I just want to be an actor

Chapter 174 The End of Despair

"Ready"

"Action!"

The actors in the police station all moved.

Their atmosphere isn't great, but that's not because of their relationship.

But because in such a cold winter, three children left this world forever.Now, their mother is in the hospital for emergency treatment, while their father is sitting in the police station in a daze.

Zhou Sen sat down at the table dejectedly.

No one put handcuffs on him, and no one released any ill will towards him.

He found that everyone in the police station looked at him with simple pity and sympathy, instead of the attack and judgment he felt he deserved.

"You should have handcuffed me."

Zhou Sen moved his lips, his throat was a little hoarse, this sentence was only known to him.

No one could hear what he said, not even the police officer who was facing him.

"It's all my fault, it's my sin."

Zhou Sen moved his lips again.

But neither other people nor the camera can only record his trembling lips.At this time, it seemed that it was difficult for him to breathe smoothly, but he still tried his best to maintain the last trace of calm in the panic that was about to engulf him.

He is sitting on a chair.

But he seemed to be slumped in the chair.

His bones were constantly being bent, bent, bent like a crooked-necked tree.

The guilt and pain in his heart were like the bargaining chips that fate kept adding to his back, making him pay the most extreme and the highest price for his carelessness.

"It's okay, Li, it might be better to say it."

Zhou Sen stared blankly at the table in front of him.

But that only seemed to be staring at him. In fact, his pupils had collapsed, and his eyes were wandering, as if he wanted to find even a little bit of correctness from his messy memories, and tried to persuade him. Straighten your back a bit.

He didn't know what he said either.

He babbled.

But he knew he spoke his mind to the officers.

It was because I was invited by my friends to drink, and I forgot to put down the fender of the fireplace, so that my home fell into a sea of ​​​​fire.It was my own careless character, my own desire for pleasure, that made my children leave me forever.

He knew that his wife, Randy, would not forgive him when the children were gone.

What's more, it is absolutely impossible for him to forgive himself.

He should die.

"Lee, there will be a lot of people forgetting to put down the fireplace damper at this time too."

"this is not your fault."

After listening to Zhou Sen's words, the police officer only told him this sentence sympathetically.

It's not your fault, it's not yours.
Zhou Sen echoed this sentence over and over in his mind, but he found that he had no way to convince himself of this result.

"Why don't you judge me?"

Zhou Sen raised his head, his eye circles were completely red.

Even standing in front of Huo Hailielie's house, he had never suffered such pain. At that time, he could only feel stunned, like a dream that had pierced through reality.

He couldn't accept it, but he had to accept it.

"You should sentence me to death!"

Zhou Sen stood up from the table, subconsciously put his hands together, and slammed them hard on the table.

Yes, there are no handcuffs on his hands.

But in his heart, his hands have been wearing a pair of handcuffs with the keyhole sealed for the rest of his life.

"Calm down, Lee, we know you're upset"

Zhou Sen was hugged and comforted by the police officers, but he didn't even want to hear what words they used to comfort him.

At this time, the more others comforted him, the more he felt that he deserved death.

Even Satan might not be willing to accept a filthy and damned soul like his.

But he was only one person, and he was placed by the police officers at the side of the police station. What happened in the small town, they still have a lot of things to do.But they were afraid that Zhou Sen would not be able to figure it out by himself, so they asked him to stay where everyone could see him, and let him rest and rest for a while.

Zhou Sen stood numbly in the police station like a body that had lost its soul.

He looked at the police officers coming and going in front of him.

They are good people and they are always encouraging.

But what does this have to do with me wanting to embrace death?

He felt that the more he stood here, the more he should go to hell, and the more he should use death to confess to his children.

Before his eyes, officers came and went.

They also glanced at Zhou Sen and smiled at him from time to time, hoping to give him some strength.

Why didn't a scum like me die?

Zhou Sen looked at those eyes, in his heart, he had been crushed to the ground by fate, and he had no strength to breathe.

A tall police officer walked past Zhou Sen. His uniform was a little wrinkled, as were his trousers.

However, Zhou Sen saw something that could free him, a gun, a gun stuck in a holster next to his uniform pants.

Perhaps, this is the call of fate.

I was finally coming to the end of despair.

Zhou Sen didn't hesitate at all. When the gun appeared within his sight, before he could figure out what he should do, his body had already moved.

He strode toward the officer, two steps in parallel.

He used the most precise strength of his life to pull that gun out of that holster.

Hold the gun with your backhand.

He aimed the black muzzle of the gun at his temple.

His finger squeezed the trigger fiercely, without any hesitation, the anger and ferocity from the origin of human nature appeared on his face.

Perhaps at this moment, the hatred and anger towards himself in his heart completely overwhelmed the fear of death.

"Snapped!"

Crisp machine bracket sound.

But there was no gunfire, no blood, and no expected death.

He didn't have insurance.

Zhou Sen's anger at himself drove him to reach out his left hand to open the safety, load the bullet, and let the bullet penetrate his head completely.

But he lost this opportunity forever.

The police officers in the police station are not vegetarians.

Although he snatched away the gun in a moment of negligence, they swarmed up and held Zhou Sen down.

Zhou Sen just wanted to kill himself, he didn't want to point his gun at any kind police officer.

So he was subdued, he was shrouded in kindness again, but his heart was at the end of despair, and he stepped into the wasteland where he was exiled forever.

In fact, we have nowhere to go, and we have nowhere to escape. We are burdened with pain, there is no redemption, no relief, but this is life.

Zhou Sen closed his eyes and allowed himself to "be reborn".

(End of this chapter)