Shut up, I am really a pure love god of war!

Chapter 318 The first kiss smells like rain and tears

The two walked out of the barbecue restaurant.

Bai Yang turned to look at Chun Yuwan and asked, "Are you cold?"

"It's not cold." Chun Yuwan swayed a little and said, "Actually, you don't have to send me off specially. I'm not drunk."

"But you can't drink anymore." Bai Yang said, "It will be uncomfortable if you get really drunk. You don't have to experience that feeling."

Chun Yuwan felt a little dizzy, and even had a hard time telling what she was thinking. She just followed her instinct and muttered, "None of your business."

"You let me be myself, so why do you stop me from doing what I want to do?"

Bai Yang said: "Drinking is not something you want to do."

Chun Yuwan asked back: "Then what do I want to do?"

Bai Yang was silent.

"You don't know." Chun Yuwan shook her head and walked forward aimlessly: "I don't know either."

"Bai Yang, I have changed."

She stepped onto the curb and opened her arms. “I can’t seem to find myself.”

"Sometimes I even feel that painting is meaningless, and the dream of becoming a painter is meaningless. I don't know what to do."

"if--"

She turned to look at Bai Yang, but her expression was unclear under the dim street light: "I wish I could be as free and easy as you, so clean and neat."

Without waiting for Bai Yang to answer, she turned her gaze back and said softly, "Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming you."

"It was all my fault in the first place. I was the one who asked you to let me go. I was the one who pushed you away. I don't regret it. Compared to before, maybe it's better now. I'm just not used to it."

Bai Yang finally spoke up and said, "It's not your fault."

"Isn't it?"

"No." Bai Yang walked over and stood shoulder to shoulder with her: "From the beginning to the end, the only thing wrong was the wrongdoings of a blindly arrogant and self-righteous person."

As a reborn person, he thought he was the protagonist of this world, and that it was natural for him to have two people at the same time, so he had the best of both worlds. However, he could not let go of the ridiculous persistence in his heart. He thought he was not a scumbag who played with people's feelings, and did not want to use deception.
But isn’t it really?

Chun Yuwan could see that he was taking advantage of his love for her and pressing her forward step by step, trying to make her accept his scumbag behavior, and how could he not see the struggle and pain she was experiencing in the process.

It's the same, just pretending not to see clearly.

When Chun Yuwan cried and admitted defeat, saying "it's not fair", Bai Yang felt as if he was hit by a heavy hammer.

Then I realized that the advantages of being a reborn person are emotionally meaningless.

Everything had been going smoothly for a long time, but it was just the result of the girl giving in step by step, accommodating bit by bit, until she had no more room to retreat.

Taking one more step forward would simply mean pushing the other person off a cliff, causing them to lose themselves and become their appendage.

Is this what you want?

If this is the case with the little fish balls, what about the little deer?

Does that overly proud girl have to break her pride herself, kneel on the ground and cry, before she can feel satisfied?

A few cold drops fell on my face.

Bai Yang raised his head.

"It's raining." Chun Yuwan said softly.

"It seems that not many shops are open at this time." Bai Yang frowned: "Let's go faster, it will probably rain heavily soon."

"No," Chun Yuwan said, "Walk slower."

“I found that I still like the rain.”

When she said this, she looked at Bai Yang seriously.

"Yeah." Bai Yang nodded.

Chun Yuwan still had the afterglow of alcohol on her face. She raised her hand and touched Bai Yang's face: "I still like you, too."

Bai Yang's body paused slightly.

"Bai Yang, you said that liking something like this won't disappear so easily."

She sounded a little confused: "But, it will eventually disappear, right?"

"Maybe, when I stop liking you, I can really be myself again."

"Do you hope that day will come?" Bai Yang asked.

"I don't hope so." Chun Yuwan stepped on the shoulder of the road. He seemed to be drunk. His feet tilted, his body lost balance, and he fell to one side.

"careful!"

Bai Yang quickly stepped forward and caught the other person.

Very smoothly, the girl fell into Bai Yang's arms, and stood firm by holding his waist, but she did not push him away. Instead, she put her face on his chest.

"It was an accident."

She listened to Bai Yang's heartbeat and whispered, "So, it doesn't count as you going back on your word."

"Hmm." Bai Yang hesitated for a moment and put his arms around the other's slender waist.

Chun Yuwan let out a slight moan and rubbed against my chest like a kitten.

"I'm drunk," she said.

"Ah."

“And it’s raining.”

"Ah."

"So, no matter what I did, it was because I was drunk and it was raining." She raised her head slightly, "Because alcohol and rain would make me lose my mind."

Bai Yang stared into her misty eyes.

The girl stood on tiptoes slightly.

It tasted cool, soft and slightly salty.

Bai Yang's arms around the other person tightened unconsciously, he took a deep breath, and responded with force, as if he wanted to merge the other person into his body.

Until I could hardly breathe.

Panting, the girl took the initiative to push Bai Yang away.

She stood in the rain and suddenly laughed.

"Bai Yang, I took the initiative."

"So, even if my love disappears, I won't suffer any loss."

Bai Yang reached out her hand again, trying to hold the other person back, but she took another step back.

"that's not allowed."

“Until you figure out what you really want. Until you know how to choose.”

"Bai Yang, I can't wait for you too long."

"I will soon forget what happened tonight, and then we can just be ordinary friends like we have been doing these days."

Bai Yang listened carefully to what the other party said.

Then, in the other person's astonished gaze, he took another step forward, firmly put his arms around the other person's waist, lowered his head, and kissed her hard.

"Well--"

Chun Yuwan struggled, but her strength became weaker and weaker.

Until Bai Yang took the initiative to let go of the other person.

"This way, we won't suffer any loss."

He said viciously:
"Who do you think I am, Xiaoyuwan? Are you acting in an idol drama with me here?"

"You have the final say on how to start, but I have the final say on how to end!"

"I really haven't thought it through yet, and I really don't know how to choose. Or I simply don't want to choose, but don't think you can forget it so easily."

"I will forget everything tomorrow"

"If you can't remember it once, try it twice. If you can't remember it twice, try it again!"

Chun Yuwan shuddered slightly: "No, no more."

Only then did she suddenly realize that she was playing with fire.

A bad guy like Bai Yang, even if he feels guilty, even if he behaves normally recently, it is just a temporary disguise. Once he moves forward a little bit, his unscrupulous nature will be instantly revealed.

He always has to take the initiative so that things will not end as he expected.

(End of this chapter)