Giving You Love of a Lifetime

"When you call me Xi Zhan, you will make me feel alienated."

　　 I felt sore when I heard these words.

　　 When has Xi Zhan been so vulnerable? !

　　 is fragile enough to clearly express his sadness.

　　 In an instant, the guilt in my heart became deeper and deeper!

　　 I stretched out my hand to hold his palm quietly, and said with red eyes apologetic: "I'm sorry, Nuan'er is all for me..."

　　 She did this after listening to me!

　　 Although she killed the person, it is no different from me personally. It's just that Xi Zhan is a little bit less guilty!

　　 He said again: "You are not wrong."

　　 Xi Zhan always said that I was right.

　　 But I am always ashamed of him in this matter!

　　 I really hope he can blame me.

　　 At least let off your emotions.

　　 But he didn't!

　　I said at a loss: "Second brother, I will accompany you."

　　 Tonight's vigil, I will accompany him.

　　 My physical condition is not very good, and I feel a little weak in the middle of the night, and finally fall asleep relying on Xi Zhan's shoulder.

　　 I had another dream.

　　Only my mother in my dream.

　　 She looked at me with pitying eyes and was silent.

　　 I yelled softly, "Mother."

　　 "Sheng'er, you are a poor person."

　　 I was surprised and asked: "Why does my mother say that?"

　　 I have a man who loves, I have a pair of children, I have parents, I have girlfriends and friends, and I have power and money. Why am I a poor person?

　　 "Sheng'er, my mother is a poor man."

　　 Why does mother say that I am a poor person? !

　　 I asked her anxiously, "What do you mean by mother?"

　　 My mother did not answer me, her figure gradually disappeared in my dreams, I opened my eyes suddenly and lay on the ground and panted, seeing me like this, Xi Zhan took me into his arms, "What?"

　　 "Second brother, I had a nightmare."

　　 I called his second brother!

　　 I call this mother's dream a nightmare!

　　 I always dream of my mother recently!

　　 Last time she said she was going to tell me a secret.

　　 This time she said I was a poor person!

　　 Why do I have such a dream?

Does 　　 indicate something?

　　 I can't help but feel funny thinking about this!

　　 is just a dream!

　　 There is nothing to fuss about!

　　 The man asked gently: "What did you dream of?"

　　 I answered truthfully: "My mother."

　　 The man's voice was low, "How could you dream of this?"

　　 I don't know, maybe I think about it every day.

　　 It is more likely that too much has happened recently!

　　 My life has never been truly peaceful!

　　 I shook my head and said, "Not very clear."

　　 Xi Zhan called Assistant Yin at the door. The latter hurried in and called Mr. Xi. Xi Zhan told him, "Keep here for me."

　　 "Yes, Mr. Xi."

　　 Maybe it was because of kneeling for too long and his legs were numb, Xi Zhan stood up and shook, then he bent over and took me back into the courtyard.

　　 Xi Zhan put me on the bed and asked, "Are you hungry?"

　　 I woke up suddenly and had not eaten dinner.

　　 I drank too much tea at noon and didn't eat it!

　　 I nodded and said, "I'm hungry."

Xi Zhan made a phone call, and then stood at the door indifferently looking at the white lantern above his head. I knew he was extremely uncomfortable in his heart, but even such a man would hide all his suffering in his heart even if he was uncomfortable. Don't talk to anyone.

　　Even if it was me, I couldn't make him open his heart.

　　Especially his mother is because of me...

　　 I don't know how to comfort him.

　　 It was Jing Yi's meal. Xi Zhan didn't eat much. I had a small appetite and didn't eat much. After the meal, Xi Zhan returned to the hall. He didn't say a word to me during the meal.

　　 I was lying in bed and couldn't sleep. I went to see Xi Zhan almost early in the morning. His eyes were already blood-red at that time. I advised him to rest. He shook his head and said to me, "I'll talk about it later."

　　 Xi Zhan has been busy all day long in the morning, followed by Xi Nuo, but I don’t know what I should do. In comparison with Xi Nuo, I seem to be too idle.

　　 I went back to the courtyard and sat on the threshold eclipsedly. Jing Yi also sat on the threshold with me, and the two of them seemed very idle.

　　 I asked him sadly, "Am I very useless."

　　 I can't help Xi Zhan at this time.

　　 can't comfort him even more.

Jing Yi replied: "At this time, the Patriarch had better not do anything. After all, the one lying in the coffin is because... Patriarch is here waiting for Mr. Xi, and when he gets tired, he returns to the room and someone is waiting for him! Patriarch, Men actually don’t want much, just a little bit of warmth, and the Patriarch does not need to worry too much."

　　 The last sentence in his mouth was a little melancholy.

　　 I was surprised and asked: "Why are you so sentimental now?"

　　 Jing Yi: "……"

　　 Jing Yi, who provokes me, doesn't care about me anymore. She got up and smoked at the other end of the corridor. I simply held my phone and swiped Weibo.

　　 The iD named Yuan Daren sent me a message.

　　 He said: "I found a very interesting author."

　　 I replied suspiciously and asked: "Who?"

　　 "Brother Tong, I followed his official account."

　　 I was surprised and asked: "What did you write?"

　　 "Online romance novels, they write about you and your second brother, my god! They write so well, I suspect that he is a person next to you, and his official account also writes about you and your second brother!"

I:"……"

　　 Although I knew that I shouldn’t be Li Yuanyou, I couldn’t help but ask, "What is the official account?"

　　 "Search for xxxx in WeChat."

　　 I quit Weibo and searched for the WeChat official account. There is indeed the official account of Tong Ge's deity. It is indeed a special account for me and Xi Zhan, but the writing is only a few years later, which is too whimsical!

　　 But it is indeed a very interesting author.

　　 Have a chance to add his WeChat.

　　 I sent Yuanyou a message, "How much does he have on WeChat?"

　　 Yuanyou returned to me, "Wait a few days for my investigation."

　　 Yuanyou did not return to me. I clicked on his Weibo and found that he hadn't updated it recently, so I simply quit Weibo and put down his phone.

　　 I was silent for a while and shouted, "Jing Yi."

　　 Jing Yi squeezed out the cigarette **** and came back, "What's the matter with Patriarch?"

　　 "I want to go or I'm sorry Xi Zhan."

　　 "Patriarch, Mr. Xi acquiesced in this matter."

　　 Indeed, Xi Zhan acquiesced.

　　 In the evening, Xi Zhan returned to the room, and I took the initiative to take off the suit outside for him. He suddenly hugged me and pressed me in his arms.

　　 Xi Zhan's mood fluctuated slightly and said: "I don't have my mother, it doesn't matter, I can't find my father, but Shenger, I don't want you to be so indifferent to me! I really miss you today."

　　 I really miss you today...

　　 The last sentence is so lingering.

　　 Of course, how sad it is.

　　 But I did not treat him indifferently!

　　 I have nothing to do today plus the helplessness to make him misunderstood, thinking that I am still thinking about my mother...

　　 I remembered his sentence last night, "When you call me Xi Zhan, you will feel alienated."

　　 In fact, Xi Zhan is very scared.

　　 I am afraid of losing anything.

like me.

　　 somehow...

　　 I suddenly remembered that dream of my mother.