Infinite Doomsday Survival System

Chapter 202 Is it wrong?
After Yu Yue arrived, Bai Zhi's territory became lively.

Especially Zhang Huiling, when she saw Yu Ling, she was so excited that she almost couldn't speak.

And Yu Ling didn't dislike this woman who stole her son, but it was very difficult to fall in love with her instantly.

After all, Zhang Huiling's age is not much different from Yu Ling's. Yu Ling can't accept that a person of his own age calls her mother-in-law or something.

As for Bi'er and An Jie, Bi'er couldn't accept An Jie's existence no matter what.

Especially after knowing that An Jie possessed part of Tian Lan's memory, this made her even more unacceptable, and she couldn't get used to various aspects of An Jie.

An Jie felt helpless when she couldn't get used to Bi'er, but she didn't care. After all, it was impossible for anyone to like her.

However, if Bi'er wanted to get close to Tian Lan during this period of time, she would definitely stop her.

This made Bi'er very angry, and even wanted to fight An Jie.

Even though that person was right in front of him, he couldn't talk to him, and he couldn't even meet him.

In the end, Bier cried aggrievedly.

She didn't understand, what did she do wrong, she knew herself so well in the past, why didn't she talk to herself now, even refused to look at herself? !

Tian Lan's reaction made Bi'er extremely lonely, as if she was the only one who was abandoned.

When seeing Bi'er crying, An Jie also felt a little bit sorry.

The reason why she kept Bi'er from seeing Tian Lan was also for her own good.

She didn't know exactly what was going on with Tian Lan now, but he was definitely not in a good mood.

If Bi'er were to go to Tian Lan's side to bother him now, she didn't know what Tian Lan would do in the future.

But even if she told Bi'er this fact, Bi'er couldn't accept it. Tian Lan was clearly such a sane existence before, why did she do something irrational now?
Although a lot of things happened to Tian Lan, she should still be the same Tian Lan in essence, but why did she just refuse to take care of herself?

Bier is very disappointed, there is almost no close friend among the people around her, and Tianlan, who was once a real friend, also turns a blind eye to her, which makes Bier suffer a lot.

Could it be that I did something wrong?Do you want to apologize to Tian Lan, so that maybe you can return to the previous relationship?

During this period, Bier thought about a lot of results, but when it came time to implement, she gave up.

The current situation may be considered good, at least I can still think that Tian Lan is just in a bad mood, and when Tian Lan is in a better mood, he can chat like before...

In fact, the most important thing was that Bi'er was afraid, she was very afraid of saying nasty results from Tian Lan's mouth.

If even Tian Lan hates herself, then she really has nothing left.

In the past, Bi'er's family was not as happy as Tianlan's.

Her parents divorced when she was young. At that time, in order to fight for Bier's custody, the once harmonious couple fought.

This caused her relationship with her parents to be not very good, because she was afraid, afraid of what she had done wrong, and whether she would be abandoned by her parents as she was then.

So she has always acted like a good girl.

In the end, her custody was awarded to her mother, who would never have won the case.

But in the end she won the custody of Bi'er, and she was very clear about what dirty tricks her mother used behind her back.

But she didn't say it out loud, and continued to play the role of the most perfect child in her mother's eyes, trying her best to please her mother and make her not hate herself.

I have already lost my father, and I don't want to lose my mother anymore.

However, no matter how hard she tried to play a good child, the adults still couldn't understand the pain of the children.

Obviously they were once children, why did they become the adults they hated the most when they became adults?

No matter how hard Bier tried to maintain the family relationship, the relationship between her and her mother was still estranged in the end.

Mother always uses work as an excuse, and spends very little time at home every day.

As for whether it's work or not, Bi'er doesn't know, and she doesn't want to know, only knowing nothing can make her pain a little less.

But after she reached high school, her mother didn't even return home. Even if she did come back, she would bring a man with her.

This caused a rift in Bi'er's heart. Obviously, she worked so hard to maintain the current family relationship, why do adults always destroy it so easily?

When she was in college, she chose to leave this home without hesitation. She no longer wanted to stay in this sad place.

A person's life is very hard, but she worked very hard.

As for why she doesn't live in a university dormitory... Hehe, she doesn't want to mention that kind of sad place anymore.

But it's really ridiculous to say it, obviously I used to hate my mother's actions so much.

But when I became an adult, I became the adult I hated the most. It really made people want to laugh out loud.

