Giving You Love of a Lifetime

What is the one thing I do not regret most?

What answer does Xi Zhan want?

I thought about it for a long time and couldn't understand it. When I was silent for a long while, Xi Zhan said again: "I don't have to be too entangled in asking questions."

"There is only one answer in my heart."

That is the answer in my heart. I don’t know if Xi Zhan wants to hear this answer. I explained: "The thing I don’t regret most is that I gave birth to Yoona and Yun’er with my own life, although it’s not complete. It's for you, and I want to be a mother, but I think it would be a pity if you can't let you be that father in this life, and I don't want you to regret it in this life."

Xi Zhan suddenly stopped the car.

I asked him, "How did you stop?"

"Yoona would like to hear what I regret most?"

What he asked me was the thing I regret the least.

He asked me what he regretted most.

I subconsciously asked: "Is it this?"

"Sorry for not being with you. That period of time should be your hardest time, but I was far away in Espoo."

I should say sorry about this.

Because it was not Xi Zhan who was wrong.

It was I who made him ruined and forced to go to Europe.

And it has been hunted down by all major forces.

He left me out of necessity.

So it was never him who was wrong.

But me.

Thinking carefully about the years I have known Xi Zhan, this transparent man has never really done anything to miss. He is an extremely sensible man. He knows the standard of right and wrong. If it is wrong, he would never do that, and He counted everything in the future, even what I would do, and even what Zhao Jin and the others were going to do, he knew exactly what they were going to do, and it was because he was too clear that he would not do anything wrong.

"It's always me who is wrong."

Xi Zhan is smart. He understands what I mean. He started the car again, and said with a gentle voice: "As long as my principles and bottom line are not touched, no matter what you do is not wrong."

Xi Zhan's principles and bottom line...

I just don't betray him.

Respect him.

love him.

That's it.

His request of me is simple.

"You indulge me too much like this."

Xi Zhan laughed and didn't say a word. I lowered my head and played with my mobile phone, chatting with him from time to time, and soon I reached the street.

The weather outside was cold, so I shivered when I got out of the car. Fortunately, Xi Zhan stopped to see me every day, otherwise I had to talk about me again.

I stood in front of the car and waited. Xi Zhan quickly stopped the car, and when he got out of the car, I took his arm and went into the crowd.

Shopping is indispensable for shopping, but I am afraid that Xi Zhan only bought some small snacks with the burden. I was hungry before noon, so I took Xi Zhan and found a western restaurant.

As soon as I sat down, I saw a passer-by outside buying marshmallows. I asked Xi Zhan to wait for him to leave the restaurant.

I went out and asked in English: "How much is one?"

He replied: "8 dollars."

Marshmallows in different places are really expensive.

Although I don’t need to buy many things at home, and I haven’t often shopped on the street, I still know the domestic market price. Although I complained about expensive things in my heart, I actually didn’t argue with him. After all, the thing about buying things is One is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, if I think it's expensive, I just want to buy it.

I took the money from my wallet to him.

He asked me, "What taste?"

"Pink this one."

He handed me a big pink and said: "The little girl is beautiful, I will give you a big one, it will be sweet when you eat it."

I am grateful: "Thank you."

I took the cotton candy back to the restaurant and saw a person sitting across from Xi Zhan unexpectedly, and I seemed to have seen that woman.

It seems to have been seen.

But I can't remember for a while.

I did not go directly, but sat in the seat behind Xi Zhan. I heard the sad voice of the woman saying to Xi Zhan, "Although you are married, for so many years..."

She paused and asked: "How are you doing so many years?"

Xi Zhan responded indifferently, "Yes."

"I still remember when you were going to school you liked to sleep on your stomach. Every day, it seemed like you didn't get enough sleep, and it seemed like you were tired. What were you doing back then?"

I remember her.

The woman I met in Xi Zhan's alma mater.

I forgot her name.

Xi Zhan said that she had a crush on herself.

It's just that Xi Zhan has always pretended not to know.

Xi Zhan said perfunctorily: "I forgot."

Hearing that the woman was startled, her expression was a little sad, and she continued to say to Xi Zhan: "I have been thinking about a question for so many years. If I was brave back then... You know what I mean, I am thinking about my share. Whether my mood will be responded to by that young man, I just hoped that I was too cowardly, and I liked it but was afraid to approach."

This woman looks ordinary but has a good temperament.

She was a female classmate of Xi Zhan when she was young.

Xi Zhan did not speak after hearing this, but the woman's expression began to fall silent, "Is there no hope at all."

"Well, no."

Xi Zhan's answer was too cold and unfeeling. The woman's expression changed suddenly and her complexion was extremely embarrassed. It seemed that her secret love she had persisted for many years and her weak hope collapsed in an instant.

"Sorry, I bothered you again."

Xi Zhan was silent, and replied in a cool voice: "It is the young Xi Zhan who should give you this answer, and you didn't express your feelings clearly back then. You shouldn't ask me again if there is no answer. The question, I am Xi Zhan when I am an adult. I have long lost my youthful mind. Besides, now I have a wife and children, how can I give you the answer?"

Xi Zhan's answer was perfect.

It means she wanted the answer more than ten years ago.

Instead of looking for the current Xi Zhan.

Such an answer actually gave her leeway.

The pure heart that preserved her secret love.

"I see, sorry for bothering you now."

The woman stood up, stopped after she passed me, she looked at me, and finally only said, "Your wife is probably the happiest woman in the world, and she is also... very beautiful."

Xi Zhan's shallow voice replied to her: "Well, it's beautiful and exciting. When I first met, I thought she was amazing."

Xi Zhan has never praised me like this before in my presence.

"Xi Zhan, congratulations for getting your wish."

After speaking, she dropped her head and left.

After she left, I patted Xi Zhan on the shoulder. He turned his head and looked at me, "When were you here?"

"Just now, I heard your chat."

Xi Zhan explained: "She is a simple person and wants simple people and things. I just said that but I don't want her to think that her persistence for so many years is a joke."

"You don't have to explain, I know everything."

Xi Zhan is kind.

It's just that his kindness is under his coldness.

Few people can detect it.

Xi Zhan curled his lips and seemed very happy.

I squinted and asked him, "I surprised you when I first met?"