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The sudden death of Little Luna dealt an extremely heavy blow to Fan Bizhuang, and he also blamed himself extremely. He always believed that if he hadn't met Pablo and his daughter, and hadn't invited them to the small town to watch him game, then such a tragedy will not happen.

Pablo's father and daughter will not be in a car accident, little Luna will not leave, Pablo will not have only one leg left, and will not disappear suddenly... everything will be different.

Unfortunately, there is no if in this world.

And most importantly, all the players and coaches of Villarreal have talked with Fan Bizhuang more than once, giving him comfort and encouragement, but they have not changed the state of Fan Bizhuang in the slightest.No one believed that Fan Bizhuang was responsible for the tragic car accident. It was just an accident. After all, no one could predict natural or man-made disasters.

But it's clear that Fan Bizhuang got into the corner by himself, just immersed in the world of self-blame, unable to extricate himself.

In this regard, no one can help him—Fan Bizhuang does not need the help of others, he rejects all comfort from his friends, and just wanders in his own world.

This is a very dangerous sign. If Fan Bizhuang is allowed to develop like this, maybe in the end, he will either suffer from schizophrenia or depression. Tong should have a high level of glory, and even his football career will end here, and if it is more serious, his life may be threatened.

There are many people in the world who commit suicide due to depression, and there are many such examples on the football field.Everyone is very worried, maybe one morning, when they open the newspaper, they will find similar news reports-"A certain player swallowed a large amount of sleeping pills at night!", or "A certain player swallowed a lot of sleeping pills!" He committed suicide by lying on the rails in the early hours of the morning!".

Riquelme is also very worried about this. He also talked with Fan Bizhuang during the training interval. Let’s call it a conversation. if.

But in the end, it was just useless work. After his speech was almost dry, Fan Bizhuang just left without looking back. The next day, he was still indifferent and silent.

Riquelme didn't think that his coming this time would achieve any gratifying results, but he came anyway. Fan Bizhuang was his friend anyway, and he watched Fan Bizhuang step by step to today , Watching him from a rookie who didn't know anything to becoming the most popular football star in the world today, he felt that even if he wanted to leave, he should have a good talk with the other party before leaving.

He couldn't control the result, but he just wanted to make his regrets less.

Riquelme found a small stool, sat down beside Fan Bizhuang, and stared straight at him like that. After an unknown amount of time, Riquelme felt that he couldn't keep silent like this, so he finally came out. said.

"Next season, the team will most likely only be able to play in the UEFA Cup."

This was Riquelme's opening remarks, but Fan Bizhuang was still indifferent, so he shook his head and smiled, and continued, "Actually, this is not bad. Many years ago, we couldn't even play in the UEFA Cup."

"By the way, this year's Champions League top scorer must be you. But the league's top scorer may be a little bit hanging. You scored 32 goals, but Barcelona's Leo Messi is very close. With 30 goals already and one last game left, maybe he will score again and catch up."

Fan Bizhuang's number of league goals is stagnant in the scorer list, but even so, 32 league goals seems to be an astronomical figure, which discourages most outstanding shooters.On the contrary, Leo Messi, who is hailed by the media as one of the "La Liga double prides", has scored goals like a rocket after moving forward this season, especially at the end of the season. It ushered in a big explosion, scoring goals almost every game, so far, he is the second player in the league this season to push the number of goals to 30 - Needless to say, the first is Fan Bizhuang.

Messi is the closest player to Fan Bizhuang's 32 league goals, and with the heroic state of the opponent's goals, there is no small hope of continuing to score goals in the last game. Of course, if he wants to completely surpass Fan Bi Zhuang, unless the opponent can perform a hat-trick in the final round.This is not easy to do.

Riquelme has no prejudice against Messi. After all, Messi is also Argentine. He is also happy to see his junior brother perform so well.

He just has an opinion on Barcelona, ​​which is exactly the same. He knows very well that Fan Bizhuang, who has a similar experience with him, is also not interested in Barcelona.

In the past in the team, whenever there was a match against Barcelona, ​​the two most excited people were Riquelme and Fan Bizhuang.

Fan Bizhuang always said confidently before the game that he would definitely score a goal, or that he would beat Barcelona to the ground.

When Riquelme said this, he wanted to arouse Fan Bizhuang's emotions, but he was obviously disappointed. Fan Bizhuang still did not respond at all. It seemed that Messi scored 30 goals, or scored 300 goals. It seems that he has nothing to do with taking away the first place in the scorer list.

