I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 464 This World Will Not Be Perfect

After Ye Zhi left, I went back to the field where the detainees were released. During the 10 minutes I went out, I squatted next to the vegetable field without moving on Wednesday. He wrote on the ground: There are many math problems that I can't understand at all. He seems to be obsessed, and he insists on finding the value of his own existence in these obscure math problems, or making himself appear superior to others.

I squatted down beside him, then lit up the half cigarette I was reluctant to smoke just now, and asked, "Would you like to take a sip?"

Wednesday looked at me in surprise, and he asked, "Where did you get another cigarette?"

"Given to me by the guard, Fu Rong Wang costs 25 yuan a pack, do you want to have a bite?"

Wednesday obviously made a lot of determination, and then stretched out two fingers to me. After receiving the cigarette in his hand, he squeezed the saliva on the cigarette butt, and then squinted his eyes and took a puff. After recollection, he looked around vigilantly, making sure that no one was staring at us, and quickly took another sip.

I lowered my voice and said to him: "You can't smoke like this, you have to learn to breathe, smoking like this is too wasteful!"

Wednesday smiled slyly, and said to me in a low voice: "Brother Mi, is this cigarette really given to you by discipline?"

"It's really...is it fragrant?"

"Xiang... But I still don't believe it..."

I interrupted him, then put my arms around him and said, "You really have to believe this... I just smoked this cigarette in front of the discipline... It's so refreshing!"

After I finished speaking, I squinted my eyes and looked obliquely above the high wall. I was in a trance, and the back of Ye Zhi's departure just swung around in my trance, and then I felt a desolation. My spiritual world There was only one tree left, its leaves were blown off by the wind, the air was filled with the smell of autumn, and the afterglow of the setting sun was lazy and full of desertedness.

It was in this state of mind that I asked myself a question: What exactly is Ye Zhi pursuing?
Is it really a privilege more attractive than money?

I don't have an answer, maybe one day, when I have the opportunity to stand at her current height, I will truly understand her mood and what she wants to pursue.

……

If you don’t look at time with gains and losses, it will pass quickly; if you are full of desires for the outside world, then these 15 days will be extremely tormented... Anyway, my days of punishment have finally come to an end .

This morning, I used a pen to write the third orthographic number on the shirt I was wearing when I came in, no more, no less, a total of 15 days.

I went to the correctional office to get back my mobile phone, watch and other items. When I wanted to return the unused meal tickets, I thought of Wednesday and Wednesday. Yes, and I was reluctant to eat something good, so I gave him the rest of the meal ticket.

Regarding my departure, Wednesday and Wednesday were particularly disappointed, because in the whole cell, I was the only one who was willing to talk to him, and everyone else used him as a coolie. Look down on him, especially disdain his graduate degree, anyway, he has become a laughing stock... People who steal things laugh at him, and people who go whoring like him also laugh at him...

Before leaving, I whispered in his ear: "I hid two cigarettes under the pool next to the vegetable field. When you let the wind out, remember to take them out and smoke them. They are all good cigarettes... If you don't want to smoke, you can take them. Go and exchange meal tickets with others, anyway, don’t waste it!”

Wed San just nodded and didn't speak... I could see that he was very sad and scared. He was afraid that after I left, other people would bully him even more.

I also feel bad, I know he is cowardly, in such a place that seems to be full of rules, but there are no rules, his personality will be very disadvantaged... I am very worried about him, and I also treat him as a friend, because He is the only one who will exchange my meal ticket for a cigarette, but he is not a very willing person to himself. He is only willing to spend 60 yuan to go to a hair salon to find a prostitute.

I comforted me again: "You will be able to go out in a few days... Come on man, there is no obstacle in this world that you cannot overcome."

Wednesday looked at me, hesitated for a moment, and then said to me: "Brother Mi, can you pick me up when I go out... I don't have any friends... I don't want to be alone when I go out Go back to the rental house... that room is opaque at all, I'll be thinking wildly if I'm bored in it!"

I smiled, and then replied: "No problem, I'll be there when the time comes."

Only then did Wednesday laugh...

I left with his smile... When one of my feet had already stepped out of the gate of the detention center, I couldn't help but think of Chen Jin... What he does every day is what Wednesday and Wednesday dreamed of, if this There really is a so-called fairness in the world, I really hope that he can give some of his female fate to Wednesday.

If there is still fairness in this world, I hope that what I pursue is what Ye Zhi has now; and what she has is what I will never touch!
……

Walking out of the gate of the detention center, the sun shone directly on me, and I saw the shadow quietly falling on my feet... He seemed to be more restless than me, but he belonged to me. When I was not moving, he could only Quieter than me.

I let out a heavy breath, and greedily inhaled the air outside the detention center; in my life, I have eaten so many fresh vegetables and drank so much fresh milk, but at this moment, I really realized that the word "fresh" In the end how to understand.

It was this moment that made me feel that as long as I can be with freedom, I love every inch of land here, even if I can’t drive in the next five years, as long as I can get out.

……

After standing still for a while, a taxi drove up to me and stopped. Nicole opened the window and motioned for me to get in the car... It seems that Ye Zhi took my words to me.

I opened the car door, and instead of sitting in the front row, I sat in the back row with her. I didn't hate her, I just wanted to chat with her, but she acted as if she had wronged me.

I smiled at her, motioned her to relax, and then said to her: "I don't think your heart is strong. In the past half month, the person I want to see the most is you, but you dare not come to see me." I... If you come to see me sooner, you will be free sooner, because I really don't blame you at all..."

"The more you say that, the sadder I feel... I seem to have lost my head and did something very stupid. Even if you don't blame me, Ye Zhi will blame me! If I think about it, I will call Cao Xue Enough……"

"No, you are right to call me...I am very glad that I have such an experience...Before I went in, all I thought about was what I lost. After I went in, I thought about what I had. What... I will cherish everything I have now...Really, I think it is a sin for people to live too greedily, and they will go to hell...Because this is a crippled world, and you live in this crippled world In this world, but thinking of perfection everywhere is tantamount to creating chaos... This world will not be perfect, just like the moon waxes and wanes, just like when we reach our age, we will definitely die...No one can change this!"

Nicole looked at me with a strange look... She must have thought that there was something wrong with my mental state... But these words are all from the bottom of my heart. Nicole is such a talkative person, I want to talk to her about everything.

(End of this chapter)