ex girlfriend secret

Chapter 30 It's All Because of Me

I asked: "Didn't it mean that if you invite An Ran, you can directly sign a contract to become the host? There will be a chance to become a regular in the future! Why did you become a job in the advertising department in an instant? In fact, we all know that the advertising department of the TV station has no It’s not within the scope of the TV station’s contract system, let alone within the establishment, right?”

Pan Feng twisted the tie around his neck, held his mouth for a second or two, as if he had made a very difficult decision, looked at me and said, "Since you asked, let me tell you, An Ran already Arranged as a contract host, these are certain things, but for your soft advertisement, these are all gone! Before An Ran spoke, the donated soft advertisement was already added as subtitles on a set of evening news, these They were all edited. I don’t know why, but you suddenly canceled that day, and the person in charge of a news program was very angry. As a result, An Ran was in charge of editing the news the next day, and she privately edited your soft advertisement into a The news is inserted in it. To be honest, the donation report can indeed be made into news, and it’s okay to put it in the evening news. The problem is that An Ran is a newcomer, and she didn’t even have time to sign the contract. You, making such a move is nothing more than touching the interests of many people, and causing many people to have opinions on her. I have tried my best to use my relationship to find a way to keep An Ran. In the end, I can only temporarily work in the advertising department. The next step Try to find a way to re-sign the contract and enter the establishment. I know that you and An Ran have a good relationship, and I..." Pan Feng paused, and continued: "And I like An Ran, otherwise I wouldn't travel all the way. The coastal cities persuaded her to take her to Kunming."

I don't know why, after hearing what Pan Feng said, I couldn't stand it anymore!It turns out that the root of all this is me. I have forgotten how I left the TV station that day. After returning home, I sat on a bench in the community in a daze, looking up at the blue sky, but I couldn’t get rid of the haze in my heart.I think I have always been cowardly and dare not face the cruel reality. I can't do everything perfectly by my own ability. I once imagined that I could lead a department and lead a company to achieve a great event... Now It seems!This is just a beautiful fantasy.

For the first time, I feel so confused about the future. What can I do?Where is the way I reflect the value?

Zhao Jing and the nanny were pushing the baby carriage for a walk in the community. When they saw me sitting on the bench in a daze, Zhao Jing handed the baby carriage to the nanny. She came to sit next to me and asked, "What are you doing?" What about you? You also like to bask in the sun? Others look very satisfied and enjoying the sun, why do you feel that you are full of loss?"

"Don't be noisy!" I said to Zhao Jing without any tone: "Let me stay quietly for a while."

"What's the matter?" Zhao Jing ignored what I said, and continued: "I would like to be your tree hole and listen to your complaints for a while. There are not many people like this. The blow makes your mood cloudy, then you look at me, I don’t have time to work, take care of the children alone, my father will cut off the father-daughter relationship with me, I am not living alone, sad, lost. What's the use?"

I looked at Zhao Jing, she was holding a small mirror in her left hand, and applying lip gloss in her right hand to touch up makeup on her face. I really couldn't tell that she was dissatisfied with her current living conditions, so I said softly: "You are indeed stronger than me , if it were me, I might not be able to bear this, your father wants to sever the father-daughter relationship with you, is it related to the child?"

"Yes." Zhao Jing said very easily: "He asked me to find the child's biological father, or tell him who the child's biological father is, and he is going to ask me for an explanation, but I don't think it is necessary. It's between me and him, don't talk about me! What about you? What's wrong with you? I've known you for so many years, but I've never seen you fall like this."

"I'm not satisfied with my current job, I feel that I can't do anything well, I'm not capable enough, I'm dragging down my friends, in short... I'm a waste."

"Hey!" Zhao Jing asked with a smile: "There are a lot of emotions, and suddenly there are so many emotions, it means that something happened to you, let's talk about it in detail."

"Anran!" I said to Zhao Jing, "Anran lost her job in order to help me. Originally, she was able to sign a contract as a contract host very well and smoothly, and she can become a regular in the future because she helped me. A soft advertisement was in the news, which offended the TV station's leadership, and she was exiled to the TV station's advertising department. You know what kind of place the advertising department is, and it's all because of helping me! But she herself didn't say anything, and didn't want to let I feel guilty. In this project I cooperated with Mu Shiya, I also deeply saw my own inadequacies. There is nothing I can do about embezzling project funds. I see my incompetence! I want to leave the company, but I don’t know what I can do.” Speaking of this, the more I talked, the more excited I was, looking at Zhao Jing's eyes continued to say: "Zhao Jing, you know, my current job earns a lot of money, with an average monthly income of four to five thousand. For me who has just graduated for less than a year, this income is not enough. It’s really not low! In the company department, I am the youngest one with qualifications. I was able to enter this executive company because of luck and a back door. I used to think that after the door was opened, I could be excellent

Show job, pretentious!But the reality slapped me in the face again and again, and I no longer had the confidence and courage to continue messing around here. I was very confused and couldn't see a way out. "

After listening to what I said, Zhao Jing asked leisurely: "Mu Shiya is the girl I met in the hospital, right? She is very beautiful and very temperamental. You were chasing her those few days, right? Why did you choose to give up now?" ?”

