I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 347 I feel sorry for her

After standing still for a while, Yang Sisi sat back on the sofa, her mood seemed very low, and she didn't say a word, maybe she had begun to accept this fact in her heart... I don't know how long it took, she finally smiled and said yes I said: "I used to say that you are poor, that you live without a sense of security... Now it's fine, and suddenly you become like you... No, I can't compare to you at all, at least you can make money by yourself , support myself, but what can I do?...I have been eating and drinking my father..."

Having said that, she stopped, and then shed tears. After a while, she choked up and said: "My dad is such an arrogant person, he must be very depressed now... I really don't live up to it, the first thing I thought of It's not his mood, but the fear that I won't have a good life in the future... I'm such a spoiled girl, I don't know how to share it for them... It's fine if I don't share it, and I caused them so much trouble, Always want them to worry about me... I'm really a scum... a scum!"

Yang Sisi covered her face with her hands, and then wept bitterly, crying for a while, and then lost her mind for a long time as if she had lost her soul...

My Adam's apple wriggled, and I finally said to her: "Living in this world, people will always encounter such and such setbacks, but setbacks are not terrible. First of all, you have to be strong yourself, so that you can have a good mental outlook. Your father brought you the courage to fight against setbacks... Besides, I don't think you are the kind of girl who can't live a civilian life... I remember that when you first came to Dali, you used to set up a street stall. It can't get any worse than this."

"It's different, it's really different... At that time, I set up a street stall because I had confidence, just like a joke, because as long as I want, I can go back to my original life... But now?"

"Are you really afraid of living an ordinary life?"

Yang Sisi looked up at me, and then replied in a low voice after a long while: "What I'm afraid of is not living the life of an ordinary person, but because I don't have confidence in myself and feel useless... I don't know how to be independent in the future... I just know how to be independent." spend money."

"It's normal for you to be afraid now... Everything has a process of adaptation. When you truly accept this fact in your heart, you will work hard to live... At least, you still know how to reflect on yourself. In fact, reflection is also a kind of motivation... ..."

After a short silence, I said again: "I'm not very good at comforting people, but you should understand what I mean. You are different from other girls. I think you have a kind of energy in your heart, and it is this energy that makes you Become particularly measured, knowing when and what to do... Of course you can be disappointed now, or even panic, because this is a reaction that a normal person must have, but in the future..."

This time, Yang Sisi interrupted me, she said: "If you mean the same thing, you don't have to repeat it several times to comfort me... I know what I should do, I'm going to pack my luggage now, I'm going abroad to accompany my dad .”

I nodded, finally feeling a little more relaxed, and then lit myself another cigarette.

Just after taking a sip, Yang Sisi said to me as if thinking of something again: "I'm leaving, what do you do?"

I looked at her, feeling all sorts of feelings in my heart, at this moment, she is still thinking about my future life!

Yang Sisi stopped in her tracks, and then said to me with sobs: "Mi Gao, I really can't stay in Dali to manage you this time... You have to take care of yourself, and you can talk to Director Ma if you feel sad. Chat, but don't let your mind become a monk... Even if you don't care about the feelings of us as friends, you should also consider your parents. They are only a son like you. If you really become a monk, they will definitely Will be sadder than anyone because you've left them with nowhere to live."

"Well, we're all fine..."

"There's also the business at Jiulongju. Don't let Chen Jin handle it alone... He doesn't say anything, but after a long time, he will definitely have something in his heart..."

After a short pause, Yang Sisi asked me again: "Do you know what attracts others most in yourself?"

I asked, "Why did you mention this all of a sudden?"

Yang Sisi wiped off the tear stains on her face just now, and then replied: "I used to think that you were not good enough for Ye Zhi, after all, she is so beautiful and her family background is so good... But, since her accident, you When I went to Thailand, I didn’t think so... You are really a man of love and righteousness. It seems that anyone can give up before you, but you must be the one who persists until the end... This is actually what women want most Need a sense of security, especially for women like me and Ye Zhi, we have been in a good family since we were young, but our parents are busy with their own business, and always feel that we have no one to accompany us, so many times, we are more likely to feel lonely than others. There is also a feeling of being abandoned by your parents... I don't know how to express it, I just hope that you can keep the shining places in yourself, whether it is for your lover or friends... You are really too old now. If you are decadent, after a long time, others will be disappointed in you!"

I smiled and said: "You have expressed all the words that I just thought but didn't express... You are the same, keep the advantages of your body, and try to get out of the shadows as soon as possible."

Yang Sisi nodded, then smiled with tears in her eyes...

I felt sorry for her, and suddenly wanted to hug her, but after staring at her for a long time, I couldn't make this move. When she entered the room to pack her clothes, I put out the cigarette in my hand, and then Lighted one up for myself.

I couldn't tell what it was like in my heart, but I felt that there was something missing around me, and I gradually lost.

……

While Yang Sisi was packing his luggage, I received a call from Chen Jin, and when he got through, he complained to me: "The municipal engineering company you're talking about is really a grandson! We know about this. I can only ask them to do it, so I started to talk like a lion... Before, didn't you say that they wanted a project budget of 20 from us?"

"Ah."

"Guess how much they want now... 25, nothing less... You said before that the maximum budget should not exceed 16. People are getting worse now. 16 is not even willing to take it seriously. What do you think now? manage?"

"Then don't talk to them."

"Don't talk to them! Do you have other ways?"

"No, but I really can't accept the budget they want... You know, 7 yuan is actually enough to start the lighting project of the entire street, and now it has more than tripled, Is it true that in order to install a street lamp, we have to spend all the money we can use now?..."

Chen Jin was silent, and then cursed after a while: "These people are really fucking grandchildren!... I don't want to be led by the nose, but the installation of street lights is really important to us... This morning Manager Wu also called me and said that she didn't pay attention to it before, but she noticed it yesterday, and the whole commercial street didn't even have street lights. As far as the face project of the entire corporate image is concerned, you don’t even provide street lamps for people now, so where do you earn people’s face?... I told her that within a month, the street lights of the entire commercial street will be replaced. They have all been installed... People have spoken harshly to me again, if the street lights cannot be installed, they will carefully consider whether they will continue to cooperate with us next year!"

Chen Jin's words made me feel a sense of crisis, but in terms of the current situation, it is indeed a bit tricky; on the one hand, it is impossible for us to compromise with the engineering company, on the other hand, my side also There really is no better way.

……

On the phone, Chen Jin and I failed to reach a conclusion regarding the installation of street lights in "Jiulongju Commercial Street".

If it was a few days ago, I might really not be in the mood to pay attention to this matter, but at this moment, I care about it in my heart...

I know that unless I really see through it thoroughly, some pain will eventually be buried in my heart, and then I will face life squarely.

(End of this chapter)