I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 299

Facing the night outside the window, I sat from the middle of the bed to the edge of the bed. I lowered my head and listened to this song called "Madman" again; I knew that this song conveyed Yang Sisi's current mood.

Yang Sisi is the kind of woman who sees sunshine in everything, and only love can make her despair, but there is really such a person in this world who will live a life that countless people envy. Forced on a cliff?

And the cause of all this also made me feel in a trance. From the beginning to the end, I didn't want to be the one who hurt her. Many times, I even wanted to protect her straightforward and sunny character, but things backfired.

I can't control her, just like she can't control me.

We are all using a very reluctant way to insert the sharpest knife into each other's heart... She hurts, but my heart hurts too.

However, I can't express it.

……

I took out a cigarette and lit it, in order to relieve my anxiety of not knowing what to do.At this time, Director Ma sent another message, saying: "Good or bad, you should contact her, don't hurt her in such a silent way... She is like a child in our hearts, bear it. not coming."

Before I responded, Director Ma sent me Yang Sisi's personal WeChat business card through WeChat.

I was in a daze, and then I heard a buzzing sound, like a mosquito, and it landed on my face, I gave myself a slap, trying to kill it...but I slapped myself no longer in a trance, this time It was only early spring, where did the mosquitoes come from?

I took another puff of cigarette, and wanted to open Yang Sisi's personal business card, but I was struggling in my heart... I asked myself, will this work?

Before I actually did it, it was difficult for me to get the answer, but I remembered some pictures... That time, when I returned to Shanghai from Dali, I actually wanted to find Ye Zhi, but because of some mistakes, we couldn't meet each other. See above; that night, facing Shanghai that left a heavy shadow in my heart, I was very lonely and depressed; finally, Yang Sisi found me, she was very happy, and then invited me to the most exclusive restaurant in Shanghai supper.

Before the Chinese New Year, Ye Zhi and I were separated because of conflicts; it was Yang Sisi who came to Dali from abroad, bringing me joy and vitality into my life.

She is like a bridge between me and Ye Zhi...

With such a mood, I finally replied to Director Ma: "I feel guilty!"

"If you are guilty, you should repent."

"But I don't know how to repent... Can you understand this feeling?"

"You don't need to be so contradictory... Dependence and extinction are cause and effect. You can't just plant a cause in her heart, but refuse to give results... This is your sin."

"Is this a big crime?"

"Go to hell."

……

Putting out the cigarette in my hand in the ashtray, I got up and walked around the house, and then walked around... Finally, I stopped on the balcony, and I clicked on Yang Sisi's personal WeChat business card, and then A request to add a friend has been sent.

My mood is a bit complicated, and at the same time, I am wondering whether Yang Sisi will accept my friend request; if she accepts, what should I say to her?

This is really hard to face.

After standing on the balcony for a while, I went back into the room, about 10 minutes passed, but I didn't get a response from Yang Sisi.So, I habitually thought about the good: Director Ma must have over-interpreted Yang Sisi's emotions. She was not in such pain, but just happened to hear a song she liked, and she didn't need me to comfort her.

Because she has Cao Xiaobei by her side.

……

The night passed just like that, and when I woke up the next day, everything was calm; and after I opened my eyes, I habitually picked up my phone and checked, but I didn't receive any messages from anyone, including Yang Sisi's.

I don't know what it feels like, but the burden in my heart is lighter, because I am really afraid to face her.

Presumably, she also has a determination in her heart that she will never have anything to do with me, Mi Gao... and this may also be a result for us.

After waking up, I called Ye Zhi and asked her if she wanted to have breakfast together... She said that she was too tired and wanted to sleep a little longer; she was indeed tired, not only her, even I thought about her recent After a period of travel, I felt tired for her, so I didn't force her. It is a good thing that she is willing to sleep a little longer.

……

I made an appointment with Chen Jin, and we each had a bowl of noodles on Renmin Road, and then began to carry our luggage from "Jiulongju" to "Shanshuijian"; All the shops in "Longju" have been vacated for commercial use.

The relationship between Chen Jin and Tina is really good. The house in "Shanshuijian" belongs to Tina, and Tina agreed to pay the rent once a month. This undoubtedly freed up a lot of capital space for us. Houses are generally paid annually.

After working hard all morning, Chen Jin and I finally finished the move. We sat on the balcony of the house, smoking while relieving the fatigue of the half day.

Chen Jin said to me: "When will you be able to settle the shop over there by Cao Jinbo?"

I complained and replied: "I can't ask anyone out now, and I don't know what he thinks, as long as he is willing to give it, it's actually just a few words."

"Let Cao Xue work harder."

