I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 743 An inn, a city, only waiting for one person in life (finale)

On the night of thirty, the ancient city was full of traffic and bright lights. I sat alone at the end of Renmin Road and smoked a cigarette. After all, I couldn’t go back to celebrate the New Year with Lao Mi and my mother... I was full of indescribable loneliness.

But I am not the most unfortunate person. After experiencing such a big storm, Cao Xiaobei suffered from severe depression. Yang Sisi took Cao Xiaobei to Germany for treatment this morning. She did not let I sent it off, but just said "sorry" to me before leaving.

I understand what she means, but it's me who should say "I'm sorry".

Ye Zhi also returned to Shanghai, quietly.

At this moment, if I didn't step on the land of Dali, I really doubt that this is a dream...a very long dream!
I want to laugh, and I want to cry... because, under these flickering lights, I think of the joys, sorrows and joys I have experienced in these years...

Suddenly, I especially want to sleep, the kind of sleep that can't wake up. This kind of negativity stems from the frustration in my heart.

If there are winners and losers in the world of feelings, I am undoubtedly the one who loses the most... I have to accept the reality that there is no love in my world, but even if I lose completely, I am convinced that I will lose because only the most Only a sincere person deserves the most sincere love.

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"Mi Gao, the dumplings are all wrapped, hurry up and have the New Year's Eve dinner!"

It wasn't until Director Ma sent me this voice message that I suddenly remembered that I still have a group of friends here, but I don't want to eat, and I don't have any desire to blend myself into the crowd...

I turned off my phone, curled up alone on a bench in the street, facing the flickering fireworks, crying with my head in my arms...

……

Three years later.

In a high-end residential complex in Shanghai, I sat alone on the sofa in the living room and smoked. This is the second apartment I bought in Shanghai. It is 196 square meters, five bedrooms, five independent bathrooms, and the north and south are transparent.

Yesterday, I also changed the car, and replaced it with a brand new BMW 760LI, the top model in the seven series, worth more than 200 million.

I gradually feel that the city of Shanghai has become more open and open-minded. I finally don’t have to squeeze the bus anymore, and I have my own dedicated parking space. I completely get rid of the trouble of crowding. I set aside one and made it into a gym, which is filled with all kinds of fitness equipment... I like to sweat on these equipment, because every time I am tired and sweaty, I will forget a lot of things.

My friends think that I exercise so much because I care about my body, but I haven't quit smoking or drinking.

……

I put out the cigarette in my hand, took another bottle of wine from the wine cabinet, then opened the curtains, stood on the 39th floor, overlooking the city below... I saw interlaced lights, half bright, half bright It's dim, and when they merge, it's especially like life... But standing on this building, I can no longer see the stench of the vegetable market, and I can't see the night market food stalls where beer only sells for two yuan and a bottle... ...But I can't deny their existence, because that's where I've come from.

I was so lost in the images of the past and the present, until someone knocked on the door outside.

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Opening the door, standing in front of me is Tong Yuwei, she is my new girlfriend... No, it is not new, because we have been together for almost a year... She was met at the nightclub ...

She frowned and asked me, "Are you drinking again?"

"Have a drink... is there something wrong?"

"let's break up."

I smiled and asked, "Why did you break up? Is it something I did wrong?"

"It's because I didn't do well... So, you never really loved me."

I lit another cigarette for myself, and then asked in a very calm tone, "I'll buy you a house and a car, isn't that considered love?"

"Are you trying to settle accounts with me?...Then who will pay for my youth?...Could it be that I slept with you for a year for nothing?"

"What is given to you is given to you."

"Hehe... yes, you are already so rich, why would you care about such a small thing like me!"

I looked at Tong Yuwei, and after being dumb for a long time, I finally asked her: "Yeah, I'm already so rich, why do you want to break up with me?"

This is a question I want to know very, very much, but she doesn't want to answer at all, she starts to take off her clothes, and then whispers in my ear: "Mi Gao, remember my body..."

……

The night was so deep, I left the empty house as if fleeing, and then found the only friend in this city, Chen Jin... For more than three years, he, like me, has never been there since he left Dali. Have not been back.

We are facing the cold wind, sitting on the top floor of the chamber of commerce building, he smokes, I drink...

I smiled and said to him: "I seem to be suffering from depression. Every time I stand on a high place, I have an urge to jump off... Do you think this is really a relief?"

"Come on, do you think depression is a fashionable disease?...Even if I have depression, I should have it... You say, I have a successful career now, right? But why is Nicole willing to wait? With Cao Xue released from prison, you are not willing to give me a chance?"

