Deer in deep forest

Chapter 72 Only after I parted from you did I realize that the process of my love for you was all completed in the parting.

The New Year's Eve dinner was organized by Tang Su and Gu Yanshu together. It is said that Gu Yanshu is also the chef.

Xi Guang didn't know what the dishes were like, but felt that the aroma was tangy and very attractive.Fifty stood guard at the door instead of running wildly in the yard, and waited for the meal honestly, drooling slobberingly.

Gu Yanshu drank some wine with Tang Su, Xiguang had a glass of fresh orange juice in front of him, and bone soup at fifty, each had their own arrangements.

From time to time, dishes with chopsticks would be brought over from the left and right sides, and Xi Guang's bowl was piled up into a hill, and it was almost impossible to put it down.Tang Su said: "My girl can eat it, so I need to change it to a bigger pot."

Even Gu Yanshu laughed.

Xi Guang packed a mouthful of rice, unable to speak and defend, chewing angrily, her cheeks bulging.

Surrounding the fire to watch the New Year at night, the sound of firecrackers outside kept ringing.When the Spring Festival Gala started, Tang Su said that he would go to the living room and turn on the TV to watch sketches. Although the quality of the programs has declined in recent years, it has become less and less funny.

Xiguang and Gu Yanshu accompanied her, and the other was responsible for destroying snacks and feeding fifty.After one browsed through the emails in the phone, he just sat there.

"Aren't you two going out to play?" Tang Su asked.

Xi Guang smiled and said, "I just want to be with you!"

"Don't get tired of me," Tang Su took a sip of tea, "You are lazy and don't want to move."

"It's so sad Pacific..."

"You are poor..."

Gu Yanshu stared ahead, listening to their bickering, a faint smile suddenly appeared on his lips.

A little later, Xi Guang went out and made a call to Luo Nanzhou who was far away in H City.

Luo Nanzhou seemed to be outside, and the other side was more lively than she had imagined.The two of you said one sentence to another, chatted casually, and talked about whatever came to mind.Xi Guang said that in the second half of this year, a transfer student from out of town came to the class, with a sweet and soft voice, singing like Teresa Teng.Nan Zhou said that the business of the bookstore is still decent. He planted a pot of irises and took care of them for a long time to feed them. They bloomed once at the end of June...

Luo Nanzhou asked: "Xi Guang, how have you been these two years?"

Xi Guang said, "I'm fine, and I've gained four catties."

Luo Nanzhou stopped asking, "Happy New Year."

Xiguang smiled slightly: "Nanzhou, Happy New Year..."

After hanging up the phone and returning to the living room with Xiguang, Tang Su began to feel sleepy. After all, as the years passed, her body was not as good as before, and she was easily fatigued mentally.

Tang Su took out two red envelopes from the inner pocket of the padded jacket, and gave them to Xiguang and Yanshu, one for each, "Okay, you guys continue to watch the year, I'm going back to my room to sleep, my eyes are tired, and I can't bear it anymore. "

Xiguang said a long string of auspicious words to her, and obediently accepted the red envelope.

Although Gu Yanshu is not very clear about this, but he has a good memory, repeating Xi Guang's lines without missing a single word.

The CCTV Spring Festival Gala was still going on, Xi Guang pulled up the blanket on her knees, and suddenly remembered to ask: "Yanshu, have you drunk today's Chinese medicine?" She never forgets to supervise it every morning and evening, like a set time alarm clock.

"The results of the inspection came out that day, and there is nothing wrong with it." Gu Yanshu said.The implication is that I am in good health and the medicine can be stopped.

Xi Guang muttered dissatisfiedly: "Then you have to finish the bowl tonight, I have been cooking for a long time." He deliberately emphasized, "I boiled it myself! I almost burned my hand."

Gu Yanshu got up and went to the kitchen.After drinking the medicine, he came back with an extra cup of hot milk and stuffed it for Xi Guang.

Xiguang smelled the smell and felt a little fishy, ​​it seemed to be the can of powder that the old lady bought her, and she didn't like it very much before.Covering the body of the cup with ten fingers, she turned it tirelessly in the palm of her hand. After playing for a while, she didn't see her tilting her head up to drink.

Gu Yanshu said: "Warm stomach." After a pause, "I made it myself."

Xi Guang felt a kind of pressure invisibly. At critical times, he should know the current affairs.She kicked her legs, poured it into her mouth in one go, and returned the cup to Gu Yanshu, "I'm done!"

"From now on, have a cup every morning and evening."

"puff--"

"Yanshu..."

"what happened again?"

"You turn off the TV, let's chat?" Xi Guang suggested.

The screen in front of her turned off, and the singing stopped abruptly. Gu Yanshu put the remote control back to its original place and asked her, "What do you want to talk about?"

Xiguang replied quickly and sincerely: "I don't know."

Gu Yanshu rubbed between his brows, Hei Yao's eyes were full of helplessness.

Xiguang said: "I want to read novels, why don't you read them to me? I just returned to Nanyao two years ago. The old lady loved me very much and read a few pages to me every night to relieve my fatigue. I feel sorry for me, and in less than a week, Chapter 3 of "White Horse Roaring to the West Wind" hasn't finished yet..."

Gu Yanshu understood her very well, and deduced: "It should be because you dozed off listening to it. The old lady hates iron for being weak, and she gave up on you after saving it for a week without any results."

Xi Guang was astonished and asked, "The old lady told you about this? Did she expose me again?"

Gu Yanshu said, "No."

Xi Guang's heart fell back into her stomach, and said: "It's really because she read without emotion, her tone didn't fluctuate, and she was dry from beginning to end. It was really hypnotic." After she finished speaking, she pulled Gu Yanshu's sleeve, feeling guilty. He asked calmly, "Is the door of the old lady's room closed? She must be asleep, can't you hear me?"

