royal robes

Chapter 523 Relief
These days Zong Xin has also figured out a lot of things. He knows why he has always maintained a longing for Bai Yu, because he likes her, and it is the first time he likes her from the bottom of his heart.Zong Xin had never found this kind of feeling in Yaoyao and Dugu Xingyue, nor in Ning An, but this feeling was no stranger to Zong Xin, it was the feeling he had with Mrs. Huarui back then.

Originally, Zong Xin really didn't find out, but after making out with Bai Yu, he found out about it.Zong Xin is not so stupid, but Bai Yu always maintained a clear state in front of Zong Xin. No matter how advanced Zong Xin's martial arts is, he will always look up at Bai Yu, thinking that she is a spotless fairy, and dare not treat Bai Yu Produce the slightest inappropriate thought.

After the two made out, Bai Yu was no longer that spotless fairy, but a living woman.Zong Xin also found that he liked her very much and was willing to spend the rest of his life with her.This is the second time that Zong Xin took the initiative to think this way, but when he faced Huaruifu for the first time, Zong Xin missed...Meng Chang took the lead, but this time Zong Xin can guarantee that he is the first to succeed people.

"Ms. sir, we seem... to have never sat alone together." Bai Yu was very shy and didn't know what to say.

Zong Xin nodded and said, "It's true that I haven't... You seem to have something to ask me."

"Yes, I want to ask you...why didn't you kill me?" Bai Yu said: "If it weren't for your reminder, I would never have discovered the time when the demon was preparing to attack. I can't always be vigilant. You deliberately acted to Yaoyao looks at it, just to stop us from killing each other. Moreover, even if I control your acupuncture points, with your skill and physical strength, you can directly subdue me by conflicting acupuncture points, and I will not have time to kill you. Maybe Yaoyao is not I know, but I know very well that you didn’t kill me on purpose.”

Regarding the matter in the cave, Bai Yu was the real party involved.Because Yaoyao has been looking for opportunities to kill herself to eat meat.After subduing Zong Xin, Bai Yu has been subduing Zong Xin's acupoints. At that time, Bai Yu discovered that Zong Xin's physical strength and skill have not regressed at all. From then on, Bai Yu knew that no matter what he did, as long as Zong Xin wanted to kill It's absolutely easy for me.

Zong said: "Do you want to hear the truth or lies."

"Of course you have to listen to the truth."

"Monks just don't understand sentimentality. At this time, you should listen to lies first." Zong Xin hugged Bai Yu into his arms. Although Bai Yu was shy, she didn't stop her.

Bai Yu nestled in Zong Xin's arms and said depressedly: "Okay, let's listen to the lies first."

Zong Dao: "Because I love you, I am even more reluctant to kill you. So even if I starve to death, I will not kill you to eat meat. If I am really forced to kill you, I will only let Yaoyao eat your meat. Definitely won't take a bite."

Bai Yu nodded, and then said, "What about the truth?"

"Actually, I also wanted to kill you and eat meat, but that was before making love with you." Zong Xin said: "I never knew how I felt about you before, but after making love with you, I understood that I really love you. You. I am willing to give up everything I have now for you, grow my hair for you and be an ordinary person. Just the two of us, find a place where no one knows, and live a life of men farming and women weaving... I still bring some The best money is to buy a piece of land, buy some properties, and then let others take care of us and live a comfortable life. It's too hard for men to farm and women to weave. I can't lead you to live this kind of life, not to mention that our martial arts are so good. Well, where can't I get some money?"

'Pfft~' Bai Yu covered her mouth and laughed, this Zong Xin was quite good at making jokes.Originally thought that he would talk about an ordinary life, but in the end he still had to make some money to live a rich life.Of course, it’s not wrong to think this way. With Zong Xin’s high level of martial arts, it’s too easy for him to get money. If he has the ability, he should live a better life. However, these words change too quickly, which makes people feel uncomfortable. Want to laugh.

Bai Yu said, "Are you really willing?"

"Yes, if I were a person without a conscience, I would definitely do it. But I am a person with a conscience, I want to do this but I can't." Zong Xin regretted: "I can't leave this big family behind. , and... my heart has been forced to accept many unexpected situations, and I have to be responsible for them."

In fact, these words were also expected by Bai Yu, but after hearing these words, he felt a little happy and a little disappointed.Zong Xin is not a heartless person, but a responsible man who will not give up his responsibilities and obligations just because of his temporary pleasure.At the same time, it would actually be great if she could stay and fly with him, although Bai Yu knew that this chance was very slim.

"I'm really happy that you can say that." Bai Yu smiled and said, "But I still have one question to ask, what's the difference between you loving me and the other three women?"

"The difference? I just love you a little more."

"How much? How much?" Bai Yu asked, which made Zong Xin not know how to answer.

Zong Xin thought about it carefully, and then said: "Let me do the math...you account for half, and Yaoyao, Dugu Xingyue, and Ning An add up to account for half. That's probably the case."

