Chasing Summer

Lin Zhexia felt that she was floating all the way back to the dormitory.

She changed her skirt, borrowed makeup remover from Lan Xiaoxue, and took off her base makeup little by little in front of the mirror in the bathroom.

She squeezed the cotton pad down the bridge of her nose, and when it was about to land on her mouth, she paused, and then her ears turned red again.

…

Stop thinking about it.

Isn't it just...a kiss.

When she came out after washing her face, the lights in the dormitory had been turned off.

The darkness just hid all her emotions. When Lan Xiaoxue asked her "how is the date today" before going to bed, she replied calmly: "It's okay."

Lan Xiaoxue asked gossipingly, "Did your brother kiss you?"

"..." Lin Zhexia still pretended to be calm, "I kissed you, but I don't feel much about it."

Lan Xiaoxue: "Okay, I'm promising."

As a result, the person who said he didn't feel much, went to bed and didn't fall asleep for a long time.

She pulled the quilt up over the tip of her nose.

After tossing and turning, she turned on her phone.

The phone was half-charged in the mall, she clicked on Mao Maotou, and took a picture of Chi Yao's profile picture.

Chi Yao replied quickly.

Boyfriend: I'm not sleeping yet.

Lin Zhexia didn't want to say that she couldn't fall asleep, so she found an excuse: she was a little sleepy.

However, her boyfriend specifically dismantled her: You recognize the bed very suddenly

Lin Zhexia: Where suddenly

Boyfriend: I fell asleep like a pig halfway through the conversation a while ago

Lin Zhexia: ...

Why is this person like this.

Can't you save some face for her?

Lin Zhexia was chatting with him, but she was a little sleepy. Before going to bed, she said one last sentence: It's my first time kissing a boy. It's normal to be a little nervous at night, and it's not your first time either.

But just before she was about to fall asleep—

She saw Chi Yao send a sentence.

- It's not my first time.

"You didn't sleep all night?" Lan Xiaoxue noticed that Lin Zhexia's mental state was not right the next day, "You look very tired."

Lin Zhexia replied sullenly while brushing her teeth: "I was thinking about something, I didn't fall asleep last night."

Chi Yao's words were still circulating in her mind.

He said he was not the first time.

It is the first time for everyone to fall in love, but it is not the first time for him to kiss a girl.

Who has he kissed before? When did you kiss?

When you were in Beijing?

…

Lan Xiaoxue is very perceptive: "It shouldn't be during the hot love period. Shouldn't you be only responsible for the sweetness at this stage? There will be troubles so soon."

Lin Zhexia did not deny it.

Lan Xiaoxue: "What's going on? Tell me and listen, maybe you're just thinking about it."

"I'm not delusional."

A message sent by Chi Yao himself.

She read that line of writing several times, and there was no mistake.

Lan Xiaoxue thought that what happened between them was some common trivial matter between lovers, and persuaded: "Oh, this is how you fall in love, and you will always encounter many problems. You used to be good friends who talked about everything, but now you are a man and a woman. Friends, there will always be conflicts. You're just not used to this status."

"But…"

Lin Zhexia said "but" for a long time, and finally said: "But I think he is a scumbag."

Lan Xiaoxue: "?!"

It was a coincidence that Chi Yao and the others were busy professionally on this day.

So the two had no chance to meet from morning to noon.

Lin Zhexia pretended to fall asleep while chatting last night, and didn't directly reply to his words, and she was out of her mind for a long time.

"Don't think about it, let's go to the snack street to buy something to eat at noon. There is nothing to think about with men." After class at noon, Lan Xiaoxue pulled her and other roommates to the snack street, "I'll see you at night Now, just ask him directly."

Lin Zhexia temporarily put this matter aside and followed them to the snack street.

The University City Snack Street is holding an event recently, holding a special "Food Festival", and various businesses have come up with a lot of strategies to attract customers.

Lin Zhexia followed them to buy something to eat, and when she walked forward with a glass of coconut juice, she bumped into someone by accident.

"Excuse me."

Lin Zhexia took two steps back, first to check whether the cup of coconut milk she poured on the other party, and then raised her head—

Girl, long hair, very gentle, wearing a white skirt.

She smiled, her facial features were similar to those in high school, but she looked much more mature than before, with pierced ears and plain earrings.

Lin Zhexia rummaged through her memory and found her name: "Shen... Shanshan?"

Shen Shanshan bent her eyes: "Lin Zhexia, what a coincidence."

"Do you go to school here?" Lin Zhexia asked.

