Defeated By Love

In early February, Ruchuan entered deep winter.

Shunen's physique is not good, and his hands and feet get cold in winter. She is very afraid of getting sick and affecting her voice, so she will deliberately wear more clothes when she wears clothes.

For the quality of recording, there is no air conditioner in the recording studio, nor the funds to install the ultra-quiet air conditioner.

After staying for a long time, Shunian was so cold that she lost consciousness. Taking advantage of the break time, she went to the lounge to drink a cup of hot water, and took a piece of warm baby from her bag and stuck it on her body.

When Yu Guang saw the box Xie Ruhe gave her, Shunian paused and took it out.

Shunian wanted to see if there was anything in it, turned on the phone, and plugged in headphones for the MP3. She rolled her eyes down, and apart from hundreds of songs, she had no other files.

Shunen has a little impression of those songs.

It seems to be Xie Ruhe's songs.

She clicked on one of the songs casually.

Listening to it, Shunen felt that this song was a bit familiar, but also a bit wrong. She suddenly remembered something, glanced at the song title again, then took out her mobile phone and checked the song online.

It is indeed the song written by Xie Ruhe, but he wrote it to others.

But at this time, the sound of the song singing in the headphones was Xie Ruhe's.

Shunianben thought he was just putting in the version he sang, but she searched the Internet for a long time and couldn't find the version he sang. She picked up the MP3 again, licked her lips and clicked into another song written by Xie Ruhe to others.

——It is still Xie Ruhe's voice.

Shunen's heartbeat speeded up inexplicably and took off the earphones. She suddenly realized that the gift Xie Ruhe gave her was not the MP3 in her hand, but something in the MP3.

He sang all his songs with his own voice and gave them to her.

It is something more precious.

Shunian put the MP3 back in the box, feeling a little lost, and suddenly remembered the first birthday he had with Xie Ruhe after he got better.

It was in the winter vacation of high school.

That year, her birthday happened to be on New Year's Eve, the day before the Spring Festival.

Shu Gao Lin came back from the city and brought her a birthday present, which was the ukulele. After that, Shunian went to his grandparents' house for New Year's Eve dinner with his parents. It was already ten o'clock when he got home.

Shunian always went to bed on time at half past nine, and his eyelids were drooping at this moment. Her family never had the custom of keeping the year old. After Shunen took a bath, she said "Happy New Year" to Deng Qingyu and was ready to go to bed.

She went back to the room and yawned and dried her hair with a hairdryer.

There was a whirring sound in my ears, deafening, covering up other sounds around me.

Shunen was gentle and serious in doing things, and blowing her hair slowly, as if counting her hair one by one. After a long time, she put down the hair dryer in her hand, turned off the light, and quickly got into the bed next to her.

At the same time, she heard a soft tap from the window.

At first, Shunen thought he had heard it wrong, but then there was a second sound. She sat up in wonder, rubbed her eyes, jumped out of the bed and opened the curtains.

Walking down the glass, I saw Xie Ruhe's face pale with cold outside.

Shunian was stunned, and suddenly no sleep: "Why are you here?"

Xie Ruhe moved slowly and put the little cake he was holding on the window edge, and said in a low voice, "Happy birthday."

Shunen stared at his face, still feeling like he had fallen asleep and was in a dream right now. She licked her lips and asked in a low voice, "How long have you been here."

Xie Ruhe seemed to be extremely cold, his lips turned purple, and he did not answer.

Shunen grabbed his wrist and said, "You come in."

Deng Qingyu's voice sounded outside the room: "Niannian, are you asleep?"

Shunian did not respond, but Xie Ruhe immediately broke free of her hand and hid sideways behind the wall. After a while, Shunen whispered: "My mother is gone, come in."

Xie Ruhe shook his head: "I will stand outside."

"It's too cold outside." Shunen disagreed. "You will catch a cold like this."

But Shunian said for a long time, Xie Ruhe didn't listen, just said: "You will be scolded if you are discovered by your mother."

Shunian was still trying to persuade me: "My mother will not come in, she thought I was asleep, if you are still worried, otherwise I will lock the door."

Xie Ruhe still didn't listen.

Shunen was not angry either, she thought for a while, walked to the closet, put herself in two sweaters, wrapped a large coat, and then took out the largest coat.

She walked back to the window and passed her coat to Xie Ruhe.

Xie Ruhe took it, wondering: "What are you going to do."

Afterwards, Shunian climbed up the window on his own. The first time she did this kind of thing, she was wearing a lot of clothes and doing it awkwardly, like a ball rolled on the edge of a window and then onto the ground.

