I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 361 There is nothing to escape

Yang Sisi doesn't seem to be obsessed with getting the answer from me whether she really misses her. She let go of me in my silence, and then looked at me with a smile... At dusk, the most eye-catching thing is the small smile on her face. Dimples, a little charming and a little cute.

I coughed to hide my feelings.

Yang Sisi was unhappy now, and she said to me with a straight face: "You are a living person with flesh and blood, can't you give me a surprised expression?"

I said nothing, and turned my gaze to the man-made creek that flowed under our feet. There were goldfish in the creek. Two or three of them gathered together and were looking for food. The figure reflected by the light, and then overlapped with her shadow... This kind of quiet and agile artistic conception is really indescribably beautiful, at least I feel very comfortable.

Yang Sisi was in a hurry, she pinched my cheeks on both sides with both hands, and tore them apart, insisting on making a smile on my face...Suddenly, she gave up again, and then said with a look of disappointment on her face: " Knowing that some things cannot be changed, why should I force others to make things difficult for me!"

After a short pause, she continued: "...But, before we met, I really thought that you would be pleasantly surprised. After all, we have been separated for so long... I am always like this, I always like to take my own feelings Compared to you...but we are not the same at all!"

"It's nothing, the first time I saw you, I was already thinking about where to take you to have a good meal later... You're thinner!"

Tears were rolling in Yang Sisi's eyes. Presumably, during the time abroad, she really had a bad time... This is also normal, she herself has a temper of a young lady, but now she wants to comfort others , to accommodate others, and in the process, you have to accept the fact that you have fallen from the sky to the world, which is really uncomfortable...

She choked up and said to me: "I don't know if I have lost weight, but the environment is really depressing, every day is lifeless, no one talks, especially my dad... During this time, he has grown a lot White hair... I am very, very distressed, but I don't know what I can do for him. He seems to be really broken. As long as it is related to his career, he doesn't say a word... He is already like this , then who would dare to persuade him to think about the comeback?"

I was silent for a while, and then asked: "Do you really care about the life of the former daughter who was able to be a daughter?"

Yang Sisi looked at me with a confused expression on her face, and she replied: "I don't know what I care about... In terms of material things, I don't feel too much pain because of the loss... Look, you gave it to me. I have worn this pair of shoes for a long time, and I also feel very satisfied..."

"That's good……"

No, Yang Sisi said again: "However, when I dragged my suitcase, looked at the lights of Wanjia, and wanted to find a place to rest, and found that I couldn't afford to live in a five-star hotel, I still felt lost... Lost It's also a kind of pain, right?"

I sighed softly, and then replied: "You are living too real, so you will be more contradictory than others..."

"It's okay... I'm very happy to see you; I'm even happier when I think of you will take me to eat delicious food later!"

Yang Sisi laughed again, as if at this very moment, she had already thrown all those unhappy things out of the blue... Before, I called this heartless, but now I feel a little distressed. I am afraid that she is pretending to be strong, and I am even more afraid of She did it for me, to encourage me to get out of the shadows of life.

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I was very generous on this night when I reunited with Yang Sisi after a long absence. I took her to eat the most expensive and authentic roast leg of lamb in the entire ancient city... She didn't lie, the whole process was very happy. We chatted now, chatted We talked about the future, but we didn't talk about the past.

After dinner, I thought she would go to live in the house that Cao Xiaobei bought her before, but she found a youth hostel near Jiulongju, 20 yuan per bed, and she had to live with other people The kind of one room.

I sent her to the door of the hotel, knowing that I shouldn't say anything, but I still said to her: "There are too many people here, and the environment is not good, so it's better not to live here... If you plan to stay in Dali for a long time this time , I'll rent you a bachelor apartment."

"If you want to do this, why don't I live in Cao Xiaobei's house?"

After a short pause, she said again: "Thank you, but I don't want to live in the previous dream anymore, so the life I choose now must be within my ability... My dad proved that I can also live an ordinary life and work hard to earn money to support myself. I don't want to be his worries, and I don't want him to continue to be depressed..."

"You want to prove yourself in this way?"

Yang Sisi smiled: "It's not exactly... I think this is my life now, it's very real, so there's nothing to escape from."

I took another look at this ordinary youth hostel, and finally didn't try to persuade Yang Sisi... But in the next moment, I seemed to see myself in Yang Sisi's shadow, a little negative and a little small...

I suddenly hated myself now.

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In the three days after I sent Yang Sisi to live in the youth hostel, she never took the initiative to contact me by phone, let alone mentioning that the studio was looking for me... I thought it was abnormal, I was worried about her safety, so I took the initiative to give her She called, but she didn't answer. I don't know if it was on purpose or if she was really busy with something.

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After work at noon, I was wandering alone in the ancient city. When I walked to the Erhai Gate, I met Yang Sisi.

She seems to have rented a booth here. When I saw her, she was facing the drawing board, drawing sketches for tourists... This way of making money is very common in the ancient city. Usually, drawing a sketch for tourists will earn 30-50 dollars.

Only then did I know that she actually has such a talent... Probably in high school, she was an art student.

The booth was very simple, and the sun shone directly on her body. Her face was covered with sweat, and her skin was peeling from the sun on her shoulders... No way, Dali's ultraviolet rays are famously strong, but she didn't care. These, she wiped off the sweat from her face with her hands, wiped it directly on her clothes, and then used a paintbrush to make fixed points on the tourists' faces.

I watched Yang Sisi walking all the way, so I felt very uncomfortable... And she seems to have really changed. If it was in the past, she would definitely pester me to arrange a job for her, but now, our studio really When others could provide her with a job, she quietly chose to be self-reliant.

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I went to the management staff of these stalls, and he told me that Yang Sisi rented the stall without any shelter, which was the cheapest, only 500 yuan a month; the one next door with a log cabin was much more expensive, At least 1500 yuan a month is required.

I originally wanted to change her to a cabin with a cabin, but I thought it was inappropriate. After weighing it up, I went outside the ancient city and bought her a commercial parasol, and then entrusted the management staff to take me to give it to her...

I don't ask her to know me, I just hope this umbrella can protect her from the sun and wind and rain.

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Standing in a corner where she wouldn't notice, watching for a while... I received a call from Lao Mi, who said that he would come to Dali with my mother to see me tomorrow.

It was this phone call that changed my life again and made me have to approach marriage.

(End of this chapter)