I want to be a super cop

Chapter 797 Your demons are about to move
"Pfft."

Zou Zexun's eyes widened, his breathing became short of breath, and he stared intently at the unsightly scene in the entertainment room, at the chaotic scene of these men and women inside.

Even seeing Huang Shanshan, she was also involved.

Zou Zexun clenched his teeth and clenched his fists tightly, trembling slightly, his knuckles turned white, and the masseter muscles on both sides of his cheeks were obvious.

His eyes fell on the table in the middle, looking at the instruments, needles and other items on it, he seemed to understand something.

There must be nearly ten seconds.

Zou Zexun let go of his fist, and retracted the arm that was about to push the door in. He returned to the room with a cold face and expressionless face, and lit a cigarette with trembling fingers.

until this time.

Only then did he realize that the so-called Brother Li was just a scumbag, and Huang Shanshan was undoubtedly his temporary target. Perhaps from the time he met Huang Shanshan at the dinner party, Huang Shanshan was already in his care unconsciously. Within the operational framework.

And yourself.

Just a stupid idiot.

"Zi"

Zou Zexun's fingers trembling, he took a big mouthful of cigarettes. He smoked one cigarette in a few puffs, followed by another one, and continued to smoke.

Smoke enveloped him in it.

The river channel in the window reflected the lights of the street lamps, and the lights trembled with the ripples. He stared blankly at the ripples on the river surface, his eyes flickering.

"Snapped!"

Zou Zexun smothered the hot cigarette with his index finger and thumb, and the remaining half of the cigarette was crushed by his fingers, and the shredded tobacco fell to the ground.

He took out his mobile phone, opened the dial interface, and entered 110. After connecting, he gritted his teeth and said, "110, I want to report someone gathering to smoke *group*"

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"call"

Zou Zexun took a deep breath, escaped from the memories, leaned against the back of the seat, tilted his head back, and looked up at the ceiling.

Zhong Tianzheng and Xiang looked at each other, and both of them frowned to varying degrees. It turned out that this was how Huang Shanshan's history of drug addiction and drug rehabilitation came about.

"That night, I personally called and reported them. Not long after, the police who received the report arrived here and arrested them all. When the police arrived, they still hadn't finished. In the midst of the madness, I was arrested, and none of the people who participated in it escaped."

Zou Zexun sighed: "At that time, after Huang Shanshan was forcibly injected by Li Changyuan, she was arrested and detained for a period of time. Later, after she was released, she was sent to a rehabilitation center for forced detoxification. "

"Is it because of this incident that Huang Shanshan resented you? Is it because of this incident that led to your final breakup?"

Zhong Tianzheng carefully went over Zou Zexun's description, and finally sorted out his own guess by the way: "At this time, you will also break up."

This paragraph described by Zou Zexun.

Zhong Tianzheng did not use the master-level spatial imagination to restore and put himself in it.

"Hehe, hehe"

Zou Zexun raised his head, looked at Zhong Tianzheng and laughed, and he didn't know what he was laughing at. The laughter was full of self-deprecation, and he sighed, "If that's the case, then it's fine."

Ah Xiang answered subconsciously: "What is that? Are there other things?"

"Yes!"

Zou Zexun grinned, and said with pale lips: "That time, after I witnessed this incident, I actually wanted to rush in, but I didn't."

"I suddenly thought, if I rush in, I will undoubtedly tell them that I know about this matter, so what kind of attitude will Shanshan face me in the future?"

Zou Zexun's expression was a bit tangled, his head drooped slightly, and he took a mouthful of his cigarette as if renewing his life: "So, at that time, the only way I could think of was to get Li Changyuan, a bastard, arrested, and not to lose his life." I don't want to embarrass Shanshan too much, so I can only let the police come forward to arrest them, and I can pretend that I don't know anything, so that when Shanshan faces me in the future, she doesn't have to be too embarrassed."

"understand!"

Zhong Tianzheng nodded, knowing the reason why he did this.

indeed.

In that case, calling the police was indeed the best way to deal with it, and there was nothing wrong with his choice.

"Originally, I thought that my consideration was very thoughtful, but I greatly overestimated my own mental capacity!"

Zou Zexun let out a heavy breath again, and gritted his teeth forcefully: "I called the police and arrested them all. The goal was achieved, but the barrier in my heart couldn't be passed just like this."

"I shouldn't have witnessed this process that day. The scene that happened that night had a big impact on my whole perception. The chaotic scene, the chaos of the men and women in it"

"I really can't accept it. I can't accept that Shanshan is being bullied by those dogs."

The more Zou Zexun went on, the more excited he became: "Later, she was sent to a compulsory rehabilitation center after she came out. During this process, I have been with her all the time, almost every once in a while. I'm going to visit her."

"That is, during this process, when I was alone, I found that my thoughts gradually changed. I found that I couldn't let go of this matter. Do you know that feeling? You witnessed the scene , the person you love the most is in front of you like this, without any scruples."

Zou Zexun's tone is sometimes hurried and sometimes calm, and his whole body is in a state of uncertainty, which looks very crazy: "I tried to pretend not to know, after I came out of the rehab, I tried to accept her, Shan Shan herself knew what happened, so she would also test me and secretly mentioned to me what happened that day."

"Although I pretended well, even though I could convince myself to pretend not to know, even though... Forget it, and no matter what, I convinced myself on the surface, but I couldn't convince myself in my heart, and even since then, I never touched her again."

Zou Zexun gritted his teeth, looked up at Zhong Tianzheng, and made a gesture of holding a cigarette. The cigarettes had not stopped since he spoke, and Zhong Tianzheng did not refuse him, allowing him to continue to refill his cigarettes.

