i'm the villain

Chapter 86

This was probably the closest Luo had come to death in his life.

Before that, the closest he was to death was when he was shot in the chest by a pirate sniper in Somalia.

At that time, the doctors thought he was hopeless, but Luo finally survived, and the bullet was only two centimeters away from his heart.

He was in a coma for about five days, and the first thing he did when he woke up was to ask Luka if he had killed the sniper.

The answer is certainly yes.

Because they were surrounded by a sea reef at that time, the opponent's snipers kept locking on them but did not shoot, and the frontal gun battle continued, and the snipers on both sides kept confronting each other calmly, looking for each other's position.

Everyone in the team can't show up, many people are injured, they need to retreat quickly, because the reinforcements of the enemy team are approaching here.

At that time, Luo, who had just joined the club not long ago, only said to Luca in the communicator:
"Prepare."

Then he rushed out directly from behind the bunker.

Cowboy and others never thought that this bastard kid under 15 years old would suddenly do such a crazy move.

The crocodile, who had been by Luo's side all the time, didn't even have time to hold him back.

The moment they saw Luo Chong go out, each of them was cursing madly in their hearts.

Luo relied on his thin body and his own agility to shuttle quickly among the reefs.

But in the end, with a gunshot from Yuankong, he still steadily took a bullet from the opponent's sniper.

However, Luca also judged from this and found out the hiding place of the opponent's sniper.

Then naturally it locked and shot the opponent's head off.

The team thus retreated smoothly from the battlefield.

……

...

That was the first bullet that Luo ate in his life.

It was also the worst gunshot wound to date.

Because after that, after being "educated" by Cowboy and others, Luo seldom made such stupid moves.

Including these subsequent missions, Luo never suffered fatal injuries again.

Although the number of gunshot wounds on his body gradually increased over time, they were never as dangerous as that time.

After all, if the bullet misses his heart a little bit, he will bid farewell to this beautiful and disgusting world.

……

And this time.

In fact, Luo couldn't remember exactly how many times he was injured during missions.

But he can be 100% sure that the bullets that hit him this time are definitely much more than all the bullets taken out of his body before.

The feeling of being hollowed out by a bullet in his chest in just a few seconds is one of the few moments in Luo's life that are still fresh in his memory.

Perhaps this is not the most tragic scene on the battlefield.

But those who encountered similar or worse situations basically brought this fond memory to God.

Ro is not.

This was his second brush with death, and it was an extremely weird experience.

Although his close encounters with death in the future are not rare, Luo at this time does not know about them.

All he felt now was endless pain.

……

Due to entering the state of death.

Or it can be simply understood as a temporary separation between subjective neural consciousness and body perception.

It caused the body to be in extreme pain, but Luo didn't realize it.

He is now in a "fugue" state.

Along with him, there is Yang.

……

"It's interesting to say, you know, in my hometown, this kind of near-death situation can generally be described as 'walking through the gate of hell', but foreigners like to call those little ghosts who seduce souls the god of death. Something like a scythe is cool, but I still think the black and white impermanence in traditional stories is a little more scary." Yang's words are still so fucking nonsensical.

"Thank you for the science. There is no black and white or death. Those are all used to deceive children." Luo responded lightly.

"You can't just deny some traditional things, maybe they will appear in a while? After all, we now look like souls waiting for death to harvest, oh of course, what comes may also be black and white, or These types exist at the same time, but one part is responsible for domestic business and the other part is responsible for foreign business, but we are still Chinese, so it should be black and white impermanence to take us away, but it is estimated that they may still be on the international flight at the moment .”

"Listen to me, if you have successfully completed the nine-year compulsory education, you won't have such thoughts."

"Haha! You can hurt people! Luo can also joke!" Yang suddenly laughed.

"You know, for the past seven years, I have always felt that you have some problems similar to autism or social disorder in addition to having a split personality, but in fact you don't have any, you just don't want to talk to others well, or It's something you're just not good at, and it's probably easier for you to kill a big guy twice your weight, isn't it?"

"If possible, I would choose to kill you first." Luo responded lightly.

"Hey... To be honest, I feel the same way, really, but this thing is not so easy to do. For example, your little psychiatrist, she has worked hard to help you for so long, but she even I don’t know that every time I have a conversation with you, there is me, a hidden observer, squatting in the corner, although I can’t make a sound..."

"You're just a lunatic." Luo's response was still cold.

"Yes, you are right, I have a strong desire to destroy and destroy, so basically every time I dominate, I want to destroy everything I see in front of my eyes, including living and non-living Yes, everything!" Yang said with a smile.

"So you're just a lunatic, just a lunatic who realizes he's a lunatic."

"A lunatic who can realize that he is a lunatic? Well... this concept is very interesting, but there seems to be some logical problems. If I can realize that I am a lunatic, then at least I have not lost myself. From this perspective, I You can’t be considered a lunatic, at least not in the traditional sense, right?” Yang asked.

"Whatever you say."