"Well," Shen Shanshan replied, "I went to Lian Medical University, how about you?"

"I'm in Lianda."

After Lin Zhexia answered, she felt that she might want to know about Chi Yao's recent situation, so she added, "Chi Yao is also at Lian Da."

Hearing the name of the person she had a crush on in high school, Shen Shanshan froze for a moment.

But the word Chi Yao is far away from her.

"It doesn't matter which school he is in, I don't like him anymore," Shen Shanshan smiled again, and said with relief, "I am happier today because I actually met you here."

"...Don't you like it?" Lin Zhexia was surprised.

"Well, isn't it strange? It might not be considered a real liking. After I transferred to another school, I suddenly realized that I actually don't know him at all. Rather than liking him, it might be better to say I like him in my fantasy. "

But when it comes to Chi Yao, Shen Shanshan is still very emotional, but now rather than a person she likes, she is more emotional about her high school days: "But I am still very grateful to him. My son might not study so hard."

Lin Zhexia Xin said, if this is the case, then the dog Chi Yao has done a good deed.

During the conversation, Lan Xiaoxue and the others called her, Lin Zhexia turned her head and answered.

Shen Shanshan: "Your friends are waiting for you, you go first, next time you can come to Lian Medical University to find me, I will show you around our school."

Lin Zhexia nodded: "You can also come to me at any time."

Before Lin Zhexia left, Shen Shanshan suddenly stopped her as if thinking of something again: "Hey—that's right."

"I secretly gossip, is Chi Yao together with the girl he liked in high school?"

She understood every word of this sentence.

But when connected, it is confusing.

Chi Yao. in high school. like. girl.

Lin Zhexia was stunned: "Huh?"

Shen Shanshan: "Didn't I confess my love to him in Haicheng City? He rejected me that day, but he said a word to me."

Nearly two years have passed, and the memories are starting to fade.

Shen Shanshan remembers that the sea was very blue that day. Chi Yao, who was standing in front of her, had a difficult voice.

She also suddenly remembered what was behind the words "and me" at this moment.

Chi Yao's words back then were so fast that people couldn't hear them clearly, and they almost thought it was an illusion: and I have someone I like.

Lin Zhexia bid farewell to Shen Shanshan and walked back to Lan Xiaoxue, her whole body was still in a very erratic state.

Holding coconut water, she bumped into several people along the way.

Lan Xiaoxue stretched out her hand and waved it several times in front of her: "Hey, what's wrong with you."

Lin Zhexia came back to her senses: "...It's nothing, it's just that there are too many people here, it's a bit crowded."

Lan Xiaoxue didn't think much about it: "Okay, then hold me tight and don't get separated."

…

After shopping around the snack street, Lin Zhexia went back to the dormitory alone.

They have no classes in the afternoon.

After returning home, Lin Zhexia was doing homework in the dormitory, and by the way, made a few phone calls with Lin He and the group of friends from the old high school.

Lin He told her: "Take care of yourself by yourself. Although Chi Yao shares the same school as you, you don't have to bother him at ordinary times. As a college student, the first thing you need to learn is to be independent."

Lin Zhexia's heart tightened when he heard the word "Chi Yao" now: "Got it."

She chatted with Chen Lin and Tang Shuxuan for a while.

The two of them did not stay in this city, but went to study in the next city. Coincidentally, they were admitted to the same major in the same school.

So Lin Zhexia dialed the phone, and as soon as Chen Lin picked it up, Tang Shuxuan's voice came from beside him: "Hello, Xia Xia."

"Hi."

"I really envy you two," Lin Zhexia cheered up and said, "You actually live in the same dormitory."

Tang Shuxuan smiled: "Don't you also go to the same school as Chi Yao?"

It was Chi Yao again.

She was upset because of this person today, but it seemed that she couldn't escape this name wherever she went.

Lin Zhexia subconsciously blurted out: "Don't mention him."

Tang Shuxuan: "What's the matter, are you two fighting again?"

Lin Zhexia was ambiguous: "It counts."

"It's okay, between brothers," Tang Shuxuan continued, "There is no overnight feud."

"..."

Several people chatted about the recent situation.

Tang Shuxuan was not admitted to the school where her senior was. In reality, there are always obstacles of one kind or another. The crush she had when she was a student can only become a memory. She and Shen Shanshan had very similar mentalities, when they really came to a fork in the road, they put each other down instead.

Chen Lin is keen on surfing every day, but she still doesn't know anything about relationships.