"I really can't do everything as if it never happened. Every night when I come home from work, when we are alone, every time we are intimate, there is always a certain stage where I can't let go. Looking at her in my arms, I Unconsciously, the scene of that night appeared in my mind."

Zhong Tianzheng and Ah Xiang were silent when they heard the words.

The situation Zou Zexun mentioned probably shows that his experience at that time caused a certain degree of distortion in his psychology.

His inner demon is just around the corner.

In his heart, a certain degree of psychological barrier has already appeared. This barrier comes from Li Changyuan and Huang Shanshan. Strictly speaking, his psychological barrier comes from himself, his own understanding of the Huang Shanshan incident A guilty conscience.

That's why he became like this.

"so what?"

"and after?"

Zhong Tianzheng and Ah Xiang almost spoke in unison.

perhaps.

Huang Shanshan broke up with Zou Zexun because of him, Zou Zexun.

As they guessed.

Zou Zexun was stunned for a while, and then he continued: "That's it, slowly, our feelings changed. I found that I cared too much about that matter, although that matter It started because of me, if it weren't for me, if I didn't take her that night, if I wasn't so stupid and naive that night, if I took good care of her that night, maybe none of this would have happened."

He paused, smiled self-deprecatingly, and shook his head: "But, how can there be so many what-ifs in the world? When it happens, it happens."

"Although the fault of this matter lies with me, I found that I was so resentful. I seemed to have a mysophobia. I couldn't explain what happened to Shanshan. I felt that she was no longer clean, and I couldn't explain it. I don't have any desires anymore."

"I don't know when we started to have such a sense of distance, and we gradually and never had any close contact. At first, Huang Shanshan didn't know, but later on She slowly noticed my change."

"That is, during this process, the smiles between us gradually decreased, and the quarrels began to increase. Sometimes it was the kind of quarrel for no reason. Later, the number of quarrels increased, and she also It's getting more and more disappointing."

Zou Zexun took a puff of his cigarette and enveloped himself in the smoke.

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In the rental room.

Zou Zexun didn't rent himself a better and bigger room quickly as he had imagined, and they still lived in that small apartment.

"Bah, Zou Zexun, you are just a scumbag and trash!"

Huang Shanshan angrily pushed Zou Zexun down on the small sofa in the apartment, almost screaming: "Why! Why are you like this! You despise me for being dirty, right?"

"Shanshan!"

Zou Zexun muttered, wanting to say something, but couldn't say anything.

"Forget it, forget it, stop loving if you don't love it! Let's break up, then, let's be like this, let's just break up like this."

Huang Shanshan shook her head angrily, as if unwilling to reconcile: "The reason why I am reduced to what I am today is all thanks to you! I love you so much, but this kind of thing is beyond my control! The reason why it happened that day was not because of you!"

"It's all because of you! If you'd accepted it that day, if you hadn't been greedy and thought about continuing to expand your so-called social circle that day, how could I have fallen to this point! I said that day that I was going home !"

As Huang Shanshan spoke, her eyes became foggy as she spoke. She sat on a chair, sobbing softly, wiping her tears.

Zou Zexun sat on the sofa in a daze, just looked at her, didn't speak, and he didn't know what to say.

Because Huang Shanshan was right.

He disliked her.

He despised her for being dirty.

a long time.

"Break up!"

Huang Shanshan wiped away her tears, and stood up expressionlessly: "That's it, we don't need to contact again in the future."

"No, I don't want it!"

Zou Zexun looked at Huang Shanshan who was packing her things, jumped up from the sofa, ran to hug Huang Shanshan from behind, and hugged her tightly: "No, let's not break up, I love you, Shan Shan, don't leave me."

"Well"

Huang Shanshan stopped packing her hands, her body began to tremble, and her tears could not be stopped again.

In Huang Shanshan's heart.

She really couldn't bear Zou Zexun, she really loved him.

at this moment.

All the stubbornness in her heart was instantly melted by the man behind her.

"Do not talk!"

Huang Shanshan put down the box, turned around, and hugged Zou Zexun tightly: "Ask me!"

The two hugged each other, and their breathing gradually became rapid, but when Zou Zexun reached out to Huang Shanshan suddenly, his fingers stopped again.

Yes.

He started to get sick again.

He remembered what happened that night again, and he couldn't accept it.

Huang Shanshan looked at Zou Zexun dully and understood what he meant. At this moment, she became angry again.

That is to say, from this moment on, the scene of the two of them gradually turned into a daily routine, like this every once in a while, physically and mentally exhausted.

people.

If you love someone deeply enough, you will never turn around and leave completely in an instant. The departure of the other person must be accumulated little by little in daily life, slowly accumulating together, when someday I have accumulated enough sadness and disappointment, and this time is the time to leave completely.

The two of them, like this, announced their breakup completely.

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"That's how we broke up!"

Zou Zexun walked out of the memories in a daze, and his eyes began to become firm: "It was during those countless quarrels that I discovered a problem in myself: when Huang Shanshan proposed to break up with me, I I found that I love her and I don't want to let her go, but I can't look directly at the things that happened to her."

Zhong Tianzheng understood that at this time Zou Zexun had fallen into an extremely paranoid situation. On the one hand, he disliked not being able to look directly at the past, but on the other hand he was extremely dependent on Huang Shanshan, and was reluctant to let her go.

perhaps.

It was at this time that he was already controlling Huang Shanshan.

Just as Zhong Tianzheng guessed.

"That is, in those quarrels, I found that Shanshan was really going to leave me, and I was more and more reluctant, so when I realized that she hadn't left me, I thought of Controlling her with addictive controlled substances."

Zou Zexun revealed the facts of his crime: "I guessed that she would leave one day. I have to control her before that. I can't lose her. She must be mine."

(End of this chapter)