Shut up, I am really a pure love god of war!

Chapter 273 Bai Yang's Confession

"I'm sorry, Fishball, I said some terrible things when you got up the courage to speak your mind."

Bai Yang said seriously: "I shouldn't have said this at this time, and I shouldn't even respond to you."

"Maybe in this way, we can continue like before. Even if it's just as friends, just being by your side is enough for me."

"But I couldn't help it."

"I don't want to deceive you, nor do I want to deceive myself."

"Even though I knew what the consequences of being honest might be."

He smiled bitterly:
"I know clearly that I am too selfish and greedy."

“So I never dare to ask for too much.”

"I feel like I don't deserve to be liked by you, nor by Xiaolu. I can't even be loyal, so how can I be a qualified lover?"

He looked at Chun Yuwan and said, "The only thing I can do is to tell you that you are more special to me than you can imagine, much more special."

"I often think of that rainy day at the bus stop under Leopard Head Mountain. When I looked at you, my heartbeat quickened at that moment."

"At that moment, I was thinking, you are a miracle to me."

"A miracle that should not have appeared in my life but appeared unexpectedly."

Chun Yuwan closed her eyes, and two lines of tears flowed down her thin cheeks.

How can I describe the complex emotions in my heart at this moment? It's like the whole person is torn apart, half sweet and half bitter.

She could feel Bai Yang's sincerity. The person she liked also liked her. This should have been the best thing. It was better than any result Chun Yuwan had imagined before.

But if she wanted to share this love with others, Chun Yuwan felt that she couldn't do it.

No one can be generous enough to accept that there is another person living in the heart of the person he loves.

So, should I stay away?

As soon as this thought came to mind, his heart seemed to ache, and countless images emerged uncontrollably. In these images of two people in the same frame, Bai Yang's figure was erased, leaving himself alone.

I celebrated my birthday alone at the beach, I took a train to the studio in the capital, I watched the fireworks on the rooftop when the New Year came, I watched the dusk of Leopard Head Mountain alone, and got caught in a sudden rain, I walked across the bridge to the east alone, counting the bricks on the bridge, I stood on the balcony alone, and felt the summer night breeze all night long.

No, none of that is going to happen.

Because without Bai Yang, she wouldn't do any of these things.

All that exists in memory is the same lonely and gloomy life as always.

Then even greater pain came over her, and at that moment she clearly realized that she had been quietly changed since she didn't know when, just like a piece of white paper that had been filled with the other person's color without her noticing and could not be erased.

"just can not"

She choked up, her voice a little hoarse, and her tone even contained a pleading tone: "Can't you just like me?"

The only response I heard was a sigh.

"sorry."

The rain finally stopped completely. The streets were filled with water after the heavy rain, rippling like waves.

The platform is an isolated island in the sea.

For some reason, after getting the definite answer, my heart suddenly calmed down, and those torn and painful thoughts seemed to disappear along with the rain.

Or maybe, it just accumulates in the heart, rippling and occasionally beating the heart.

Chun Yuwan wiped her tears and looked at Bai Yang again.

"I don't like hearing you say sorry."

She took a deep breath and her tone became firm: "At least you didn't lie to me, Bai Yang. I still like you, I like you very much, but..."

"I may not be able to accept your love for me."

Bai Yang nodded: "I know." "This is unfair to you."

Chun Yuwan shook her head: "I don't care about fairness, I care about you."

She forced a smile and said, "Can you say that again? That sentence?"

"A thousand times, ten thousand times is fine." Bai Yang looked at her and said, "Xiao Yuwan, I like you."

"Once is enough." Chun Yuwan closed her eyes again, suppressing the tears that wanted to burst out again.

"Bai Yang, I don't know how to get along with you."

She murmured, "My inner impulse tells me not to see you again, not to have any contact with you, and even to leave here and go to a place where you will never find me."

Her body couldn't help but tremble, and her originally rosy lips now looked particularly pale, as if they would be broken by the night wind.

"But I can't do it. I really can't do it."

"So, what should I do?"

Bai Yang stepped forward, blocked the wind blowing towards her, and said: "I can't give you an answer, but I won't let you leave either."

"If you go somewhere where I can never find you, then I will look for you forever."

Chun Yuwan lowered her head and said, "Bai Yang, you are such a scoundrel."

She sniffed, her eyelashes fluttering: "It's always like this, you only know how to bully people."

"Yes." Bai Yang raised his hand to push away the girl's hair that was stuck to her face by the rain and tears. "I am a scoundrel, a selfish and greedy villain."

"So, don't worry about how to get along with me."

"People like me, no matter what happens, no matter what you think, will still shamelessly pester you like a disgusting pervert and will never let you go in this life."

Chun Yuwan raised her hand and covered Bai Yang's mouth.

"I don't like you saying that about yourself."

"You're not a pervert, nor are you disgusting, you're just..."

She paused and said, "I don't know how to describe it. Maybe, he is just... a very excessive person."

She sighed.

I can't stay away from him, but I don't know how to move on. I don't want to accept that he has someone else in his heart and force myself to be lovers, but I'm unwilling to be friends.
Let time take care of it.

She suppressed the confusion in her heart and said, "Let's go back. It's late."

"Yeah." Bai Yang nodded: "Is it cold?"

"Kind of."

"You need to take a hot shower, or you'll definitely catch a cold."

"No." Chun Yuwan said softly, "I didn't catch a cold last time I got caught in the rain."

"Instead, someone caught a cold."

Bai Yang was stunned for a moment, then retorted: "It's just a coincidence!"

"No, you are too weak." Chun Yuwan said seriously.

Bai Yang's face fell: "Xiao Yuwan, this is really hurtful."

Chun Yuwan looked at his exaggerated expression, and the familiarity from their previous interactions suddenly came to her mind, and she couldn't help but feel a sense of revenge.

"Deserved it."

It took a bit of time to write the chapters these past two days, so I have only finished two chapters today.

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