18th century total war

Chapter 62 Diary
"who I am?

where am I?
what am i doing?
Oh, by the way, I am currently receiving training from the Black Dragon Legion in the barracks in Rennes.

Damn!

Why should I accept the training of the Black Dragon Legion!

No, how could I have such blasphemous thoughts, Li Wei is so great, for the glory of Li Wei...

oh my god what was i thinking !

Li Wei is not God, why should I worship him! "

After finishing the daytime training, Lesarite fled back to his dormitory in the barracks with a terrified expression.

Because he has been designated as the commander of the First Skirmish Battalion of the Black Dragon Army by Li Wei, so he has a separate military dormitory and does not need to sleep in a Datong bunk.

When Lesarite ran back to the dormitory, he was constantly hedging contradictory thoughts in his mind, and his back was soaked in cold sweat!
In a panic, he dug out his diary, which he found for fun after he became a prisoner.

Lesarit, who was born as a nobleman, is certainly not as illiterate as Mudleg!

And Li Wei was also very generous to the future officer, providing Lesarit with paper and pen.

Resalit forcibly suppressed the conflict of self-contradictory thoughts in his mind, opened the diary, quickly skimmed through the contents of the prisoner of war camp, and turned to the first day of entering the military camp.

"Today is another sunny day. I really don't know what is going on in that boy Li Wei's mind. He actually let me enter the military camp for training?

Could it be that Li Wei still wants to use his military career to change my mind?

What a joke, Li Wei doesn't understand the sense of honor in being a nobleman at all!
My brain was licked by a donkey, so I will serve a foreign rebel baron, hehe~"

After Lesarit saw the contents of the diary on the first day of entering the barracks, his face suddenly became grim.

"Damn, how could I have such disrespectful thoughts!
What an admirable great man Levi was, that I laughed at him in my diary!

Do not!
Why should I respect Levi? ! "

Lesarite's hands began to tremble violently, and then his whole body froze. Like a walking dead, he tore off the page of the diary that mocked Li Wei on the first day, and carefully tore it into pieces until he could no longer see it. handwriting!
"It's fine if you can't see it, this kind of diary is unnecessary, I feel like I'm about to become mentally ill.

I seem to be missing something...

No, I came back to read the diary, I want to find out what happened to me these days in the barracks! "

After tearing up that page of the diary, the stiffness and madness on Lesarite's face quickly returned to normal, and his expression became more relaxed. Then he turned the page and continued reading.

Well, the next day Lesarit didn't keep a diary because he was in a bad mood.

It didn't surprise Lesarit that he didn't keep a diary every day.

"No, this is the diary of the fifth day. I clearly remember that I kept the diary on the third day. It seems that I was torn to pieces yesterday. What did I write at that time?
Well, it must be an irreverent remark.

No, isn't it normal for me to scold Li Wei?

If it wasn't for Li Wei, I wouldn't have fallen to this point at all...

No, I am a noble member with high morals, and I cannot speak ill of Li Wei behind his back..."

Lesarit began to look at the diary of the fifth day in a trance.

'I don't know why, but the hatred for Li Wei disappeared in my heart. I don't feel any resentment towards Li Wei now, and I even have the idea that staying in the military camp for training is a good life.

how can that be.

Standing in line under the scorching sun all day with a group of sweaty men, I'm crazy to like this kind of life!
Well, I'm not crazy, but I always feel that bad things will happen if this goes on. '

The diary came to an abrupt end here, and the words revealed that Lesarit was full of confusion at the time.

After reading this page of the diary, Lesarit's eyes were confused, and he muttered to himself: "I guessed right at the time, something very bad for me really happened.

But this feeling is very warm, and I don't want to avoid it. I like the life in the military camp now, and I even start to look forward to the future of joining the Black Dragon Army after training.

I also heard from others that Mr. Li Wei valued my military ability, and planned to appoint me as the supreme commander of this batch of skirmishers after the training, and directly confer the rank of major on me.

I really shouldn't slander Levi, he is so kind! "

Lesarite turned over the fifth page, but found that the corners were torn. He looked at the date on this page and found that it was already the tenth day. Lesarite clearly remembered that after the fifth day, He keeps a diary every day, thinking about his changes.

But now it's all gone...

Lesarit looked at the diary on the tenth page, and suddenly became horrified.

'I can't tear it up anymore, I can't control myself. On the first day, I must keep the diary of the first day in the barracks. If I tear up this page one day, it means that I am no longer myself.

I finally understand why the Black Dragon Legion under Li Wei's command is so brave and fearless, because after entering this barracks for training, everyone will be under the influence of strange forces and want to be loyal to Li Wei from the bottom of their hearts, even for this reason. To give everything!
This is the tenth day, and I still maintain the last of my sanity, but I have symptoms of fanaticism from time to time. When I see the diary that slanders and abuses Li Wei, I can't help tearing it up and throwing it away!
I hope that the next time I see this page of the diary, I don't tear up the diary of the first day of entering the barracks, otherwise I will never be able to find myself again...'

With a bang, Lesarit fell to the ground, lying flat on his back, staring blankly at the ceiling.

He tore up the diary on the first day after entering the barracks, just because that page was full of ridicule towards Li Wei.

"Am I really not me anymore?

No, I have always been Lesarit, but my beliefs have changed, from being loyal to the Principality of Bavaria to being loyal to Lord Li Wei.

It's just a change of allegiance, what's the big deal?
Haha, how ridiculous, I think I'm crazy for changing just one allegiance!
However, once I am loyal to Li Wei, my family in the Principality of Bavaria will definitely be implicated because of me...

Forget it, family is nothing compared to faith, I want to live for myself, from today on, my faith is to be loyal to Li Wei, to help Li Wei accomplish his great cause, this will be my lifelong pursuit! "

A strange light gradually bloomed in Lesarit's eyes. He got up, lit the diary, and threw it into the brazier. He didn't look at the diary at the back, and just watched the diary gradually burn into pieces. Ashes grinned in a strange arc at the corner of his mouth.

(End of this chapter)