"No, no, this question is worth discussing. You see, both of us have lost our minds and lost control. You can't deny this. The difference is that you choose to go crazy and suppress your uncontrolled emotions. , and I released my instincts, but fundamentally, we have the same nature, we will all lose control, but we have adopted different attitudes towards this matter."

"Wait a minute, you are you, I am me, without us, thank you." Luo emphasized a problem.

"Uh... okay, you are a good person, and I am a lunatic. This is what you have been emphasizing, right, so let me give you a little hint now, do you think it is possible that I am actually not Does not exist, oh, I know that the second personality does not exist from the perspective of the physical world, but I am talking about the spiritual level now, so do you think it is possible, you have always been you, there has never been a second personality Personality, and the loss of time caused by being dominant, everything is what you are experiencing..."

"Including you going crazy to kill everyone, writing a letter to yourself, and these things are done when you can't resist your emotions, you can't accept that you do Such a thing happened, so I think that this other self did it, but in fact, this is just your own mistake..."

"...just discussing this issue academically, there is no other meaning." Yang said a lot of things that Luo had never thought about.

"May I understand what you said as a kind of spiritual thinking induction for the main personality by the second personality who failed to take the initiative, trying to make the subjective thoughts of the two parties agree so as to achieve a special purpose... such as , more opportunities to dominate?" Luo asked with interest.

"Oh, I was discovered by you, so the atmosphere is a bit awkward." Yang laughed.

"Actually, you and I are very clear about what caused this situation, so there is no other explanation." Luo said.

"Wow, this is the first time in history that you have taken the initiative to bring up that matter, oh no, to be precise, our positive communication has just started a few hours ago..." Yang said with feigned surprise.

"What you said in the note you left before is correct. When the sorrow is too much to bear, you need another person to share it..."

"But it's not sharing!! You just let me bear it myself, and you chose to escape!!" Yang's tone suddenly became very angry and crazy.

"You are right about this, so you say that you are a demon that I fed with pain, and I have no objection to this, because I have been suppressing my emotions from the beginning to the end, and you have completely accepted them. , This is the difference between us." Unlike the manic Yang, Luo appeared very calm: "In fact, I occasionally recall what happened that year, and I feel more that I am watching you, I am not Digging in the yard, I just sit on the steps, or stand upstairs by the window sometimes, and I watch you plant trees and dig and then you dig up the stuff and then you break down and I It just happened naturally.”

"No, no, no, that's not the case. The purpose of your saying this is... let me think about it... By the way, your purpose of saying this is to keep drawing a line between yourself and me, so that you can maintain The independence of the two personalities, because you know very well in your heart that the only connection between the two of us is what happened that year, and you want to tell me that the nine-year-old broken child is me instead of you, so that the two Personality is more independent!" Yang's thinking was no longer as clear as before.

"But, what is my purpose for doing this?" Luo then asked.

"Because you don't want the fusion of two personalities?! Right! You know very well that one of the treatments for split personality is personality fusion, but you don't want this kind of fusion to happen to you, so you continue to Repel and separate the points of connection between us!" Yang said with certainty.

"Maybe, maybe I'm more inclined to another treatment method, which is to keep only one personality and delete the rest. Maybe you are right, I refuse to integrate, I don't want to have a little bit of similarity with you, what I want The purpose is to completely erase you from my mind, in short, it means killing you." Luo said slowly.

"Okay, refuse to integrate, and I actually refuse. After all, you have too many problems, at least in my opinion. But why are you unwilling to integrate? Just because I am a bloodthirsty lunatic? No, no, don't forget that you are such a person yourself, and 90.00% of the people Luo Yang killed were killed by you, and the remaining one percent was killed by me in the pitiful few minutes that dominated Yes, in comparison, you are the bloodthirsty person." Yang's tone regained its original calm.

"Then why are you determined not to see the fusion of two personalities, oh yes, maybe you still can't face the things you saw in the yard from the beginning to the end, right? Do you think that once the fusion occurs you're going to have that crushing feeling all over again, won't you? Huh? So you're not sitting on the steps or standing upstairs watching me dig those things out, you're just scared that you're the poor Child, hahaha, I guessed you right after all, Luo!"

"You said there was no us, only you and me, but in fact, at the age of nine, it was us! We spent that beautiful afternoon together and witnessed those beautiful things~"

Yang's voice began to change from calm to complacent madness.

"..."

But at this time, Luo stopped talking.

"Why don't you talk anymore, Xiao Luoluo, do you feel that the lie has been exposed, and you don't know how to refute it? I can't find the words to refute it, right, haha!" Yang said with a big smile.

"Don't worry, the story between you and me will be very long, and it will never end so soon. There is no integration, and no one kills the other. No matter what the situation is, it is impossible in a short time Achieved."

"All I need is to get out of this damn bondage and experience it in the real world, especially now that we have undergone earth-shaking changes from before, I can't wait to experience it!!" Yang alone said with a big laugh.

"Uh... But having said that, our conversation may be coming to an end. Given that I have not been able to take the lead, it's time for you to wake up." Yang suddenly suppressed his loud laughter.

"What?" Luo asked.

"There's something crawling towards you."

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(End of this chapter)