Nightmare Attack

Chapter 240
"Mr. Jiang," came the girl's cowardly voice. Her name was Nan Jin, which was different from the others. The influence of alcohol on her seemed to be very limited.

Even she herself couldn't remember how many glasses of wine this was.

She was also the only one among the few who called Jiang Cheng Mr. Jiang, instead of "Jiang Pan'an", "that who", "handsome guy", "cute" and other messy names.

After a few seconds, Jiang Cheng slowly looked away and looked at her.

Nan Jin's face hidden in the dimness seemed to be even redder, but she still mustered up her courage and asked as calmly as possible: "Mr. Jiang, what are you thinking about?"

The overflowing brilliance flowed in her eyes from time to time, and she had a pair of very beautiful eyes, just like her mother.

But unlike the hard and cold eyes of the latter, there was a cowardly and ignorant feeling hidden in her eyes, like a lost deer.

Distant, defensive, yet endearing.

Some people say that alcohol is poisonous, even with soft drinks.

But for Nan Jin, only such "poison" can make her open her heart.

She suffers from a relatively rare psychological problem.

Avoidant personality disorder.

A class of personality disorders characterized by generalized social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation.

The resulting set of issues can have a major impact on a patient's social and occupational functioning.

Such patients always feel that they lack social skills, are unattractive, and are at a disadvantage in all aspects, so they appear overly sensitive and inferior.

Low self-esteem, combined with oversensitivity and fear of being rejected by others, makes it extremely difficult for patients to take the first step and form intimate relationships with others.

Such patients usually show shyness, withdrawn, fear of meeting strangers, and inexplicable panic about sudden strange things or sounds since childhood or childhood.

Unlike Ms. Qin who devoted herself to her work and thus ignored her daughter's feelings, Nan Jin's mother was a person who "cared for her daughter in every possible way".

She even gave up her position as a company executive for her daughter, and became a full-time mother at home with peace of mind.

From three meals a day, to her daughter's dress, academic performance, hobbies, behavioral habits... and so on, she has to take care of everything.

She is doing her best to make her daughter the most perfect handicraft in the world.

Whether it is academic performance, dance, painting, or piano, Nan Jin is the best among her peers.

In sharp contrast to the excitement and joy of sitting in the first row and watching her daughter stepping onto the podium and being reflected in the spotlight, Nan Jin's delicate but indifferent face was in stark contrast.

Rather than saying that her mother loves her, it is better to say that her mother loves to manipulate her more.

Manipulating her to run towards a "perfect" life that did not belong to her.

Mother, she is just using herself to make up for the regrets she owed.

Very early on, the mother who had not yet taken over the family business had a dream of being an actress.

She looks forward to appearing on the screen one day and showing her best self in front of everyone.

But after this dream was crushed by reality, it was watered into the soil, and finally watered out of itself.

She didn't know whether her mother saw her past shadow in herself.

But she is very clear that according to her mother's personality, even if she doesn't see her own shadow, she will cut out her own shadow and stick it on her body.

Strength is her most intuitive impression of her mother.

Do what she says, get what she likes and wants, and do what she asks herself to do.

Only in this way, the mother will love her as always.

She only loves the radiant self.

The "ugly duckling" after removing all the achievements and aura is not worthy of mother's love.

It is also the long-term high pressure and anxiety that makes her, who is already excellent, often fall into the vicious circle of doubt and self-doubt.

Her mother's intensified urging sounded like a clarion call to her ears.

I'm blaming her, why don't you be a little bit better
If she is a little bit better, then she will be one step closer to her mother's dream.

But...that was my mother's dream, not hers.

She has no interest in, or even fear of, showing herself on screen.

For her, those boring materials, rigorous numbers and characters, and cold chemical materials are more attractive to her.

She just wants to be an ordinary person, not noisy or noisy, hiding behind the scenes, alone, living a quiet life, holding hands with someone she loves and also loves her.

Being looked at by Mr. Jiang in her own eyes, Nan Jin felt more and more uneasy. The former's silence made her wonder if what she said was inappropriate, or if she was blaming herself for interrupting his thinking.

"Ding."

There was a crisp collision sound, and the light red wine in the wine glass rippled, refracted by the light, like fresh blood.

Before Nan Jin realized it, Jiang Cheng stretched out his hand, and lightly touched the wine glass in her hand.

"Mr. Jiang"

Nan Jin froze for a moment, and when she realized it, she panicked like a child who had done something wrong, although she didn't know why.

But at this second, she really thought so.

It's like the scavenger who interrupted Marquez's thinking because he wanted to pick up the Coke can, but he couldn't help himself.

After taking a sip of the wine, Jiang Cheng sat on the sofa holding the wine glass, the aura around him was incompatible with this place.

"I'm waiting for someone," he said.

Because of the light, she could only see his eyes clearly.

The hustle and bustle here is out of control, but looking into the eyes of the man in front of her, she actually had a strange thought, it seems... all the noisy voices are over here.

It was like a ladle of boiling water poured on top of an iceberg.

And obviously he was standing while Mr. Jiang was sitting on the sofa. He was supposed to be looking up at himself in a high position, but it turned out that he was looking up at him.

Just sitting there, he seemed out of place with everyone here.

Obviously not long ago he was excitedly drinking with several people, but the next second he suddenly fell silent, huddled in the corner alone, like a colorful poisonous snake.

After putting away its fangs, it quietly waited for the next batch of prey to come.

"What kind of person?" She asked like a ghost.

But as soon as she opened her mouth, she panicked. They had only known each other for a few days, and it seemed that asking such an intimate question was a little too much
In the next second, she saw the man in front of her put the empty wine glass upside down on the marble table, and his slender fingers drew nice strokes in mid-air.

"I'm waiting for someone who is willing to drink this glass of wine with me." Looking up, Jiang Cheng replied, "Miss Nan Jin."

　The move is almost over, more than 400 kilometers, changing to a new city, it is really tossing.

The normal update will resume today, and we will start to add updates after regaining the feeling. Thank you for your support.

　
(End of this chapter)