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Chapter 528 Chapter 520 "Save me, save me, save me."

It was not the first time for Siber to participate in this hundred-man war.

In the very beginning of the First War, due to her pagan status, she was the only one out of 100 who was not assigned an adventurer.She knew nothing about the truth of the war.

She only knows the rules - if she wants to survive to the end, she has to win the war and kill everyone.

So, within fifteen days, she was alone, sacrificed her vitality, mobilized the power of Nine Gods, and killed 99 pairs of guides and adventurers, including her friends, playmates, and even her brother Feng Chang.

But just after she killed the last person, she died of exhaustion because she sacrificed too much vitality, and she didn't have time to go to the outside world.

When she opened her eyes again, she found that she was back to the first day of the war.

- The cycle begins.

She found that every time she died, she was brought back to the first day of the war.

She knew that this should be the ability given to her by Master Nine Gods.Jiushen may want her to use this ability to find a way to become a god within these fifteen days, to overthrow the black wall, and to solve the curse that caused the slow death of the people in the vault.

She is also willing to take on this important task to save those who should not die.

She is going to save them.

At first, she tried not to sacrifice her own vitality, so as not to eventually die of exhaustion.

...but without using the power of Nine Gods, she is almost powerless.

Sometimes, she died due to falling into a trap and being pierced by spikes; sometimes, her body festered to death due to the poisonous rain of natural disasters;

She will be bitten to death by wild wolves, rotted to death by night mist, cursed to death by cursed creatures, jointly beaten to death by other guides, burned to ashes by the white flame of Diansi, and decomposed by Migal's time ability. Died, was crushed by the great elder's palm, and died of serious injuries...

The most desperate thing is every time she sees that person, the young patriarch.

He ignored her pleas, deprived her of the right to tell the truth, and killed her again and again.

Annihilation will penetrate her heart, melt her heart, penetrate from her forehead, and completely dissolve her entire face.

Every time she meets him, she will die and restart her reincarnation.

She tried to avoid him, but as soon as she showed up, she would be captured and burned to death by the passionate Baishen followers.

She is more familiar with the feeling of being tied to a wooden frame and being swallowed by flames bit by bit.It was a kind of pain that could not survive or die, as if every cell in the whole body was crying, and there was only burning pain in the eyes and throat.

"—I'm saving you! I'm saving you—"

She cried, but no one paid any attention.

In reincarnation, she was also backstabbed countless times.

When she was betrayed at the beginning, she still felt as if she had been stabbed in the heart, but after more times, she could not feel the anger, nor did she feel angry.

Being betrayed for the first time will be sad and sad.

Betrayed for the second time, you will be angry and unwilling.

After being betrayed for the third time, he began to doubt himself.

Until the fourth time, the fifth time, the sixth time...

Gradually, she could not count how many times she suffered deception and betrayal.

The priestess who was rescued by her stabbed her decisively after knowing her identity.

The tribes saved by her during the natural disaster period will not hesitate to place the source of the poisonous rain disaster on her body.

If she was rescued from a small settlement, she would take the initiative to hand her over to the first tribe in exchange for every penny of survival resources.

"—It's all your fault! You need to save me!"

"—If you, a believer in the Nine Gods, die! We won't suffer disaster at all!"

Such voices abound.

She wanted to explain that her death would not solve any problems, because everything would just start over, but no one believed it, they just wanted to deprive her of the right to live.

At first, she felt sorry for herself and wanted to take revenge desperately like a wild wolf, but soon, as the number of times increased, her mentality became more and more peaceful.

Pain, scars, unhealed, past scars, whether they are oozing blood or scabbed, now seeing it happen again, they will only merge into a faint sentence.

【I am used to it】.

……

The world is so big, but there is no place for her.

……

Afterwards, she began to change her strategy. She no longer insisted on surviving to the end. She wanted to find the truth and try other ways to break the situation.

In death after death,
She once went deep into the basement of the first tribe, looked through Zhao Weidong's family letters, and looked for the remains of external laboratories.

She tried to wait near the black wall, waiting for an outsider to arrive.

She once wanted to persuade Teacher Fang, who was close to her, to trust her, but in the end she was just labeled a lunatic, and met Teacher Fang's pitiful and helpless eyes.

"Oh... this child is crazy." Teacher Fang would touch her head: "Don't be afraid, Sissy, I hope the rest of your life will be better, and you will stop talking about these ridiculous things..."

In the end, no one believed her.

Not a single one.

The death of a person will bring about the reincarnation of the world - how can anyone believe such absurd things.

……

In order to save the world, she went to many places.

She consulted books, visited settlements, and gradually learned about the source of gods—the three major elements "energy, faith, and authority."

She has captured many ethnic groups and used various means of execution to force them to tell the secrets of the major tribes.