"So much? But I... am not as good as you think. In the cave, I... am very mean." Bai Yu suddenly laughed, she really didn't expect Zong Xin to answer like this.In Zong Xin's heart, he was so important.In fact, the two of them only made out in the cave a few times, and his own performance at that time... To be honest, Bai Yu himself didn't want to recall it, it was too low, not even as good as a woman in a brothel.

Zong Xin comforted: "You are just pursuing perfection too much. When you think that you are not perfect from the first moment, you can do everything. In fact, you just haven't figured out one thing. It is not shameful to want to live. This It’s a human’s survival instinct, it’s like killing someone by holding their breath, it’s never going to work, the human instinct is to live, there’s nothing to be ashamed of.”

"Really?" Bai Yu immediately took a deep breath and held it in his chest, wanting to see if it was really impossible to commit suicide.

He held this breath for a long time, causing Bai Yu's face to turn red, but in the end Bai Yu couldn't help panting.In fact, at that moment, Bai Yu was almost ready to seek death like this, but in the end it really didn't work out.

Zong said: "I know what you are thinking, and I can't stop it. I just want to tell you that there is no shame in living. You just didn't figure it out at the time. You thought your body betrayed you, but it wasn't like that. It's just Your survival instinct compels you to do it."

Bai Yu threw herself into Zong Xin's arms. Although she didn't make a sound, Bai Yu's tears kept flowing out and she suppressed her humble sobs.

Bai Yu had never experienced that kind of thing in a cave since she was a child. After she ate the first cockroach, she thought that she was no longer pure. In addition, the hunger at that time made her head dull, almost like a broken jar , treating herself as the worst woman in the world.What makes oneself fall away from purity is the desire to live, so in order to survive, Bai Yu will do anything.

After eating, Bai Yu completely woke up.Recalling what happened in the cave, Bai Yu felt ashamed to death.After leaving Zongxin this time, Bai Yu really planned to hand over the dragon veins to Master and find a place to commit suicide.But after Zong Xin's enlightenment, she seemed to understand one thing, there is nothing shameful in wanting to live.

Bai Yu's frozen heart finally melted, she had no intention of committing suicide, but was ready to accept her current self and that unbearable memory.No matter how disgusting and humble the memory was, it was a part of her, and a very important part at that.What happened in the cave made her figure out a lot of truths, and at the same time, she also doubted what she really needed as a person.

Bai Yu used to think that he had a heart to save the world, and wanted to save the world through cultivating the Tao.But after experiencing that incident, Bai Yu really understood that as an ordinary person, what they need is not the illusory things given by gods and Buddhas spiritually. I can't believe it, it's just a full mouthful.

It's not that Bai Yu didn't understand before, countless people have told her this truth, but Bai Yu doesn't understand what's so great about eating a bite of rice?In order to figure out some truths, Bai Yu even locked herself in the room for several days without sleep or food.And after a period of time, there will be a habit of avoiding valleys. For Bai Yu, hunger is not a serious problem.

But now she understands, she understands how terrible it is to be hungry.In the face of hunger, Baiyu's original image of a fairy no longer exists at all. For a few cockroaches or scorpions, she is willing to sleep with Zongxin, and she is even willing to use the most despicable means to win Zongxin's favor, as long as these things can enter her body. In his mouth, that kind of happiness is simply unimaginable.

Because after Bai Yu experienced the feeling of intimacy between a man and a woman, the attraction of that kind of thing is second only to the hunger's desire for food.Bai Yu admitted her depravity, and was no longer the pure and flawless fairy she was back then.It's just that after regaining her senses, Bai Yu didn't want to see such a self. All she had learned all her life was to avoid such a self appearing in her vitality, but it was a pity that she did not stand the test.

While crying, Bai Yu felt that her movements were a little strange.Without noticing at all, Zong Xin had already laid Bai Yu flat, and the two of them were lying on the bed. Although Bai Yu's head was still in Zong Xin's arms, Bai Yu didn't want to cry anymore because she felt... Zong Xin Shin had other ideas.

What Bai Yu didn't expect was that Zong Xin just hugged her without doing anything else, and soon Bai Yu heard Zong Xin's soft snoring, which made her sure that Zong Xin had fallen asleep.

Bai Yu didn't push Zong Xin away, but hid in his arms without moving.Although the time between the two of them is not much, it is actually a lot.This was the first time that Zong Xin hugged himself so quietly and fell asleep. He felt very at ease and warm, as if a world surrounded him, and there was no safer place than here.

Bai Yu gained the long-lost sense of security and relaxed her body and mind.Although just now there was an urge to expect what Zong Xin would do to him, but now Bai Yu finally understands that Zong Xin really likes him, because in such a short distance, Bai Yu can hear Zong Xin's heartbeat, which seems to be calling him. name.

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(End of this chapter)