After wearing the book, I made the villains cry

Chapter 189: Both True and False (61)

【Zhen Shi's Confessions】

When I was reborn for the first time, it was hard for me to believe what was happening before my eyes.

I have read a lot of online novels about the male protagonist's rebirth, but when this happened to me, I still couldn't get used to it and felt unreal.

But there is one thing in common:

After rebirth, my first thought was revenge.

No matter how many times I reincarnate, I always regard my first life as my real life.

My short life in my twenties ended hastily because of the cruelty of my adoptive mother, the neglect of my adoptive father and the bullying of my younger brother Zhen Jing.

When he was about to die, he even implicated Su Mengxi, the girl I cared about most innocently, and followed me to a tragic death.

In fact, to be honest, in the first life, I didn't know Su Mengxi for a long time. We met by accident in the bar I often went to, but I was deeply attracted by her.

There is an inexplicable aura about her—an aura that seems to be free from this world, which attracts me.

She said that she was raised by her father since she was a child, and her mother suddenly disappeared when she was very young, and she never saw her again.

The father and daughter depended on each other for life, and she was admitted to the best university. Just when life was about to start looking forward to, her father, who was suffering from overwork, fell ill.

With no experience in the world, she came to the hotel to work as a part-time bartender. In order to plot against me, my good brother Zhen Jing and his girlfriend at the time, Song Bingran, arranged me and her in the same room and took many unsightly photos. I was slandered in every possible way in front of my adoptive father, so I lost everything, the most important thing was the trust, ability, and qualifications I had accumulated over the years to take over the company.

How can I not hate?

In my whole life, Zhen Shi, no, no matter how many times I reincarnate, the most annoying thing is to owe favors.

I owe that girl, and that girl is innocent.

My first task after rebirth is revenge, but another important goal is that I must treat her well in this life.

But to my dismay:
The second rebirth, there is no such person as Su Mengxi in my life!

I've spent all my energy, money, and connections to search everywhere, but I can't find her anywhere...

The third time, the fourth time, the fifth time...

I am constantly being reborn, reborn, experiencing the same thing again and again, but not every time I can successfully meet Su Mengxi, and more importantly, I am not able to successfully protect her every time!
Do you still remember my description of her - "like an existence dissociated from this world".

After many rebirths, I finally understood the truth of reincarnation:
My life with her is destined to be missed.

As long as I, Song Bingran and Zhen Jing exist in this world at the same time, Su Mengxi cannot live well.

The reverse is also true.

If Mengxi didn't exist in the first place when I was reborn, there is no way to save her. I will still be trapped in this cycle, and after spending my whole life carelessly, I will be reborn again.

I thought about the reason, but no one can answer.

After a long time, I finally came to a reliable inference: saving her was probably the biggest obsession in my first life when I was dying.

But the nature of the world is chaotic, and people's actions are also random, which made it very difficult for me to save her.

And every time, the time of my rebirth is also fixed, it was the night when Song Bingran sent me to Y before Mengxi gave me wine.

And every time, Mengxi would drink the medicine foolishly, making an irreparable mistake...

If I could respawn a few seconds earlier, I would definitely run to her and slam that sinful glass of red wine to the ground.

But I can't do it, I can only wait.

Waiting for fate to take a nap, waiting for fate's own mistakes.

After countless trial and error, one day I finally figured out the ultimate path to salvation:

I want to erase Song Bingran, Zhen Jing and myself from this world before that "banquet night" that took her life away.

The world where the three of us do not exist is the world where Mengxi can live safely.

This time, I took my chance.

In this round of rebirth, Meng Xi seemed to be a different person.

Maybe it wasn't the same her—though, I wouldn't be surprised.

After all, repeated rebirths have happened to me, so what else can I not accept.

To save her and let her live a good life has become my obsession.

Without completing this obsession, I will not be able to escape this cycle with peace of mind.

If I can succeed this time and finally die with Zhen Jing, I hope fate can release me.

It is worth mentioning that in the previous few rebirths, everyone was talking and doing things according to their own scripts, and everyone almost followed their own established persona, so it was easy for me to deal with;
But as the number of respawns increases, the world becomes more and more unstable.

The people around me are often out of the control of the character design, and more and more people are beginning to realize the strangeness of this world.

Take Nangong Yu for example, once she said to me:
"I always feel that I have experienced some things many times, just like a dream. But when I think about it carefully, I can't remember where I experienced it."

This is the sense of déjà vu.

My repeated rebirth, my obsession to save Mengxi, implicated the fate of many people.

As the world is repeatedly refactored, structured, and refactored, it is like continuing to add faulty code to an already faulty application. Sooner or later, the program will completely collapse.

And at that time, can I still protect her?
So, this time, I made up my mind to finish everything I should do as soon as possible!
I can't remember which rebirth it was - because there were too many times, I would count the number of times at first, but I didn't bother to care about it later - accidentally, I saw a movie clip, which also talked about a man, He was stuck on the same day, reborn on this day repeatedly, and his life could no longer go on smoothly.

After watching this clip, I found it very interesting, so I found the whole movie to watch. It turns out that his story is similar to mine, but my time cycle is longer, from the orphanage to the time when I was screened in my twenties. King or someone else was killed, and the hero of this movie, his cycle time is even shorter, only one day.

No matter what method he adopted, when he opened his eyes the next day, he returned to the day before.

Who is luckier, me or him?
It's all unfortunate, but I can at least experience two decades of different lives. There are many inflection points I can try, but he faces too few choices. What can he do in 24 hours?
But when I had this thought, I couldn't help laughing at myself:

Yes, I have more than 20 years of life to try to change the ending of the tragedy, but didn't I do it too?

Such a comparison, as expected, I was even more of a failure.

Fortunately, this time I did it.

I want to send Su Mengxi a word:

"Since there is a world where you and I cannot coexist, there must be a world where you and I can coexist. Let me even boldly think about it—maybe there is a world where you and I must fall in love. If we don't fall in love, the land will collapse The broken world is also unknown.

If I can't see you again in the future, I wish you good morning, good afternoon and good night. "

(End of this chapter)