"You have to ask yourself that."

After answering this sentence, I couldn't help laughing, like a patient laughing at another patient.

"Stinky idiot!"

Chen Jin scolded me, and then smoked a cigarette on his own... Suddenly, he said to me seriously: "By the way, my friend from Dali told me something... more than a year ago , Cao Jinbo got pancreatic cancer, and died while in custody!"

"Is it?"

"I can't be wrong, it was said by a friend from the Public Security Bureau... I chatted yesterday, and I somehow got to talk about Cao Jinbo... By the way, we haven't been to Dali for a long time... Actually, there is nothing to commemorate. The sad place... Shanghai is better!"

I didn't comment, I just picked up the bottle and took another sip... I don't know if it was a hallucination, or someone was really singing. I heard the song "Goodbye, Twentieth Century" again, but my heart was already numb. I didn't give myself any feelings, and I didn't deliberately recall anything.

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After a long time, I finally opened my mouth and asked Chen Jin: "How is your work recently?"

Chen Jin immediately replied with a sneer: "You want to ask me about Ye Zhi?"

"Three years, have you seen me mention this person to you?"

"Yes, after three years, you finally couldn't bear it and mentioned this person to me!"

"If you can't talk to me, I'll go back to sleep."

"Don't wait, it's hard to wait for you to ask me out... Mi Gao, there is something that I can't help but want to tell you."

"Tell me something reliable."

Chen Jin moved closer to me, and said in a low voice, "What I want to tell you is Mr. Ye's child... Last week, I saw her in the group's underground garage, and she was hugging that little girl. Things... It's so hot, it really looks a bit like you... Especially the eyes, when looking at people with half-closed eyes, they are very frivolous!...Really, they are exactly the same as you!"

I was stunned, and cursed again: "Can you fucking speak something human?!"

"You...haven't had a relationship?"

"I swear, I didn't even take off her top."

Chen Jin gave himself a slap, and then replied: "Just treat me as a bad mouth, you can't talk nonsense!"

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During the intermittent silence, the two of us lay on the roof together. At this time, I drank a whole bottle of wine. I was a little sleepy and wanted to sleep here...

"Mi Gao, Chinese New Year is coming soon...Let's go to Thailand this year. I heard that Brother Ping bought a yacht. Let's drink red wine and watch the sea view on the yacht...and welcome our 33rd birthday in this world. It's been a year!...I'm fucking looking at it now, since I'm not happy emotionally, I must not treat myself badly...Next year, I will also buy a house in Phuket..."

I interrupted Chen Jin impatiently, and then said: "Go by yourself...I want to go home for the New Year..."

"Don't go home and make your parents angry...you don't even have a girlfriend...Go to Thailand with me!"

I have no words, but I just think of this time three years ago... I suddenly want to go back to Dali, see the friends there, and see the romance there! ... I don't know if I haven't been to Dali all these years, or even inquired about anything related to Dali. Is it a kind of escape... But I have never forgotten what happened there, and I still keep it. The business license of the inn "I'll wait for you in the wind, flowers, snow and moon"... This is what Tetsuo gave me back then, and it is almost one of the most important things in my life.

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The next day, I took the earliest flight from Shanghai to Dali. I was sitting in a taxi, looking at the familiar Cangshan Mountain and Erhai Lake, with mixed feelings in my heart...

I just watched it until the car drove into National Highway 218, and then I said to the driver: "Master, can you recommend a hotel...I have to find a place to stay at night."

"What kind of inn do you want to live in?"

"Dali's inn culture is leading the country, of course, the more sentimental the better."

The driver smiled and replied, "There is one in front of you."

"what?"

The driver motioned me to look ahead.

I looked up, and on the billboard, the propaganda slogans to protect the Erhai Lake were gone, replaced by an advertisement for an inn.

My already numb heart suddenly trembled wildly...

I hurriedly dialed the reservation number on the billboard.

Five seconds later, I heard the voice that had appeared in my dreams countless times. She said to me in a very soft tone: "Hello, an inn, a city, and only one person in my life... Dali, I am waiting for your inn in the wind, flowers, snow and moon, welcome to consult..."

"An inn, a city, only waiting for one person in a lifetime..."

My eyes were blurred for an instant... At this moment, I seemed to see her almost 30 years old through the "wind, flowers, snow and moon" of this city... It is precisely my best life, and it is also the choice between the two cities!
(season finale)

(End of this chapter)