After slacking my ex, he became my marriage partner

Chapter 169 Extra Story: Ji Fanli
The first time I saw Ah Ruan was in autumn.

The sky was blue, it had just rained, the ground was wet, and there was a muddy smell of rain mixed with dust in the air.

In front of me a group of tall and obviously Lianjiazi surrounded me, I looked at them coldly, as if I saw the proud and rampant appearance of the people behind them.

They laugh and I laugh with them.

I laughed that they thought I was the trash that they could handle.

Mother died.

The eldest brother is jealous.

Father does nothing.

After my mother died, I never felt the warmth of my family for a day, nor was I cared for by anyone.

The sky suddenly fell into autumn rain again, as if crying with me in the past.The cold rain fell on my face, but I felt a burst of heat, and the blood in my bones also boiled.

Over the years, I have had enough.

They rushed forward, this time, of course I will not resist.I aimed at a dead tree branch on the ground. In extreme cases, any object would become my weapon.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and when they swarmed up, I could already smell the blood in the air ahead of time.

It is the most suitable to commemorate my childhood.
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Ruan, do you know?At that moment, I was ready for everything.

But your appearance disrupted it.

Ah Ruan, before I met, I never thought I would fall in love with a strange woman at first sight.

After meeting you and being protected by you, I thought absurdly that if there is someone who can protect me all the time and continue to be a waste...it is not unacceptable.

Ruan, do you know?I have never been protected by anyone, you are the first.

But you appeared so suddenly that the moment I was drawn back by your voice, I even forgot to pretend.
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I've heard that you, Miss Cheng, are loved by your father and have no worries about food and clothing since childhood. A person like you is in a different world from me.

So much so that, in Baicheng, I only heard about you, but never met you.

That day, you were hurt because of me, leaving a scar behind your ear.

You know, every time I see that scar, my heart beats so violently that it almost pops out of my chest.

A Ruan, if I can always get your love, I would like to fall into the endless hell after death. I don't believe in God, but I am willing to believe in God once for you, and I am willing to make a deal with God for you.

But you won't always love me, no, you haven't even loved me.
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The first time I met Xu Yunjie was a month after I met Ah Ruan.

Ah Ruan was drunk.

I went to pick her up, but saw her being hugged by another man. I was so angry that I couldn't hide my overwhelming hostility.

But the next moment, the man turned around, and I saw his face clearly.

He is... Ah Ruan's mysterious ex-boyfriend.

He is back?

Ah Ruan, I'm really sorry that I investigated all of your past in private without your consent.

Ah Ruan, it turns out that you are kind to me because of him?

Ah Ruan, I am not him.

Ah Ruan...
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I stayed up almost all night, and I couldn't accept Ah Ruan leaving me.

I was ready to fight everything, but Ah Ruan, your ex-boyfriend... unexpectedly left before you woke up.

You didn't know he had been here.

I'm not going to let you know either.
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I opened the West Street Bar for Ah Ruan.

She likes to drink and indulge. I don't feel at ease when she goes to other people's places, so I create a place for her to let you indulge at will.

In the next few years, he often came back, but A Ruan would never find out.

I think, as long as he doesn't show up in front of A Ruan, as long as he doesn't take A Ruan away, I can bear it.

But I couldn't keep Ah Ruan, and what I was worried about finally happened one day four years later.
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Four years later.

Xu Yunjie is back.

He also has a marriage relationship with Ah Ruan.

For the first time, I was moved with despicable thoughts. I hated the world, but I also borrowed the shackles of the world in an attempt to lock Ah Ruan by my side.

The Ji family's forced marriage can't help me, it's Xu Yunjie's appearance that makes me unbearable.

In fact, I began to regret that night, and began to reflect on whether my behavior would become a catalyst for the relationship between you and him.

Ah Ruan came to see me, but I excused myself from being locked up by Ji's family, so I didn't see her.

Ah Ruan, the Ji family can't control me, I just... don't want to see you stand against me.
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I hibernate, looking for opportunities.

I know better than anyone how despicable my mind is, but so what?Where can the world be cleaner than me?
At least, I dare to stick a knife in my heart, pierce the chest with the tip of the knife, and dig out a true heart and hold it in front of you.

Ah Ruan, look, it's alive, it's beating for you, it's yours.

It belongs only to you.

I heard from you again after Mrs. Cheng's birthday banquet.

At the old lady of the Cheng family's birthday banquet, the news that you easily took back the shares of the Cheng family was widely spread in Baicheng. I am very happy and proud of you.

In fact, you don't need to work so hard, as long as it is what you want, let alone the Cheng family, even the whole Baicheng, I will give it to you.

But you won't let me help you...

Nor will they really do anything to those of the Cheng family who only want to hurt you.

I know that my Ah Ruan is a very emotional person.

Then why, your mercy, never for me?
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Zhao Xuanrui's appearance was really timely.

Finally, let me find a chance.

I can't wait to find you.

Xu Yunjie violated your big taboo, no one knew, at that moment, I was so happy that I almost went crazy.

I put the entanglement between him and Zhao Xuanrui in front of you, I can see that you are sad, I want to hug you, kiss you, and tell you not to love him anymore...

When you read the news, you were very angry, and you rushed to Xu Yunjie's house. I couldn't hear the movement inside through a door, and I don't know why... You can forgive him in just ten minutes.

