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Chapter 737 New Year's Essay: When Elephants Return to the Plains
The family is eating out and has to go out in the afternoon.After turning 20, another ten years have passed, and this may be the first time that I can't hide in my room on New Year's Eve and play games and write things to my heart's content.The past year was an extremely important year for me. Of course, it was only recently that I realized very strongly that every year that passed was an extremely important year for me.

My twenties, on the whole, were a decade of panic and embarrassment.I didn’t show it when I should make it public, I over-thought when I shouldn’t think, and I didn’t make mistakes when I should have made mistakes. These have been mentioned in my past essays.

A good life may be like this: In the first half of life, we add things, and we experience interesting things one by one, and slowly accumulate the mistakes that should be made and the embarrassment that should be made, and wait until the end of life. In the second half, start doing subtraction, removing those unnecessary things one by one.

People in their 20s should be doing addition, but I have already done subtraction, and everything that can interfere with my thoughts is almost thrown away.Looking back now, during the entire ten years, except that I went out to work at the beginning, in the end, there was only a see-saw and struggle between writing books and making money-you read that right, writing good books and making a lot of money, in the To a large extent, they are opposites.

When I have enough rational thinking ability, I often regret it.Of course, there is no need to regret now.

After getting married, I often feel that I have entered a completely different stage from before. There are many things that can be let go, and I don’t think about it at all, such as women, such as temptation, such as possibilities.Of course, there are also more trivial things that I have not touched before.This morning my wife said that the two months of marriage felt like 20 years had passed, and it was true that there were too many changes.

For example, when I was typing this text, she was holding a comb and combing me into an idiot shape, which made me very confused whether to hit her or not.

Well, I’m not writing these to show affection, but… I’ve often wondered recently whether my life is about to enter the second half, which often makes me panic, because the first half is so fast .If the first half passes so quickly, is there a day in the future when I stand on the 60-year-old boundary and suddenly find that the second half will also come to an end-I feel very clearly that there must be such a day .

So I think of my parents, when I first met them, they were young, full of energy and edges, and now they have roots of white hair on their heads, they were very happy to see me married, and I will The family moved out and started a new family with his wife.Sooner or later, when I return home, I will see them getting older, and sooner or later, I will send them away, and then recall their youthful vitality and happy smiles at this time.

Because of this, I also think of everyone I meet in my life, and think of the old lady sitting at the gate of the community basking in the sun at this time—about half a year ago, I suddenly wanted to write "Hidden Killing" and add a few more chapters later, writing about family When Ming and Lingjing were 40 years old and 50 years old, I wrote about their mutual support when they were 60 and 70 years old. I wrote an article every few years. We used to see them grow up, and then we could see them slowly of getting old.In this way, we will see the passage of their entire lives. I thought about these articles for a long time, and then I wondered whether it would be cruel to let everyone see the warmth and companionship of their lives. When I wrote about the 70-year-old At that time, whether their once warmness will become a kind of cruelty to readers.Then he hesitated a little bit about his own writing.

Of course, the main reason for not writing it later was because of the crackdown. In order to avoid suspicion, "Invisible Kill" was temporarily blocked.Well, wait until I get more insight into these things before thinking about writing about it.

I am afraid of this, but it is undeniable that after getting married, all the regrets in the past can be reduced to zero.Even in the second half, I can easily start all over again.As Haruki Murakami said, one day the elephants will return to the wild.

Even if the wilderness at this time is not the one it used to be, in any case, it has finally come to the wilderness again.

Fortunately, compared to the ignorance and powerlessness when I was in the wilderness, at this time, I have my own career, my own three views, and my own direction.

I also think of you.

Where will you be when I turn 60 one day.Among my readers, some are much older than me, and some are currently studying in junior high school or high school. What will you look like in a few decades?I have no way of imagining the changes over the past few decades. The only certainty is that that day will come sooner or later.

I only write books, and I will continue to write books to improve my writing ability. In the next 20 to 30 years, as long as my thinking is still alive, this effort will not stop.This is the goal I set for the new year when I was 30 years old.

"One day the elephants will return to the plains, and I will describe the world in a more beautiful language."

Time is the most cruel and ruthless, I hope everyone can grasp the self at this moment.

Jin wishes everyone a happy new year. ^_^
　Well, I will open a New Year's Building on the top of the book review area. If you are in the mood, you might as well leave your current state: who am I, what am I doing, whether I work hard, whether I am happy, whether I am fulfilled, whether I still have dreams... ...maybe after some sorting, there will be harvests, maybe ^_^
　
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