I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 659 I Don't Want To Lose Anymore

Even if Chen Jin didn't tell me the news, I knew there would be such a day, but I didn't expect it to come so soon. In my subconscious mind, at least I should wait until I got out of this predicament, otherwise it would be very difficult for my life. , is worse.

As a man, there is no encounter that would be more painful than losing a beloved woman during the downturn in my career; I have already tasted this feeling with Lu Jia, and now it is Ye Zhi again; I can clearly feel that this time It hurts even more, because I know that Lu Jia left me in search of a better life; but Ye Zhi didn't, she just jumped from one fire pit into another bigger fire pit
I sat on the bed for a long time before replying to Chen Jin's message. I forwarded the message that Ye Zhi sent to me before and forwarded it to him.

Not long after, Chen Jin texted back: "What does she mean by that? Push you to Sisi's side, and then give up on you?"

"I knew there would be such a day..."

"Don't answer the question, what are you thinking now?"

"As it is now, what else do you think I can do?"

"I know that your current situation is very bad and you are very passive...but if you do nothing, you will regret it for the rest of your life...Mi Gao, are you a man? You clearly know that Ye Zhi loves you so much..."

"Isn't adult love like this... If you are me, or if you stand in her perspective, is there a better choice between us?"

"Yes... I think it's because you dare not face it. Think about it for yourself. Over the years, has Ye Zhi expressed to you the idea of ​​asking you to help her... It's because you have always rejected Shanghai. If you had been by her side earlier, you might have helped her out of this predicament... Now that you ask me to figure out the intricate situation of Binjiang Group, do you think I am more capable than you?... Mi Gao, It is you who have been evading, and you are capable of helping her. Among other things, you have fought so many times with Cao Jinbo during the past few years in Dali, and you have finally retreated unscathed. Dangerous, can it be more evil than Cao Jinbo, a gangster?... You are running away, you have been running away, I really don't know what you are running away... Yes, this place in Shanghai, to you and to me, is the same A painful memory...but it's far from cannibalistic, isn't your cousin doing well there?...So, what are you afraid of?"

"I'm not afraid, the one who is afraid is Ye Zhi."

"What do you mean by that?"

"When our inn was demolished, she did express the idea of ​​asking me to help her; but that was before we fell in love; after that, she never mentioned this matter again, and I never thought of it. There are so many crises hidden behind her illustrious background, if I knew about it earlier, I wouldn't have any worries... But it's too late to say anything now, because it's done!"

"It's because she doesn't want you to be involved in the interest struggle of Binjiang Group?"

"She has been doing this all the time. She is willing to let me misunderstand her and hate her... She understands better than me. Some people really dare to disregard people's lives for the sake of profit!... So, until there is no result, neither you nor I can Draw conclusions randomly, saying that she did something wrong...at least, now she and I are still alive!"

This time, it took Chen Jin a long time to reply to the message, and he asked, "Are you really ready to give up?"

I felt my heart tremble, but I still gritted my teeth and replied, "I don't have time, I'm just a person in a wheelchair, what can you expect me to do?... I'm really powerless!"

"Then what you asked me to do before, does it still count?"

"Forget it... Even if we can't be together in this life, at least we still have friendship and family relationship... If I help her solve all the troubles, she will be happy, and I will be worth it."

"It hurts to hear it!"

……

I didn't reply to Chen Jin's message, nor did Ye Zhi's one... I sat back in the wheelchair, opened all the windows, and felt the sea breeze blowing from the far end of the sea... I did it to calm myself One point; I hate myself so much, when I’m in a bad mood, I can’t even smoke and drink like friends… I lost all ways to vent my emotions, like a stone, waiting to be wet The sea breeze weathered...

I don't know how long it took before there was another knock on the door. I didn't want to be disturbed, so I said to Brother Ping outside the door: "I'm already asleep. Let's talk about something tomorrow."

"Open the door, I want to talk to you."

I turned my head subconsciously, because it was not Brother Ping's voice, and it seemed familiar, but not so profound.

"Who are you?"

"You'll know if you open the door."

I turned the wheelchair and came to the door of the room. The moment I opened the door, I was stunned... At this moment, standing in front of me was Yutou, whom I hadn't contacted for a long time...

In a trance, I understood: Yang Sisi didn't come to Thailand alone, she stayed in Jimo for so long, and she always had Yutou's contact information, so Yutou should be with her these days.

I just said that she will not be lonely, because there are too many men who admire her, and Yutou is just one of them.

……

On the beach, Yutou handed me a cigarette and asked me, "Is it an accident?"

"To be honest, it's not surprising at all... I know she went to Jimo before, since she is in Jimo, how can you be missing?"

"But she didn't go to Jimo for me."

As Yutou said, he brought the lighter closer. He wanted to light the cigarette for me, but I pushed him away. Although I miss the smell of tobacco very much, at this time, as long as it affects the recovery of nerves, I can do it. Unconditional abandonment... I have already lost too many, too many things because of this crippled leg, and I don't want to lose any more.

I said to Yutou, "Quit."

"How long have you been smoking?"

"I started smoking in the freshman year of high school, and it has been 13 years."

"Smoking for such a long time, you can quit if you say you can quit, you are a cruel person!"

I smiled wryly: "I am like this now, do I have any choice?"

Yutou first lit the cigarette in his hand, and then took a deep breath. After a while of silence, he said to me: "Time flies so fast, I still remember that you were riding a broken scooter , the scene of following behind the convoy to make up for the number... At that time, I really looked down on you... You are obviously poor, but you can pretend to be a big-tailed wolf better than anyone else... I always thought that you followed us to pick up girls ...There are a few good-looking girls in our motorcade, I always feel that you look at them lewdly...they don't like you either."

"Really?... When I was in Jimo, I was really not poor. That should be the richest time in my life... Actually, I also want to buy a better motorcycle, but I really don't I know cars too well, so I don't want to spoil your knight's belief!"

(End of this chapter)