I loaded the hunter game

Chapter 44 Need affection for tool people?
A long dream.

In the dream, Su Tou saw himself in the original world.

Compared with most unfortunate people, Su Tou didn't feel how unfortunate he was.

But 'unfortunate' isn't the same word for everyone.The family background is superior, the career is smooth sailing, but there are people who choose to end their lives when they encounter a little setback. People who live at the bottom and can't even take care of a full meal naturally don't understand why they give up everything because of such insignificant things.

Su Tou thinks he is the former.

Although he lost his parents since he was a child in the original world, with some relatives' support and compensation, Su Tou reached adulthood smoothly.

Later, I got the admission notice from Northwest University of Science and Technology with excellent results.

It stands to reason that there is no dissatisfaction.Because the family relationship is lost before it has time to experience it, it is not a big deal except for envying those who have a happy family at certain times.Relatives are very kind to Su Tou.

At first, even Su Tou himself didn't know what kind of mood he was in.

Until the end of the freshman year, a relative said sincerely: "Su Tou, now you can relax a little bit, and don't push yourself so hard."

He suddenly understood.

In the years before that, I studied hard and worked hard, just to not disappoint those who helped me.

So now that goal has been achieved.

Why do I live for myself?

Some people may say that the problem of "living" is too big, and it is meaningless to think about this kind of problem. If everyone thought about this kind of problem, society would have collapsed long ago.

But Su Tou can't.

He must have a goal to work hard for, otherwise, he will keep thinking in vain, as terrifying as being trapped in a dark dungeon and unable to get out.

I know people who want to go to the Chinese Academy of Sciences to contribute to the country, who want to live an ordinary life, who want to temporarily change careers to become actors, and who want to become great doctors. Everyone has a goal to strive for.

Anyone can boast about what they want to do, and Su Tou yearns for the kind of excitement that he exudes.

but no.

After searching all that could be done, Su Tou couldn't find what he wanted.

Started to panic more and more.

To be precise, I feel that every minute and every second of living is just a meaningless waste of time, living in vain.

Su Tou knew he was hypocritical.

But rather than living in vain, he would rather be a person at the bottom of life.At least they still have the pursuit of food in their eyes.

Perhaps people who must need some support other than themselves are cowardly, vulnerable little people.But it is undeniable that Su Tou knows that he is such a weak existence.

later.

Maybe God also felt that I was too hypocritical, so I just let myself come to this world after a short sleep.

Although at first I felt that this could not be considered a lucky thing.

But after communicating with Saya, he also thought about really teaching her knowledge and bringing her into the human circle.Because this is her world, and I have such an obligation when I come here.

Think about it, if you don't fulfill such a task, what should you do?
If you don't fulfill your obligation to come here, I'm afraid it will be no different from your original life.Su Tuo deeply understood this point.

But, why did such a hard-to-serve supporting role pop up?
If she didn't read the file, she must be just a poor person who passed the blood at the beginning and made herself aware of Saya's cruelty.

But that logic doesn't make sense.If you can't read the file, even yourself is just a supporting role, and it is impossible to get out of the hospital alive.

So, she really can only be a supporting role?

Always make a decision.

Always doing what you think is right.

In the past, it was still like this after coming to this world.

But now.

Su Tou hugged Xia Li'er, listening to her small breathing like a small bellows.

Is she really just a supporting role who can shine with such a light that I am ashamed of it?
Has anyone defined it this way?

The system didn't say it, Saya didn't say it, passers-by didn't say it, and no one said it except himself.

It's like this.

Because no one asks for it, I will fall into confusion.

I just thought that the system said to help Saya, and thought that there would be danger and she shouldn't get involved.

Before looking back, I always thought so.

But wasn't it just because I thought so that she was buried in the ground and a tombstone was erected?

The black and white photos are inversely proportional to the lively and warm person in front of you.

I still remember the cold touch of the tombstone when I put the bouquet of flowers, and I remember the flowers that were blown up by the wind flew high and fell far away.

Perhaps at that time, I had silently accepted the fact that she was dead.Because it doesn't make any sense not to accept it.

But after regaining possession, Su Tou no longer wanted to try to recall that scene.

A fear that nothing can undo.

Insignificant that can do nothing.

If we think about it differently, does it mean that it is actually the safest thing to pull her by your side?
"Hmm..."

It seemed that because the posture was not comfortable enough, the person in his arms arched his body and leaned in.

When you lower your head, you can catch a glimpse of the corners of her mouth slightly raised.Probably had a good dream.

If you want to keep the previous thinking and always insist on 'protecting' her, then you should wake her up mercilessly now, and then tell her to leave in the most disgusting tone.

Su Tou began to hate himself.

Probably, from letting her go home together, going shopping together, to acquiescing to her lying beside her, and even taking the initiative to let her enter the room to continue.

This in itself shows that he has made a choice.If Ming knew that letting her go was the right thing to do, then what did he do afterwards?
Probably, this is what people often say about assertiveness.

Not because of who said it, but because of what I said from the bottom of my heart.

Because I don't want to do that.

So what if it's not correct?

In fact, no matter what you do, no one will jump out and accuse you of being wrong, that is right, everything is up to you.

Can't you make a choice on your own?

No.

A choice can be made, and no one will stop it.No one can stop it except yourself.

In this world, no one stipulates who is the necessary heroine and who is the supporting role who will leave early.If you must distinguish between primary and secondary.

So···
Su Tou stared at Xia Lier's peaceful face.

It would be better to have two heroines.No one said it couldn't be done.

Not long after, Xia Lier woke up.

She felt the coolness on her face, and subconsciously stretched out her hand to touch the pillow, which was wet.

"Ah this..."

"Too, wake up! Your saliva is on my face!"

She pushed Su Tou.

"That's the tears I shed for the poor you."

"Ghosts believe it! Tou, please at least change the pillow before sleeping! The skin will be corroded by saliva!"

"You think saliva is equivalent to sulfuric acid?"

"It's not that big of a difference!"

"Even if it will corrode, it has nothing to do with me."

"That will undoubtedly make things worse for me who was already disliked by you. The only bonus item for appearance is gone, please understand..."

"To shut up."

Su Tou stood up and changed a pillow: "If your face is corroded, maybe I have to accept you only because of the sense of responsibility."

"what···"

"Well, can the pillow be replaced? I suddenly felt that the pillow just now seemed more comfortable to sleep on than this one."

"Get up again, go out and turn left."

"Oh."

Xia Lier paused, then asked cautiously: "Does Tou hate me so much now?"

"I won't have any emotions for tool people."

"Is that so..."

Xia Lier twisted her body, moved closer, and said softly, "But it seems to have desire for tool people?"

ps: The next chapter is released, let’s make up for the changes... I’m tired

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