I'm taking the big guy along the emotional line

Chapter 538 The Rise of the Cold Palace (22)

It’s just that sometimes I’m actually regretful, and I’ll wonder if I’d meet a woman who likes me if I’m not married to the emperor, and I wouldn’t be so tired. Sometimes I think about Sometimes I will think of what I was like when I was persuaded by my parents.

At that time, I really liked this person, so I understood all the possibilities and impossibilities at that time, but I didn't believe them.

This time she told this Mu Qianyu that she was actually very envious that Mu Qianyu really had an experience where you liked the other person and the other person also liked you. These are not easy for those who have entered the palace early. .

Because it is actually not easy to meet someone you like, and then it is even more difficult for both parties to like each other. Anyway, I know the difficulty of these things.

At that time, I hated Mu Qianyu because of this. At that time, I felt that I was really jealous. I was jealous not because the emperor liked this person, but because of this person, whether it was because of the emperor or because of Prince Hui. There is a person who really likes this person. This is something that I don’t have, or never have. There is only endlessness here, which is to consume all my youth for one person, even for myself. When I saw the emperor, I had already learned the so-called mechanical smirk.

I just knew that it was impossible for me to be very specific to someone just because of one thing. In fact, Mu Qianyu didn't offend me very much at that time, so the only thing I could do was to minimize my meeting with this person. It seemed that this In this way, I won't be more uncomfortable in the past.

At that time, when I was faced with many problems, I actually felt a thump in my heart, because I felt that these things could not be solved by myself.

But at that time, my mother and the maids who came with me would say, you are the queen, if you don't solve it, you can't say that you are the mother of a country.

You have to learn to solve it by yourself. In fact, some problems are really difficult, but no one can understand your difficulties, and you can only try by yourself.

Later, Mu Qianyu started this square dance. For everyone, there is a place to go. In fact, there are not so many people to criticize. I actually feel that I am very relaxed, but this Muqianyu has not been doing it for a long time. , she was a little worried, so she went to find this person.

I have been in the palace for so long, from the beginning I was still expecting that after I had been with the emperor for a long enough time, I would be able to get the emperor's favor, but in the end, I was just a respectful guest. People who heard this word before At that time, I feel how wonderful it is!

Later I realized that this vocabulary is not beautiful at all, because you can't get many things because of this vocabulary. The so-called respect as a guest is nothing more than the other party doesn't like you very much, so you can treat you with respect as a guest, but anyone who likes you is true. can't do it.

Because sometimes liking and love can't be hidden, and it's impossible to tell you that it's okay.

This is impossible, so my heart at that time was actually a kind of strong sadness, which is the kind that no one knows.

Because everyone thinks that the emperor and himself are very good, even if they have never met the emperor, they will ask the queen about everything, but when it is time, I am actually very sad in my heart.

I think that all the problems are actually only clear to me, and I still have no way to explain them.

(End of this chapter)