I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 60 No one understands

The ringtone of the mobile phone continued to come, and I could feel how anxious the parents on the other end of the phone were.But I also have a lot of difficulties, but I don't know what to say to let them understand me, so I dare not answer the phone for a long time.

That's how I am. Sometimes I don't have to be afraid of mountains of swords and seas of fire, but I am afraid of my parents' censure, but this matter has to be faced after all.

Finally, I gritted my teeth, got cruel, and connected the phone. Then, with a heartless look, I smiled and said, "Dad, I was just about to call you back, but you called yourself. What a coincidence!"

"Where are you now?"

I can feel what kind of emotion Lao Mi on the other end of the phone is suppressing the anger in my heart, and it is impossible for me to hide it from him after the matter has developed to this point, so I also replied in a low voice. Said: "Dali, I quit my job in Shanghai a month ago."

It took a long time for Lao Mi to say: "Aren't you a jerk, how could you deceive us as parents... and you and Lu Jia, what's going on?"

I wanted to take out a cigarette from my pocket and light it, but found that the only pack of cigarettes was taken away by the beast named Ma Guidance, so I became even more depressed.I looked up at the place with the brightest lights on the other side, and then replied, "I'm not good enough for Lu Jia, she wants to leave, but I can't stop her...Dad, I've tried my best these years, but I really can't do it Get mixed up in that city of Shanghai."

"You fart... You pretended to be Lao Huang and didn't tell me. He has always reserved the position of product manager for you. You have been waiting for this opportunity for so many years. Why don't you cherish it and go to Dali at this time? fool around?"

"I'm not fooling around in Dali, I just want to do a good job... Now there are some signs."

"What do you mean by a little eyebrow? ... I don't want to hear these farts. Mi Gao, if you still think about me and your mother, pack your bags and go back to Shanghai. Maybe Lao Huang can help you get this position." Keep it, if it’s too late, it’s really hard to say... You understand our feelings as parents, we will raise money now, and help you pay a down payment for a house in Shanghai, and then you can talk to someone Lu Jia, after so many years How can you just let go of your feelings, you are all grown ups!"

I clenched my fists, panting and replied: "You all have to be considerate to me... who will be considerate to me?...Dad, do you really want me to stay in Shanghai so much? Do you know that the house over there is What market?... Yes, we can borrow money from relatives and friends, but don't we have to pay back the borrowed money?... Even if we try our best to raise a million yuan, it is only enough to pay a down payment. There is a mortgage, how can you ask me to carry it alone?"

Lao Mi was silent at first, and then said angrily to me: "Have you done something to offend Lu Jia? If you and Lu Jia are together in a down-to-earth way, why can't the two of you pay back the mortgage?"

"Everyone's pursuit is different. I can't give you what Lu Jia wants...Dad, don't force me. I really don't have the ability to buy a house or a car in Shanghai, and then use these to secure a higher pursuit. woman..."

After saying this, I closed my eyes, and the scenes I experienced in Shanghai came back to my mind...

If a man is not really tortured enough, how can he be willing to say that he is incompetent in front of his parents.I was tired, like a pile of mud, rolled from Shanghai to Dali; my self-esteem was also hurt, so I felt that I was not worthy of Lu Jia, and finally I was willing to let her go without saying anything.

Lao Mi opened his mouth again: "You are showing incompetence. Could it be that you are the only outsider in Shanghai?"

"Go and ask, except for a very small number of people, how many people live there comfortably."

"I can't talk to you on the phone. I've already booked a train ticket to Dali, and I'll be at the train station at 6 pm tomorrow...you can figure it out."

Lao Mi hung up the phone angrily, but I couldn't react, I kept hanging the phone by my ear, and didn't put it down for a long time...

I wanted to explain something, but found that this world is so cruel, because no one is willing to take the time to listen to me, even my parents... All they want is that I live as the one they want to see Look, but don't care what kind of torment I have suffered in my heart.

The pile of firewood brought by Director Ma has been burned to ashes. When I felt cold, the wind blew over with moisture, so there was no place for me to stand on the endless Erhai Lake. Dejectedly, he returned to the inn, and then threw his head on the bed, without any desire to move, as if he was dead.

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I had a nightmare, dreaming that I fell from a tall building, I woke up suddenly, and then sat on the bed for a long time before picking up my phone to check the time.This time point is very awkward, because it is between the middle of the night and before the dawn.

I opened WeChat, only to see that Tie Nan posted a Moments update more than two hours ago, he and Tao Zi met, and had supper together... I don’t know how he tricked Tao Zi out, but saw his joy.

Come to think of it, this is where some families are happy and some are sad.

I sighed softly, turned off WeChat, and then went to the bathroom to wash my face with cold water. After waking up, I left the inn on Tetsuo’s motorcycle, like a withered leaf, floating on Huanhai Road ...

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When I was about to reach "Majiuyi", Chaoyang finally revealed a corner on the other side of the Erhai Lake, and the whole ancient city also glowed with vitality. In this peaceful vitality, I met a cleaner who cleaned the road, and There are hawkers selling tofu and bean brains.

In the end, I stopped at the door of the "Haitu Inn" and didn't dare to go in. I just sat on the motorcycle and lit a cigarette.Of course I hope that Ye Zhi can help with this, but I still lack some confidence.

Because I have never gotten along with a woman of this class for so many years, so even if she is willing to help, I don't know how to get along with her so that we can look like a couple A very harmonious couple, and don't let Lao Mi suspect.

When a cigarette was about to be finished, the door of the "Haitu Inn" was opened, and then I saw Ye Zhi walking out of it...

She was wearing sportswear, and her long hair was also braided by her.From the looks of it, it was time to go for a run.

She stopped by my side, and then asked me a little unexpectedly: "Why are you here?"

"I... just go for a ride and just pass by you."

"Ah."

Ye Zhi responded, but really ignored me, she just ran along the Huanhai Road to a village next to Ma Jiuyi, where the inns are more densely packed...

She is really a woman who is indifferent enough, so my timidity in my heart increased a bit, just because of her temperament, how can I cooperate well with me and perform this play in front of Lao Mi?

At my wit's end, I wanted to confront Lao Mi head-on, but thinking of his heart condition, I dismissed the idea, because I was afraid that he would get angry at him, and then I would not be able to wash away my sins.

Could it be that he really wanted to go back to Shanghai according to his wishes?

I can not be reconciled.

I took out my mobile phone from my pocket again, and then called Director Ma.

Director Ma, who is in the late stage of lazy cancer, got up unexpectedly. He answered my call and asked me very soberly, "What's the matter?"

"It's a big deal... My dad's train arrives in Dali in the afternoon, so hurry up and find me a woman with a diamond ring, or I'll really pack my bags and go back to Shanghai."

"Is it really that serious?"

"Even if you give me the heart of a bear and the guts of a leopard, I don't dare to joke about it..."

Director Ma was silent for a while, and then replied: "Hey, then this matter is really difficult. You say that I am a singer who sings in a bar. What kind of decent woman can I know?"

These words reminded me of the women I met at the "Women's Flower" bar where he sang last time; they not only smoked, but also got tattoos, which is obviously not acceptable to a rigid old man like Lao Mi.

Just when I was at a loss what to do, a burst of fragrance of shampoo wafted along with the morning wind, I turned my head and found Ye Zhi standing beside me.She asked me, "What did you mean when you said you were looking for a woman with a diamond ring?"

(End of this chapter)