Looking at Fan Bizhuang silently looking at the sky, Riquelme suddenly felt that he didn't know how to continue talking.Before coming, he thought of a lot of words, some comforting, some encouraging, some using the club as a shield to encourage him to cheer up, and some saying that his teammates need him... But at this moment, Riquelme He really didn't know what to say. He suddenly felt that these reasons and comforts were all nonsense. If they were useful, Fan Bizhuang would have returned to his former high spirited state long ago.

After a long time, Riquelme sighed leisurely.

"It's really disappointing for you like this, and it's also enough to make you desperate."

Riquelme gave up persuasion and comfort, and he expressed his true inner feelings very bluntly.Then he stood up, ready to leave.Because he felt that it would be useless for him to stay here any longer. Fan Bizhuang was a person with a strong subjective consciousness. No one else could persuade him to make his decision, just like the current situation. The reason why he was decadent was not because of the outside world. What is the sound, but he is willing and sinking into it.

You can never wake up someone who is pretending to be asleep!
And Fan Bizhuang is now the one who pretends to be asleep with his eyes open!
Perhaps in his heart, only by pretending to be asleep, only by hypnosis, only by forcing himself into a state of numbness, can his heart be a little more stable.

"You know, Fan, after the last league game, I'm leaving."

"In the future, you will only see me again when you go to South America. If you can wake up and are willing to go to South America."

Riquelme stood by the gate of the courtyard. He looked at the boy sitting in the courtyard, sighed again, and turned to leave.

What surprised him was that the moment he turned around, a familiar voice suddenly sounded. Although it was dull and hoarse, he knew that the owner of this voice was Fan Bizhuang.

"I'm sorry, Roman."

"I originally wanted to give you a parting gift, but now it seems that I can't do it."

Riquelme turned around in surprise, and saw Fan Bizhuang looking at him. The boy's face was still indifferent, as if the words just now did not come from his mouth.

"You don't need to apologize, and you don't have to feel guilty. You didn't do it this time, but it doesn't mean you can't do it in the future. I will remember the promise you made to me. As long as you stand up again and cheer up, one day, You will get that trophy. I will wait, wait for you to bring it to me, and I will accept this belated gift with a smile!"

Riquelme said anxiously, he used these words to "inspire" the other party, he hoped that this stubborn boy could regain his brilliance because he had a goal.

He only saw Fan Bizhuang's painful eyes.

"In the future? I...will there be a future?"

"I want to calm myself down, I want to work hard to make myself behave the same as before, but..." Fan Bizhuang's low voice was like crying, sinking and low, "My heart can't calm down, every time Whenever I want to run, whenever I want to catch a ball, whenever I want to make the next move, little Luna's smiling face will appear in front of my eyes, and I will always think of her, She smiled and opened her arms to me, she smiled and gave me a peck on the face, she was like the cutest little angel...but now it's all gone, little Luna is gone...you You know? I always think of such scenes, the chaotic car accident scene, little Luna covered in blood, and Pablo's painful cry for help... Although I didn't see the scene of the car accident with my own eyes, I didn't It doesn't prevent me from seeing such a picture in my mind... I... I can't calm down, I I... I really can't... This city is like a cage, a city that always reminds me of those painful images The cage... Roman, I think this me, has been abolished, completely abolished..."

The low cry finally turned into crying with a headache. Looking at Fan Bizhuang who was crying like a child in front of him, Riquelme stood there dumbfounded, speechless for a long time.

He never thought that Fan Bizhuang's mental state would be so bad. Seeing him return to the team and training as usual, everyone thought that Fan Bizhuang's condition was improving, but the fact is that all Everything is suppressed in the young man's heart. Maybe there is no sign of an outbreak now, but if time accumulates, the guilt and anxiety will only accumulate more and deeper. Once it erupts completely, then...

Riquelme didn't dare to think about the consequences.

Under the dark night, in the empty suburbs, everything seemed so quiet, only the low chirping of insects, and the weeping of the young man as the majestic wind blew by.

"Go away, Van!"

"leave here!"

"Go to a new place and start over."

"Perhaps in a brand new place, you will forget this city, the good things here, and everything that is not good..."

"You will have new friends, you will have a new beginning. When everything is calm, your life will also open a new chapter, believe in yourself, you will have a brand new life. I believe, Xiaolu Na also wants to see you smiling."

In the quiet night, Riquelme's voice sounded faintly.

Fan Bizhuang stopped crying, he raised his head, and fixedly looked at the man in front of him who was both a teacher and a friend.

The two looked at each other calmly and complicatedly, as if they had forgotten the passage of time and everything...

(End of this chapter)