life with stone

Chapter 196 This Is Not Love

I tasted the taste of love in Zhang Lan, and I felt the throbbing feeling in my heart. Under the stimulation of adrenaline, my heartbeat reached an unprecedented tremor.

We hugged each other, vented our inner love for each other, and no longer cared about anything.

"Buzzing..."

The phone vibrates and slowly pulls my sanity back, I hate it, but my sanity tells me I need to calm down.

I slowly left Zhang Lan, her blurred eyes gradually recovered, she looked at me, a little confused...

I lowered my head, held the phone, looked at Liao Siyuan's number, took a deep breath, and hung up the phone.

I leaned back on the seat, brushed my hair vigorously, and rubbed my hands vigorously on my face to wake me up from the bastard.

I didn't say anything to Zhang Lan, but we both seemed to understand it in our hearts.

Silence, like a slow poison, kills us all gradually, kills our love.

I put the gift in Zhang Lan's arms, and after she grabbed it, she opened it and took out a set, and said with a smile, "You are such a foolish man, I don't like blue ones, and I don't like red ones either. Yes, I like black ones and pink ones, you bought so many for me all at once, half of them, I don’t even know how to wear them..."

I said, "I know, I know..."

I looked at her after I finished speaking, I felt very painful in my eyes, I want to go back to the rental house with Zhang Lan, I want to get the fruit of love, I want to be with the person I love in my heart.

But I knew I couldn't, the feeling of disobedience tortured me so much that I couldn't live without it.

Zhang Lan said with a smile: "But, I still want to thank you. I really need it. If I don't have a new one today, I won't have to wear it tomorrow."

I reached out to hold her hand, but she pushed my hand away resistingly, and then threw her underwear behind the car.

She looked at me, the loss in her eyes became more and more intense, and the tears fell down without disappointment.

I know that she has been with me, whether it is when I am successful or when I am in a trough, when I am prosperous or when I am in a mess, she is always with me.

Whether it is a colleague or a friend, there is an indescribable emotion between us.

She knows that I have a girlfriend, so she forbears her feelings for me.

Today, I broke up with Liao Siyuan, she felt that it should be an opportunity, we should be together, so, under the agitation of emotions, she no longer restrained herself, but like me, we all release each other to be true emotion.

But when that phone call came, she knew very well that she got what she wanted, that dedication, that longing, would be turned into ashes.

I lowered my head and asked her, "Why are you so poor? Is there any difficulty in the family?"

Zhang Lan wiped away tears with a smile, and said to me: "My parents divorced. They divorced when I was very young. I don't want to let my mother's hard-won marriage be affected by me, and I don't want to. Living with someone who is not my own mother but has to call her mother, so I came out to be independent, this society is so cruel, it is difficult for a person to live well on his own."

I took out the rest of the money, Zhang Lan stared at me and said angrily: "I don't need you to pity me..."

I immediately said: "The rent...my rent..."

Zhang Lan asked me ridiculously: "Are you not going back to live..."

I immediately said seriously: "I will go back sooner or later."

My words are very scary. Seeing my expression, Zhang Lan seemed a little frightened. I immediately rushed forward, hugged her in my arms, kissed her, asked for it, and she seemed to be ignited again. Hot hugs.

It's so easy for us to get out of control, so easy to set ourselves ablaze, and inevitably plunge us into each other's worlds.

This is the fire of love, which can't be extinguished no matter what, but it burns so easily.

I lowered my head tremblingly, resting on my forehead, all the muscles in my body were tense, I clenched my fists tightly, suppressing the irresistible desire in my heart.

Suppress it.

In the end, there was only an endless void left, and I fell into it.

Zhang Lan didn't say much, started the car, and took me away. She opened the windows and let Xia Feng blow the fire of our love into wildfire.

At this moment, our hearts are very clear to each other, and we both know that we are in love with each other.

The biggest harvest of love is not getting each other's bodies, but planting the seeds of love in each other's hearts.

This seed is understanding, tolerance, and waiting indefinitely. Perhaps it will not bloom and bear fruit, or it will die young and wither, but once it successfully germinates and bears fruit, the fruit will surely be the best in this world. the sweetest.

The car soon arrived at Liao Siyuan's house, Zhang Lan opened the car door, and she said, "I'll take you up."

I shook my head, and I said, "I'll let her pick me up."

As I spoke, I took my mobile phone and called Liao Siyuan.

The phone call went through soon.

"I'm downstairs, I'm drunk, I can't go up, come pick me up..."

I hung up the phone, I looked at Zhang Lan, she held out her hand with a smile, I held her hand tightly, and smiled at her.

Afterwards, she got into the car and left gracefully.

I don't have any promises, and she doesn't have any demands. There are both in each other's hearts. Perhaps this is the most beautiful love.

"Why so late?"

When I heard Liao Siyuan's voice, I turned around and saw Liao Siyuan approaching. She came to me, covered her nose subconsciously, and asked disgustedly: "Why is it so smelly? Did you fall into the cesspit?"

I saw Liao Siyuan's disgust towards me, and his frowning expression, I took a deep breath, and I said: "I carried an incontinent old lady to the treatment room, and my body will inevitably be... contaminated."

After I finished speaking, I opened my hands and said, "I can't walk anymore, come and help me."

Liao Siyuan hesitated for a moment, but she still came over and put my arm around her body. I was surprised that she, a woman who loves cleanliness and even has a bit of a cleanliness, would sacrifice so much for me.

I followed her upstairs, Liao Jianzhong and Zhou's mother were both waiting for me.

Seeing me come back, Liao Jianzhong said with concern: "Have you been drinking? Drink less..."

Zhou's mother also said with concern: "That is, although career is important, body is more important. Let me make you some rescue tea..."

I immediately said: "No need, Mama Zhou, I'm a little tired today, I want to... rest early."

Liao Jianzhong immediately said: "Okay, take a rest, take a rest, what's the matter, let's talk about it tomorrow..."

I smiled, staggered to the bathroom, took off my clothes, turned on the cold faucet, washed off the dirt on my body, and extinguished the restlessness in my heart.

After cleaning up, I wrapped myself in a towel and went back to Liao Siyuan's room.

I watched Liao Siyuan look at the house book on the table.

She asked me in surprise, "Did you buy it?"

I nodded, and Liao Siyuan immediately bit his lip guiltily, and cried to me, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

As she said that, she came over full of guilt and hugged me tightly in her arms.

She cried and said: "I know, I have a bad temper, I know, I have a bad temper, but before you, you were always talking and laughing, and you always used a relaxed way to resolve the relationship between us. Why are you so serious about breaking up with me this time?"

I said: "Because I'm not in the mood to explain to you. I failed. My mother knelt down and gave up in front of everyone. My life is just like what Liu Hao said. I went through Waterloo. I was very depressed and decadent. ..."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I was wrong, I was really wrong, I think I love you very much, but today I know that I still don't love you enough, I'm sorry, I won't in the future, forgive me once, okay?"

I gently pushed Liao Siyuan away and watched her burst into tears. I didn't have any waves in my heart, or I didn't love her that much.

Suddenly, Liao Siyuan came to kiss me, and turned all mistakes into desires, and put them on me.

She wanted to express her apology in this way.

I accepted.

But, I know, this is not love.

Just plain.

want!
(End of this chapter)