I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 247 You Go Your Way

After Nicole gave me this suggestion, I picked up the wine glass and drank the remaining wine in it, then looked at Nicole, and I finally said to her: "It is not easy to adapt to a place, and it is even more difficult to forget a city. ...so, I don't want to change."

"Aren't you willing for Ye Zhi's sake?"

I didn't answer directly, but just said: "Fortunately, this is just your suggestion...don't give me such a difficult choice; you should have the most personal experience of this. Now let you leave Dali and return to Jiangsu. Would you like to?"

Nicole glanced at me, then took out a lady's cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it. She frowned and took a puff before she said to me: "I can't go back, but you are different..."

I interrupted her: "Do you know my experience in Shanghai? If you don't know, how can you tell that we are different?"

"It's different, it's really different; there is a woman waiting for you in Shanghai, and the man who eloped with me from Jiangsu has long since disappeared."

I said with emotion: "You are really a woman who loves first!"

"Aren't you a man who loves first?"

I was in a trance, and in the trance, I saw the heart that was so hot that it was about to burst. I did have a lot of beauty and imagination about love, but as a man, I had to consider more realistic issues.

I finally opened my mouth and said to Nicole: "I really want to live like the heroine in a romantic novel, with only love and the ends of the earth in my heart... But you can also see that life is like a big black hole, even if your imagination can form a comparison The universe is still a big Utopian world, but it still has the ability to ruthlessly devour it... Leaving aside, let’s just talk about what happened to you recently. How dare the owner of the bar not give you money because you didn’t sign a contract? Performance fee... I am the same. After coming to Dali, there are various difficulties and troubles; dealing with these troubles is already exhausting. How can I still have the ability to enshrine love in the most sacred position? "

"You're quite realistic..."

"It's not my reality... The reality is this world; I don't know when love has become a rival in life... Isn't it ridiculous? But the fact is like this. In places you can't see, countless people are Use life as a weapon to attack love... Otherwise, how could there be so many divorces and breakups? Even more outrageous, there are people who choose fake divorces in order to buy an extra house..."

"When these people are doing these things, have you thought about why they were together in the first place?"

I shook my head and replied after a long time: "Maybe love will really disappear."

"It's so pessimistic when you say it all of a sudden!" After a short pause, Nicole said again: "You seem to have changed the subject."

"No, I just think about the current social atmosphere rationally based on love..."

"So that's why you don't want to go to Shanghai?"

"Well... I'm just an ordinary person, and I can't get rid of my selfish side in human nature; I'm afraid of going back to Shanghai, I'm just repeating my previous life, and it's not even as good as before... What's more, Ye Zhi and I are not from the same world at all. People, forcibly getting together, may die faster, it is better to let nature take its course."

"What if you go with the flow and let her give up this relationship?"

I replied with difficulty: "For her, it may not be a relief, and I am the same."

"Then you are not in love with her... True love should be fearless."

I took a deep breath, and saw myself a few years ago in Nicole's lesson. At that time, I really had a fearless heart. I felt that I couldn't survive in Shanghai, so I took Lu Jia to change to a city with less stress. Life, as long as you don't eat and be lazy, you can always live, anyway, two people just can't be separated.However, in a later conversation, I knew Lu Jia's thoughts. She was not willing to follow me from the ends of the earth for the sake of love. She wanted to have a better life.

Of course she was not wrong, and I also learned a lesson, so after that, I like to keep a line in everything, which is actually a kind of self-protection.

I didn't argue with Nicole, nor did I explain... I just poured a glass of wine silently, then drank it in one gulp, poured another glass, and saw my sad face in the glass. I hate this kind of myself, as if I lost my fiery soul and turned into a uniform skin submerged in the crowd. There is no poetry in my soul, and there is no distance... only my fingers are burnt yellow by cigarette smoke and my liver is full of alcohol.

……

After a long time, I finally spoke to Nicole and said, "Do you know when Ye Zhi will return to Shanghai? I want to see her."

"do not know."

"Ask for me, I'll go to Shanghai to find her..."

"Isn't it natural?"

"I still want to explain it to her face to face. I didn't hang on to her and Lu Jia at the same time... Only by explaining this misunderstanding first, can it be considered as going with the flow."

"Even if you still have a little awareness, let me ask for you?"

I nodded heavily.

Nicole picked up her phone and sent Ye Zhi a message, but she didn't expect to get a reply immediately, so the two of us just drank and waited; soon, the bottle of foreign wine was finished...

During the break, I thought of Yang Sisi, and I said to Nicole again: "A female friend came here just now... It was too late and I didn't get a room, so I want to come to your place and spend a night with you. Do you mind?"

Nicole replied straightforwardly: "I don't mind, anyway, I'm getting on and off the bed... But, do I know her?"

"I definitely don't know it, but I should have heard of it."

"Who?"

"Yang Sisi... is the girl Cao Xiaobei likes very much."

"Oh... so what does that have to do with you?"

"At first, I took her car to Dali."

"Yo, this relationship is not shallow!"

I looked at Nicole and took another big sip from the cup. The spicy taste stimulated my taste buds and also stimulated my mood.

……

After a while of silence, I said to Nicole again because of the deserted atmosphere: "Our relationship, can you give me a little trouble?... Sing a song for me."

"Small." Nicole readily picked up the guitar placed next to the table, and asked, "What song do you want to hear?"

I subconsciously remembered the lingering melody in my heart, and I said to her in a low voice: "Wang Feng's "Goodbye to the Twentieth Century", can you sing?"

"Yes, yes, but it's a Chinese New Year celebration. It's a bit too sad to sing this."

"It's also quite appropriate. He bid farewell to the twentieth century, and we are about to bid farewell to this eventful year..." After a short pause, I smiled and said: "Sing a song that can break the heart, although it is a bit bitter. , but it can also make yourself sober, can't it?"

Nicole insisted, "Then I won't sing either."

I smiled helplessly and said, "Your voice is yours, and your guitar is also in your hands. I really can't force you to do this...then find a song you want to sing."

Nicole plucked the strings of the guitar, thinking about it, and then said to me: "Half of Wang Feng's music circle, in addition to sad songs, there are also cheerful songs... Can you give me a cheerful song?"

"come on."

Nicole acted fancifully, as if the stool she was sitting on was a stage, and then said with a sense of ceremony: "A piece of "You Go Your Way" by Wang Feng is given to my dear Mr. In the new year, be a refreshing man, and now he has too much burden on his mind...I don't like it. "

Nicole sings: "Those philosophies about life and death have made me dizzy, and those memories about sorrow and joy have also made me sleepy; now I just like simple, direct and easy, just as I love you You are my central nervous system; you go Your way, I will walk your way; when I stop, I finally understand this truth; You walk your way, I will also walk your way, when I look into the distance, I finally understand this mystery; Lun Nader once wrote this sentence to wake me up, maybe he is in the beautiful autumn day of Dali..."

When I heard the lyrics related to Dali, I realized why Nicole had to sing this song to me. The Dali in the lyrics is a reflection of me who is not simple or easy enough. She hopes to have such a An opportunity can wake me up and let me learn to enjoy life from a different perspective.

I understand her intentions, and I have seen a multi-faceted life in two completely different songs... Yes, no one will stay the same.And behind the pain, maybe there is happiness.

……

While experiencing this, Nicole's cell phone on the table vibrated suddenly. I saw it was a WeChat message, but I didn't know if it was a reply from Ye Zhi.

(End of this chapter)