I just want to be an actor

Chapter 186 Happiness must be fought rather than waited

"Knock knock knock."

The door of Shen Qingqiu's house was knocked again, and Zhou Sen stood here again, but this time, he was full of confidence.

"Who?"

The middle-aged woman's voice sounded again last time, and Zhou Sen cleared his throat.

He's already prepared, and when the door is opened, he will grab the door first, making it impossible for Shen's mother to close the door immediately.

Of course, this kind of behavior must first indicate the intention of coming, otherwise it is easy to be mistaken for a bad guy who wants to break into the house.

But the reality was in front of Zhou Sen, Shen's mother didn't open the door at all.

People have cat eyes and surveillance.

The last time she opened the door was because Shen's mother was too anxious and thought it was Mei Junyao who had returned, so she ran over to open the door.

"It's you two again, what are you two doing here? I've already said that there is no one you are looking for here."

Su Jingwen looked at Zhou Sen helplessly, he just came here recklessly, without leaving any time for preparation, facing the reckless mother Shen, she didn't know how he planned to get in.

"Hey, Auntie, we are Teacher Mei's friends, we came to ask Shen Qingqiu to help her."

Zhou Sen directly pulled up the tiger-skin banner and put it on, and directly used Mei Junyao as a shield. He didn't know whether Mei Junyao knew it or not.

"We had a drink at Teacher Mei's house last night. We had planned for a long time, and now we come to Ms. Shen to explain the situation."

"Then why didn't Jun Yao come by himself?"

Shen's mother was quite defensive, but when she heard that it was Mei Junyao's friend, she didn't feel as irritable as before, and her tone was much better.

"Mr. Mei was still being watched by the old man, and he drank a lot of wine last night, so we came here first."

Zhou Sen said politely.

"That kid Jun Yao is real"

Shen's mother said in her mouth, the kind of heartache can be heard as soon as she hears it.She also took advantage of the opportunity to open the door, allowing Zhou Sen and Su Jingwen to come in.

"Hi auntie, I'm Zhou Sen, and this is my girlfriend Su Jingwen."

As soon as the door opened, Zhou Sen rushed in one by one, afraid that Shen's mother would close the door again.

Mother Shen looked at the tall and handsome Zhou Sen and nodded.

"I know you, I often see you in advertisements."

Shen's mother looked at Zhou Sen a few more times, and confirmed that this was the guy who was often disturbed by his commercials when she was watching TV. He was handsome, but he received too many commercials.

"Do you really know Jun Yao?"

Shen's mother looked at the big star in front of her. She almost knew that the boy in front of her was now much louder than her own daughter back then.

But looking at her, he remembered the saying that his daughter was a genius destroyed by Ye Yiwen, and the boy in front of him was a genius made by Ye Yiwen.

Although she also knew that her girl's current appearance was not Ye Yiwen's original intention, and she couldn't blame Ye Yiwen, but now that the boy stood in front of her, she still couldn't help but think about it.

If my girl hadn't encountered so many things, would she stand in front of her confidently and radiantly like this boy today?

"I really know each other. When I was filming "Farewell My Concubine", I learned Peking Opera from Mr. Mei."

Zhou Sen pointed to the room, as if he was asking Mother Shen where Shen Qingqiu was, but before Mother Shen could speak, a cold female voice came from the room.

"Mom, let them in."

This is Shen Qingqiu's voice, but Zhou Sen, who has a good grasp of emotions, can naturally hear the emotions mixed in this voice, it seems a little too dead, it doesn't seem like it should appear in a person in his twenties body.

"Well, aunt, excuse me."

Zhou Sen nodded to Shen's mother, and led Su Jingwen to the room where Shen Qingqiu was speaking. Shen's mother didn't say anything, but wiped the apron with her hands on her body, and sighed.

In fact, she didn't want her daughter to have a normal life, but since the incident happened that year, Shen Qingqiu seemed to have been greatly stimulated.

Even if she is a mother, she has to say that Shen Qingqiu has become autistic, hysterical, lifeless.

Only Mei Junyao's arrival can bring her back to life, so even if she knows something, she can only hope that Mei Junyao will come a few more times.

Only when she really reached this situation did she realize that, compared to other things, being able to make her daughter smile is the most important thing.

Zhou Sen pushed the door gently and entered.

