I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 49 Confession
The setting sun gradually hides behind the Cangshan Mountain in a shy manner, but the Erhai Lake has become wild under the blowing of the evening wind, so the grass under our feet has been wet by the rushing tide...

Tao Zi has smoked several cigarettes, and I have been silent like this, and then I thought of Wang Lei many times in the silence, and then at a certain moment, I felt that if I could put aside the worldly vision and live in seclusion with her in Dali for a lifetime It's also pretty good.

But when I thought that I had to face my parents and the public opinion in this society, this fantasy was immediately shattered, and I had a headache because of it. I seemed to be able to make life and death friends and relatives with Wang Lei, but the only thing I couldn't do was make love People... At the same time, I also understand that this is not my own demon, everyone will have such a demon when faced with such a situation, because we are not noble and do not want to be vulgar!
Tao Zi opened her mouth again, and she said sincerely and sadly: "Actually, I really want to stay in Dali, but I know that I will never meet someone who doesn't mind my past at all, because you and Wang Lei have become like this But you still care about her past, so who do I expect to accept me calmly?...It's better to be corrupt in the depravity, and then make enough money!"

"No, your idea is absolutely wrong... If you still long for love, you should immediately stay away from this profession and start a serious job or career. First of all, you have to forget this miserable past, so that others will not Bring it up, or pursue it... Your body may not be clean, but your mind can be purified, and you can be a normal person again!"

After I finished saying these words, I clenched my fists unconsciously, because this is what I wanted to say to Wang Lei, but I couldn't say it.

"Um……"

After a while of silence, Tao Zi whispered to me again: "Mi Gao, you go back first, I want to be alone here for a while."

"No problem, but don't think about it in a bad direction..."

"I know... I want to be a normal woman again, but I don't have confidence in myself... Hehe, do you believe it? Although it's only for one day, I really like Tetsuo a little bit. I think he is a very interesting man. He's pretty handsome... But I'm worried that Dali is the place that makes me emotional, and that's why I have such an illusion, because he doesn't look like a very reliable man."

I smiled, and then replied: "When you become sentimental, you should be in love... If you don't believe your first feeling, you can go back to Shanghai first. If you calm down, you still have this feeling." Good impression, you will go back to Dali."

"Do I really have a choice?"

"I can't give you the answer, but now you have the time and space to figure it out for yourself."

Tao Zi nodded, and the next moment, I left her and Erhai Lake in the quietly falling night...

……

On the way back to the inn, Tie Nan called me. He said that he wanted to take Tao Zi to a friend's bar tonight.I didn't want to deliberately stop anything, so I told him Tao Zi's whereabouts and asked him to pick Tao Zi by himself.

I don't know what kind of beginning this is, but I know that if there is love between them, they will endure a lot of pain other than love, and this is also a great deal for Tetsuo It is a test, if he can really withstand the pressure and make it to the end with Taozi, then he has really done what I have never been able to do.

……

When I got back to the inn, it was very deserted. I was the only one in the huge yard plus ten guest rooms and a utility room.I know Director Ma went to Bailu's bar to sing, but I don't know where this ghost Yang Sisi went.

I ate a little dinner and lay on the bed, and this seemed to be the first time since I came to Dali that I wanted to go to bed early before ten o'clock.But when I really turned off the light and closed my eyes, there was another moment of dizziness, and then the little drowsiness disappeared.

I suddenly had a very strong desire to tell people.But there are some things that I can't tell the people around me, so I thought of my enemy: that strange woman who occupied Lu Jia's number, anyway, I have been scolded enough by her, so I don't mind at all. The most unbearable self was dissected in front of her.I subconsciously feel that we will never meet in our lifetime, so I don't care what kind of image I have in her heart.

This time, I took the initiative to send her a message: "I have a female friend, but I don't know how I feel about her."

"There is no pure opposite-sex friendship in this world."

"so what?"

