life with stone

Chapter 572 Making a Deal
My hug did not get any response from Zhang Lan, only a calm stalemate.

I sensed her determination.

I looked at Zhang Lan, and she looked at me, our eyes collided again.

But there was no more love, and I don't know what it was that killed it between the two of us.

Zhang Lan said with a smile: "My departure is the best..."

I shook my head, and I said, "There's no such thing as good or bad."

Zhang Lan said with a smile: "You are not that Wu Fei for a long time. It doesn't matter whether I leave or not. You have already forgotten what you want and what you pursue. Whether you are tortured by Chen Lin or not, It doesn't matter, you are like a walking dead now, you have long forgotten your original intention, this is the most terrible result I have seen, I stay by your side just to give you a little warmth, but I I found out that you no longer need it."

I laughed helplessly, yes, I don’t need it anymore, I’m already cold, and my heart is dead, Zhang Lan’s warmth, yes, it just makes me feel a little warm, no, I don’t feel it How cruel.

Sadness is greater than death.

Zhang Lan said with a wry smile: "You just want to use this method to punish yourself. You haven't gotten over Liao Siyuan's emotional pain. From the moment she left, in fact, you don't care whether you love her or not." Now, you are just using a certain situation to tell others that you are still alive, so there is no need for that."

I looked at Zhang Lan, she exposed the most primitive disguise in my heart.

Yes, to love or not to love is just a situation of punishing myself.

In fact, I am a cool person, and I know better than anyone how cool I am.

From the beginning, my love with Liao Siyuan was just a use, but I don't want to admit it.

Those rumors are all true.

All my feelings are just to satisfy my own emptiness.

I lack love, family care, and relatives. That's why I made me fall in love with Liao Siyuan. Everything is just to satisfy my own needs.

In fact, I don't love anyone, I only love myself.

I looked at Zhang Lan with a smile, and said, "You're right!"

Zhang Lan lowered his head and wanted to say something, but he resisted something.

She smiled and said: "I will resign from all positions and be away for a while..."

I said, "No approval..."

Hearing my words, Zhang Lan looked at me in surprise, and she said: "Why? Why do you have to torture yourself, me, and everyone else? I did something wrong. I ruined your marriage. But, I beg you to let me go, okay? I beg you, okay?"

I grabbed her by the collar, gritted my teeth and said, "I'm an exquisite egoist with a cold temper. I don't love anyone, I only love myself. I'm living in pain right now. It can give me some comfort, why should I let you go? You have to stay, and you have to taste all the sins I have suffered."

Zhang Lan said angrily: "You started again, why are you unwilling to compromise? You are unwilling to compromise, and you are unwilling to give up the immediate interests, and you are using this hypocritical way to torture yourself, and you still refuse to let go Why are you so vicious than others?"

I smiled and looked at Zhang Lan, but actually my heart ached.

What I say, do, and think are not my true inner thoughts, but emotions.

Why isn't Zhang Lan like this?
It is all emotions that torment us all over the body, we have all become slaves to emotions, and we are all only worthy of emotions.

She can't stand it anymore, she wants to escape this emotion, but what should I do if she is gone?

I can only face this emotion alone, what a painful and lonely feeling, I know I will collapse.

So, I will never let her go.

I smiled and said: "Who makes me feel bad, I must make her suffer ten times more than me, Zhang Lan, don't think that if you work hard to maintain my marriage with Chen Lin, you can wash away your sins, it is impossible , I don’t love Chen Lin, my marriage with her was forced, it was torture, you made a mistake, let me be tortured, I don’t accept it, you either suffer the torture with me, or I smash her to pieces.”

Zhang Lan looked at me resentfully, and she said, "Are you really resenting me?"

"Then what should I say? How should I express it so that you can stay?"

I looked at Zhang Lan angrily, and now I was tortured by this emotion and collapsed.

I feel that I will never get rid of their father and daughter, and will be imprisoned by them in a cage forever. Zhang Lan is the only person in this world who makes me feel that I can connect with this world. going crazy.

Zhang Lan lowered her head and leaned against my arms. She started to cry, she seldom cried, she was always strong, no matter how strong setbacks she suffered, she would not cry.

But now she is crying.

Because, we are all tortured and it is really unbearable.

Emotions make us all demons. At this moment, we don't know what we have become in order to get rid of this emotion.

We fear the unknown ourselves.

I gently hugged her in my arms.

She also hugged me tightly.

She cried and asked me: "Why is this happening? Why are you making fun of us like this?"

I was also asking in my heart, why did you make fun of us like this?

Everything seems to be by accident.

I will always remember that afternoon, the moment when the fate of the two of us was played.

The mistake that happened that afternoon became the biggest pain for the two of us.

Because I wanted to open up relationships, I forced myself to try with Liao Siyuan. At that time, I knew very well that I didn't love Liao Siyuan.

What I love is Zhang Lan. That afternoon, our two hearts collided with each other, sparking hot sparks.

We all know that we are in love with each other.

However, because of my career, I had to try to be with Liao Siyuan.

I have always felt that when my career is successful, when I and Liao Siyuan are together and we feel inappropriate, we will separate.

However, fate is just like this. After getting along with each other, after going through all kinds of hardships, I found that I also fell in love with Liao Siyuan, and we are about to enter the palace of marriage, which is the most anticipated thing in my life.

However, Zhang Lan and I actually kissed that night, and everything was ruined...

Fate is playing tricks on us.

Zhang Lan cried and said, "We went through ninety-nine and eighty-one hardships in studying the scriptures in the Western Paradise, and finally achieved a positive result. When will you and I achieve a positive result? Even if it is a bitter fruit, there should be an end. Can you give me a deadline? Otherwise, I really can't hold on any longer."

Zhang Lan's tone was very flat, but the more flat it was, the more it represented the turmoil in the depths.

I said, "Let's make a deal."

Zhang Lan looked at me with tears in her eyes, she nodded, and I whispered something in her ear.

"After I completely take down Huayang, I won't stop you no matter whether you go or stay!"

(End of this chapter)