Conan's Winery is all my vest

Chapter 203 Hallucinations and Placebos
Apologies and explanations are no longer important to Brandy.

Brandy, dragging his tired body, yawned sleepily.

Whether it is mental or physical strength, Brandy is already on the verge of a limit.

At this time, Brandy couldn't care less about thinking, why the empathy between him and Tachibana had been so thin that it almost disappeared, and now he just wanted to plunge into the arms of his other self and have a good sleep.

Brandy has always had a relatively serious sleep disorder, which was not so obvious when the identity card was just equipped.

However, with the opening of brandy-related identity tasks, it became more and more difficult for brandy to fall asleep, and correspondingly his sleep quality became worse.

Brandy can hear all kinds of non-existent voices in his ears all the time.

The content or form of these sounds is not fixed.

Sometimes it might be just a low-frequency and boring noise, sometimes it would be an indistinguishable whisper between men and women, and sometimes it would be a scream that could not be distinguished from humans.

Of course, most of the time, it was a group of people whispering the same sentence in Brandy's ear at random.

They were either instigating him to kill, or tempting him to point the knife at himself.

Brandy was also troubled by these voices at first, and he became more and more irritable, weird, violent and gloomy.

Belmode once told Amuro that Brandy is a lunatic who is always smiling briskly one second, but violently hurts people the next second without any warning.

But later, Brandy also slowly tried to change.

Gradually, Brandy also learned to be patient and suppressed, because he didn't want himself, and completely became a part that had to be given up by Juliang.

Brandy would find various things to distract himself during the day, and Brandy gradually got used to coexisting with the lingering auditory hallucinations.

But every night, Brandy, who was going to relax and fall asleep, would be tossed and turned by auditory hallucinations and faint, repeated pain.

Not to mention that Brandy almost always stayed up late in the night before falling asleep.

Even if she fell asleep, Brandy may wake up suddenly after a short sleep, painful and suffering.

Even if Brandy could sleep through the night occasionally, his dreams would be noisy and heavy that he couldn't remember, tormenting him almost out of breath and on the verge of suffocation.

After Brandy unlocked the series of missions, this kind of situation, which was only mild or occasional, became more and more common and more severe.

Of course it's getting more and more painful.

Brandy really felt for a while that he was going to go crazy sooner or later.

In fact, Brandy, who was originally mentally abnormal, didn't feel any trouble after getting used to the daily auditory hallucinations.

Anyway, as long as Brandy doesn't turn his head to think about too complicated things, the usual headaches or irritability are still within his tolerance.

But
Once there is something to think about, or something that can greatly affect his emotions, it will be different.

When thinking or being anxious, Brandy will suddenly feel all kinds of pain.

Whether it's the sudden exacerbation of cramps in the brain, the phantom pain that melts in the face, or the fact that someone is slowly hammering nails into his skull like a heavy hammer on the top of his head...

All kinds of pain and so on will make Brandy more anxious, impulsive and tyrannical.

Not to mention, at this time, he would suddenly have aggravated auditory hallucinations.

Therefore, if Brandy could not relieve the pain by killing at this time, he would subconsciously nibble or bite his fingers to divert his attention.

Because Brandy had to do something to barely maintain his sanity.

Brandy used to be very restrained, until one time when he lost control of his emotions, he bit his index finger bloody and was caught by Tachibana.

Only then did Tachibana realize that there seemed to be something wrong with Brandy.

Even if he is a devil, Tachibana can't do anything about Brandy's situation. This seems to be the pain that he must endure after equipping the brandy identity card.

But fortunately, Brandy and Juliang later discovered that as long as Brandy stays with Juliang, both auditory hallucinations and unexplained pain will be greatly reduced.

Even sometimes, when Brandy is with Tachibana, he suddenly realizes belatedly that the pain and hallucinations that have been tormenting him all this time have disappeared.

Tachibana is the only perch where Brandy can stop and breathe, seek refuge and peace.

Only by Ju Liang's side can Brandy be himself clearly and rationally.

This is also the reason why Brandy chose to move to Ju Liang to live here. Only by staying with Liang Zai can Brandy enjoy his long-lost sleep.

Maybe it was because they were one, maybe it was something else.

In short, brandy cannot live without Juliang.

After Brandy gradually got used to the tranquility and comfort of staying with Tachibana, he couldn't bear the whispers and phantom pain when he was alone.

If he had never seen the sun, he might have been able to bear the darkness.

But who made him have a good cub.

Now Brandy doesn't need to endure pain at all. Brandy knows that no matter what happens, the good boy will always be by his side.

He no longer has to be trapped in hallucinations, struggling silently.

He is confident.

Brandy raised his hand and rubbed his swollen forehead. The continuous flat and repeated short low-frequency noises in his ears made Brandy, who was already a little dizzy, feel even more uncomfortable.

Where is the good cub.

He didn't want to be angry with Liang Zai anymore, Zhi Qi was really too tired.

Walking into the side hall directly opposite the entrance with his slippers on, Brandy searched for Tachibana's trace.

When Brandy first found out that Ju Liang hadn't contacted him yet, because of a moment of anger, he wanted to have a cold war with Ju Liang and not talk, until Ju Liang coaxed him, he had long been forgotten by Brandy at this time .

He's not a kid anymore, how could he get angry with Liang Zai because of this kind of thing?

It wasn't a big deal.

Brandy firmly believed that Liang Zai must have been busy with something very important, so he could not reply in time.

He, Brandy, is not the kind of kid who insists on crying for candy when his parents are busy making money!
I just want Liang Zai to hug him like he did on his birthday.

Whether it's because of the hallucinations that started to haunt my body, or because of the exhaustion after experiencing the long memory of the past
Everything that happened today, everything he thought of...

Brandy couldn't help but want to seek warmth and comfort from himself, the only one in this world who understands all his pains.

　Thanks to Jiang Nianli for the reward

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