Xie Ruhe was afraid that she would fall, and stood aside for her to support.

"If you don't come in, then I will come out." Shunen said naturally after landing, "You can't let you blow the air outside alone, we are friends."

"..."

"Why should we be friends?" Shunen sighed, and instantly seemed to become a little old man, "Obviously it's a legitimate behavior, but it's like—"

Shunen paused and couldn't remember: "I forgot how that word was said."

Xie Ruhe didn't understand, and said, "What word?"

"Oh, yes." Shunian remembered, "just like that, cheating."

"..." Xie Ruhe was almost choked by her, her expression indescribable, "What did you say?"

"You have to be sneaky." Shunen was very depressed and unhappy. "My mother won't let me play with you, how old I am, and it's like bringing a child, even making friends."

Xie Ruhe didn't know what to say, and handed her the coat in his hand.

Shunen blinked and said, "This is for you."

"..." Xie Ruhe put the coat directly on her, "I can't put it on."

Shunian put the coat into his hand again: "If you don't wear it, you can cover it like a quilt."

Xie Ruhe frowned and put his coat on her again.

Shunen's face was also stern, and was at a stalemate with him.

In the end, Xie Ruhe was defeated and put his coat on his back, looking a little funny.

Shunen knelt down, put the cake box on the ground, pulled out the small cakes inside, and then put the cake on top of the cake box. She curled up into a ball, her coat was fluffy, like a small ball of hair.

Xie Ruhe also squatted down beside her.

Shunen sniffed, put a candle in it seriously, and asked, "Do you have a lighter?"

"Yes." Xie Ruhe touched his pocket subconsciously and took out the lighter. "I'll have it."

Hearing this, Shunen's hand movement stopped and looked up at him: "Why do you have a lighter?"

"..."

Shunen asked suspiciously, "Do you smoke?"

Xie Ruhe was about to deny it, and Shunen started to educate him very seriously: "You shouldn't smoke. It's not right to smoke at such a young age. Don't listen to what other people say, thinking smoking is cool, but it's not cool at all."

"I didn't smoke." Xie Ruhe's voice was calm, and he lowered his head to light the candle, "I brought you the candle."

Shunian paused, groaned with guilty conscience, and said vaguely: "I'm too sleepy."

"Ok?"

Shunen added in a low voice, "My head can't turn around, and my mind is not sober."

Xie Ruhe lowered his eyes, his tone seemed to be smiling: "I see."

It was windy outside, Xie Ruhe lit a candle and was immediately extinguished by the cold wind. After lighting this a dozen times, Shunen simply pulled out the other fifteen candles, leaving only one.

She protected it with her hands, and Xie Ruhe lit the candle.

Shunian was afraid that the candle would be extinguished again, and he didn't even have time to sing on his birthday, so he quickly said "I want to be a very good voice actor" and immediately blew out the candle.

A very simple wish.

Xie Ruhe was not satisfied, and was thinking about whether to make up her birthday song.

The next moment, Shunen suddenly remembered something, feeling a little guilty: "I didn't buy you cake for your birthday... Did you eat cake that day?"

Xie Ruhe didn't know how to answer, and didn't want to lie to her.

Shunian understood what he meant at once, and whispered, "I will definitely buy it for you this year."

Afterwards, Shunen broke the topic and said to him: "By the way, my father is back today. But don't live here, he is with my grandparents."

Seeing her so happy, Xie Ruhe's eyebrows also stretched out with a hum.

"He gave me a musical instrument." Shunen poked the dimple in his face, "but I don't know how to use it."

"What musical instrument."

"It looks like a guitar..." Shunen couldn't remember, "I'll show it to you."

Shunen squatted his legs numb, stood up and stamped his feet, looked at the window, there was no movement for a moment. After a while, she hesitated to look at Xie Ruhe: "You should go in. I'm too short. It's very hard to crawl."

Xie Ruhe responded and reached out to take off his shoes.

"You don't need to take off your shoes," Shunian said. "It's on the cabinet next to the bed."

But Xie Ruhe took off his shoes and walked into the room easily along the window. He put the coat on his back on the chair beside him, took the ukulele on the bedside table, and jumped out the window again.

Shunian was cutting the cake and looked up at him: "That's it."

Xie Ruhe fiddled with it twice, but he quickly stopped because he was afraid of making noise.

Shunen curiously asked: "Will you?"

Xie Ruhe nodded: "A little bit."

Shunen's eyes widened: "Are you good at an instrument?"

"Ok."

"Then do you know the piano?"

"know a little."

"Where is the violin?"

"meeting."

"..." Shunen's mouth was half open because of surprise, and he said, "You know how to do it."