Lin Zhexia wanted to report to them, "I'm with Chi Yao", but the words got stuck in her throat, and she couldn't say them for a long time.

After hanging up the phone, she looked at the textbook in front of her and thought belatedly: In fact, besides fear of scaring them, there is another reason she has been avoiding subconsciously.

It's because she has never been able to confirm Chi Yao's liking for her.

Chi Yao pursued her, confessed to her, and did many things between couples with her. She felt more like being hit by a surprise and a dream come true.

But she was afraid that this was just a "beautiful dream".

So yesterday at the restaurant, she also hesitated when replying to He Yang's message.

She couldn't help but ask herself, why did Chi Yao like her?

They remained each other's best friends until the two met again.

But after the reunion, Chi Yao's attitude towards her changed.

It is undeniable that she is delighted with this change.

But this joy cannot be delved into.

Why does Chi Yao like her?

Or, this question should evolve into, does Chi Yao really like her?

Lin Zhexia flipped through the chat records of the two last night.

—…You are not the first time.

— It's not the first time for me.

Then, Shen Shanshan's words rang in his ears again.

- There was a person he liked in high school, when he rejected me at the seaside, he said it himself. Don't you know? I thought you had such a good relationship with him that you would know.

Lin Zhexia wanted to ask him, but quickly put down her phone, fearing that she would puncture this beautiful dream with her own hands, she sighed and thought: He really is a scumbag.

When I was in high school, I pretended to be so strangers do not enter.

In the end, behind her back, there was someone he liked.

It's also his first time dating.

It turned out that it wasn't the first time kissing a girl at all.

…

Lin Zhexia knew that she shouldn't think about him like this, because she and Chi Yao were friends, brothers, and important companions who had been together for many years apart from the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend.

She shouldn't be thinking about him that way.

However, it turned out to be such a strange thing to become boyfriend and girlfriend with Chi Yao.

In the past, she felt that she was the person who knew Chi Yao best.

But now she began to feel that she seemed to be starting to not understand Chi Yao.

She began to think uncontrollably.

Lin Zhexia finally forced herself to let go of these thoughts. She finished her homework seriously and went back to bed to sleep.

In the dream, she went back to when she and Chi Yao were in high school.

It's just that this time Chi Yao in the dream turned into a "scumbag", hugging left and right in school.

It is no longer the unapproachable look before, but sitting in a class of classrooms, wearing school uniforms, sitting lazily in the back row of the classroom, talking about several girlfriends at the same time.

"I want to break up with you," Lin Zhexia looked at her carrying a schoolbag in her dream, and angrily said to the "scumbag" Chi Yao, "I don't have a friend like you!"

Chi Yao said coldly, "What's wrong with me?"

Lin Zhexia choked out a sentence for a long time: "You...you take feelings too seriously."

"Di-"

The phone rang, and Lin Zhexia's dream was interrupted by the ringtone.

When she opened her eyes, she realized that it was already dark outside, and she had slept for so long.

It's Chi Yao's call.

She hesitated for a moment, then picked it up.

"Hey."

The other end of the phone asked, "What are you doing?"

Lin Zhexia said honestly, "I just woke up."

Chi Yao's voice was the same as in the dream: "Your boyfriend has been dragged out for a drink. I'll give you half an hour to come and pick me up. Otherwise, if he drinks too much, he will be easily picked up by others."

Lin Zhexia got up from the bed and asked, "Where do you drink, the back street of the school?"

Chi Yao let out a "hmm" on the other side of the phone.

"How much have you drank," she urged again, "Drink less."

When Chi Yao spoke, his voice became lingering and ambiguous, and it sounded like he had drunk a lot, but he actually said in a way of "complaining" to her: "They poured me."

"Do you just drink when you are poured? I don't see you being so talkative usually."

"Ah," Chi Yao held the phone, feeling drunk, "...they want to be the first to drink out of the order."

He added, "If you find the right reason, I'm quite easy to drink."

Before going to bed, Lin Zhexia was still thinking over and over that Chi Yao might not like her, but when she was on the phone, she couldn't help thinking that maybe Chi Yao really liked her.

…

She couldn't handle this contradictory and repeated mood, so she could only hang up the phone in the end, pack up and prepare to go out to pick him up.

Backstreet is still as lively as ever.

Not long after the sky darkened, students from several nearby universities flocked to take up positions everywhere.

There are people holding electric boxes and guitars by the central garden, playing in the open air.

The boy was wearing a peaked cap, he looked like a student, and he probably liked music.

There was a small circle of people in front of him, and someone was holding up a mobile phone to record.