But behind the door, it was so dark that it didn't seem like the normal room lighting. Next to the window that should have been bright, there was actually a large bookcase standing up, blocking most of the light.

Beside the bookcase, there is an easel, and a figure is sitting beside the easel, holding up the paintbrush in his hand, and slowly drawing there.

Under that kind of backlight and darkness, Zhou Sen and Su Jingwen couldn't see the girl's face clearly, but they all knew that this was Shen Qingqiu.

Shen Qingqiu, who had been in shadow for eight years.

"You are here?"

Shen Qingqiu spoke as if he already knew that Zhou Sen and the others would come.

But when she was talking, her eyes were fixed on the canvas and the paintbrush in her hand. She didn't even turn her head to look at Zhou Sen and Su Jingwen's appearance.

Cold, silent, lifeless.

For some reason, Zhou Sen actually felt a sense of familiarity in Shen Qingqiu's body, that kind of emotion was exactly the same as when he was playing Lee Chandler.

Theoretically speaking, the things Shen Qingqiu encountered probably shouldn't have caused her to become in this state.

However, what cannot be ignored is that Shen Qingqiu was even just an adult back then, and her outlook on love and values ​​may have been affected.

Perhaps, she took that taboo emotional relationship as the whole of her life.

At this time, Zhou Sen suddenly realized his responsibilities beyond the tasks he originally recognized.

Ye Yiwen asked me to bring Shen Qingqiu with me, perhaps not only thinking that he could bring her back to the right track she once loved, but also that he could use his own power to restore her to a normal state. status and perspectives.

Zhou Sen didn't dare to say anything else. Zhou Sen could pat himself on the chest and say that he must be a good representative of contemporary young people with positive energy and three views.

"Miss Shen"

Zhou Sen was about to speak just now, but was interrupted by Shen Qingqiu.

"Did Jun Yao ask you to come and tell me her answer? Doesn't she even dare to come by herself?"

With a cold face, Shen Qingqiu drew the painting stroke by stroke. After standing in the dark room for a while, Zhou Sen could see some details of the painting clearly.

She's drawing a girl, and it's a weeping girl.

If it doesn't offend, Zhou Sen even wants to say that the painting she painted is a bit like Van Gogh's self-portrait.

Her paintbrush was pointing to the girl's face bit by bit. Although Shen Qingqiu didn't say anything, Zhou Sen's intuition told him that it was tears.

Shen Qingqiu's mood may be just like this painting.

He also understood what Shen Qingqiu had misunderstood.

Mei Junyao was here before, and she was asked when she would be able to be together in a fair and honest manner, and in just two days, two people who claimed to be Mei Junyao's friends wanted to come and settle the issue between them with Shen Qingqiu. problem, to help her.

How could this situation sound like she, Shen Qingqiu, was about to be abandoned by others.

"You misunderstood, we are not here to help Miss Mei answer the question between you."

Zhou Sen quickly explained that he didn't want his actions to ruin Mei Chen's relationship.

Su Jingwen didn't speak, she just stood quietly by Zhou Sen's side to accompany him. In fact, even with her rich experience in dealing with emergencies, it was hard for her to think of any suitable solution.

Now she chooses to trust Zhou Sen and accompany him to complete all his ideas.

"Ok?"

Shen Qingqiu stopped the paintbrush in his hand, turned his head sideways, and looked at Zhou Sen and Su Jingwen with some doubts. Her frown also showed her confusion.

"That question requires the two of you to give an answer together."

Zhou Sen suddenly took a step forward and spoke.

Shen Qingqiu shrank back subconsciously, but she reacted to Zhou Sen's words, looking thoughtful.

"I am standing here now as a filmmaker to invite you to participate in the movie I directed and starred in."

"I'm Zhou Sen, I think you might know me."

Zhou Sen didn't have any negotiation skills, he used all his emotions.

"Actually, I'm not good enough to be a director, but Master Ye fell ill, and I took up his burden."

Zhou Sen originally wanted to hide this matter from Shen Qingqiu, but after learning about Shen Qingqiu and Mei Junyao, he changed his mind, over the past eight years, Shen Qingqiu would have been suspicious of strangers, if he Anyone who wants to hide her idea may be rejected by her in today's social fear, and there is no chance to continue the chat.

Instead of trying to trick her away, it is better to tell her with the most sincere emotions what you can actually do.

"Master Ye fell ill?"