"So you are a complete scumbag... Do you remember the message you sent me before? You said you wanted your ex-girlfriend very much, but now an ambiguous female friend suddenly appeared, are you serious? How good is it to be the opposite sex?!"

"It was my ex-girlfriend who dumped me, why did I become a scumbag?"

"Then you can go with that ambiguous female friend."

"She's gone...died in an accident!"

The other party may be a little surprised, so it took a long time to reply this time: "If she is fine, will you be with her?"

"It's this problem that keeps me awake... She is the most sincere woman in the world to me, but my ex-girlfriend left me because I was poor."

"Hehe, then why don't you choose a woman who is sincere to you, but still has a crush on a woman who thinks you are poor?"

I turned on the bed light and lit a cigarette in the dim light, but it didn't wake me up, so I didn't reply until the end of the cigarette: "She works in the night club..."

"Hahahahahaha..."

"Why are you smiling like a 100-pound fool?"

The other party did not reply to the message for some reason, but I felt a little more comfortable.I'm not saying this to get a suggestion, or anything, I don't need it, because Wang Lei is no longer here, and all the things that bother me are just false propositions that don't exist, and what I want is also Just talking, I don't want to be a heartless man in front of Wang Lei, but her sincerity to me has really touched my heart deeply, otherwise I would not give up the city of Shanghai and come all the way here to Dali.

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It was already twelve o'clock at night, but I was getting less and less sleepy, so I put on my coat again and went to the platform that I often used for meditation. After sitting for a while, Yang Sisi came back, and she quietly opened the door of the yard , and then tiptoed inside, but I saw them all...

I yelled at her and yelled, "What are you doing, come back so late?!"

Yang Sisi was so frightened that she slapped her chest hard, then picked up a pebble from the flower pond, and smashed it at me, she cursed: "You scum, are you trying to scare me to death?"

I dodged and replied: "If you are not guilty, who can scare you... Tell me honestly, what are you doing here?... Is it really a system that does not militarize me? Put it in your eyes? What time the fuck is it!"

"Military, you are tall, I came back so late because of the task you assigned me."

"Then why are you sneaking around?"

"I'm afraid to disturb your rest, okay?"

"There is no one else in the entire inn except me."

Yang Sisi immediately straightened her back and said with a contemptuous smile, "So you're the only single dog here."

"It's like you're not single."

"But I have friends...how can you be like you, living alone in the inn, life would be better than death!" Yang Sisi said, and came to me along the stairs, and I saw clearly that her hand was still there. holding a folder.

She threw the folder in front of me, and said: "Today, I visited a dozen or so photography studios, and here is the customer information they will shoot in the last week. You can filter it and see if they are willing to let them." Which customers are brought to our inn to take big pictures... I told them that we will use these upcoming photos for promotional purposes, so we can't bring customers who are not good-looking to us Come to shoot, they will ask us to screen first, and then confirm with them."

"When you negotiate with others, are you always so strong?"

"Of course, I'm so beautiful, those photographers are so flirtatious, who doesn't want to pick me up as a girlfriend? So of course they have to lower their profile in front of me."

I was speechless, but she picked up the folder again, slapped me hard, and said, "Are you sorry for me? I'm selling my lust!"

"I just let you go to normal contact, who told you to betray your hue?"

"But they agreed to this matter because I was beautiful...and several of them invited me out for dinner, saying that if I didn't agree, they wouldn't agree either."

"You agreed to everything?"

"I agreed... But I'm not stupid. When I decide to have dinner with them, I will bring you, a little dog, and let them stop thinking about me, and let them understand that this is a beauty trick. "

I just thought she was joking with me, so I didn't say anything, but took the folder from her hand.And the moment I opened it, I had a feeling of dumbfounding, because she made a special mark on the information of every owner of the photography studio who had bad motives for her.

In an instant, I felt that I had really wronged her, and then I had an urge to be nice to her...

(End of this chapter)