Xie Ruhe said casually: "My mother taught it."

Shunian asked: "Then do you want to learn music in the future?"

"I don't know." Xie Ruhe's voice was very soft. "If you can, go and learn."

Shunen didn't ask him much about the situation at home. She licked her lips and changed the subject: "What do you want to do in the future?"

Xie Ruhe said without hesitation: "The composer."

"Just writing songs?"

"Ok."

"Why don't you sing by yourself?" Shunian handed him a cake. "You sing very well."

Xie Ruhe took the cake: "I'm interested in this."

"Then if you become a composer in the future," Shunen said happily, "you can sing all your songs to me, and I can also dub all the clips of my voice to you."

"The songs I write to others are not necessarily me sing."

"But we are best friends." Shunen felt that his words were not right. "After you write it out, shouldn't you sing it to me first?"

"..."

Seeing him like this, Shunen thought he had made a mistake: "Is it right?"

Xie Ruhe was silent for a while: "...Yes."

The sound of fireworks came from nowhere, crackling, celebrating the arrival of the new year.

Shunian bit the cake, his voice was soft and waxy: "It seems it's 12 o'clock, are we keeping the year old?"

"Ok."

"This year, for your birthday, I will definitely buy you cake." Shunian said, "Then next year, on my birthday, let's go and set off the fireworks. I am at my grandfather's house today and I want to play, but my mother won't let it.

"Great."

"By the way, happy new year."

"happy New Year."

When Shunian left the booth, it was just after eleven o'clock in the evening. The sky was dark outside, and there were no pedestrians on the road. She sent a WeChat message to Xie Ruhe and stood there waiting for his reply.

He soon received his reply: [Look at the front right. 】

Shunian looked up, only to find Xie Ruhe's car was parked nearby. She got into the car and habitually said hello to both of them.

After a long time, Fang Wencheng's spirit became negative inexplicably, as if tortured.

Xie Ruhe's look was pretty good.

Shunen asked: "Where are we going?"

Xie Ruhe thought for a while: "Go downstairs at your house."

Shunian was stunned: "Didn't you say you want to take me to a place?"

"Yeah." Xie Ruhe said honestly without hiding it, "I will show you the fireworks."

Shunen reminded him: "Fireworks are not allowed in the urban area."

"The small one." Xie Ruhe didn't know what to call that, and suddenly fell silent, as if thinking.

Shunian understood: "Is the fairy stick?"

Xie Ruhe nodded: "Yeah."

"Okay." Shunen curled her lips, looking very happy, "I haven't played for a long time."

Fang Wencheng drove the car into Shunian's community and took out Xie Ruhe's wheelchair and a box of fireworks from the rear compartment. He quickly installed the wheelchair and placed it near Xie Ruhe's position.

Xie Ruhe got out of the car, stood up and sat on the wheelchair.

No longer like before, only relying on the strength of both hands to move the position.

Seeing this picture, Shunen's mood is a bit strange.

She pushed him away and asked, "How are you doing your rehabilitation recently?"

"Very good." Xie Ruhe said, "according to this progress, there should be two months left."

Shunian did not understand: "What two months."

Xie Ruhe himself was not quite sure, he listened to the rehabilitation doctors, and his tone was a little hesitant: "I have been training, and after two months, I may be able to walk like a normal person."

"..." Shunen's footsteps stopped, "Really?"

"Ok."

Shunen's eyes bend, obviously happy for him: "Then can you walk now?"

Xie Ruhe said: "You can walk for a while with a cane."

Shunen was surprised, shook his fingers and counted: "I don't seem to be looking for you in five days or six days. How can you improve so fast?"

The corners of Xie Ruhe's lips twitched.

The two walked ahead, and Fang Wencheng followed them quietly.

Shunian took them to a clearing in the community, just behind the building where she lived. This vacant lot is at the very edge of the plot, next to a large grassland. Because of the location, few people will come over, mostly children come here to play.

There are only two street lights, hung on two community chairs.

Fang Wencheng put the box of fireworks on the chair, and then Xie Ruhe suddenly remembered something and called him: "Fang Wencheng, you go buy some water nearby."

Shunen asked: "What do you buy water for?"

Xie Ruhe said: "Set off fireworks and prepare some water just in case."

"My house is upstairs." Shunen suggested, "Or I can go straight up and pick up a bucket. The convenience store nearby is a bit far away, so there is no need to go that far."

Fang Wencheng is very conscious: "Then I will go up with you."

Shunen looked at Xie Ruhe hesitantly: "Then are you here alone?"

"Ok."