He played a very slow love song.

Following the music, Lin Zhexia passed through the crowd all the way, and then saw Chi Yao's figure in the corner of an open-air tavern.

In fact, she had never seen Chi Yao drunk.

In the past, they were controlled by teachers and parents every day, and they had no chance to drink at all.

While she was trying to figure out what Chi Yao would look like if he drank too much, she walked over and saw that the other people at that table had already left, and he was the only one left.

The boy was wearing a black sweater, probably because there were too many gazes from around him, he pulled up the wide hat attached behind him, the brim of the hat hung down, covering half of his face, only half of his chin and the bridge of his nose could be seen .

Lin Zhexia walked up to him and asked, "Do you still recognize who I am?"

Chi Yao raised his eyes, saw that she was here, and relaxed a little: "I drank too much, not amnesia."

Lin Zhexia took the initiative to reach out to him: "Let's go, my elder brother will take you back today."

After drinking too much, Chi Yao was especially talkative: "Oh, thank you, brother."

After he got up, he raised his hand to press his forehead, and shook it when he took the first step.

Lin Zhexia originally thought that he didn't drink too much, otherwise how could he sit in the corner and make a concave shape for himself, but only after he stood up did he realize that he had indeed been drunk a lot.

"How much did you drink?" she asked.

"No."

"Are you going to be force-fed if you take off the single in the dormitory?"

"Ok."

"This habit is not very good, don't drink it next time."

"..."

Lin Zhexia pulled him to a place where there were few people.

She used the streetlights to realize that this was the first time Chi Yao held her hand last time, and then she asked him "why everyone thought she was his girlfriend" through the road.

When she came back here, her identity and mood were different.

Obviously the person who drank today was Chi Yao, but perhaps, this journey that she had confided in her heart gave her a little bit of courage, she walked in front and said softly: "Chi Yao, why do you like me. "

"There are so many girls who like you, and many girls are better than me," Lin Zhexia said here, thinking of Shen Shanshan who met at noon, "Why me?"

When she said this, she felt that Chi Yao's fingers tightened suddenly.

But she didn't care, nor did she have the courage to look back at him.

He continued on his own: "Do you really like me, or is it just because we have known each other for too long that you may have an illusion—"

Two words came from behind, and Chi Yao's voice was still cold, with hints of alcohol, and asked her back.

"illusion?"

Lin Zhexia still didn't look back, she was afraid that if she looked back at him, she wouldn't be able to say the following words.

Although she didn't want to say it out loud, she still endured the consequences of her dream being broken and said: "It's just an illusion. I mistakenly thought it was an illusion of liking."

"You seem to like me very suddenly, and you said you want to chase me, but it's also very sudden."

"So, you probably didn't know what kind of feelings you have for me," Lin Zexia expressed her guess, "Maybe we were separated before, so you mistakenly think that the feeling that you don't want to be separated from me is like."

She wants to say that liking is not like this.

Loving someone's mood is very precious.

Like she likes him.

He may be mistaken.

Lin Zhexia blinked her eyes when she said this, she wanted to cry for some reason, she paused: "You...do you want to think about our relationship again? I'm not kidding you, I'm serious of."

"Anyway... before everyone knows we're together..."

When she said this, she was crying uncontrollably.

Chi Yao interrupted her.

He called her coldly: "Lin Zhexia, turn around."

Lin Zhexia quickly raised her hand to wipe her eyes, then turned around slowly, but still didn't dare to look at him.

Chi Yao raised his hand and pinched her chin with his fingertips. He really wanted to use force, but in the end he controlled his strength and forced her to look up at herself: "Why do you think so?"

Lin Zhexia bumped into those bottomless eyes.

The corners of Chi Yao's eyes were raised slightly, and when he usually looked at people, there was an unknowing wantonness and provocation, but at this moment they were depressed, making it difficult to see clearly.

"Isn't it normal for me to think so?"

She noticed that Chi Yao seemed to be angry, and summoned up the courage to say, "Because we have always been good friends before."

"Because...we've known each other for too long, and we've been together too long."

"It's also because," she said with difficulty, the remaining reason, "...you kissed other girls, and you also liked others when you were in high school."

Chi Yao almost laughed angrily at her.

He strengthened his hands, bent down, and got closer to her. The tips of their noses almost touched each other, and their breaths were intertwined: "Isn't it the first time I kiss a girl, does it mean that I kissed someone else?"

"You never thought that you were the one who kissed for the first time."

"The person I liked in high school was also you."