Every Day I Wake Up and See Myself Selling Stupid

Fanwai II

I have always been a very rational person, always calculating what is the best choice.

It was. It still is.

It's just that I didn't regret it back then, but now I regret it.

I seldom think about what life I have been living without Zhou Papi, but I did it directly.

I opened a small coffee shop and recruited two Chinese foreign students who came here to work part-time. I only need to feed the treasure of the town store, Garfield, and sunbathe and read magazines every day.

I no longer pay attention to domestic affairs, there is no reason, simply because of laziness.

I think I am very satisfied with my current life, quiet and comfortable. I will never have insomnia every night, no longer have to worry about the various contradictions between two people, and I don’t need to find reasons to comfort the person who is not growing up. Lover.

I will always live this way peacefully, and I thought I would live like this.

Until he fainted in the store and was taken to the hospital.

The result of the examination was insufficient blood supply.

At that time, in a daze, I suddenly reacted, as if I hadn't eaten for two days.

I haven't thought of these things for a long time.

So long I thought I had forgotten.

Maybe it's because of the pain, maybe it's because of being in the hospital again, that kind of depression, loneliness...

Some memories flooded me, and I was caught off guard.

That year, I was only fourteen years old, and my daily life suddenly changed from looking at someone wearing a white shirt back in my heart with an unspeakable pink little secret. Suddenly facing my parents arrested for drug trafficking, I was alone. Orphan girl who collects debts from relatives.

In fact, I never thought in my heart how nice she would be to me. Even, I didn't care that she ignored me. After all, besides the hidden thoughts in my heart, we were just nodding acquaintances.

I have never been so short of money at that time. In order to pay off the debt, I sold the house and sold everything in the house, except for me...

To be honest, at that time, I was so desperate that I wanted to sell myself.

The only reason for my persistence in my heart is that she sitting in the front seat of me, no one talks to me, everyone avoids me like a snake, but to me, there is nothing.

Until, she suddenly changed school, the head teacher explained that it was because of class style.

Because...the one sitting behind...me.

At that time, I realized that people can really be driven to desperation.

Yes, we don’t have much relationship, do we?

I thought, what am I insisting on?

Can't think of it, I did the dumbest thing in my life.

Then he was sent to the hospital.

When I woke up, someone paid for my medical bills and sent away those relatives who came to collect debts.

The doctor said it was done by the driver who hit me at the time.

This is the worst thing I have done in my life.

However, it changed my destiny.

When a nice-looking middle-aged woman walked in, I was holding my belly and looking out the window in a daze.

I don't know this person, although I feel familiar.

"Introduce myself, my name is Gu Ning's mother."

I froze for a moment, does she have a mother? ? ? We have never heard of it from marriage to cohabitation.

"Have you heard of me?" The woman smiled a little...sadly...

I can't tell the feeling, I always feel that she will break down and cry in the next moment...

However, she has an unspeakable temperament on her body, which makes people a little uncomfortable.

"I and Gu Ning are already divorced." I don't want to get involved again, I think, maybe it was the obsession when the love was first opened, even if she abandoned me at that time, it is not right, it is not abandoned, what is the relationship between us Isn't it?

"Well, I know, so she went back to the nursing home again."

"Sanatorium???" I don't understand what she means at all? What is going back again?

"Spiritual sanatorium." Gu Ning's mother sat over, her face tired, "It's the second time."

When she said this, she frowned, "She was sent in by her father last time. She once stole more than two million yuan from the family."

"I think Miss Ling might still remember what the two million dollars were used for?" Gu Ning's mother smiled more and more cruelly. "She didn't have a cent on her back then, so she knelt down in the hospital and begged. The hospital rescued you, and then stole more than two million yuan from home to give you a bright future. It is almost forced to death, not let us trouble you, I would rather admit that I am sick than receive various treatments..."

"Do you know who she has been calling when she was receiving the so-called physical electric shock treatment for homosexuality alone? Would you like to guess how many times did she commit suicide because of depression?"

And I... despise her under such circumstances, despise her insecurities, despise her selfishness...

In an instant, his mind went blank, as if he had been relieved of all his strength, and only his hands could not help shaking.

"After she returned to China, she never contacted me again. I know she hates me, but I also hate you. Without you, she would have a family, a husband, and children. She would not have so much psychology. Shadow. I also hate myself. There was no way to divorce her father and take her away... instead of having a deep obsession with money like now, right..."

"Where is she..." At this moment, I just want to see her...just want to tell her that I love you.

Loved for many years.