What a filthy woman she is.

Sometimes Bi'er wondered if she should just end her miserable life like this?
I tried my best, but I was also desperate.

What is the meaning of such a life? Every time there is a good hope, the reality always ruthlessly crushes this delusion.

And it was during this trough period that Bi'er met Tian Lan.

When she saw Tian Lan for the first time, Bi'er was attracted by him.

The other party exudes the same aura as oneself, but compared to oneself, the other party is cleaner and purer.

why?Obviously we are all the same existence, why is he so pure?Does he want to be the flower that emerges from the mud but not stained in this dirty world?

I don't know, but Bi'er wants to know, what did she do wrong, and why did she end up like this?
"You did nothing wrong."

These words were words of salvation for Bi'er, but Tian Lan didn't say that.

"You are wrong." These words directly shattered all of Bi'er's hopes, especially when these words came from Tian Lan's mouth.

Tian Lan, who was the same as him, made Bi'er feel as if she had been rejected by him.

Are you really wrong?What went wrong? ... At that time, I didn't have time to ask the exit.

Perhaps it was a good choice to end like this. I thought about ending it from the very beginning, and the reason why I was able to live until now was probably a prank with Tian Lan.

Bier wants to prove to Tianlan that she is not wrong, even though she has become the adult she hates the most, she still has to live enough to let Tianlan know that the one who is really wrong is himself. .

Beer, who realizes now, feels really stupid.

Who am I being angry with? It's just being angry with myself. I don't want to admit this reality. Hypnotize myself as much as possible. This is the most correct result, nothing more.

Beau "No, you're wrong."

"...What do you know about me?! It's not your turn to say this!"

Enraged by An Jie's words, Bi'er grabbed An Jie's collar and questioned her.

"You who don't know anything, why deny me!"

An Jie was frightened by Bi'er's fierce face, but this time she didn't back down.

"I don't know, I really don't know anything, but I still want to say this, this is what Tian Lan's memory told me!"

"Then tell me... Where did I go wrong..." Bi'er lay on An Jie's chest and began to cry.

She wants to know, she really wants to know what she did wrong.

Tian Lan said the same thing at the beginning, but in the end he didn't ask Tian Lan.

An Jie looked at Bi'er like this, and felt extremely distressed, but she still said: "You didn't do anything wrong, it's just that the direction of your efforts is wrong."

"The direction of the effort is wrong? What is that?"

"The relationship you want to maintain, no matter how much you value it, if the other party doesn't value it, it will collapse sooner or later. Although I don't know anything, Tian Lan's memory tells me why I should care about interpersonal relationships, no matter who they are, If they hate their own words, then I also hate them, if they don't value this relationship, why should I value it."

An Jie didn't know what it meant, she just directly expressed what Tian Lan wanted to express at that time.

No matter how important the relationship is, if the two parties don't value it together, why bother to maintain this awkward relationship.

Maybe the person involved feels nothing, but the people watching from the side feel embarrassed.

But Bi'er is too stubborn, and wants to maintain the false family relationship.

When this false existence is finally broken, it can be regarded as shattering everything about her.

Perhaps Tian Lan knew this, so he didn't maintain any false friendship, even though it made him always alone.

But at least he worked hard, trying hard to find his companion, but it was so slim that he could really understand his companion.

Words cannot communicate, such an existence cannot be called a friend.

Maybe Tianlan and Bi'er are similar in some aspects, but they are indeed two completely opposite existences.

Even if it's a false friendship and family relationship, Bi'er wants to work hard to maintain it.

As for Tian Lan, false things are false after all, and they can't fill the emptiness in their hearts at all, and what they get in the end is only more harm.

That's why he doesn't maintain those false friendships.

Bi'er laughed after hearing An Jie's words, but this smile looked uglier than crying.

"Haha, as expected you don't know anything. I chose to ask you because there is something wrong with my brain."

At that time, Bi'er didn't maintain those words, what should she do?Isn't that how it ended in the end?
"Then why not smash these false existences directly."

"Huh?" Bi'er looked at Tian Lan passing by, but her brain didn't react for a while.

If you take the initiative to destroy those falsehoods... you might feel very happy.

When Yuyue killed those members of the support group, Bi'er felt relieved.

It was as if all the feelings that had been suppressed in me had been dredged up, which made people feel very refreshed.

But what's the use of saying this now, it's too late.

(End of this chapter)