She took advantage of the poor information of reincarnation to grasp the handles of many people, and used ruthless threats and torture methods to make them fight against the mouse and had to tell the truth.

Her methods became more vicious and her personality became more ruthless. She grew from an autistic and introverted little girl who was exiled to an extremely ruthless hunter.

Like the vigilant hunter, the feral wolf.

Her methods of torture and skinning became more and more mature, and her killing techniques became more and more proficient. Gradually, even without using the power of Nine Gods, she could use the skills of hunters and traps to kill some people who were far stronger than her. the guide.

Because she is too familiar with these people, familiar with their personalities, fighting styles, weaknesses, family members...she knows everything.

She could massacre an entire village for a little secret of the vault, or she could forcefully burn to death those devout followers of Baishen who refused to obey her in order to learn more about the truth of the gods.

——Anyway, everything can be restarted, and everyone will be resurrected anyway.

Then just let her do it.

As long as she doesn't hurt anyone in the final successful reincarnation, then the countless previous reincarnations, no matter how far the detours are, are worth it.

These people hate her, abuse her, don't understand her, and that's okay.

As long as she can break the reincarnation in the end—all the rumors will be self-defeating.

Just let them hate it.

Since the power obtained by sacrificing her life force could not allow her to live to the end, she could only find the last way—to become a god.

……

But soon, she discovered that this was not possible.

One of the three elements of becoming a god - "faith", she will never be able to obtain.

She has been to the first tribe, using her accumulated knowledge to help people open up fertile land, help people manufacture machinery for farming, become a wise man, and want people to believe in her.

But she ignored the stubbornness of Baishen believers.People will only accept her knowledge, and then regard her as a "monster", no one will believe in her at all.

Her ending was either to be killed by the head seal, or to be assassinated and poisoned by the people.

Later, she started trying to do charity.She takes in those guides who have lost their minds and shelters them.

She fed the tiger with her body, took the initiative to block the poisonous rain from natural disasters, and worked hard to protect the people and help them rebuild their shelters.

But she would still be considered a heretic, and no one would appreciate her.

Her ending was only to be killed by those who came to exterminate the heretics.

People's ideas are extremely stubborn.

It is impossible for them to believe in a person who is full of Nine Gods.

If she doesn't use the power of Nine Gods, she will be killed by other guides.But once the power of the Nine Gods is used, the vitality will be exhausted and he will die, and the Nine Gods breath on his body will become stronger in the next cycle.

- Infinite loop.

She couldn't break the situation at all.

"...it doesn't work at all, I can't do it at all... I am obviously saving them, but no one believes me..."

How many times she was on the verge of death, she cried and shouted this sentence, ushering in the next reincarnation.

The identity of a heretic has become the root cause of her inability to break the situation.

"-Heretic, die!"

"——Die and start again? Only ghosts believe you, even if you have it, it's the dirty ability of your heathen!"

"—Cissy, if you are sensible, find a place to die, don't get in the way here. The aura of God on your body really makes me sick."

"..."

She has seen too many tragedies.

Every time she heard such words, she felt as if she had been stabbed severely.

Everyone is looking forward to her death.

But no one knew that it was useless for her to die.

To prove what she said, she has to die, but once she dies, there is no point in proving.

How many times, she wanted to cry.

why--

——Why did she lose so many lives, but only gained one unbreakable loop?

——Why has she lingered on her last breath and been rescued until now, but she will always be despised and puzzled by people?
——Why, why can't everyone give her a little more opportunity and time to explain?
--why……

Her memory was a little bit blurred as she died repeatedly.

Her sanity was repeatedly tormented by alienation and curses.

Reincarnation will not change her mental state, and her memory has been completely confused after death after death.

All kinds of deaths, even alienation... made her more and more crazy and confused.

Reincarnation is not her lucky authority, but the curse and torture that make her unable to let go of her responsibilities.

Gradually, she will forget who she is, why she is alive, and what kind of truth she has lingered until now in order to reveal the truth.

She forgot her name and all the information she had been given.Her memory was blocked for self-protection, and the huge death memory fragments were driving her crazy.

There were two times, she thought, why don't she open her eyes, don't wake up, just let her sleep in the wooden house on the first day and never wake up.

Five times, she thought, just forget everything, she was Sissi, not Siber, not the sole follower of the oldest god.

Ten times she would cry over the bodies and say sorry, sorry.

She was on the verge of collapse, and she looked crazy, like a frightened animal, a lone and alert wolf.

As a player in the game, she couldn't break this deadlock at all.

"If only someone would save me," she thought.

As long as someone is willing to stand by her side and give her warmth, even if he just believes in her a little bit...

As long as someone can bring a hug to her who is covered with cold, as long as someone can tell her that she can still see the sun and the sea...

She had thought that she would not wait until that day.

