ex girlfriend secret

Chapter 202 The Appearance of Love

I stared at the phone and hesitated for a moment, put away the phone and said to the people around me, "I can go back by myself."

"Don't be like this." This is a group of enthusiastic night runners, and one of them said first: "How about we help you call the police and call 110, you can't stand up by yourself, and there are too many cars on the road at night, you like this Very unsafe."

I looked at the man who spoke, those were a pair of sincere eyes, although I was drunk, I could still feel it, I took out my phone again, found Mu Shiya's name and dialed it, the whole cold wind blew away my mind, The mobile phone in my hand fell to the ground, and the person next to me picked it up and told Mu Shiya about my situation. I don't know what Mu Shiya said. I said my friend will be there in a while.

Suddenly I was very nauseous, and a sense of vomiting came up. I got up and rushed to the green belt by the roadside, bending over and vomiting.I don't know how many minutes I vomited this time, several times intermittently.

A burst of fragrance!It belongs to Mu Shiya's unique feminine fragrance. I am so familiar with this smell. I used to be fascinated by her, so fascinated that I forgot myself.

Mu Shiya came to me without any distaste, patted my back lightly, and asked me if I felt better?I also thanked the night running enthusiasts around me. When these people saw Mu Shiya coming, they started their night running again.I vomited for a long time, and when I felt better, Mu Shiya handed me a bottle of mineral water.I rinsed my mouth and looked at Mu Shiya and said, "I'm really sorry, please come out so late."

"It's okay!" Mu Shiya helped me to the side of the road and said to me, "Get in the car first."

Before getting in the car, I took a look at myself, my body was quite dirty, Mu Shiya saw my little action, and continued: "Don't look, I don't despise you, do you despise yourself?"

To be honest, at this moment I dislike myself quite a bit, but no matter how much I dislike myself, I still have to get in the car!
After getting in the car, Mu Shiya didn't even ask me where I was going, but took me back to where she lived.In a high-end residential area in Kunming, Mu Shiya's parking space is right at the elevator entrance. After parking the car, she said in an unquestionable tone, "Go upstairs."

I hesitated for a moment and asked, "It's so late... Fang... Is it convenient? Your family..."

Mu Shiya interrupted me and said: "I live alone, there is nothing inconvenient." While speaking, Mu Shiya had already bypassed the car and came to the co-driver's side, waiting for me to get off.

I was not as drunk as I was just now, and I didn't need her to help me. After I got off the car, I stood there for a few seconds and said to Mu Shiya: "I'm fine! You let me Stand awake for a while before I go upstairs and throw up again and dirty your room."

Mu Shiya glared at me and said, "If I disliked you, I wouldn't come to pick you up. If you want to stand up, just stand for a while, and I'll accompany you."

A few minutes later, Mu Shiya and I went upstairs. She lived in a large flat with four bedrooms and two living rooms, at least 150 square meters.The decoration is quite luxurious. After entering the door, Mu Shiya asked me to sit casually. She took off her coat and hung it on the wall and walked into the kitchen. I went to the bathroom first, and now I saw how embarrassed I was in front of the mirror. Huitu, I stood in front of the sink and looked at myself in the mirror, and suddenly laughed!Yes, self-deprecating laugh.

I always thought I was doing well, but in reality it was nothing more than this. What is there to be proud of?

After washing my face and coming out of the bathroom, Mu Shiya had already changed into home clothes, there was a cup of hot milk on the coffee table in the living room, she looked at me and said, "Come here and drink this cup of honey milk, it's good for your stomach. "

I took the milk and said softly, "Thank you."

The corner of Mu Shiya's mouth raised slightly and she asked: "There must be a good reason for a company CEO to get drunk on the street late at night, right? I'm curious, can you satisfy my curiosity? Why are you so sad?"

I hesitated for a few seconds, took a deep breath, and said to Mu Shiya: "I always thought that I could let go of a relationship very freely. I thought that if I no longer contacted each other, the relationship would gradually fade away. After trying this After a long time, I found that I couldn’t forget her at all, and all I had done was in vain and useless. When I saw her, I would still feel lost and sad.”

Mu Shiya tilted her head and asked, "You mean Zhao Jing?"

I shook my head and explained, "I'm talking about An Ran."

Mu Shiya thought for a while and said: "It's the girl who came in suddenly when we were having dinner at your place, right? Actually, I don't like her at all. You two are not suitable for being together. I think Zhao Jing is pretty good." , why do you always miss An Ran? Just because you two fell in love in college?"