"Don't worry, I'm more anxious than you about this matter, and I will find a way."

Chen Jin's expression was very serious, and he replied to me: "It's usually fun, but this time, buddy, I really want to follow you and make a career... I don't want to be looked down upon by others, especially women. .”

I glanced at him, then nodded, but I couldn't get excited; to say, this emotional trouble will indeed affect my work status.

I suddenly wanted Chen Jin to clarify my doubts for me. I think he can be neutral in dealing with this matter; he is different from Ma instructing them. They have preconceived ideas, so they always blame me for my attitude towards Yang Sisi It was too extreme, they even didn't like Ye Zhi a little bit, but Chen Jin was different, because both Yang Sisi and Ye Zhi were unfamiliar to him, so there was no preference for anyone.

I handed him another cigarette, and then took advantage of his smoking time to tell him all the troubles I had encountered recently. I especially hoped that he could give me a way to get the best of both worlds.

Chen Jin stroked his chin, as if he was also caught in my entanglements and contradictions. After a while, he finally spoke to me and said, "I don't think this matter is difficult to solve."

"Quickly say..."

"You want both of them."

"what?"

Chen Jin repeated again with an emphatic tone: "You want both of them!"

I replied very unhappy: "Are you taking this incident as a joke, to make fun of my buddies?"

"No... If you can't let go of both, that's the only way to do it... I remember which country allows polygamy. If it doesn't work, you emigrate... No one talks about you there!"

I kept staring at Chen Jin, and he actually took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and then checked something on the Internet; after a while, he handed the mobile phone in front of me, and said: "Look, these are all things that can be read by husband and wife. There are 21 countries with polygamy!"

"Can I ask more, when did you become so anti-human?"

"Existence is reasonable, this is not what you often say..."

"You must not be serious."

Chen Jin smiled: "If you think it is yes, if you think it is no, it is no... I think that as long as everyone agrees on their ideas, there is nothing that cannot be done. The key lies in whether you can implement this idea among you. When it comes to unity... Haha, don't you think it's fantastic that you can still do it like this!"

"Don't talk nonsense... I don't advocate patriarchy. If you like it, you can work hard in this direction. My buddy still wants to live in the real world, even if it hurts a little, but at least it's real."

"I'm also talking about real events that can happen in the real world..." After a short pause, Chen Jin continued: "Tell me, in our society, now that mistresses are rampant, will there really be one or two violent ones?" People, change the nationality of your first spouse and mistress, and then live together in a fair and honest manner?"

"Even if there is such a retrograde thing, no one will take it out for publicity... I think we should live a more serious life and solve problems when we encounter them. Don't think about these unreliable things."

"Isn't that a way to solve the problem?"

I pointed at Chen Jin, and replied for a long time: "You are really fucking bad to the bone...Forget it, you pretend I didn't ask, and I'll figure it out on my own."

Chen Jin glanced at me, then said nothing...

I really shouldn't be looking for opinions from him. He didn't even understand the core of the problem, so he just talked nonsense...

What I am expressing is not my love for Yang Sisi and Ye Zhi, who cannot be separated from each other... I am very clear, the person I love is Ye Zhi, I just hope that I will not hurt Yang Sisi too deeply.

What I need is this answer.

……

During the brief silence between Chen Jin and I, there was a knock on the door outside the house.

Neither of us wanted to open the door, so neither of us moved.

I said to Chen Jin: "Go open the door and have a look, maybe it's the beauty you saw in the corridor yesterday..."

"Why didn't you say it was a courier?"

"We haven't moved in yet. Where did the courier come from...Maybe they have encountered some heavy work that can't be solved, and they need your help... Such a good opportunity to strike up a conversation, you will miss it, don't rely on buddies!"

"Fuck...there is a possibility..."

Chen Jin walked towards the door while talking; I lit another cigarette for myself, and then thought absently...

Afterwards, I heard Chen Jin ask the people outside the door: "Who are you, what's the matter?"

"I'm a resident upstairs, I'll borrow a hammer from you...I'll nail something."

"I just moved here... I really don't have such a thing, I'm sorry."

I heard the sound of Chen Jin closing the door again... I suddenly realized that the person who just borrowed the hammer was very similar to Cao Xiaobei's voice...

It must be Cao Xiaobei, because he rented the house above to Yang Sisi, and he probably took Yang Sisi back to Dali.

I suddenly stood up from the chair... If I catch Cao Xiaobei, I will definitely meet Yang Sisi... In this way, I will be able to figure out a lot of things, and many things need to be talked face to face to be persuaded force!

I never believed that Yang Sisi would have sex with him, and he told me all this on WeChat.

(End of this chapter)