He even ran to Lexi Town to look for him late at night.

I'm standing outside the airport in the shadows, just as dark as my love.

I looked at the sky, looking at the direction you left.

Ah Ruan...my Ah Ruan.
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I thought it was your nature to forgive him no more.

But you are still reconciled.

I tear myself apart in violence every day, how can I be willing to let you out?
Ah Ruan, my despicable love can't be put on the table, hypocritical and hesitant.Never dared to let you notice.

You never know how every time I face you, I try my best to suppress the surging desire in my heart time and time again, and carefully hide those violent seeds.

But even then, you still don't like me.

Ah Ruan, come and love me, I am willing to throw away all my self-esteem, I am willing to kneel in front of you.

Please, love me.
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After you came back from Lexi Town, I never appeared in front of you again.

I humbly pray that one day you can remember me, and you will find that a person named Ji Fanli has disappeared from your life.

I beg, I long, and I fantasize about your discomfort.

I even deluded myself and told myself that you will miss me...

Ah Ruan, there is not a day that I miss you.

I waited and waited, and finally another day, let me wait until you.
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You actually came to West Street alone.

Oh no, not alone, Xu Yunjie arrived after you, I stood where you couldn't see, observed you for a long time, and finally I was convinced that you had a fight.

I looked at Xu Yunjie's face that was somewhat similar to mine, and evil thoughts came to my heart almost instantly.

I go out and stand in front of you.

At this moment, I am so close to you, and I have found an outlet for my longing for many days.

I didn't drink, but I was drunk.

But your eyes are so cold, you don't even want to give me the illusion of a moment.

I said those words on purpose to make Xu Yunjie jealous. He finally lost his composure and got punched in the face. It didn't hurt, but an unspeakable excitement lingered in my heart.

Security came around and I told them to disperse.

At this moment, I am a victim.

Ruan, will you feel sorry for me?
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After you left, I kept people following you and told me every move of you and Xu Yunjie.

After knowing that you quarreled with him, I couldn't control myself and ran to you again.

When I saw you, you just cried, Ah Ruan, you... Forget it, you must not have the patience to listen to me tell you how much I felt sorry for you at that moment.

I am by your side, guarding you, wanting you to forget those troubles, and thinking hard about how to make you happy.

Ah Ruan, I still can't believe it when I think about it.

That night, when you said you wanted to date me, my first reaction was to wonder if I really loved you to the point of madness.

I actually had auditory hallucinations?
But when you are sleeping on my bed, smelling of me on your body, drinking the milk I warmed for you, wrapping your hair in my hands, and the person lying next to my pillow is you, and I hold you tightly in my arms... …

Knowing that it was a dreamy scene, at that moment, I was also crazy.

I actually began to fantasize uncontrollably about our marriage, our children, the days and nights with you in the future, and the mingling of soul, body, and soul with you.

That night, what you said was beyond my expectation, I never thought of it before.

Can't even imagine dreaming.

You said you were going to forget him, I want to believe it, Ah Ruan, I really want to believe it, but I know, you can't forget him.
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I stand on the sidelines and watch you fall in love.

There is a tug-of-war between you and him, back and forth so many times, this time, I finally see clearly that it is impossible for you and him to end, the two of you are more proud than the other, but you are both willing to bow your head for each other and throw away That ridiculous principle and self-esteem.

All I can do is crave a little pleasure in this stolen time.
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I know you're going to leave me sooner or later, and I'm even ready for you to wake up the next day and regret it.

Xu Yunjie appeared sooner than I expected.

He took you.

I didn't stop, not because I didn't want to, nor because I didn't dare, but because I knew it was time to wake up from my dream.

Stolen pleasure can only be stolen.

But when that moment really comes, Ah Ruan, I will also be in pain.
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A few days later, I will see you again in the hospital.

Ruan, do you know?At that moment, I really wanted to die in front of you.I imagine the scene of blood splattering all over my body, I imagine that I will let you remember me forever in the most tragic way, I want to visualize my love for you, I would like to water my love for you with blood .

Ah Ruan, I love the way you have violent emotional ups and downs because of me.

Countless dark and complicated thoughts are intertwined in my mind, almost in the next moment, I will break through the superficial moral shackles.

But I can't bear it after all.

My Ah Ruan must be clean and not stained with the blood of a lunatic like me.
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As I said, everyone who hurts you deserves to die.

I started planning, I am willing to consume myself, I am willing to take risks with my body, even if I die, I will exchange you for a carefree future.

I designed Cheng Ran to be kidnapped, and I indirectly killed Fang Shuqi.

I designed Cheng Rongshan to attack Zhao Xuanrui, to unintentionally become a knife in the hands of others, and make wedding dresses for others, but I don't regret it.

In the end, Zhao Xuanrui was destroyed, and Cheng Rongshan... also died.

Ah Ruan, I didn't want him to die, but I couldn't escape the guilt of his death.

I broke your heart...

How can I make it up?

Apologize with death?

I think that will only increase your pain.

Moreover, if you don't love me, if I die in front of you, you will only feel sorry for me for a few days, and then slowly forget me. I can't accept being forgotten by you, so I want to live well.

live to love you.

As long as I live, there will always be someone in this world who will love you.

But Ah Ruan, I'm really... so unwilling.

Ah Ruan, please, love me...

(End of this chapter)