One way to go north

Chapter 487
He stopped and fell into the memory, the girl who always blushed but was extremely stubborn in front of him seemed to be right in front of him...

There are some things that are inconvenient to say to children...

He remembered that on her birthday, she was so happy that she forced him to ask for leave to celebrate her birthday with her, but he couldn't resist it. It's not that he was unhappy with this girl, but he just didn't dare...

He has too many worries, he is afraid that he will wrong her if he is too old, he is afraid that her being a student will hinder her, he is afraid that his status as an instructor will make her fall into rumors and bring pressure on her...

He is afraid of too many things...

However, she is so brave and persistent...

Her birthday finally brought about a qualitative change in everything...

At that time, she had just graduated and had already been assigned as a teacher in an elementary school with her own dormitory.Her birthday happened to be on the weekend, so she invited him to her dormitory and cooked for him.

She also has wine.She kept toasting to him, said thank you many times, and also expressed her thoughts half-heartedly...

In the end, both he and she were drunk, and she hugged him bravely...

That was the only time they...

The feelings accumulated for a long time broke out suddenly, and he realized how much he loved this beautiful and lovely girl. If it wasn't for what happened later, he would definitely stay with her forever...

He omitted this paragraph, and went on to say, "Later, the army received the task of fighting the flood, and I didn't have time to see her. I called her school to tell her, but I couldn't find her... and later... my comrade-in-arms sacrificed..."

He told Zuo Chenyuan the story Wang Jingqiu had told, and at the end, he choked up, "Chenyuan, did I do something wrong?"

After hearing this, Zuo Chenyuan didn't know how to evaluate it. His father's way of thinking was different from his generation. He only knew that if it was him, he would never give up on the one he loves.

"This..." Zuo Chenyuan hesitated, "Uncle Lu, it's a thing of the past anyway, right and wrong are meaningless..."

"It won't pass...it will never pass...it's always in my heart..."

Lu Zhengyu's black pupils showed pain that Zuo Chenyuan had never seen before. He thought that Lu Zhengyu meant that Tan Wan would always be in his heart, and he didn't know what to say for a moment. I pretended to be mature in front of Lu Zhengyu, so I tried to find the right words, "Uncle Lu, it's actually a kind of beauty for some people to keep things in their hearts..."

Lu Zhengyu's absent-minded eyes suddenly focused, and he gave him a sharp look. Zuo Chenyuan thought that he had said something wrong, so he lowered his head.

Lu Zhengyu knew that he didn't understand what he meant, and his expression was even more painful. Yes, Tan Wan was indeed always in his heart, but there was another image that was always tumbling in his mind...

He smiled wryly, "Chen Yuan, you don't know... that time of fighting against the flood... I should have died..."

He has never told anyone about this matter. Chen Yuan is a child, and he must not understand how painful it is to see his dearest comrade-in-arms being swept away by the flood with his own eyes...

Zuo Chenyuan was stunned.

This kind of story seems to be heard a lot, but I never thought it would happen to me, to someone I know well...

In an instant, he seemed to understand Lu Zhengyu's painful psychology of being unable to choose between love and affection, although he still disagreed with Lu Zhengyu's choice.However, he thought, if everything was done again, Lu Zhengyu would still make the same choice, this is Lu Zhengyu...

"Uncle Lu..." He really couldn't find words to comfort him.

Lu Zhengyu shook his hand, he didn't need his comfort, and tightened his brows, "Let's get back to the matter of looking for Wanwan! What do you think? After this story is finished, it reminded me, about Guess where Wanwan went."

Zuo Chenyuan's eyes lit up, "Go back to the south to find your father?"

Lu Zhengyu nodded slowly...

"This silly girl! Her father is gone! I don't know if she has any money? What if she is hungry and has no money to buy food?" Zuo Chenyuan said anxiously.

"So let's go find her as soon as possible!" Zuo Chenyuan looked worried about Wan Wan, and he was also moved by it.

But Zuo Chenyuan made a proposal at this time that made Lu Zhengyu admire, "Uncle Lu, I think I can go to the south alone, and Wanwan still has a grudge against you now, and I don't know what will happen when I see you; Besides, we only suspect that she went to the south. What if she didn’t go to Beijing? Maybe she will come back again? Then what should we do when we come here? Third, you have different identities now, so it’s not convenient to travel , it’s quite troublesome, so let me go!”

These words are well-organized and well-reasoned, not like what a high school student said. Although Lu Zhengyu knew that Zuo Chenyuan had always been mature, he still gave Zuo Chenyuan admiring eyes at this time, but he hesitated in his heart, "But...your father Will mom agree? What about your homework?"

Zuo Chenyuan patted his chest and assured, "Uncle Lu, don't worry, my parents will agree. As for going to school, I am very sure of myself!"

Lu Zhengyu also knew that Zuo Chenyuan was easy to study and always learned ahead of time. It should be no problem to ask for a few days off, so he held his hand and said earnestly, "Chenyuan, please..."

Bend off the train, facing this strange city and the humid air, I feel at a loss.She doesn't know what father's name is, what kind of job he does, and where he is right now...

After thinking about it, I should find a place to live first, and then ask slowly.

After counting the money in my pocket, I didn't dare to live in an expensive hotel, so I found a cheap family hotel. The room was simple but clean, so I just made up with it.

She was a little hungry, but she endured it and decided not to buy food for the time being. If her father couldn't find it, she would only have one day's rent in her pocket. It was better to be hungry than to live on the streets.

After the residence was settled, she couldn't wait to leave the door and walked towards the police station. Her only clue was her mother's name...Wang Jingqiu, I hope to find some breakthroughs from this name.

She came to the Civil Affairs Bureau as a child, but the staff didn't take her seriously and told her to go home quickly.

In the end, she was forced to cry, but she didn't pretend to cry. She had been crying for the past two days.

She cried and said that she came to find her biological father, her mother passed away, and no one cares about her now.

After hearing this, the staff of the Civil Affairs Bureau became kinder, and really helped her find it, and gave her the answer she wanted. Wang Jingqiu had a marriage before marrying Lu Zhengyu, and the record before the remarriage was that she was widowed...

It turns out that my father is no longer alive...

This news put a painful mark on the curved sky, which was already full of dark clouds. She didn't even know how she got out of the Civil Affairs Bureau.

Her father, whom she had never met before, was no longer alive, and she felt that she couldn't even find the direction of her grief.

That was her biological father, she should be heartbroken for it, shouldn't she?

It is true that she is sad, but what is the most painful point in her heart?
Under the gloomy southern sky, she finally realized the true meaning of the words in the book... There is no place for her in this huge world...

Home in Beijing, is it necessary for her to go back?
If the mother is still there, she still has a reason to stay. If the mother is gone, what capacity will she continue to live in?What's more, that person... that person was not loyal to his mother when she needed him the most...

Thinking of this, she felt a pang of pain in her heart, after all, it was the person she had loved for more than ten years...

For no reason, I thought of Zuo Chenyuan, and began to miss him crazily. In this world, only Zuo Fatty seems to be the closest person...

She really wanted to call him, to hear his voice, then she wouldn't feel lonely, won't be so hesitant and helpless...

But she can't.

Zuo Fatty will definitely tell Dad to catch her and go home, and she will never go back to that home...

Fatty Zuo, goodbye...

She was thinking silently in her heart, tears pouring out, maybe, from now on, she will never see Zuo Fatty again...

Zuo Chenyuan's figure could not help but appear before her eyes, especially his bright eyes, like stars in the dark, made her feel longing and warm...

(End of this chapter)