Shen Qingqiu frowned again, but this time she was frowning with concern.

Seeing her expression, Zhou Sen felt a little more confident in his heart. This shows that Shen Qingqiu's heart is still not completely dead. Maybe Mei Junyao's nourishment over the years has played a role, or maybe she is also a little bit now. growing up.

As long as her heart is still warm, Zhou Sen is sure to shake her.

"Well, Master Ye's wish is for you to be the heroine."

"I should not"

Before Shen Qingqiu could say what she wanted to say, I couldn't pretend to be these words, Zhou Sen continued to speak.

"But now I think Master Ye is wrong. I don't know how he thinks you still have the courage to express yourself."

Zhou Sen looked directly into Shen Qingqiu's eyes, his eyes were confident and sharp.

He did not follow the gentle and slow routine of taking care of mental patients at all to appease Shen Qingqiu, but directly expressed his thoughts to Shen Qingqiu with a very aggressive attitude.

"What did you say?"

Shen Qingqiu heard Zhou Sen's evaluation of herself, her voice became cold, and her face became even uglier.

She could admit that she couldn't do it, but Zhou Sen's tone of voice made people want to hit him.

"I said, a person doesn't even have the courage to pursue happiness, how can he make a difference in other things? How can a person who doesn't even have the desire to pursue happiness and only knows to wait have the ability to express himself courage?"

Zhou Sen emphasized it deliberately.

He didn't mention names, but his descriptions all mentioned names.

Shen Qingqiu's expression changed a few times, but he returned to calm and deserted.

"Even if you provoke me, I won't act."

She said calmly, as if Zhou Sen was not fooled at all.

But Zhou Sen didn't pay attention to her words, just shook his head, walked a few steps forward, and suddenly opened the curtains in Shen Qingqiu's room, and moved the bookcase that blocked the sunlight. , Shen Qingqiu didn't move, nor did he stop him, but just watched Zhou Sen's movements quietly and coldly.

It's useless, even if he stimulates himself like this, he will put everything back in place after he leaves, and let his life continue to sink in the bottom of society.

"I'm not trying to provoke you."

Zhou Sen suddenly said softly, his tone of voice was a bit like the sunlight coming in through the window now.

"I just wanted to tell you."

Zhou Sen stretched out his hand and spread it out.Sunlight came in from the window and fell on his palm.

"Happiness is something to fight for, to grab, not to wait."

"Only the happiness you want to hold on to is the real happiness."

"It is far better to choose yourself than to be chosen by others."

"If you have figured it out, contact me, and I will tell you how to grab Mei Junyao in the hands of Mr. Mei openly."

Zhou Sen took out a business card from his pocket and gently placed it on the windowsill.

Shen Qingqiu didn't pick it up, and didn't move, she just stopped the paintbrush, and looked at Zhou Sen indifferently just like before, her eyes seemed to tell Zhou Sen that what you did was meaningless and boring.

But Zhou Sen just smiled lightly, and after putting down his business card, he strode away from the window sill, turned his back to Shen Qingqiu, grabbed Su Jingwen's hand generously, and then turned his head and said to Shen Qingqiu.

"Understood? Happiness, you have to take the initiative to hold it in your hands like this."

"Let's go, I'll cook something delicious for you tonight."

Zhou Sen's last words were addressed to Su Jingwen, gentle and calm.

He also conveniently closed the door of Shen Qingqiu's room.

After saying goodbye to Shen's mother, the two of them left Shen Qingqiu's house. On the way home, Su Jingwen came to her senses and suddenly asked Zhou Sen.

"What did you pretend just now? There is nothing at home, how can you cook delicious food? And I cooked all the meals, right?"

Zhou Sen shrugged.

"I think the sentence just now is suitable for that situation. Besides, how can you look down on me? Let's go shopping for vegetables and show you tonight!"

The two of them went home happily, as if they didn't care whether Shen Qingqiu would figure it out and contact Zhou Sen.

And in Shen Qingqiu's room.

Without the obstruction of curtains and bookcases, the light finally wandered freely in Shen Qingqiu's room.

Shen Qingqiu remained silent, and continued to lift his paintbrush, gently drawing the picture.

But where no one noticed, she drew the corners of the girl's mouth here, adding a little curvature. From a distance, the girl in the painting seemed to be smiling, even though there were still tears in her eyes.

(End of this chapter)