It's nearly twelve o'clock, and the surroundings are terribly quiet.

The street light in the other place seemed to be malfunctioning, flashing once every few seconds.

For some reason, Shunen couldn't let it go, feeling that there was nothing shameful about his house, so he hesitated to pass the key to Fang Wencheng: "Or go, I live on the second floor, there is only one Household. After you go in, go straight to the first one is the toilet with a bucket inside."

Fang Wen agreed: "Then you play first."

The two were waiting for Fang Wencheng to bring the water over, but were not in a hurry to light the fireworks.

Shunen looked through the box. There were many kinds of fireworks, some of which she had never seen. She got up all at once, and was about to say something to Xie Ruhe.

Suddenly heard a little movement in the grass not far away.

Shunen thought it was a wild cat running past and bumped into the sound of a bush nearby. But then, I could hear the woman's extremely faint whimper, as if begging for mercy.

Her breathing stagnated, and she looked at the sound source.

It's so dark that you can't see anything.

Xie Ruhe obviously heard it too: "Over there..."

Before he could finish speaking, Shunen interrupted him with a very soft voice, "Is there someone over there?"

"..." Xie Ruhe was not so sure, "I don't know."

"I have to go over and take a look." Shunen's breathing became a bit rapid, as if he was overly nervous, and he whispered to himself, "I'll take a look."

Just after hearing the tone of that voice, Xie Ruhe actually felt that nothing big happened over there. But Shunen's reaction was obviously overreacted. He grabbed her wrist anxiously and fixedly looked at her: "I will go with you."

There was only one sound, and there was no more sound. The sound just heard seemed to be an illusion between the two of them. Shunen lowered his eyes and said softly, "It seems that I heard it wrong..."

Xie Ruhe felt something was wrong with her: "What's wrong with you?"

Shunen's face turned pale, not just the wrist he was holding, but his whole body seemed to be shaking. Her eyes were blank, and she smiled unnaturally: "It's nothing."

At the same time, a woman walked out of the darkness with a mobile phone in her hand and pressed it to her ear. She seemed to be answering the phone, with tears in her eyes: "Please, I don't want to break up... …"

Seeing someone here, the woman quickly wiped her tears and walked in the other direction.

Shunen looked at the woman's back and suddenly asked, "Did I just say--"

Her reaction made Xie Ruhe feel a little at a loss: "What?"

"Did I say that I heard it wrong." Shunen licked her lips and her eyes started to turn red. "But I obviously heard the sound, I was too scared, I didn't dare to go..."

She talked over and over again, more like talking to herself than to him.

"Shunen." Xie Ruhe frowned, "What's wrong with you."

"..." Shunian returned to her senses, her voice slightly hoarse, "I want to go home."

Xie Ruhe didn’t know why her reaction was so great. He grabbed her wrist again and moved cautiously, as if to comfort: "I told you before that the premise that you want to help others is that you must first ensure your own safety. ."

"..."

"It's normal for you to be afraid."

Shunen didn't listen, and reluctantly said, "It's too late today. I will set off fireworks with you another day."

Fang Wencheng came back at exactly this time, and Shunian walked over and took the key with him.

With a bucket of water in his hand, Fang Wencheng walked towards Xie Ruhe confusedly: "Master, you don't set off fireworks?"

Xie Ruhe stared in Shunen's direction and said softly: "You send her back, and you will come back when you see her come in."

Shunen's mood was not right. Fang Wencheng couldn't bother her, so he could only put the bucket at her door, and then drove the car to pick up Ruhe.

Fang Wencheng didn't know what happened and didn't ask much.

The atmosphere suddenly became bleak and low.

Xie Ruhe sat quietly in the back seat, staring out the window, his whole body sunk in the dark, light and shadow intertwined. He also seemed to be in a bad mood, and the appearance that had just become clear disappeared in an instant.

After a long time, Xie Ruhe suddenly said, "I don't think it's right."

"……what?"

"Not quite right."

"what?"

Xie Ruhe didn't say anything again, he lowered his eyes and lit his phone.

Fang Wencheng looked at him in the rearview mirror, wondering whether he should say it or not. After a few seconds of hesitation, he still broke his mouth: "Master, I just went to Shunian's home and saw something."

"..."

"Don't be angry. It's the bookcase. It is placed next to the corridor. I saw it at a glance, not deliberately." Fang Wencheng anxiously said, "I don't know if I think too much. Voice actors, bookcases should all be books about voice acting..."

Xie Ruhe raised his eyes: "Otherwise what is it."

Fang Wencheng felt puzzled: "Psychologically, most of the bookcases are all about psychology."