Gu Yanshu said: "You tell her tomorrow."

Xi Guang shrank her head and confessed: "I dare not, I am afraid of being beaten, and my butt will be swollen."

"When I was young, I invited my tutor to come, and the Chinese teacher reported the situation, saying that as soon as she recited the text, you fell asleep, couldn't wake up, and drool." Gu Yanshu then threw a landmine.

Xi Guang was taken aback, and excitedly argued: "How can I! It's because she read without emotion, with no ups and downs in her tone, dry from beginning to end, really hypnotized. And I absolutely, absolutely will not drool. !"

"No, today I have to prove it to you." Xi Guang said: "Yan Shu, you read it, I listen, see if I will fall asleep!"

Gu Yanshu asked: "What are you reading?"

Xiguang waved her hand and said, "Whatever you want. I can bear whatever you read." She guessed that Gu Yanshu would read "The Legend of the Condor Heroes". This book is Tang Su's favorite, and she always likes to keep it in the living room. On the coffee table, turn over when you have nothing to do.

She waited for Gu Yanshu to speak, "The vast river water of the Qiantang River bypasses Niujia Village in Lin'an endlessly day and night, and flows eastward into the sea. There are dozens of black cypress trees in a row beside the river, the leaves are as red as fire. , it is August day..."

After a while, what I heard was another word, scattered lines of poetry.

"When you are old and gray and sleepy,

Sitting by the fireside tired, took down this book,

I read slowly, the eyes of those who chased my dreams back then,

Your soft look and deep shadows.

How many people have loved your fleeting figure,

Loved your beauty, false or true,
Only one ever loved your pilgrim's heart,
I love the traces of time on your mournful face.

Brows bowed over the mantle,
Contemplating, murmuring,

How love dies, how it climbs the hills,

How to hide your face among the stars. "

It was noisy outside, but the room was silent. The cold and low voice did not fluctuate, and the recitation went on all the way.Xi Guang's heart beats like a drum, and he is drawn by every word. In the boundless darkness, his sense of hearing is magnified infinitely.

Gu Yanshu asked: "Dozing off?"

Xi Guang didn't speak, how could she doze off.The speed of blood circulation is accelerated, every cell in the body becomes active, and the brain nerves are very excited.

What I think in my heart is, Yanshu, I really can't bear it if you do this.

Xiguang was about to suspect that Gu Yanshu had added a high concentration of alcohol to the glass of milk just now, otherwise how could she be slightly drunk like a drunk person, as if bewitched by that voice."What are you reading?" she asked.

Gu Yanshu said: "Yeats's poem, "When You Are Old."

Xi Guang said, "It sounds like a love poem."

Gu Yanshu said: "It was originally."

Xi Guang felt that he was really drunk, so he dared to tell Gu Yanshu with a shy face: "Don't read love poems to girls casually in the future, it's not good, it's easy to attract bees and butterflies..."

Gu Yanshu interrupted her coldly and said, "I'm not casual."

"I know..." Xiguang was thicker than a city wall tonight, and he smiled and said, "You are not casual at all, you only read to me alone. Yanshu, do you dare to read now?" Tell me——I like you?" At the end, she became nervous, like a half-true joke, but she took it seriously first.

"I love you." Gu Yanshu said.

The phone on the table was vibrating constantly.

All kinds of calls came in, from Lu Wanliang, Gu Changxing, work assistants, partners...not because of New Year's greetings, but because of problems with the capital chain of Gu's company, which has reached a precarious level.During the two years when he was in a coma, some senior executives of the company made some mistakes, and the direction gradually went astray, and the accumulated economic crisis inevitably came.

In Lu Wanliang's text message, there are only three or two lines, but it is very clear.

"Xi Guang, come back with me to City A to fix your eyes, okay?"

Xi Guang was still pressing on his throbbing chest last second, but now his face turned pale, and the scars were uncovered in vain.

"Are you going back to City A?" She sighed and said with a smile, "Yanshu, it seems that every time you confess your love, there will be thunder waiting for me..."

Gu Yanshu said: "I want you to be with me."

Xiguang said: "On the day of the Lantern Festival, the elementary school here in Nanyao is about to start, and I have to go to class." She pretended to stand up calmly, and after taking two steps, she tripped over the coffee table, but quickly stabilized her forward leaning body of.

She knew that Gu Yanshu was right behind her, but even if she turned her head, she could only see impenetrable darkness, like the night at three or four o'clock in the morning that she had seen before.

She said: "Yanshu, I am very happy that you came to Nanyao. It seems that I have never been so happy. But I knew from the time you came that you will leave one day. You do not belong to Nanyao." So she Cherish the time we spend together these few days, like escaping from reality, and ignore everything in the past, as long as this person is safe and sound in front of you, it is better than everything else.

But he should leave and return to the vast world that belongs to him.

He is Gu Yanshu, and he deserves the best.

Really like someone, that's about it, want to give him the best, even if the best is not yourself.

Such liking should be called love.

Wang Xiaobo told Li Yinhe that loving you is like loving life.It was only after I parted from you that I realized that the process of my love for you was all completed in parting.

As long as Xiguang recalls a little bit, she feels that a long time has passed. She and Gu Yanshu have been separated many times since they met when they were young.She heard that after the separation, the love will become weaker and weaker, but she feels that this feeling is increasing little by little, gradually filling the entire chest.

Perhaps, this is actually the whole process of love that belongs to her alone?
It's almost midnight.

Fire trees and silver flowers never go night.

Bright fireworks rose into the sky, and the golden light and shadow reflected her face.She said with infinite regret: "Yanshu, I'm sorry, this time, I'm afraid I can't go with you."

(End of this chapter)