I thought about it for a while, and couldn't help but pull out a cigarette and put it in my mouth, but at Mu Shiya's house, I didn't have the nerve to light it.

I was addicted, and said softly to Mu Shiya: "You only know how to cherish after you lose it! I deeply feel the meaning of this sentence. An Ran and I got along very well in the last year of college, but neither of us confessed to the other. At that time, I was very inferior, and I always felt that I was not worthy of An Ran. I could go to class, finish class, eat, take a walk, read a book with her every day... I was already very satisfied by doing these things, and I kept telling myself this, I am just an ordinary person. I can't be any more ordinary boy, I don't deserve such a beautiful An Ran, I kept hinting this to myself. On the eve of graduation, our classmates had dinner together, how long did we drink that night..."

Speaking of this, I suddenly realized that there are some things that I can't say anymore. I have to think about An Ran's innocence, and I can't let more people know that secret.

Sitting next to me, Mu Shiya handed over the lighter just right, and said to me: "If you want to smoke, you can smoke, it's okay! I know you need a tree hole, and you need to vent your inner depression. If you are willing to help me treat it as yours Friends, just tell me, I will keep it secret for you, and no third person will know."

I, who was not very good at first, was moved a little when I heard Mu Shiya say this, indeed!I have never told this secret to anyone, it has been suppressed in my heart for too long, and with this cigarette, I continued: "We both drank a lot that night and passed out in KTV, I hugged An Ran, tell her that I like her..." At this point, I couldn't continue.

Mu Shiya asked: "Then what? Didn't she promise you?"

I shook my head and said to Mu Shiya: "An Ran didn't agree to you, nor did she refuse me. She just kept saying that I was drunk and wanted to send me to rest. I really drank too much wine that day. My vague memory I can vaguely recall that An Ran took me to a hotel to open a room, and then...then...then I had sex with An Ran at the hotel...the next day when I woke up, An Ran was nowhere to be seen."

"Did she leave early?"

"She's gone." I said to Mu Shiya: "Going away without a trace, she went back to her hometown. I once thought that I had a crazy dream that night, but the scratches on my body were real. Tell me, those things really happened, not a dream!"

"Why did she leave?" Mu Shiya asked in confusion, "Don't you guys like each other?"

I took a deep breath and said to Mu Shiya: "Maybe An Ran thinks that I don't respect her enough. I am already very grateful to her for not sending me to prison. In the year after graduation, I have been contacting An Ran, but An Ran hardly responds to me. She said that she has a wound in her heart that is difficult to heal, and that is what she was talking about! We have not been in touch for almost a year, and I have forgotten When I saw her, she appeared again and returned to Kunming."

"What are you doing?" Mu Shiya asked, "Is she coming back to look for you?"

I nodded and continued: "An Ran told me that she still loves me, she doesn't mind the past things, we get together, get married, and then live a normal life, this is what I have always wanted, I I also firmly believe that An Ran and I are in love with each other... But we are all wrong, love is not what we imagined, we thought that as long as we love each other, we can get along well together, no quarrels, no worries, we get up together every day Eat breakfast, go shopping together hand in hand, read books together... This is what we mistakenly think love looks like. When we are really together, we realize that "life" is not "love". Too many misunderstandings, caring about each other's social life, caring about each other's life, caring about each other's every look, in fact, I have always wanted to give An Ran a complete love, to make up for the mistakes I made, but... we always Hurt by love."

Mu Shiya said in a very sympathetic tone: "I understand what you said, because you care too much about the other party, so you are more likely to be jealous, 'love' is just a part of life, it can't replace life, I also understand your heart As I thought, if two people can't find a suitable way to get along, the final result can only be to wipe out all the love they once had. But I don't understand one thing, why do you keep emphasizing that you want to make up for the mistakes you made? Could it be that you and An Ran are together because you want to make up for your impulsive mistakes? But I don’t think you did anything wrong. It’s normal to lose your mind under the influence of alcohol, not to mention that you already regard each other as your lovers. , An Ran hid from you for more than half a year because of this incident, it is really unreasonable, this is simply irresponsible and capricious towards 'love'."

I didn't speak, and I didn't know what to say. The cigarette in my hand had burned to the filter, so I put it out in the ashtray.

Mu Shiya asked beside me: "Tianyu, tell me...you can also give yourself an answer, do you always feel indebted to An Ran? Do you just want to make up for the past when you are with her?" Wrong? Is it like this? If so, is this still love for you?"

I looked at Mu Shiya and asked, "What should love look like?"

Mu Shiya beside me suddenly moved her face closer and kissed me when I was unprepared...
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