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Chapter 350 Confession (for subscription)

"Are you praising me, or are you mocking me?"

Just as Jiang Junhyuk finished speaking, Cai Xiubin asked speechlessly.

You are simple, I am complicated and deep, do you have any misunderstanding of "mature"?
Jiang Junhe laughed and said: "Let's start from the beginning. If you don't start from the beginning, shouldn't you suspect me of making things up?"

Cai Xiubin said dumbly: "Okay. You continue."

Jiang Junhe smiled, and continued: "You know, a person with a straightforward personality like me doesn't say that one is one, and two is two, black and white are clear, and there is no turning around at all. Instead, I prefer to talk about things openly, no I like to cover up."

Cai Xiubin said: "So you were going to visit the class at the time, and I didn't let you go, so you think I'm not sincere?"

Jiang Junhe smiled and said: "Frankly speaking, it was a little bit at that time." He paused, "Actually, before dating you, I just ended a relationship. When we broke up, how should I put it, it was a bit embarrassing. Her personality is different from yours. She is very possessive, even if possible, she doesn't want to give me a little personal space, but her character is very direct. If you like it, you like it, without procrastination, and there is no tactful temptation."

Cai Xiubin said: "So after I rejected you at that time, you subconsciously compared me with her. Do you think I am not as innocent as her?"

Jiang Junhyuk laughed: "There are comparisons, but how can you say it so seriously? I didn't say that you are not innocent. To be honest, I really thought you thought too much at the time, and understanding is understanding, but people are afraid of comparison. What's more, you are comparing her strengths with yours, so you will inevitably feel that you are far less sincere to me than she is to me. Everyone is like this, be lenient with yourself and strict with others. Once you get into a dead end, you will think more and more , and I can't help it."

Cai Xiubin said: "Then you are so frank now, do you have figured it out?"

Jiang Junhe said: "I can't say that I figured it out, I can only say that after the experience, I look back, just like when a person grows up and looks back at his childhood, he will find a lot of childishness and innocence. There is a kind of... how to say Well, it makes people feel absurdly immature."

Cai Xiubin was silent for a while before saying, "Everyone is different."

Kang Jun Hyuk smiled and said: "Yes. Everyone is different. Compared with you, I was really naive at the time, with many immaturities. Actually, looking back now, I understand your choice at that time very well. We only dated for a short time, In addition to text messages and phone calls, there are not many opportunities to meet. In addition, you are filming a TV series and you have just debuted. I am worried that if I visit the set and cause scandals, it will affect you and me. In fact, this is quite normal psychology."

Cai Xiubin was silent again: "Actually, it's not just because of this aspect."

Jiang Junhe was surprised: "There are other factors?"

Cai Xiubin said: "Do you still remember when I went to celebrate your birthday?"

Jiang Junhe responded, and Cai Xiubin said: "Before that day, I actually knew that you liked me, and I also liked you. As long as you confess to me, I will definitely agree to date you. But that day... I I didn’t expect that you would directly say that I am your girlfriend in front of so many people. Frankly speaking...it’s a bit forced. If I denied it at the time, it would make you lose face, and there may be no possibility between us. But Confessing in person makes me feel that you are deliberately using other people to put pressure on me, and it feels like being forced."

After a pause, "Especially, after you disclosed that I was your girlfriend, Park Xiurong turned his face and left directly, which made me feel that the reason why you said that at that time was probably just using me to reject Park Xiurong tactfully. Because of this, I have concerns, I don’t know whether it’s because you like me, or because you are forced to reject Park Xiurong because of the situation, so you reluctantly chose me.”

With a wry smile, Cai Xiubin said: "Before I find out whether you really like me, I can't really let you integrate into my life. In case I'm just your spare tire, just an excuse for you to reject Park Xiurong, then when After I gave my heart, when I introduced you to my friends and you broke up with me in a blink of an eye, I would become very passive and sad. This is why I didn’t really accept you at the time.”

Jiang Junhe was stunned, and asked: "Then you..."

Cai Xiubin said, "Why didn't you tell me then?"

Kang Jun Hyuk was speechless.

Cai Xiubin said: "You even proposed to break up with me, what's the use of me just talking about it? What's more, I didn't even think about it, just because I didn't let you visit the class, you broke up with me just because of this. I At that time, I just felt that I guessed correctly, I was your spare tire, you didn't really like me at all, you just wanted to find a 'girlfriend' on the surface."

With a wry smile again, Cai Xiubin said: "If you hadn't just frankly stated your feelings at that time, and told the real reason why you broke up with me, I would never have told you these things."

Jiang Junhe was speechless for a while, and then said after a while: "So I like to be simple and make everything clear. Because if you only hide many things in your heart, you will never get the answer. Just like us, if you put all your My concerns told me that we couldn't have gotten there at the time."

Cai Xiubin said: "Everyone wants to be honest, but who can really be honest. You said I didn't tell you this, did you say that you were absolutely honest with me at that time? You dare to say that you directly declared that I was you on your birthday Girlfriend, there is no Park Soo-young factor at all?"

Jiang Junhe was speechless again, and after a while, he smiled bitterly and said: "Okay. I don't deny this. Frankly speaking, I really didn't intend to date you at that time."

Cai Xiubin sneered, "So I'm really a backup?"

Having said all this, Jiang Junhe felt that there was no need to hide any more, and it was not worth concealing, so he denied it: "You are not a spare tire, but... I didn't plan to fall in love at that time." He paused, "I just now I told you that my last girlfriend was very possessive, and she couldn't stand me even a little contact with other girls. So I didn't think about falling in love at all, at least not in the short term.

It is also because of this reason that I pursued you at the beginning, more because I wanted to find a dewy relationship. It is also because of this reason that I knew that Xiurong liked me, but I didn't plan to accept her. On my birthday, I used you as a shield.

But I have to clarify one thing.

Before I established a relationship with you, I really thought so.I don't want to fall in love with you, I just want to find a bed partner, and your appearance is my type.

But after establishing a relationship with you, my mind has changed.

Not claiming you are my girlfriend, I can care less.But now that you are my girlfriend, I have truly accepted you.

At that time, I really wanted to continue with you and become a real couple. It was also because of this that I wanted to walk into your life and become a part of your life, and I also... because of your rejection, I chose to let go. "

(End of this chapter)