. According to his character, he should have said extremely coldly, you Words like you can die or you can live.

The boys were obviously a little excited to see Kitajima. There is no doubt that they have always regarded the writer as their spiritual leader.

"But, I always feel a little bit shortchanged."

"I'm sorry for myself."

The boy groaned. He didn't know how to express it well. After thinking for a long time, he came up with the above sentence.

Hearing this, Mr. Satake opened his mouth and was about to say something, but he held back. Oshima Kazuya, who was beside him, poked his arm gently, turned his head to the side, and said in a low voice: "What do you want to say, you have been hesitating for a long time."

"It's nothing." He actually didn't know what to say. Anyway, this matter had become a regret, and no matter how much he did, it would not help.

To be honest, there is no way to ask him to go to the hospital before Lian dies, because the emotions between them cannot be restrained at all.

Now that he can do such a thing is... unexpected. At least in their eyes, such feelings are pure, a bit like the vigorous love described in Paradise Lost.

Kitajima was silent for a while, and no one in the room spoke. The lights spread silently in the room, bubbling like a teapot that was boiling water.

"Before I wrote Paradise Lost, I was thinking about a question. I wanted to write about love, but if I want to describe blazing love, then there must be some kind of obstacle. Such an obstacle will sublimate love. A couple who respect each other like guests cannot become a novel. In addition, I don’t want to put a layer of shackles on love, so love must be pure and must be an instinctive feeling that puts aside all conditions.

Such prerequisites are usually death or life is worse than death. "

When he said this, the temperature in the room seemed to drop and became a bit cold.

"The reason why I arranged the plot is because at such a peak, I can prove the love between my two protagonists, and I do not doubt that there is no such emotion between them. Everything will go downhill when it reaches the peak. If they If they continue to live a normal life together, their love will also go downhill."

"So, in the ending of my book, the heroine's choice is very natural. Her choice is based on the overflow of emotional value and she wants to release the deepest value in her life. But I don't think you To become my heroine, learn from Kumu. His choice is a redefinition of his life, and it is also an expectation. It is more of the nature of life and has the value of life itself. Of course, the choice is not necessarily It's death.

Or to put it another way, you have missed the most opportune time to die. "

"We habitually put life and death on two sides of a piece of paper, which is nothing more than piercing this layer of paper. So for you now, you have already experienced death, so the next thing to think about is , how to exaggerate your feelings to the extreme, the kind of depth that can be engraved in your bones."

Kitajima moved forward slightly, and then the boy stared at Kitajima's eyes and said word by word: "So, why don't you think about it and just live like this. Go and prove it. Show others that your emotions are abundant. Of course, I also want to know what will happen next after reaching such a peak. Maybe you can become the protagonist of my next book, which will be a reference for me. value."

Perhaps because he heard that he would be the protagonist of the next book, the boy's eyes lit up.

It is a bit difficult to understand what Kitajima said, and for him, it is even more impossible to fully understand.

But if you can become the protagonist of the next book, it would be a very meaningful thing.

He didn't want to tell others how much he loved her.

His desire to die was still not convinced.

But if you die after becoming Kazuki Koin's protagonist, it would be a very good choice.

I don’t know why, but after Kitajima said these words, Oshima Kazuya had a very strange thought in his heart.

Maybe before saying this, the child said that he might not be able to survive, but now that these words have come out, it seems... (End of Chapter)