I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 238 Treat Her Kindly

I took a deep breath, picked up the car keys from the table, and then looked through the wooden window at Jiulongju, which was shrouded in night, just like my mood at the moment, confused, struggling, sleepless, and difficult to break through , Ups and downs in the vortex of rationality and sensibility several times soon.

Lighting a cigarette, I couldn't help but think of Lu Jia and Ye Zhi again. How are they feeling at the same time as me?

I can probably think of it, but when it comes to their physical shape and every move, it's vague again.

After a while, the woman who occupied Lu Jia's number sent me another message: "I asked, Lu Jia lives in the airport hotel near the airport, room 602, you choose whether to go or not, but I remind you , time is running out, once Lu Jia gets on the plane, the relationship between you will really be over."

"Thank you."

"Then are you going or not... Lu Jia must want you to go, otherwise she wouldn't have told me the room number... Let me ask you this, if that woman didn't show up, would you hesitate so much? ...I'm afraid that until now, Lu Jia is still on your mind!"

"There is nothing wrong with her appearance, and there is nothing wrong with my hesitation... On the contrary, I think that you always put pressure on me from the moral level, which is unacceptable."

"Yes, maybe one day you will thank me... I asked Lu Jia, and she said that the woman you get along with is very powerful. Not to mention the luxury brands all over her body, a watch costs hundreds of thousands. Can you really do it?" Can you handle it... Or, are you trying to figure out something for her?"

"I used to think that you were a woman with a clear distinction between likes and dislikes, and a personality... But what you're telling me now makes me feel very disappointed!"

"What's the disappointment? Is it because my words touched your pain point?"

"I'm not in the mood to explain to someone who doesn't know anything."

"Maybe I don't know as much as you do."

"You know what you're saying...it's interesting for me to play like this?"

"My time is precious, and I won't be so bored as to play with someone you've never met...I just hope you can treat Lu Jia kindly, she deserves it."

Our chat ended here, I didn't reply, and after a while, I found out the transfer record, a total of 8400 yuan, but Lu Jia didn't even stay for one night, and put the rest aside, this sum I should also return the money to her, because for her, this is not a small amount.

Heaving a sigh of relief, I finally picked up the car keys, and then walked out of the house, and the destination was the airport in Kunming.

……

The car that Ye Zhi borrowed was probably driven by a woman, because the rearview mirror is not a hanging ornament like a Buddha statue that men like, but a handmade garland. The moment I started it, the car player Then I started playing songs. I don't know what kind of taste this woman is, but I really need music to accompany me on this long journey.

Once people fall into the vortex of emotions, they tend to become hypocritical, so when listening to those sad songs about memories and emotional entanglements, they will feel that they are singing about their own experiences. A lighter talk show.

And at this time, the songs played in sequence switched to Eason Chan's "Elimination". I remember that I listened to it repeatedly during the time when I broke up with Lu Jia, because the lyrics in it perfectly reflected my mood at that time. I still remember what it was like to be so heartbroken. I kept having insomnia, and finally fell asleep. I always had some dreams related to Lu Jia. I dreamed that we did not break up, and even lived happier than before. .

After waking up, I turned from disappointment to despair, then lit a cigarette, and just sat there from early morning to morning, not knowing what I was thinking, nor what I should do.

The familiar melody and lyrics in my ear brought me back to the days when I could not see hope, and my biggest expectation was that one day Lu Jianeng would suddenly come back to me and tell me that all this was just a dream, and she still Loving me... Desperately loving...

I relied on this belief to persevere in the days until I saw the reality clearly, until all the pain faded away...

But now, Lu Jia is really back, but I'm stepping on the gravel that has passed and I can't figure out the direction.

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For nearly [-] kilometers, I drove from late at night to morning. When I parked the car and stepped out of the car, my feet felt like they were stepping on cotton. This was an illusion caused by excessive fatigue. , and compared to the feeling of emptiness brought about by fatigue, the anxiety in my heart is more real. Because of this long journey, I have not found the correct emotion that I should have when facing Lu Jia.

After entering the hotel, I didn't go directly to the room where Lu Jia lived. I stayed in the lobby and asked the front desk to call her room, telling her that someone was waiting for her below, and the reason why I didn't go directly The room, because I want to respect the current relationship between myself and Lu Jia, and also respect Ye Zhi's trust in me.At least Ye Zhi would not wish that I, who said I liked her last night, would share a room with Lu Jia this morning as a lonely man and a widow, and it was also where she lived.

……

Five minutes later, Lu Jia came out of the elevator in her pajamas. Her eyes were red and swollen. Not only did she cry, but she probably didn't sleep well all night.

She sat down across from me, and then asked me, "Why don't you come into the room and say, do you mind?"

"I just have one question, and I'll leave when I give the answer."

Lu Jia was silent at first, then smiled and said: "You chased so far from Dali to Kunming, I thought you changed your mind!" After a short pause, she continued: "... To be honest, Mi Gao... I have always been very confident. Although your current girlfriend looks perfect, but I have been with you for three years, and I am the one who has suffered so much. It is impossible for you to let me go so quickly, so you must have changed your mind. .”

"You answer my question first. Before we broke up, you and Wang Lei met once. What did you talk about that time?"

The expression on Lu Jia's face became very complicated, and after a very long silence, she said to me: "Wang Lei is gone, so what's the point of finding out all this?"

"Then let me ask you from another angle, why did you choose to break up? Is it really because you can't get a sense of security and hope from me?"

Lu Jia asked back, "Do you think the self at that time can give me a sense of security?"

I replied with some difficulty: "No... But this shouldn't be the answer you gave me, Lu Jia, can't we have an open and honest chat?"

Lu Jia stared at me, then nodded and replied: "Yes, that's right, when I came back from abroad this time, I just hoped that we could go back to the past... But there is a premise, if you still love me, the relationship between us I can do whatever I want, if I don’t love anymore, then why do I need you to give me alms?...Besides, can the love gained by giving really last long?"

Lu Jia's words also made me fall into thinking...

"So Mi Gao, after half a year...do you still love me like before?"

I looked up at Lu Jia...

She said softly to me again: "If you still love me, then we will make an agreement. You wait for me for another two years. When I finish all my courses in France and get my degree, I will return to China and be with you." Get married... At that time, our economic foundation will only be better than it is now, and some of the contradictions that existed before will naturally disappear... Conversely, if you really fall in love with someone else, I will not bother you anymore... ...In fact, the matter is as simple as that!"

(End of this chapter)