I cried countless students in the exam

Chapter 148

You listen to the last sentence of this poem: I wish to be a tree in the deep mountains, and the branches will grow together.

Do you think of any other similar sentences?

Well, it's a famous line from "Song of Everlasting Sorrow": I wish to be Lian Lizhi on the ground.

So, is Bai Juyi's "Song of Everlasting Sorrow" about Yang Guifei and Tang Minghuang, or about Xiangling and himself? "

Later, Bai Juyi wrote many satirical poems about the difficulty of marrying his sweetheart due to the lack of family status of women, such as "Marriage Discussion" and "Zhuchen Village"... In fact, they are all venting his past resentment.

Family status, because of the so-called family status, he will miss Xiang Ling!
He is not reconciled, isn't it because of his family status that his mother can help him?Well, if I can become an official with my own strength and prove to my mother that I can be an official even without marriage, will my mother approve of his love with Xiang Ling?
Thinking of this, Bai Juyi suddenly seemed to grasp something, he was overjoyed, yes, as long as the ending is perfect, it doesn't matter how twists and turns the process is?
He studied harder. In the 15th year of Zhenyuan, Bai Juyi passed the provincial examination, that is, this time in Xuancheng, he met Yang Yuqing, a son of Hongnong Yang's family.

Seeing that Bai Juyi is still single in his late thirties, Yang Yuqing intends to introduce his younger sister to him, but of course Bai Juyi politely refuses.

The next year, Bai Juyi went to Beijing to rush for the exam, and finally passed the Jinshi. That year, he was 29 years old.

He happily returned to Fuli, and as a Jinshi of Xinke, he begged his mother to allow him to marry Xiang Ling back home.

Mother still refused, she said, Jinshi?What kind of official is this?

Bai Juyi was stunned. Indeed, the Tang Dynasty was different from the Ming and Qing Dynasties in the later generations. The imperial examination system was still far from perfect. Even if you passed the Jinshi examination, it only means that you have the qualifications to be an official, not that you can become an official directly. If there is a vacancy, the Ministry of Officials will come to you to replace you. Therefore, in the Tang Dynasty, there were many people who waited at home for decades before becoming officials after becoming Jinshi.

His mother did not approve of his Jinshi status, so Bai Juyi gritted his teeth, and for the sake of Xiangling, he fought hard, and returned to Chang'an to continue the exam.

In fact, sometimes, once the ending is doomed, the previous struggles will appear extraordinarily cruel.

Back in Chang'an, Bai Juyi met a new friend named Yuan Zhen.

Yuan Zhen was also an examinee, but he passed the Mingjing subject. Like Bai Juyi, he also planned to continue to take the examination in the Ministry of Officials.

The two became close friends and studied together in Chang'an. They also wrote poems and sang to each other. Once, Yuan Zhen got drunk from drinking and muttered: "Yingying...

Bai Juyi rolled his eyes and said: You are such a big man, why are you still talking?

Yuan Zhen jumped up from the bed, baring his teeth and waving his paws, "It's not Yingying, it's Yingying, Cui Yingying's Yingying!"
It turns out that Yuan Zhen also had a first love.

At that time, he lived in Puzhou and lived in a monastery, and met his aunt Zheng by chance.

At that time, Puzhou happened to be in a military disaster. He asked a friend to come to rescue the soldiers, and then he was relieved. At the thank-you banquet, Yuan Zhen and his cousin Cui Yingying checked their eyes and met the right person...

Yuan Zhen went to Beijing to rush for the exam, and vowed that after becoming an official, he must wear red and colorful clothes and return to his hometown, and then marry Cui Yingying, who he misses so much, back home.

Bai Juyi looked at Yuan Zhen who was talking in his sleep, and couldn't help chuckling. It turned out that he and his friend had exactly the same past.

During that time, every time when the night was quiet and everything was silent, Yuan Zhen and Bai Juyi lay on the couch, turning their heads and tossing and turning, unable to sleep.

There is no reason to see the glamorous quality, and the cold quilt can not be approached.

He Kan is the longest night, all sleeping alone.

In the long night, one of them was thinking about Yingying, and the other was thinking about Xiangling.

……

In the 19th year of Zhenyuan, Bai Juyi and Yuan Zhen both passed the examination of the Ministry of officials and were awarded the title of school secretary.

With official status, Bai Juyi was determined to move his family to the capital. In the middle of winter this year, he rushed back to Fuli's hometown and asked his mother to agree to his marriage with Xiangling again.

He is 32, Xiang Ling is also 28, they can't afford it anymore.

Mother still disagreed.

Bai Juyi's mother, Chen Shi, is said to be Bai's father's niece. The two were married by close relatives. This is the product of marriage. One can imagine their emotional life after marriage. Such unsatisfactory feelings make the mother's personality very extreme. Bai Juyi must marry a girl of the right family, so he is absolutely not allowed to have any contact with Xiang Ling.

His mother's determination completely broke Bai Juyi's defense line. He went to Xiang Ling, but he didn't know what to say.

This woman has been waiting for her for 13 years, but now she still can't give her an explanation.

He didn't dare to look her in the eyes, so he could only say in a low voice: I'm leaving, going to Chang'an, and I may never come back again.

Xiang Ling in front of her suddenly smiled, tears were streaming down her face, but her cheeks were full of smiles.

She seemed to have expected such an ending a long time ago, because her status was too low, it was impossible for her to be with Dabai in this life.

She gave Bai Juyi a pair of shoes, which she made by herself, and she hoped that her lover would wear them, as if she was accompanying him, walking the long road together for the rest of her life.

This pair of shoes is her answer to this love.

……

Bai Juyi finally left.

He left nothing behind, except this song "Hidden Farewell":
Don't cry, stay away.

Silent, secretly lovesick.

No one knows outside the two hearts.

The solitary bird is locked in a deep cage at night, and the sharp sword breaks the branches.

Although the river water is turbid, there is a clear day, and although the aconitum is black, there is a white time.

Only absconding and secret farewell, each other is willing to have no later stage.

Don't cry, we are parting.

Not allowed to talk, only to miss secretly.

Will you still love me after parting?
The endless night imprisoned Lovebird, and the ruthless sword cut off Lian Lizhi.

The river water is turbid, but there will be a day when it will become clear. No matter how black the hair is, it will turn white one day.

Forget it, forget it, since I chose to say goodbye,
Then,

We will be indefinitely.

……

Back in Chang'an, Bai Juyi got the news that his good friend Yuan Zhen married Jing Zhao Wei's daughter, after all, he failed his first love Cui Yingying.

He smiled wryly, it was all for the official career, they sacrificed their love, Yuan Zhen did the same, so did he.

In the first year of Yuanhe, Bai Juyi was transferred to the county captain of Zhouzhi, and he also got closer to the working people. The busyness dilutes his yearning for Xiangling and allows him to focus more on official duties. For example, his well-known song "Guan "Mowing wheat" was written at this time.

Once, he was walking with his friends in Xianyou Temple. For some reason, everyone chatted about the love story between Tang Minghuang and Yang Guifei. The friend said: "Letian, you have such a good literary talent, why don't you write a poem on this topic?" How about it?
Bai Juyi readily agreed, splashed ink, and began to write.In fact, his friend's original intention was to let him criticize Tang Minghuang's detriment to the country because of his beauty, and he did write according to this idea at the beginning.

But as he was writing, a vague figure of a young girl suddenly appeared in his mind, and his style of writing changed subtly:
(End of this chapter)