Being too ferocious because of caution

Chapter 506: The memory world of "End of the Road" P (Part 2)

"Gray?"

Zhao Yi was surprised.

The memories of the corpses he dissected before were all yellowish. Although they were covered with a layer of hazy decay, making the overall memory world yellowish, they were still colorful.

But the memory of P in front of him was... gray.

Everything was gray.

The sky, the earth, the buildings, the people...

As if they were stones.

All the same color.

When he was young, P's father drank all day.

When he was drunk, he would beat him with a cane or a belt.

His mother was often beaten by his father because she protected him.

At first, P was very scared, then he became angry, and finally numb.

He was used to it.

The flesh wounds on his body would scab over in no time anyway.

This kind of childhood continued until he went to school. P's father spent all the family's money on drinking, so he had no money to pay P's tuition. As a result, P could not go to school at the age when he should have, and was called out by his father to work as a child laborer.

When he was young, P thought more than once about stabbing his father's neck with a knife while he was asleep.

Of course, P didn't have the courage to do such a thing at that time.

When he had the courage to do it, it was already a year later.

His father had no money to drink, and didn't want to go out to work. The little money P earned from child labor was not enough to buy alcohol...

So, P's father had a bad idea for P's mother, and he began to force P's mother to sell meat.

He even invited several owners of small alcohol shops to come to his home every now and then.

Whenever his mother's miserable screams came from the room, P felt that something was kneading his heart crazily, making him so painful that he couldn't breathe.

His father finally drank good wine and smiled.

He would also praise his mother rarely.

One day later, P got up to go to the toilet at night, but saw his mother holding a basin of water, constantly washing her lower body, and even using a brush, brushing out blood all over the floor.

But she seemed to feel no pain, just mechanically brushing over and over again.

She saw that P no longer shed tears, but just showed a weird and desperate smile.

That was a nightmare that P would never forget in his life.

That night, his mother hanged herself at home.

The next day, his father found his mother's body in the toilet. He was only terrified for a few minutes, and then he began to get angry, roaring loudly, angrily cursing his mother, all kinds of dirty words!

Sow, bitch, bitch...

P stood behind his father and looked at his mother quietly.

She was still the same as before, without resistance or response.

Silently bearing everything.

Whether alive or dead.

The mother's desperate cold smile gave P a heavy hammer to his numb heart and completely awakened him.

Such a gentle, loving mother, because of his inaction... died in such despair.

This time, P was no longer afraid.

The hand holding the knife did not even tremble at all, and he resolutely stabbed his father's stomach, and then took out all his father's evil heart and dog lungs in his father's crazy struggle...

P used the meat grinder he saved up to buy his father's body bit by bit, and rushed it all into the sewer...

Finally, P buried his mother and surrendered to the police station.

That year, P was fifteen years old.

This was P's childhood.

He never told anyone.

Including Cherry.

While serving his sentence in an ordinary prison, P gained a lot of knowledge from the prison library, and his talent began to be brought into play. In five years, he read all the books in the prison library. Immersed in the ocean of knowledge, he was surprised to find that he could temporarily forget the painful memories of his childhood.

So...he began to study frantically.

After being released from prison, P earned some money by working, took the independent examination for social personnel, and was admitted to the best social university in Z City with excellent results. P spent three years there, completed a paper on independent software design, and successfully hacked into the military's computer system.

This paper was the beginning of P's deification.

The military made an exception and included P in the military's research staff, where P met the Cherry couple.

At that time, Cherry's wife Zhou Ling had just been pregnant.

When the memory appeared here, Zhao Yicai finally glimpsed a touch of color from the gray world.

In P's gray world, the Cherry couple were the only two colorful characters.

Cherry's love for talent made him fall in love with P at first sight, and he really taught P professional knowledge with all his heart.

Meticulous, enthusiastic, not arrogant, and embarrassed to laugh when he found his mistakes, Cherry quickly entered P's heart.

P had no money to pay the management fee of the institute, so he helped P to cover it.

P had no money to eat, and when Cherry found out, she let P live in her home.

Cherry's wife Zhou Ling's gentleness and the smile on her face always made P feel like he had returned to his childhood and saw the mother who loved him.

Even under the influence of the two, the grayness of P's memory world was gradually fading, as if the spring breeze blew through everything, and the dormant life revived, and everything was moving in a good direction.

From the color changes in P's memory world, Zhao Yi keenly felt that P had experienced the beauty of the world for the first time.

He was beginning to accept this cruel world little by little.

Two years passed in a flash.

Cherry confidently handed the Blue Poison Project to P and devoted herself to the research of the super-powered collar.

P vaguely sensed the weirdness of the project at work, so he made a miniature bug and put it in Akita's water cup, letting Akita drink it.

The bug would stick to the edge above the stomach wall.

A few days later, he discovered the conspiracy of Akita and the Skull Church.

Shock and fear overwhelmed P.

He began to panic and fear...

He was afraid that the things in his childhood would happen again...

He was afraid that those who loved him would die in front of him again...

After several days of insomnia, P swore in his heart that he would stop it no matter what the cost!

P prepared for this for three whole years.

Three years later, Cherry completed the invention of the super-powered collar.

P's plan also began from then on.

He personally sent his teacher into the prison of the sand sea, and watched the enthusiastic smile on Cherry's face turn into incomprehensible anger and disappointment.

It was also from that time that P became as silent as his mother.

He finally understood why his mother was silent.

Because they were weak...

But there were people he wanted to protect.

To implement his difficult plan, P spent thirty-three years of his youth.

He did not get married, did not get close to women, did not make friends, and did not have any extra social activities.

He lived like a stone.

In the end... he succeeded.

He completely deleted Cherry's database, so that the military no longer had any private information about Cherry.

In P's plan, he wanted to write this matter in his notebook, and when he had done all this, he would send Cherry and his wife and daughter away from Z City, and then send the diary to Cherry.

He wanted so much to wipe away the disappointment and pain in Cherry's eyes, and tell Cherry, I am your most beloved and best student, I have never let you down...

But in the end, he still didn't leave a single word in the notebook.

P spent more than ten years to make peace with himself.

He told himself that he must bear what his mother couldn't bear.

For those who love him.

For...the ones he loves.

PS: Second update, I will take a few minutes to write the third update.

Wrong words will be corrected later

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