I just want to be a good person

Chapter 119 I Think You're Good
With Sun Ruyue's words and this question, if it were two months ago, Shen Wang would definitely have entered the category of "green tea speech".

For such a girl who speaks and behaves openly and can calmly deal with many boys, only Shi Jianjun's kind of Tie Hanhan who only looks at her appearance will regard her as a "goddess".

In fact, most boys' ability to distinguish "green tea" is not as weak as imagined. Unless the other party's rank is too high, anyone with a little experience can see it all.

It's just that many boys don't show it and even pursue these girls.

As for the reason for doing this, it was the same as what Sun Ruyue had just expressed.

You can play for fun, but you can't be serious.

In fact, Shen Wang first defined Sun Ruyue this way, but now...

"You want to hear the truth and lies?"

"Of course it's true."

"it is good."

Shen Wang snuffed out the cigarette butt in his hand, and said frankly: "It's not that I look down upon you, at most it's just that I'm too lazy to get in touch with you."

"..."

Sun Ruyue smiled miserably: "Do you have to say it so directly?"

"You have to listen to the truth."

"I see..." Sun Ruyue lowered her head with a lonely expression.

Shen Wang glanced at her, but there was another turning point: "I haven't finished yet."

"I did think so of you at first, but after we got in touch during this time, I no longer think so."

Sun Ruyue suddenly raised her head again: "Then you now..."

"I now……"

Shen Wang suddenly stopped talking: "You finish what you didn't finish just now, you have some superficial friends, then what? What does it have to do with Wang Kai?"

Sun Ruyue was taken aback for a moment, she really didn't expect Shen Wang to stop speaking in the middle of his sentence.

But after a while, she obediently continued the story just now.

"...Wang Kai appeared after that."

"I can feel that he is different from other boys. He really likes me and cares about me. Although he showed a particularly strong possessive desire early on, I thought it was his sincere expression of me ..."

"I cherish this only person who can treat me sincerely, even if his way scares me..."

"You wait."

The more Shen Wang listened, the more confused he became: "So do you like him or not?"

Sun Ruyue didn't hesitate: "I don't like it."

"The so-called reluctance, is it that he is a 'confidant'?"

"Yes." Sun Ruyue nodded.

"alright."

Shen Wang sighed: "Needless to say the rest, you said it last time."

"Then, what do you think of me now?"

Sun Ruyue asked anxiously, as if this answer was very important to her.

"Say, I think you now..." Shen Wang cleared his throat unhurriedly.

Do you think I want to praise you?Do you think I want to say that I understand you?

I don't, I don't!

Shen Wang spoke slowly and completed the answer under Sun Ruyue's expectant eyes.

"I feel like you're a little tricky now."

"..."

Shen Wang's words were undoubtedly a heavy blow to Sun Ruyue.

This is like a student who is scolded by the teacher every day for not studying hard enough. Suddenly one day he is called to the office. The head teacher took his hand and apologized: "I misunderstood you before. In fact, you are not hardworking enough, but your IQ is low." a feeling.

For a moment, Sun Ruyue's heart was full of loss and self-denial.

Is everything really my fault?Was it me who harmed Shen Wang?Did I harm Zhu Yao?Was it me who harmed...Wang Kai?
Sun Ruyue lowered her head little by little, and Shen Wang's voice came from her ear.

"Actually, I told you a lot of things last time."

"Fight for what you want, reject what you don't want, don't indulge in your own thoughts to speculate on others, and there is no need to wrong yourself for the attitude of others."

"You're just living a rough life."

Shen Wang smacked his lips, regardless of whether Sun Ruyue listened to it or not, and continued on his own: "If you want a friend, you can exchange it with your sincerity. I don't like to hear that Wang Kai is the only friend who treats you sincerely."

"I'm not your friend? Isn't Lin Xiaocao? Isn't Tan Rui? Isn't Shi Jianjun? Zhang Mao, Qi Mingkai, and the boys from our class who rushed up to fight for you in the restaurant for the first time, aren't they your friends?"

"You say that others are superficial friends. It means that you don't regard others as real friends at all. It seems that you can get along with anyone, but you wrap yourself in a cocoon in your heart, and then you blame others for not being able to walk in." In your heart, you don't understand you..."

Shen Wang looked directly at Sun Ruyue's staring eyes, and repeated it with an emphatic tone.

"What is this?"

If Shen Wang's first sentence "You're a little tricky" was a heavy hammer, then this sentence now can definitely be called a fatal blow.

In an instant, Sun Ruyue's self-protection was completely defeated, and she finally figured out one thing——

It turned out that she had been stuck in an endless loop before.

She wanted to use the most exposed way to cover up the loneliness in her heart, but because of this, she had the greatest hostility to everyone's eyes, and in the end, it aggravated her own isolation again.

Almost, she might really be trapped deeper and deeper in such a cycle until she completely lost herself.

Today, Shen Wang's scolding was like a sharp knife, cutting a hole in her heart.

Maybe the cut would bleed, but the sun was finally able to shine in again.

"Shen Wang..."

Sun Ruyue's voice trembled, she actually didn't know what she wanted to say, but at this moment she just wanted to call Shen Wang's name.

But this was of course a bit inexplicable to Shen Wang, at first he thought that Sun Ruyue was going to express some emotion, but after waiting for a long time, he lost his patience.

"What do you want to say...forget it, I've said everything I need to say. I still have to go out to do some errands. Think about it yourself."

After that, he stood up and turned to leave.

But after only two steps, Shen Wang suddenly gritted his teeth and stopped, turned around and shouted at Sun Ruyue unceremoniously.

"Hey!"

"..."

Sun Ruyue looked up in a daze, with an expression like a primary school student waiting for a teacher's reprimand.

It's just that she never expected that Shen Wang's next few words with a little impatience made her burst into tears instantly.

"Well, you're actually the strongest girl I've ever seen...Really."

Shen Wang's tone was very blunt, as if he was very unwilling to say such words.

But this is indeed what he really thinks.

Twice in a month, I encountered terrible things that others may never encounter in their lives, and I didn’t even have anyone to vent to.

In this situation, Sun Ruyue still didn't despair, she didn't quarrel, she didn't hang herself, she was really strong.

"I know you must be very upset recently."

"But you will inevitably encounter some fools in your life. Those fools will try to pull you into the darkness. You have to work hard not to let yourself be pulled in."

"If you feel like you can't do it on your own...I can help you."

"In short, don't give up on yourself."

"...All right, that's it."

After Shen Wang finished his last sentence as if he had received an amnesty, he quickly turned his head and left regardless of Sun Ruyue's reaction.

This was actually the first time he comforted someone so seriously. Although it was sincere, it always felt a little awkward.

Damn, I will never do this kind of thing again...except for Lin Xiaocao, um, and Zhu Yao.

With random thoughts in his mind, Shen Wang had walked far away unconsciously.

But Sun Ruyue behind him was motionless.

After a while, she slowly raised her hand in mid-air.

The cold wind of early winter blows through my fingers, seeming to suddenly bring the warmth of spring.

(End of this chapter)