The Scum Girl's Self-Help Guide

Chapter 38

My name is Yu Lianli, and I am the youngest son of the prime minister of the Huang Kingdom. Since I was a child, because I was born outstanding, my mother would not let me appear in front of people easily.

When she was only four years old, because the eldest daughter was ten years old, the empress was overjoyed, and invited all the officials to a banquet, and specially asked the officials to bring all the boys in the house with them.

So I had the opportunity to go to the splendid palace.

It was a night banquet that day. Standing far outside the palace, one could see bright lanterns hanging in various palaces. The scene was very beautiful. The whole palace was like a palace in the sky, with stars floating on it.

Next to the floating pool in the palace is the place where I first saw her.

It's just that the scene was a bit embarrassing. At that time, I got separated from my sister and met Mr. Wan Jia who was two years older than me. I forgot to argue with him because of something. He was out of breath for a while and pushed me down the pool.

It was only early spring at that time, and the water in the Huahua Pool was still cold, and I couldn't move my hands and feet, which became cold when I touched the water.

I was about to sink to the bottom of the water and lose my life, but she jumped into the water and saved my life.

I still remember that the pool water was cold that day, but as soon as she leaned over, my whole body warmed up, but with my messy hair on my head, it was the first time she saw me in such a mess.

For a long time afterwards, I regretted it. If I hadn't fallen into the water that night and she saw me clean and beautiful at first sight, would she have liked me?

It's just that things in the world cannot be overthrown and restarted. Once many things start, there is no return.

Later, I was raising my body at home, and when I heard her father passed away, she had already suffered from the cold, and then was stimulated, and fell ill again and again, and her body became much weaker.

I grew up in the prime minister's mansion, and every day I woke up, I thought, I have to grow up quickly so that I can marry her.

However, before I got crowned, I heard that she had already been kicked out of the palace by the empress because she had raised a male favourite, and she became independent from the palace.

My elder sister said that she was a scumbag, who robbed women and men from good families, regardless of her status, and even brought back the young men from the brothel to raise in the house.

The mother said that she was an idiot who could not be supported, and now that the empress was still alive, she could still protect her, and she would not be able to behave like this when other empresses came to the throne in the future.

For more than ten years, the person hidden in my heart is so unbearable?
I don't believe it, but later I sneaked to the gate of her house and saw her go out with all kinds of men in her arms with a smile on her face.

It's just that I can't feel any sincerity in that smile. She doesn't have anyone she really likes. Does it mean that I still have a chance?
Once, it was getting late, and I waited until she returned home.

She was drunk, but the servants around her were not there, but she staggered towards the gate of the mansion alone.

Then a person who is beautiful in Jiyue will also look like this.

I stepped forward to help her, she looked up at me, the body being supported was taken aback for a moment, and then I saw her smile, calling out: "Little one, I found you."

I don't know who she is calling, but the joyful light in her eyes doesn't seem to be fake.

"Who is the little one?" I couldn't help asking.

"Small...you little one, that stupid little one who fell into the water." She held my hand, her breath smelling of alcohol was next to my ear, "Your eyes...seem, like a little one."

At that moment, my heart couldn't help beating rapidly—is she looking for me?

"When did he fall into the water, are you looking for him?" My voice couldn't help trembling.

"Wh... when?" She looked up at the sky, her eyes seemed to be sparkling, but then she smiled again: "Many years ago, I have been looking for him for many years..."

I still wanted to ask something, but she let go of my hand and stumbled towards the gate of the mansion, still muttering: "It's too hard to find, I don't want to look for it anymore..."

The voice was a little aggrieved, and it was almost scattered by the wind.

I forgot how I stumbled and ran back to the house that night, lying on the bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep.

Later, I went to ask my mother, I want to marry her, whether she is looking for me or not, I will marry!
My mother ignored me, saying that I was making a fool of myself, that she had raised three thousand boys and would not like me.

I didn't argue with my mother, but just knelt at the door of the study for three full days.

My mother can't hold me back. She loves me the most since she was a child, and she doesn't want to see me suffer. I know it all, so she threatens me.

I won, and my mother went to beg the empress, and I got my wish and married into the palace of the great empress.

It's just that everything is different from what I thought.

She has someone she likes, who is the son of the Wan family and is also her current side lord.

I heard that if I hadn't married in, then the lord would have been sitting here.

On the wedding night, she didn't stay in my room, but went to Mr. Wan's place.

I understand her. After all, she is someone I have never met, and the marriage is ordered by His Majesty's decree, so she cannot be disobeyed.