"Because I have seen some things clearly, I am a dick after all! We are not people from the same world. In my eyes, she is just a symbol, a symbol of yearning for the perfect opposite sex. I admire women like her, but I don't really want to. To get her, maybe this is 'Ye Gong is a good dragon'."

Zhao Jing asked: "Why? Why do you have such an idea?"

I said the reason without thinking, "A psychologist helped me analyze it, and it was indeed the case. I knew that I would never get Mu Shiya's moment, and I didn't feel heartache or difficulty breathing." It doesn’t feel like the time when I broke up with you, I feel uncomfortable and lost! I only have a little regret for Mu Shiya, that’s all. Fortunately, Su Xiaomo introduced a psychologist to me, otherwise I would still be confused long time."

"What about An Ran?" Zhao Jing asked, "Are you still planning to chase her? Reconnect with her?"

I smiled awkwardly, and said softly: "There is no predestined relationship, at most it is just a sinful relationship! I will not get An Ran in the future, I just want to give her more compensation."

"Because of work?"

I suddenly realized that I almost told the secret of that night, and it happened that Zhao Jing asked if it was because of work, and I said casually: "Yes, I want to help An Ran as much as possible, and compensate her for what she has done for me. But... I'm just such a fool, I don't even understand my own work, how can I help her? It's ridiculous to think about it, I'm a little overwhelmed, right! How long have you waited for the property fee I paid for? God will give it back to you."

Zhao Jing pouted, got up and took my hand and said, "Come with me."

"What are you doing?" Zhao Jing dragged me towards the entrance of the community, "Where are you taking me? I still want to bask in the sun! Let go of me."

"Come with me quickly!"

I was "forcibly dragged out" of the community by Zhao Jing, and went straight to a nearby vegetable market. It was 04:30 in the afternoon, and there were not many people in the vegetable market. I rarely come to the vegetable market. The vegetable market is very dirty, not as clean as the one in the supermarket. I would rather spend a little more money to buy clean and convenient ingredients.

The vegetables in the vegetable market are full of dirt, and I have to wash them many times to pick vegetables when I go back. In addition, I always feel that the vegetable market is a super big stall. I was a little unhappy when I came to the vegetable market. I blamed Zhao Jing and said: "You let Can I buy vegetables with you and find a time that makes me happy? I just want to bask in the sun, can you please consider my mental state?"

Zhao Jing ignored my protest, and dragged me to a "street stall". It was really a simple stall. A worn-out mat was spread on the ground, with a few piles of vegetables on it!That's right, it's the adjective "pile". I took a look and found that there are about a dozen piles on the floor, and the vegetable seller is an old lady who seems to be about 70 years old. Her face is covered with piles. Wrinkles, calluses all over the hands, gray hair!She just sat cross-legged on a small red plastic stool.

Seeing people passing by would use the old sayings of Kunming to sell their own vegetables. At this time, Zhao Jing pulled me down and asked, "How do you sell this little cabbage, grandma?"

"One yuan." Because Zhao Jing asked in Mandarin, the old lady was worried that we could not understand Kunming dialect, so she raised a finger while speaking, signaling us one yuan.

I mistakenly thought she was talking about one yuan per kilogram, because in Yunnan, whether you go to the supermarket or the vegetable market, everyone talks about kilograms, even when drinking alcohol.

Zhao Jing took out five yuan and handed it to the old lady, saying, "It's five yuan."

The old lady’s face was full of excitement, and she quickly pulled out two used plastic bags and put vegetables on the mat in front of her. The first bag contained three piles, and the second bag also contained three piles. Then he handed two bags to Zhao Jing and said, "I'll give you a bunch more."

Zhao Jing couldn't refuse, so she looked for 1 yuan in her wallet, but found that there was no one yuan at all, but the old lady kept pushing Zhao Jing away, signaling her not to look for it.

The process of buying vegetables is very simple. In the end, I bought two bags of cabbage for 5 yuan. Zhao Jing stood beside me with two bags of cabbage and asked, "Look at this vegetable market, there are many old people like the old lady." , They sit on the ground and sell the vegetables they grow at home. They do this every day. Even if they sell all the vegetables they bring, they may only earn thirty or forty incomes. The income is only in the early thousand, compared with them, won't all your so-called melancholy and hypocrisy be smashed into pieces?"

This is why Zhao Jing brought me to the vegetable market, I am silent!
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