But this time, a person who had never appeared before suddenly appeared beside her.

...he has black hair and dark eyes.

...he had a bright mind, a resourceful wit.

... He cared about the feelings of his companions, regardless of one or the other.

...he can tell stories, play an instrument...

What she wrote on the wall when she was a child, along with her faith authority, actually came into effect.

When her memory was blurred and confused, the person she had been fantasizing about in this reincarnation—suddenly came to her side.

He told her that he would always be with her.

He said that if he was a tourist who strayed into the endless night, she would be his beacon.

He said she was the most important and the most unique.

He says,

He will let her see the flowers bloom.

……

In this vault of fabricated beliefs.

...they were the only pair of lambs who were "awake".

……

[Under the sky, everything is resurrected.The Forsaken, as a 'monster', tried in vain to rival the gods. 】

【The adventurer in front of her seems to have suddenly become the most suitable person for her. 】

【This time,】

[Refused to betray, forbidden to abandon. 】

【——she wants to become the 'god' among the 'monsters'. 】

……

【This time. 】

……

This time,
She fell into a hallucination halfway, poisonous rain entered her body, and it was impossible to save her.Feng Chang even chose to maintain the deception and did not believe her.

She failed again.

She aimed the gun at her heart.

"Boom!"

The gunshot sounded, and her hand suddenly tilted.

When she opened her eyes, she saw the familiar figure again.

His pair of dark eyes stared at her eyes as if imitating them, and there was a loneliness in them that was very similar to hers.

He held the gun barrel in his hand, and a white light of space displacement was emitting from his side.

The moment he realized that Siber was going to commit suicide, he moved over instantly and pulled her gun sideways.

"...What are you going to do?" Su Mingan said.

Black tentacles emerged instantly, and she immediately wanted to push him away, but it was as difficult as tearing flesh and blood.

His hands gripped her shoulders tightly, and the heat from his hands made her whole body ache.

At this moment, she suddenly collapsed.

The thick wall in his heart was disintegrated in an instant, and he was the only one who didn't want her to die.

"Su Ming'an, I really want to die, I want to die - kill me, please kill me, don't let me wake up again -!"

She wailed.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts.

The skin is melting, the blood is boiling, and the bones are melting.

The continuous rain hit her scalp, tearing her skin, she was like a dry bone with flesh attached.

Why do people regard her as evil—why do they despise her—why don’t they give her the right to speak—why don’t they even give her a chance to escape from reincarnation?
At first, she also had kindness in her heart, and she also treated every ethnic group around her kindly, but what she always ushered in was endless betrayal and cold death.

No one believed her, no one understood her, even if she only had a helping hand, she would not have come to the point where she is now accompanied by madness.

She was tired and didn't want to go on, she wanted to die, she wanted to die so badly, why didn't she even have the right to die?
—what did she do wrong?
—What did she do wrong?
Just being "alive" made her feel a lot of pain.

"It's so painful." She choked out a mouthful of blood.

"It's so painful." Her fingers were rotten.

"It hurts, it hurts, it hurts—"

"Su Ming'an! Help me——save me, save me, save me, save me——"

She was crying and her whole body was melting.

Su Mingan grabbed her rotten hand.

She looks filthy, her wounds are filthy, her face is ugly, she is in such a mess.The black rotten flesh was mixed with bright red blood, and the color contrast was extremely shocking.

"...Sibyl," he said.

She fell on his shoulder, tears and blood sprinkled all over her shoulder.

"[I'm looking forward to meeting him, I've prepared fruit and candy, just waiting for him to come...]" he said: "[He can read stories, although I know that fairy tales are all about lying to children, but I just like it, I want him to read it to me...] - this is what you wrote on the wall repeatedly, here I come."

"Sibyl," he said, "I haven't read you the story yet."

Sibel's crying choked up a little.

When she spoke again, her corroded throat, like a crow, tore and screamed.

"—I can't win—we can't win—!"

"—Su Ming'an, I really want to save them, but I can't, I can't—!"

……

It seems that as long as human beings move one step, they have to affect countless muscles and bones in their bodies.

It seems that as long as he struggles to breathe more, he will bear the endless pain of this world.

In front of Su Mingan's eyes, apart from the gloomy gray, the dark sky, and the fiery heavy rain,

——Only her mournful and desperate face like a falling bird.

【I really want to save this world. 】

[But it's already rotten. 】

She is not crying for herself.

She is weeping for the future of Dome, and for the ignorant people.

She cries for everyone who wants to kill her, cries for this hopeless world,

She cries for the slow death of people, for the absence of freedom and light.

She is crying this sad world.

What she thought was eternal and beautiful turned out to be vulnerable.

……

……

【...this fate】

【Sucks. 】

【——"Jiu Shen Reincarnation Notes"】

(End of this chapter)