So I don't blame her, even if you beat me, scold me, or punish me, as long as I stay in this mansion and see her from time to time, I will feel at ease.

Originally, I thought that my whole life would be like this, but seeing her happy with others, guarding a yard by herself.

But that day, things changed all of a sudden.

She started to treat me well, kicked out all the male favorites in the mansion, and accompanied me back home, prepared gifts for my mother, sister, and father, and made a promise in front of my mother: From now on, there will only be me in the mansion.

I naively thought that all this was true, and I began to fantasize about being with her forever.

Later, she was going to the south of the Yangtze River to quell the floods and asked me to wait for her in the mansion to make clothes. I followed secretly, but I never wanted her to worry so much.

She told me that the road to the south of the Yangtze River was full of dangers, and that my going would disturb her mind, and even Feng Wei, who promised her the empress, told me alone.

I believe it, so she will go, and I will guard the capital for her.

The journey was far away, and I thought she would miss me as much as I miss her every day.

Every three days, I read the letters carefully, and I have to take them out and read them several times every day when I feel distracted.

After finally waiting until she was about to return to Beijing, someone sent an anonymous letter, which recorded in detail that she met an old man on the road—Li Changle, and summoned a certain young man in a certain brothel in a certain place.

I know I shouldn't be jealous because of this, maybe someone has ulterior motives?

So, I borrowed someone from my sister and asked them one by one.

I thought about it later, maybe this is the step I really took wrong, and I began to doubt her.

I suspect that she treats others the same way, that she doesn't like me as much as I imagined, that I can't be the most unique one in her heart.

I was greedy, so I took the most drastic move.

My mother told me that Lan Mingyi colluded with his mother's old department and wanted to assassinate her.

I want to take the secret guards from the Prime Minister's Mansion with me, and take this opportunity to test whether she cares about me as she said.

My mother said that this was the last test. If she could sacrifice her life to protect me, then my mother would do her best to help her ascend to the throne of God. If not, she would leave a way out for me.

I complied with my mother's words, but privately dismissed all the hidden guards around me.

I don't want to test her like this, and I don't want her to risk her life to protect me. She has already saved me once, this time, let me protect her with my life, and give her this life back. That's the end of my entanglement with her.

Since I was four years old, I have been full of her shadow. I don't want to be a resentful husband who has no grace and is unhappy in the yard all day long.

Since you can't get her wholehearted love, then leave here.

But, who will tell me why she is the last person to die? !

When Xue Ji told me that she traded her life for her own life, I didn't believe it. It wasn't until I actually entered the imperial mausoleum and saw her lying in the coffin wearing the robe I sewed by myself, that I realized that she was the real fool.

The days that followed were very long, there was no sun or moon in the imperial mausoleum, and I counted the time with the Dongzhu she gave me all day long.

There are thirty East Pearls in the box, after counting thirteen thousand one hundred and sixty one time, the day is considered to be over.

Another day, I fainted in front of her coffin.

After waking up again, she had already returned to the house, lying on the bed she had slept with.

Xue Ji told me that I was pregnant and pregnant with her child, His Majesty pardoned me to go back to the mansion and no longer guard the imperial tomb.

I froze on the spot, having her child was something I never thought about.

My mother and sister came to see me, and told me how she set up a scheme to send His Highness the Second Highness back to the fief, how she captured Lan Mingyi, cut him alive, sent his flesh and blood to the Second Highness's fief, and made her angry Crazy.

And all this is to avenge me.

Later, the days of pregnancy got a little better, and my stomach had blood related to her, so I could no longer live in a muddle like before.

I started to win over people who were close to her before, Huang Yi, Huang Er, Xue Ji and so on.

From their mouths, I really fully realized what kind of person she is.

Hearing that she sent away the second highness and took Lan Mingyi's life by means of means, even the hidden third highness was turned out and put back into the fief.

They said that she liked me, no, she loved me, but she never told me.

It's as if I never told her that I was the little girl she couldn't find at the beginning.

How ridiculous, the two of them were obviously in love, but they were ashamed to confess, and ended up like this in the end.

Although without her company, I still lived a long time.

Live to see our child ascend the throne, live to see her marry her beloved lord, live to see her lord give birth to an heir.

In this life, I have lived enough, and I must be buried with her in the end.

If there is a next life, I want to marry her again.

But, this time, I will definitely tell her first——I have always loved her very much, and I have never changed my heart.

　Today is two thousand and eight, can you ask for a collection or something.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)